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Sylvia Toy St. Louis

  • Malice of Forethought, a performance art movie

    1,216 views 1 year ago
    A 1 and 1/2 minute neo noir.

    Shot on a Vixia and IPhone in San Francisco's Civic Center neighborhood and Hayes Valley. Show less
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  • I ♡ Nanomovies Play all

    These videos, each less than 2 minutes long, are discrete works, including several that were created as part of series. I use shorts to explore character, practice my storytelling chops, and perfect visual experiments; and also to save ideas for a later date. It is good exercise for me as a motion picture artist to make a whole story happen in less than 2 minutes.
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  • Existential Performance Art Video Play all

    Exploring "being human" through improvisational acting means finding my throughline as a character forms and tells its story on camera. It is boggling how often that character is not who I planned for it to be before I turned on the camera. That speaks volumes about "what is humanness."
    • before chill - Duration: 2 minutes, 5 seconds.

      • 1 year ago
      • 59 views
      A video poem about aging/the changing of the seasons. Inspired by the signs that winter is about to happen here in this town that "has no seasons." Just like everywhere I've lived there is a pungen...
    • Denial: The Dream - Duration: 65 seconds.

      • 1 year ago
      • 23 views
      A woman is angry with her brother and dreams that she murders him. The dream is so vivid, she cannot be convinced that she didn't murder him.

      Since this is a dream sequence, my instinct was to add...
    • THE OTHER SIDE, Monologue (out of sequence) - Duration: 5 minutes, 19 seconds.

      • 1 year ago
      • 25 views
      This is the second monologue for this character that has come out, but I imagine there will be one or two that fit between this monologue and Monologue 1.
      This a new project about a woman who meets...
    • Sylvia Toy: THE OTHER SIDE, Monologue 1 - Duration: 10 minutes.

      • 1 year ago
      • 29 views
      A new character. She has been trying to push through for about 3 weeks. She is completely and totally NOT what I expected as I waited for her to materialize.
    • Origins: The First Human (Experiment 3) - Duration: 5 minutes, 6 seconds.

      • 2 years ago
      • 82 views
      "Sketching" for my next project, "Origins." "Origins" is a creation myth about the first entity (The One) in the Universe, who, suddenly finding itself in the void of space (like the Big Bang popp...
    • Origins: The First Human (Experiment 2) - Duration: 5 minutes, 10 seconds.

      • 2 years ago
      • 241 views
      "Sketching" for my next project, "Origins." "Origins" is a creation myth about the first entity (The One) in the Universe, who, suddenly finding itself in the void of space (like the Big Bang popp...
    • Origins: The First Human (Experiment 1) - Duration: 3 minutes, 11 seconds.

      • 2 years ago
      • 610 views
      "Sketching" for my next project, "Origins." "Origins" is a creation myth about the first entity (The One) in the Universe, who, suddenly finding itself in the void of space (like the Big Bang popp...
    • TYFTB (thank you from the bottom), Monologue 7 - Duration: 16 minutes.

      • 2 years ago
      • 12 views
      This is a rough cut. This Monologue is part of a series of videos I'm making to develop a performance art movie about a woman who thinks the Universe is collapsing and who wants to find a black hol...
    • Old people on the subway - Duration: 2 minutes, 11 seconds.

      • 10 months ago
      • 8 views
    • VOICE: Today - Duration: 2 minutes, 1 second.

      • 10 months ago
      • 6 views
      Hypomania (literally, below mania) is a mood state characterized by persistent and pervasive elevated (euphoric) or irritable mood, as well as thoughts and behaviors that are consistent with such a...
    • Going Home (4th cut) - Duration: 3 minutes, 47 seconds.

      • 9 months ago
      • 2 views
      Noir
      (nwär)
      A genre of crime film or fiction characterized by cynicism, fatalism, and moral ambiguity.
      A film or novel in the noir genre.

      A visit in the middle of the night anticipated with much a...
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  • Blogging A Movie: THE BLUE LADY Play all

    The Blue Lady is a story is about what happened the night Master died and the relationship between two slaves in 1830 South Carolina, LaLi, Elizabeth, and The Master's wife, their mistress, Missy.

