Dreams and the cosmic trip

I share dreams and lucid experiences, i also share out of body experiences, I am a NDEr with over 2 million views on many platforms, my story is everywhere. I discuss a diabolical cartoon called ipetgoat2 which portrays the demise of the United States and a third world war. I talk about news events sometimes and oddities that happen on the planet daily. On the flip side I also have an unimaginable amount of self hatred and probably the lowest self esteem of just about anyone, i hate this planet more than words can ever describe and am not happy with how I lived life. 
https://youtu.be/EliJ0la4Kgw?si=jwVQAaQEdWo7fpU4 here's a link to my main story I've done many interviews