 Good morning guys. Welcome back to another YouTube video. So I got in last night from Florida. Tommy headed to Houston for a tournament. I am sadly not going to be going to that tournament this year. Really needed to get home. I have a lot to do here. Also, Tommy's clay hort season is starting soon in Europe, so I'm going to be going up with him to that. So I'm in my closet room right now. I had three suitcases to unpack this morning. The amount of packages I have is insane. I will show you guys. I'm going to do a whole PR unboxing for you guys on here. But so if I end up going to all those three weeks in Europe, I really wanted to be at home and getting as much stuff done as possible since I have brand relaunch. I have a photo shoot this week. A denim sample just came in the mail. Just a lot going on. I'm also going to run to our warehouse to make sure everything is good. So I thought I would vlog today for you guys. Also going to make time to head to the barn to see Louie. So I had my mom come over to help me today. Normally, Olivia would help me with this type of stuff. And it's Sunday today, so she's not working today. But my mom is super sweet and offered to come over and help. So my mom is helping me unpack. Hi guys. I actually think that my truck is the sexiest car. Also guys, the truck is an actual key. Ignition, not press to start. And I fucking love it. So just going to run and grab a sandwich before I go to the barn. We're going to take two separate cars. My mom wants to come to the barn with me to see Louie and say hi. But I'm probably going to go on a longer trail rides. I had an interview maybe a week ago now with this really sweet nice girl. Their article is coming out soon, I think. But a lot of the people I've spoke to recently really has just felt like a really nice conversation. In the conversation with her, I was talking about how left New York City and had kind of moved back to where I'm from and kind of living the lifestyle that I grew up living. I grew up on a lot of land in Connecticut and then went to school in the mountains in Vermont. Both that I made leaving New York actually just felt like going back to who I really am. And more of my roots in how I was raised spending time outside and living a little bit of a slower paced life. I originally moved to New York seeking that and then I actually ended up realizing in my adult life that I wanted the opposite. I literally stay missing turns when I'm vlogging. I've noticed that sometimes creators get put in a box. Obviously I got much more positive feedback and my content has done so well since leaving and I got asked first were you worried about making that adjustment and worried about if you would still be able to be a content creator. I knew that in me leaving the content that I was creating was going to be more authentic and I was going to be a happier person which would translate. And I think that I have luckily grown such an engaged, awesome group of people who follow me and were going to root for me wherever I ended up going. I'm a pretty intuitive person and I feel like some of you guys are too. Like you can just feel when a content creator is especially with YouTube is really happy and is at peace. People who have criticized any of my content or anything like that feel like a lot of times there's no room for creators to grow up and to evolve and to find themselves and to change their lifestyle and to change the pace. Another cool thing that recently is have been able to personally really look more at the positive side of things and focus on the amount of support I have and the amount of amazing people who follow me and the amazing people that I've met. I feel like a few years ago the negative would feel so much louder and I just don't feel that way anymore. And again even if you're not influencer I think that we all go through challenges. Like every chapter of our lives have challenges and even if you're not an influencer in general learning how to whatever it takes for you to get there to learn how to focus on the positive good things in your life for me personally and this is very personal praying and being grateful and counting my blessings has been a major part of me focusing on more of the positive in my life literally before I go to bed being thankful for everything and everyone in my life and everyone in my life being healthy and the success that I've had in my career and my amazing friends and my amazing boyfriend and also praying for and wishing the best for the people that are not nice to me and are negative honestly that has made such a big difference in my life. I might sound really hard for some of you to do at one point that probably would have sounded really hard for me to do but try it and even if you don't believe in God I think that you can do this and you can sit down before bed every night and make a list of the things that you're grateful for and that you're thankful for and if you are constantly focusing on positive things in your life that's going to be at the forefront of your mind. Your anxiety and your doubts live in your body. I share this book of my story the