 Hello everybody welcome back to esoteric Atlanta just a quick little channel update Of course, my name is Bryce if you are new here. First of all, I wanted to Tell you guys a big big. Thank you for all of the sweet birthday messages. Of course, it's my 40th birthday I cannot believe actually I can't believe You know, you think about time time flies, but if you really Sit down and take inventory over at your life. You're like no, what yeah, I actually can't believe I'm 40 so What I'm grateful for is I'm grateful to be living in a timeline a time in our Collective world where 40 is still young and I was Today is actually my birthday and as I'm filming this I had a few minutes. I had an awesome morning I did a bar backslash dance class with Marnie Alton and then I went on a long hike It was beautiful outside and when I was doing this dance class I was like thinking about my body at 40 years old and how I Think for so many generations before this one 40 was considered like middle-aged old You were starting the aging process, but I was taking this dance class. I was like Sitting there thinking like this is the best I've ever felt in my whole entire life This is the most proud of my body that I have ever been in my whole entire life This is the sexiest I have felt in my whole entire life and Granted I've always been a thinner person I my boyfriend laughs that it would literally take a miracle for me to get fat because I just I'm just a small person but a thin not small but a thin person But with that being said at 40 I've my body has just I've worked so hard Through Ashtanga and bar and all these things that I am proud of my shape at 40 years old. I love Wearing a bikini. I love wearing a sports bra. I'm proud of my core strength. I'm proud to be 40 years old and have a flat six-pack and I love that I was actually scrolling through Instagram last night or through the argue sorry not Instagram YouTube the shorts that they're doing I was scrolling through some last night and I was looking at all these like fitness shorts of They did one of women in their 30s how fit they were and in coming to the 40s like how we're just in such an incredible Time in our history where fitness is just so important to so many people and it's creating vitality for a Collective group of people and that's so fucking amazing And I just hope that you guys that are doing the shadow work challenge You have dedicated time each day to take care of yourself are starting to feel that benefit to Being proud of of your body being proud of everything that your body can do for you and how your body has the ability to shift and change and You know, we have this conditioned program of belief to think that as the years go by we get older We start to deteriorate health and we're learning that's just not true because I guarantee you at 40 years old I am probably a lot stronger than a lot of 20 year olds I know that I'm stronger at 40 than I was at 20. I was born. I had so many health issues as a child I was a frail child. I know a lot of health issues. We won't get into that and I was just thinking about how miraculous it is that I Started off in life. I mean the day I was born which is was February 4th 1983 so 40 years to the day My heart stopped when my mother when I was still in my mom's belly when I was still in the wound and my mom was in labor my heart I flatlined and I didn't know that about my birth until many years later But the fact that I came into this world Not the healthiest and I had all these health issues as a child and multiple operations The fact that I had back surgery at 17 and the doctors told me that I will never Plague off or do yoga and I ended up becoming the only Female authorized teacher the only female on the only female in the state of Georgia to be authorized to teach Astana yoga like how badass are our bodies, you know And it's it's just such a testament that the body is the Shakti of the soul. It's not just science Right. It's not just black and white We we are our bodies We have the ability to work with our bodies and our bodies can do so much for us and our bodies I mean how many times have we abused our bodies and our bodies still function for us? The heart still beats the colon still works the kidney still filter when we are Abusing the shit out of our body. It's still Continues to work for us And so I wanted to express that and I'm hoping that everybody doing the shadow work challenge Even if you're not doing the shadow work challenge if you just have a regular exercise routine We've said this before so many people use exercise again as a way to abuse Why not use exercise as a way to celebrate and that's what I felt this morning and Marni's Alton's class. I was like my body has Done so much for me and it can do it's high performance my level of physical fitness at 40 years old is very high and My body serves me in that way and I do the work I work my body so that my body can be fed and so that my body can can function at such at such a high Intensity and the my muscles can remain clean and lean and my body can have a sweat a filtering system of sweat to detox And I just really hope that that for you guys again who are doing the 60-day challenge that you're starting to feel that as well You're proud of yourself at 40 years old I know I've been saying like I still would perhaps like to have a baby And I kind of have a bit