    This is a revisionist tale about slavery from a female point of view.
    • THE BLUE LADY: New Storyboard (rough cut) - Duration: 33 minutes.

      • 1 year ago
      • 57 views
      [ This movie can be watched by all audiences and there is no nudity. - Sylvia Toy ]

      "The Blue Lady." It is a period piece that happens over the course of a day. The movie will be naturally lit wi...
    • The Blue Lady: New Storyboard, Scene 1 - Duration: 3 minutes, 3 seconds.

      • 1 year ago
      • 55 views
      I am not sure where this goes - probably right before "Dawn, Prologue." Backstory: in the 1820's, it was a capital offense in South Carolina for slaves to know how to read. As a child, LaLi, unbekn...
    • The Blue Lady: New Storyboard, Scene 2 - Duration: 4 minutes, 45 seconds.

      • 1 year ago
      • 31 views
      Rough rough.

      Reworked opening scene happening in the morning of the long day during which this story takes place.

      The Blue Lady is a story is about what happened the night Master died and the rel...
    • THE BLUE LADY: New Storyboard, Scene 3 - Duration: 6 minutes, 14 seconds.

      • 1 year ago
      • 15 views
      "The Blue Lady," a revisionist story (in-progress) about African American Slavery, told from a female point of view, about what happened the night Master died and the complicity between two slaves ...
    • The Blue Lady: New Storyboard, Scene 4 - Duration: 3 minutes, 16 seconds.

      • 1 year ago
      • 10 views
      "The Blue Lady," a revisionist story (in-progress) about African American Slavery, told from a female point of view, about what happened the night Master died and the complicity between two slaves ...
    • The Blue Lady: New Storyboard, Scene 5 - Duration: 11 minutes.

      • 1 year ago
      • 16 views
      Family secrets often cause more harm than telling the truth does. We keep those secrets not only to maintain the appearance of conventionality, but also, sometimes, ironically to keep the peace in ...
    • THE BLUE LADY: New Storyboard, Scene 6 - Duration: 2 minutes, 5 seconds.

      • 1 year ago
      • 7 views
      Family secrets often cause more harm than telling the truth does. We keep those secrets not only to maintain the appearance of conventionality, but also, sometimes, ironically to keep the peace in ...
    • Blue Lady STORYBOARD: Elizabeth's Farewell to Massa (rehearsal) - Duration: 5 minutes, 55 seconds.

      • 1 year ago
      • 12 views
      [ This movie can be watched by all audiences and there is no nudity. - Sylvia Toy ]

      "The Blue Lady." It is a period piece that happens over the course of a day. The movie will be naturally lit wit...
    • Sylvia Toy THE BLUE LADY rehearsing Missy 1 Ⓒ 2014 - Duration: 3 minutes, 31 seconds.

      • 1 year ago
      • 12 views
      Missy is the plantation mistress in "The Blue Lady," a revisionist story (in-progress) about African American Slavery, told from a female point of view, about what happened the night Master died an...
    • THE BLUE LADY: Storyboard, Version 1 - Duration: 34 minutes.

      • 1 year ago
      • 121 views
      This is the first version of a treatment for an approximately 40 minute movie entitled, "The Blue Lady." I have not decided how to cast this movie. I like the convention of every character wearing ...
    • The Blue Lady: NEW STORYBOARD, Act 1 - Duration: 26 minutes.

      • 1 year ago
      • 19 views
      I have my first Act and can begin writing the script. Very excited. No idea what happens next - the ball is in Elizabeth's court. She will probably surprise me.

      Family secrets often cause more h...
    • The Blue Lady, backstory: Ancestor Monologue 1 - Duration: 3 minutes, 13 seconds.

      • 1 year ago
      • 95 views
      THE BLUE LADY, a revisionist story about a family's history since slavery, from a female point of view.