body keeps score. It's quite a hard read. It has a lot of science in the book and it is really dense not only a hard read because of the context but emotionally it is a really hard book but it's an amazing book and it's one that has definitely affected and impacted my life. I would definitely recommend trying to get through it if you can. My friend who I grew up with is a therapist and recommends it to all of her clients. Our body is listening to us. You can't hate yourself into loving yourself and I do believe the body keeps score being positive to yourself to your body to your life counting your blessing but yeah it's my little talk of the day with you guys. I also get a bunch of pms asking about my podcast and if I would ever bring that back as a content creator I kind of wanted to try everything. I would be doing myself a disservice by not trying all the platform trying my best at the platforms and then seeing what I like best and seeing what makes me the happiest. I did really like doing the podcasts but it didn't feel like at this moment the right fit for me. I feel like YouTube suits my lifestyle right now more. I made a video about why I kind of came back to posting consistently on YouTube but part of the reason being that I'm just traveling so much and I have a boyfriend who is so supportive of me vlogging and sharing bits of our life and I kind of wanted to create a digital journal again. I wasn't really in a safe enough space before to be on YouTube. I kind of quit YouTube because I'm not feeling supported and not feeling safe and not feeling very good and I think that it's quite hard to get on YouTube and to be in front of the camera so often when you're just not feeling fully like yourself and not feeling fully good so I took some time and I feel like I came back very ready to create content and be back on YouTube and this right now YouTube feels like the platform that I should be and will be focusing on the most and the podcast has been put on the back burner but I'm not completely like bagging it. I just think right now YouTube is what I should be focusing on and honestly guys I spend like upwards of three to four hours editing each video not to mention just filming all the time. I am a full-time content creator on Instagram and TikTok and I have a brand so it's just not really in the cards for me right now. Thank you to those who understand that I'm gonna take a break on the podcast and I hope that I can add segments to my vlogs of us talking and giving you guys advice and doing enough Q&As each month where you guys feel like satisfied in that way. Okay I just got to the cute little market near my barn. I'm gonna go get some food with my mom before I ride. It is vegan cheese. It's so good. Wow. Right? Why not a dick feels so good. Of course. So that's 10 of the donators. So cute. Thank you. Of course. Bye guys. Perfect. Amazing. Thank you guys. The cutest little girls. Selling their Girl Scout cookies outside of the coffee shop. Love a Girl Hustle. They were so cute. I used to be a Girl Scout for a second. Mom I don't want any. More cookies. They have like totally vegan cookies. I'm gonna try some more one. Are they good? I don't know. I've never had one. I think I didn't love that cookie but my mom just looked at me and goes, that ain't it. Stick with the thin mints. I have bought them so far this season like probably 40 boxes of Girl Scout cookies. Mom those were so bad. No I don't want more because I love you. Ah. My mom pulled in before me and bought some cookies and I just donated some money to them but I didn't take any cookies. You can donate without taking cookies. We are back in check. He looks very good. Okay just got back from the barn. My mom bought me this to help take off my boots because my boots are really hard. My cowboy boots really hard to take off. Look at that guys. Nance just she always knows but it's really hard to take these off when you're alone. We'll link this on my Amazon storefront although no one's probably gonna need that but if you ride or wear a lot of boots it's a need. Also guys the amount of boots that I have at my house is obscene. Is clean. Going to run to the market in the store now before it gets dark. All right guys I'm gonna quickly make a grocery shopping list. Today is Sunday so normally I would have more meetings. I try to have some work-life separation. It is quite hard with my job. Obviously like I'm vlogging all day today and I shot some content today. And also the people that we meet with and the brands that we meet with are manufacturers for Dairy Boy. And everyone that we have meetings with and work with doesn't work on the weekend so I never have meetings really on the weekends. That's pretty nice. But yeah trying to make more time for myself and give myself a weekend so I don't feel fried. I know it might seem silly to some of you who think that influencers don't really work but believe me it's work. It's definitely a unique job and I'm very grateful for my job and there are so many amazing perks. Definitely have to work hard. Especially to the level at which I want to be creating content at and I want