A Pilgrim's Progress

I'm Ben Johnson, and this channel is about my journey toward healing from child sex abuse, among other things. I'm a recovering addict, binge eater, and ironically also bulimic. I live with Complex-PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, a profoundly chaotic inter-personal attachment mechanism., and I say a wry  hello daily to my own instincts toward narcissism and grandiosity.

I am a warzone kid. That's how I think of those of us who came out of a childhood more like a hazardous warzone than a supportive nursery. Physical harm, psychological and emotional harm, sexual harm, these are some common kinds of warzones. 

I call the path toward healing "The Trail to the Western Lands," and I think of life as a pilgrimage on the trail. 

What are the Western Lands?
They're our home
The land we've never seen
The place ww've never left
Look down and grab a handful of the soil at your feet
That soil is the soil of the Western Lands
You made it
We made it
We are home.