of a freak out because I am 40, but then I was thinking about I was like But I'm showing no signs of menopause like none And if I can guess from my mother had a hysterectomy in her 30s, but knowing when she started to have hot flashes I have about 15 years left before menopause hits and my period I know TMI my period is very regular and very healthy And so I'm like that means that my ovulation system is still very healthy at 40 years old and so I just hope that For all of you guys out there that you just take a moment to like venerate your body especially if you are someone who has had children and like What is harder than pushing a human being out of your body? All the exercises you're doing in the shadow work challenge are nothing compared to pushing a human being out of you And I hope that you celebrate the fact that your body can do that I hope you celebrate everything you've been through and for everyone like any operations or surgeries or Times in your life where you weren't proud of your body to start to shift that and realize what a beautiful machine Living breathing machine you've been given and I hope that for each and every one of you that when bathing suit season comes around again That you find that pride like I do put those bikinis on Feel proud of what your body looks like because you've earned that and your body is beautiful and so I hope that I you know, I hope that that that Resonates with you guys and I if you're not feeling that yet keep going keep pushing yourself because you will start to appreciate The things that your body can do. I mean, I think when I was 20 Even when I was 30, I don't I probably wasn't even a hundred pounds I remember when I left Los Angeles. I was like a hundred six pounds That was like my and I don't weigh anymore, but at 40 years old again I feel better. I was telling my boyfriend this morning like we were out hiking I was like my body just feels better. I feel better than I ever have before I feel younger at 40 than I did at 30 and so I hope I hope that vitality comes to you guys as well And once again, I thank you so much for all of your kind sweet birthday messages. I was telling emmy this morning my early 20s Man, I would we would party hard on birthdays, right? But now that I'm in my 40s, like I'm such a minimalist anyway There's not a whole lot that I crave in life. Like I'm a very small wardrobe. I have a very minimalist apartment Like I just don't need a whole lot and I know that's a lot of it has to do with my spiritual practice I think that's common with people who take up a spiritual practice. They start to not Really need the material things in life, you know, I would rather to use my money to travel Right and I was telling Emmy. I was like, I'm just so happy to like Take a dance class on my birthday and go hiking and then go get dinner with friends and family and like come home and watch a movie Like I'm just so grateful for for that in life And so I hope that for all of you guys you are starting to also find joy in the very simplest of things One of my favorite quotes is no matter where you go there. You are so no matter whether you are very wealthy or very poor You're still the same person There you are and so I hope that through the shadow work challenge You guys are really working through yourselves getting to know yourselves Right getting to know yourselves and what your perceived limitations are and understanding that those are just perceived limitations. They're not real You are so much powerful. I mean the class I took this morning with Marnie Alton She told it says the greatest things. She said something about like, you know, think about the force It takes to stop a moving train think about the force. It takes to stop a moving car You have that force and you end greater and greater. You have more energy within your body Than that of the energy it takes to stop a moving train That's powerful. You're very powerful. And so I hope tomorrow tomorrow Sunday fun day I will do an update video soon this week on this in the shadow work challenge But I want to kind of talk about though this upcoming week because this is a pretty big week for my challenge my channel We have some hopefully some really awesome guests some of the guests. It's tentative because of their press junkets We have Monday I will be releasing the final video on tablet 3 of the emerald tablets on my channel course I will be on Aquarius Rising Africa at 9 o'clock To go deeper into the emerald tablets and then Tuesday and Wednesday normally I release the haphor material and the Magdalen material That for this week is not going to happen this week because I have some whistleblowers that are coming on my channel I'm so excited So Tuesday there's going to be an Introduction video made by me on yogi bhajan and the Kundalini yoga cult Yes, you heard me correctly Because I'm all this week I'm going to be speaking to a man called Gersant Singh who was the author of this book Confessions of an American Sikh locked up in India corrupt cops and my escape from the new age tantric yoga cult And so I have been asked to cover with Kundalini yoga cult many times And I have kind of backed away from covering it because of my proximity In the yoga world, but I decided that it's very important to talk about this because the yogi bhajan Kundalini yoga cult is not real It's all made up Okay, and grant Singh