to continue to secure the amount of brand partners that I am. Also randomly before I head out to the market we are almost done with Dairy Boy's website and I just like literally am so excited to show you guys what we've come up with. It is so exciting. Okay before I get sucked into my computer I'm gonna run to the market. Trying to decide if I should make this vlog like a few days or I should just do it over my day today. Also if you guys come over to my house you would just see a bunch of tripods everywhere just like in the middle of the room. Also actually before I head out I want to show you guys the garden that is a part of my house. So I have this whole garden and it's all mine and I have to start planning stuff soon. So something that I really want to get good at and really get into. Okay also I don't know why but this car my other car always smells so good like for no reason. There's no air freshener in here. Anyways I really want to get really good at gardening. My ideal life is to live on land that has one a greenhouse which I do have a greenhouse that's a whole other story and then to have garden where I could basically have a salad and veggies every night with fresh produce. Doesn't that sound really great? I just finished up at the market. Something that I've been trying to do recently is not buy flowers from grocery stores. I do this all the time and it's really hard not to do when you just want to be done with your errands but it's really good to support local florists. Fortunately all the flower shops are closed because it's 6.30 on a Sunday so I'm just gonna go tomorrow. I migrated from my office to my bedroom and I am designing right now the PR boxes that I'm going to send out to influencers for my candle launch and for my whole rebrand. I am so excited. I also just designed some matches with the illustrations that my designer made. I think I'm going to include matches like these custom matches in the first 500 orders. I'll insert them here. They're so so cute. I just like can't wait to get them also just for myself. I think I'm gonna vlog tomorrow too because it's Monday. It's gonna be a full work day. Olivia's coming over in the morning. We have a bunch to do and I have more organizing to do so I think this vlog will be like two days of organizing and like days in my life. I'm gonna keep doing my computer stuff because I literally love I love this stuff. It makes me like so excited and happy but yeah. Good morning. So I'm having one of those days where my makeup turns out creepy looking but I had a really exciting meeting this morning and it has to do with my candles and my brand so you guys will find out about that soon. Oh also I got asked yesterday on my Instagram someone commented on a really old photo of me and was like do you dye your eyebrows darker because your eyebrows look so light. Listen guys I used to fuck my eyebrows up so bad. I used to bleach them like was I okay? I used to fucking bleach my eyebrows so they were blonder and they literally looked fucking orange. I also like completely changed the shape of my face like I feel like I looked like an alien when I did that I literally had orange eyebrows. So some of my good friends will like page this is not cute and I did not listen and now I look back and I'm like so this is my natural color of eyebrow but I got going right now and it is so much better. Don't know why I ever felt the need to change the natural color of my eyebrows but also a little trick when I feel like my makeup has turned out weird you just put a fuck ton of blush I feel like it helps. Wait guys I kind of turned this around. Damn I really did not see that coming. Ready to leave the house. I'm gonna step outside this makeup's gonna look fucking crazy. Okay I think I'm going to stay in my PJs and just put like a big jacket over my outfit I always do that. Okay so I've never really talked to you guys about how I organize my stuff in the different rooms of my house. So there are three bedrooms upstairs at my house and one of them is a guest room and then I turned one bedroom into a full closet room which you guys have seen and then in my bedroom I have four or like two closets so on this side this is all like my dresses more spring stuff I actually need to go through this closet I have like way too much stuff and then on this side is all of my jackets and not my ski jackets I have like an entire closet full of ski stuff and like ski outfits so today I'm wearing this vintage sweatshirt with like little plaid shorts so I was deciding between this vest which was a gift to me and this trench coat. The vest is like very spring strand but this vest is so cute. Okay I actually think this is really cute and I'm gonna wear a pink Birkenstock and a pair of sunglasses I don't think this looks any more presentable to be honest I think the trench coat would have looked more presentable but this is definitely more of a me outfit I think I'm gonna zip it up okay there's sunglasses in here okay well that works out nicely success I actually was not going to go to the barn today just because we have such a busy day today and I rode for so