No, right now

Hello!
I'm a husband with my two sons
A very ordinary housewife who lives with three men.
As the 23rd year of the new year came, I became unemployed again.
All of my daily life that I postponed and closed my eyes under the excuse of a working mom
I wanted to record the time that I just spent. That's how I started 
I thought I shouldn't live like this, reflecting on myself for wasting my time. 
I mean, do whatever you want right now.
"No, right now."
I'm sure it's a bit awkward and awkward, but please sympathize with me
I hope we can laugh, have fun, cry, heal, and be happy together^^~