has his own YouTube channel I've actually been watching his channel for a while now before I even had my own YouTube channel So I've known about the Kundalini old cult for a very long time before I ever even thought I would be on YouTube And so I've been very well aware of him as a whistleblower and what was going on with the yogi bhajan stuff And so I reached out to him. I just got his book. So I'm not had a chance to read it yet I did I reached out to him and he's going to be coming on my channel this week to speak about the yogi bhajan yoga cult and so again So important that we understand what coercive control is and and as I've said many times The darkness cannot create anything only the light can create all the darkness can do is steal from the light and invert or Try to mimic and this is what we see with yogi bhajan and the Kundalini yoga cult We see an inversion of truth and so as more and more people especially you guys doing the the chat or challenge get deeper into discovering these paths of self-help or you know Old text. I do feel at this point that it is my responsibility to really focus on what cult Behavior looks like and what coercive control looks like and I told I spoke to Grissant on the phone last week to set up our our Our interview on my channel and I told him you know, we've talked a lot about this about How lucky I have been because I I have been very fortunate in my With teachers, I've always had very integral teachers who never crossed the line And that doesn't mean that I haven't been in narcissistically abusive relationships. Yes I have been in narcissistic narcissistically abusive relationships and as many people know a Narcissistically abusive relationship is a cult of one. So I have been in that situation where I've been in a cult of one But not within the the spiritual world And so we're going to be talking about that so that people have more of a education When it comes to like red flags what to look out for when it comes to these types of organizations The second person I'm going to be speaking to this week. Hopefully she is on a pressed Press tour right now a pressed junket right now. So we tentatively have a time scheduled for her to come on my channel But it depends on what her press junk it looks like so fingers crossed She will be able to make it this week. If not, we'll just I told her it was no big deal We would just reschedule when she can make it on is Kelly teal from Nixxiom or Nixxiom as I know a lot of people in the and actually ordered her book But it got lost in the mail. So I have to I have to reorder it But this is her book unapologetically glorious and she She's been in some of the documentaries about Nixxiom And I wanted to kind of I was going to surprise you guys with bringing her on this show But I realized and speaking with some of our Viewers who are not in the United States or Canada That some of you guys overseas Are not familiar with Nixxiom and what happened and so I am not going to be doing an introductory video to Nixxiom Like I am doing with Yogi Bajon Simply because I am an outsider looking in when it comes to Nixxiom I feel like I have more of a understanding with what happened with Yogi Bajon because I have such an understanding of the yoga text But I will say though if you guys are from another country I would highly suggest and if you're from America or Canada, they're two really good documentaries to watch about Nixxiom This is the vow which is on HBO max on the United States HBO max It's two seasons season one season two the vow It's what it's called and then there is seduced which I believe seduced is on Amazon at prime Kelly teal is a huge part the girl coming on my channel is a huge part of seduced that that documentary and so we're gonna talk a lot about You know what that looks like I'm gonna have her kind of introduce what Nixxiom was What it turned into and of course if you are in the United States, you know that Keith Reneire The head of Nixxiom was arrested. God. Maybe was it um, I'll have to look that up It was a few years ago. He was arrested and charged with all sorts of like Crazy stuff. I can't say the words on on YouTube, but um, He ended up serving he got found guilty and he is serving at a hundred twenty year present sentence in a high-security present probably one of the most dangerous cult leaders I would guess to say in our modern world and Kelly can talk more about that Kelly and I actually spoke on the phone for like two hours About a week ago. She's awesome. She herself one thing I really like about her and why I wanted her to come on the channel Is that I've often said that for me myself. I'm a seeker Think a lot of us a lot of you guys watching right now are seekers. I don't like the word truther I'm a seeker and I think Kelly is that way too from what I've seen her for other interviews in a lot of people that you look at things like Nixxiom it was a so it was advertised as a self-help group and it but it turned into a cult and a Lot of what Keith Reneire was stealing was legitimate Practices and in self-healing, but he was manipulating it and inverting it and Of course, you know with a lot of these cults like Scientology these these Even Yogi Bajang will talk about their turbans a lot of cults have such distinct look, you know, they have like the uniforms they have Things that they wear that set them apart, but Nixxiom