long yesterday but since we're so close we're gonna go and say hi to Louis maybe brush him a little bit okay guys I am now going to head to my dad's paddle tennis tournament I don't know if you guys know what paddle tennis is you'll see but I'm gonna go surprise him he doesn't know I'm coming so he's actually pretty good apparently so dad I want an interview after the win I don't know how I'm gonna possibly go through all of this first I actually ordered these for myself I went on a trip with L'Oreal to Paris and it was for this product and it is so good that one for my boyfriend and I got one for me it is a metal detox the whole line is really good by L'Oreal so I actually ordered that myself see chili crisps slide by Jing I always appreciate cooking PR next this big package by Mac that is so pretty wow hyperreal high performance skincare whoa okay so pretty their new skincare ah that is a serum package from Roval vogue eyewear pink on the inside cute I already know who this is from I somehow got on Ellen's PR list it's too good they've been sending me packages for so long gardening stuff some honey really really cute this says another revolve package I didn't order anything from so it's probably just gifting revolve Maggie McDonald one of my really good friends Maggie McDonald came out with a collection with a revolve so happy for her really really cool salsa salsa rose tequila here's the tequila really pretty I'm gonna put it on my bar you'd be really proud of me guys the other night I went out to Remy's event Remy's Don Julio event in Miami and all my friends were there and it was really fun but I did not get really fucked up I had like a three drink limit drink like mainly beer honestly wasn't even hung over I just woke up with anxiety which is normal when I drink but better than before mezcal okay another Amazon package normally the Amazon packages are me things I buy for myself but I'm gonna show it all oh these I saw on tiktok um their lip stains they're like lip jelly stains you love that for me thank you a lot of these packages are really sad looking they were stuck out in the rain oh Steve Madden I actually am shooting a campaign with Steve Madden soon so this is probably for the ad that I pursue with Steve Madden working with Steve Madden is such a dream because one I've been buying shoes from Steve Madden for forever they're so affordable and cute but they really let me pick the shoes I want to shoot in and what I'm feeling you'll see these guys on instagram soon okay this is a very big box that says fragile Blake Lively came out with a uh like a cocktail mixing drink thing called a Betty Buds have you heard of that yeah no it started with like tonic and so cute so thoughtful of them to send me something whoa like I'm trying this drink glass and these companies are coming full force with the booze I wish to put this on though any female starting a brand I'm excited about it okay next up is set active it's a really cute box I was like this looks like a really old vintage cute they sent me a new set new workout set and a pair of sunglasses okay this is another me purchase if you guys follow me on instagram you saw that I posted the adidas gazelles in the bubblegum pink um and I ordered another pair it couldn't help myself and I saw they were like selling out online so not a big red person I just thought these were really cute you guys probably know who Bridget is influencer and friend of mine who owns the bar and it's a brand a clothing brand and they just sent me oh my god that's so sweet of them I wear these sweatshirts all the time so I can tell what this is because of the tape on it Dermalogica I use their daily micro exfoliant a lot micellar prebiotic pre cleanse okay this is an amazon purchase never remember what I order on amazon oh one of those face ice things I knew I did buy this um you guys know because if you've seen any of my recent makeup tutorials I use the graph topian hg glamour professional makeup palette I love these palettes they're super full coverage but really creamy and pretty I ordered the palette in the cool tone because I had the warm one this was a really cute box that I just destroyed okay they sent moisturizer and then this vitamin c shishito and a box whoa wait that's so cute oh my god how freaking cute are these wow you got an whole foods gift card the heck every recipe needs fresh ingredients okay well this wins for today my god they sent me a juicer and their vitamin c serum and sunscreen and they sent plates and they also sent this recipe book that is so thoughtful there's a whole ass juicer don't tell me it's smag they sent me a smag juicer no shishito I love you boyzla just has the best stuff friend Emma started a brand just launched her brand I think what she did is super cool and different the packaging is really well done she did a really cool tape on the outside and then there's a big box in the box this is so well done by her so thoughtful and cute she sent an apron for Tommy to this cute candle this looks handmade which is so cute not to mention our actual product looks really really good really excited to try these