Suzy Amanda Sawan

I have been quite miserable over the past few years now. I need 2b stop being a fucken mule 4 punishment & I get no reprieve so I just listen to music whenever I can get the chance too. It calms thy soul, quite literally &without it I'd be straight fucked up beyond fucked up. Alex passed last July 7th & Jen passed 1 year before him & still feels like yesterday it happened. Then wham out of the blue family members who rarely contact me are all calling me and I knew something was wrong. I just didn't think my beautiful mom passed at age 54. I stupidly missed her celebration of life ceremony & then my auntie rose passed a week after my mom.Holy shit sticks if I could I'd color all-day while listening 2 phat tunes and getting twisted is my high point of the day.. expressing  myself through color actually benefits me in more ways then I never knew before &better then popping a pill 2 ease my constant anxiety.