was different Nixxiom it was normal looking very beautiful people that It wasn't sold as a religious thing. It was people that look like you and me it was It was just a self-help organization Most of the people there were college graduates university graduates high levels of education the brothman sisters from Seagrams alcohol Claire brothman, I believe is serving like an eight-year prison sentence because of her involvement. They are the ones that were bankrolling Nixxiom and so It's like that kind of shows you that this this coercive control can happen everywhere, you know When you look at the Nixxiom people, it's like that could be your sister that could be you. It's normal Mark Vesente There's a really great YouTube channel that Mark Vesente has I believe he was the person who did the the documentary what the bleep do we know? He was one of the original whistleblowers For he does a debriefing on The vow he watches the episodes and he goes and does like a podcast over Watching it and living it he testified and Keith Ranieri's trial I would highly suggest watching subscribing to his YouTube channel and watching some of his Reactions because he's somebody I mean what the bleep do we know? I know that tomorrow has spoken a lot about that documentary That's documentary that a lot of people loved it was kind of a groundbreaking about spirituality and the human mind and the the bondage of thought and So for someone like him to get sucked into a cult that just shows you that none of us are Three, you know, none of us we all think go. I'll never fall for that I'll never fall for that but a lot of us fall for this stuff every single day And we just don't even know it and so he I love I've been listening to his I've watched the vow now twice in preparation for For Kelly's interview and so I will probably be watching seduced again as well And I just love listening to his breakdown because I like listening to his journey of healing and it's really helped me You know when we think about coercive control or mind control and I know so many people that are stuck in relationships are You know romantic or business relationships We're there stuck at the mercy of a malignant narcissist and he talks about a lot about that He's actually from what I understand. I just heard listening to one of his podcast. He's in the middle of making Another documentary about narcissism. I think it's called something like Empathy not included or something. Anyway, it's going to be coming out next year But I'm really excited to see that documentary of his because narcissism is very fascinating and there's different levels of narcissists narcissism You know the most dangerous and he just said this and I know that it's as well as a covert narcissist, but we do have malignant narcissism There's different ways in which the narcissist work But a lot of cult leaders are obviously on that spectrum of being a narcissist because they want to have that utter control over people and every aspect of their lives and What's been very healing for me even though I've gone through trauma therapy I've gone through a lot of therapy because of my experience with narcissists really looking at the narcissist from a cult leader's perspective and how they work and Understanding that if you I know people again who are stuck in these situations and I can see it Other people can see it other people can see That the relationship is not normal that there's a lot of high control there And there's a lot of coercion and a lot of what they call the fog which is fear obligation guilt So, you know, I know I know of youtubers that I love dearly Whose channel is now dedicated really to like one specific guest because they think They're under the control the puppeting of that guest So they're like in a cult of one and their service is to that guest because for some reason they think that guest for whatever mind tricks You know mind fucking that person is done to them off camera They think that that's the only reason why they have a career or they have substance and it's it's heartbreaking one person in particular I just want to shake them and be like no no people watch your show because of you Not because of your guest your guests are not a bonus But I've watched this person's channel just crash and it's it's content and so much stuff that this person was going to do on His gentle he's not doing now because he's subservient to this other guest That is cult behavior But what I've learned the most is that from these and it's true you can't I've tried saying something other people have tried saying something But you really can't say anything until that person's ready to hear it because they're getting mind fucked They're getting mind fucked all the time. They're getting lied to they're being gas lit They're being isolated from their from other people. This person's been isolated from other guests You know and so their their mind is so scrambled and they're they're in the fog now They're the fear obligation guilt their scalar. I know from my experiences with narcissists You become a little bit afraid of them You're afraid of their power and then you feel obligated because for some reason You've been fed to believe that that they're your savior and then you feel the guilt like you need to be Subservient to them because for some reason they're they're your savior. It's all just a mind game