      Enslaved great great great great great great great grandmother of my new antagonist, telling...
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  • Nena St. Louis, Sculptor (1982-2010) Play all

    I have always had a day job. For 25 years, I regularly made, exhibited and sold sculpture. During that time, I also toured as a solo theater artist, founded a theater company and had about 15 plays produced. Since 2006, I have been a video artist as "sylvia toy." Artists are good mentors when they show by example that art is a 24/7 emotional commitment that has to be cultivated and earning a paycheck in a field that is not your bliss does not prevent you from being an artist.

    In 2010 I developed one of those deadly allergies to sawdust from which the only going back you're going to do is in a Hazmat suit - it was my own, personal environmental disaster, as woodcarving was my best friend and I became quite bereaved. Woodcarving was not just about expressing myself, asserting myself as an artist - it was my anchor, it was the way that I learned to reach a meditative state, and it was my backup when I started to look my affect in the eye. That staredown will never end, but everything being a sculptor taught me will always be with me. Hemingway: "Forget your personal tragedy. We are all bitched from the start and you especially have to be hurt like hell before you can write seriously. But when you get the damned hurt, use it - don't cheat with it."
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  • Plays by Nena St. Louis (Playwright, 1990-2007) Play all

    Performance art, live that is, is an acquired taste. As a theatre artist, I was not evangelical about getting my work out there (well, maybe in 1994), trying to make converts. I chose solo performance for the same reason that I was a paralegal instead of an art teacher or living off grants: if I got money in a part of the world where I couldn't really even talk about what I did as an artist, I was isolated but I was free. It's okay for people to tell me how I might do whatever it is better, but not how or WHAT to do. I did not want to be beholden to anyone - I would rather be at the end of the pecking order and get nothing than be beholden to anyone.

    I also thought it would make me feel polluted to make art any other way than the way that I saw it inside my head. That's why I have never cared for my play SCHOOLS except for two factors of acting that play.

    One is easy: playing 20 characters was showing off as well as a great acting exercise for me, especially since playing the main character of my mother, was playing way way way way against type for me. I was taught at a young age by someone, maybe my father, that if I wasn't stretching, I wasn't working hard enough. Besides, people who thought I sucked stopped saying that out loud enough that it got back to me after SCHOOLS.

    The second factor is not easy, and not easy to make clear. Telling the truth is my own most basic rule as an artist - if I catch myself telling not the truth, the sculpture goes in the dumpster, the play literally gets cut up and sorted into good stuff, maybe stuff and trash, and the video gets erased or put on the shelf until the rest of the truth shows up (no matter how long that takes). Telling the truth is as searing as a knife that's red hot. Talking about race is neither red hot nor pointed for me; it's room temperature and definitely dull as a knife that you cut meatloaf with.

    SCHOOLS was only interesting for me and justifiable for getting paid to do it without feeling like a whore because I made my bigger-than-life mother the main character, not because I got to talk about all the rotten things white people and America have done to me blah blah blah.

    I care about holding my own in society as a person who has adapted well enough to earn most of my money in a part of society that might as well be foreign country to me (the American legal industry). I care about being able turning myself into a human being in spite of struggling with bipolar disorder since I was a toddler. I care about having been a professional artist (read: exhibited, produced, paid). I care most about being in charge of my own self and my own life, and I would rather be alone and isolated, or dead if necessary, than not to be in charge of myself.

    I check my "stats" several times a day. It gives me no small amount of sheer joy that so far, the most-watched videos of my old live theatre shows that I've put up on Vimeo in the past couple of weeks are ESSAYS ON ANGER AND CUSTARD PIE and JUMP, not SCHOOLS. That fact is meaningless to anyone who doesn't know me pretty damn well, I know. But it gives ME no end of satisfaction. NO end.

    Done. Really done - "consider my ass retired."
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  • Bipolar Peer Vlog

    • Writing While Manic - Channel

      • 30 videos
      This channel is a big step for me. I have just begun to talk about mental illness candidly on camera after participating for 20 years in the community as an independent peer presenter, using my autobi
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  • My Favorite Walls Are in San Francisco

    • My Favorite Walls Are In San Francisco - Channel

      • 59 videos
      Everybody needs a hobby, even sculptors who are also actors, playwrights, presenters, videoartists, filmmakers and blog writers. I shoot graffiti along my everyday path of life. I am a fangirl collect
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