 Listen carefully and you'll hear a horrible and disturbing revelation about how important people are to him in everyday life. It can be hard for me to read novels about mundane life and mundane concerns. We are mundane and we are boring. When I read a horror story it's almost soothing in a way because... His description is pretty honest but he stops short of telling us that it's the only way that he can feel a rush. I find myself, it's almost like I'm touching the mind of the writer, someone who understands and is able to express it or articulate it in a way that I feel I can't. It's the only pathway to feeling something. So in reality this might be the only thing he has because he can't watch videos of people actually being in which would probably be even more stimulating for him.