And that's why they have to isolate people. That's why cults isolate. That's why narcissists isolate So and this is not just again a romantic relief. This can be a business partnership this could be a friendship these things are seen everywhere and Usually what they do and they talk about this with Keith Rene area as well as they find your weakness so like if somebody has a problem with You know being confident having self-confidence and so the weakness then is the ego and so they do things to love bomb and To stroke the ego until they have you in their clutches And I've learned again that that by watching it's been reminding me There's nothing any of us can do when we have friends Her family or loved ones in this situation and we see it for what it is You can try to say something But in the trauma bond that happens with the narcissist and the victim is That they end up Running deeper to the abuser Because they're trauma bonded to the abuser and so you as the person that's really trying to help them You see this a lot with India oxenberg and her mother Catherine's in the documentary seduced you end up really hating the person that's trying to save you and Seeing your abuser as the savior and so the best thing we can do is put the information out and Pray that our loved ones Wake up And once they do wake up a lot of times there is fear of leaving Because the abuser that has information about them. We're gonna talk about with nexium where they took collateral collateral And so I just think this is such an important conversation for us to have especially going into a new timeline We have to be very, you know, no, I was talking to me and me and I have both gone through major years of Our own shadow work healing before we became friends And so we have a lot of notes to compare and I love how she quoted another person I can't remember the name of the person that she quoted, but she was talking about like murderers are gonna murder Like that's just what they're gonna do. That's what murderers do they murder Narcissists are gonna Narcissist Impacts are gonna impact we can't stop Narcissist For abusing people We can't stop them from doing that All we can do is be aware that this exists Self-govern and self-protect and so Yeah, and even Mark was in talks about this with like even political parties that political parties do this all the time And what they're showing you in the beginning is a version of yourself. They're mirroring you Yeah, so Anyway, I really again, please you guys let me know any questions that you have for either Grissant singe or Kelly teal regarding either the yogi Bajon Kundalini cult or next see them I have an in communication with Mark Hedley from Scientology. I have his book as well I'm gonna be getting back to him in a couple weeks to see if we can plan something with him as well to talk about Scientology Because it's fucking fascinating because Elron Hubbard. I mean All these guys and there's many different levels right like I look at Elron Hubbard and we can ask Mark Mark Hedley about this. I Believe Elron Hubbard actually believed a shit I don't think David Muscavige does but I think Elron Hubbard did Keith Ranieri on the other hand I think he knew the whole time. He was fucking with people and so there's different levels of of these contri- I don't it's very fascinating And so but again a lot of these things we look at Dianetics from Scientology. That's about the reactive mind that shit's true The rest of the stuff in Scientology isn't But that is and that's what I've heard Kelly teal saying other interviews in the beginning of next year There's stuff that works because it's based off of cognitive therapy. It's stuff that actually works So there's a there's something that catches that gets you you go this aha, and I am fixing some of my issues I am correcting some of my problems So then you become indebted right so anyway, I would love to hear your questions down in the Comment section below again if you have if you are not familiar with nexium if you are from another country And you've never heard of nexium most Americans have because it was like all over is in the New York Times. It was everywhere Please research it and then ask me any questions. You want me to ask Kelly teal because I'm so excited about her coming on She's awesome. I when I was talking on the phone. I felt like I was talking to a long-lost friend. She's just like us She's very much aware of spiritually of stuff and so and I love that about her if I didn't say this before You know a lot of times people when they come out of like these cult situations They will run in the opposite direction of spirituality. They will become atheists. They will completely shut off any type of of Spiritual pursuit and I don't blame them. I have I don't blame them I understand that when you've been heavily abused Sometimes you need to cut everything off completely in order to heal yourself before you keep an even look at that stuff again And I think God understands as well, you know, I don't think God judges any of our healing paths But Kelly has maintained a hunger for spirituality and a hunger for the truth even though she is coming out of a high-control cult and that's what I love about her is that she's still Maintain this this this seeking of of spiritual knowledge. And so I can't wait To talk to her and Gerson I've spoken to both of them on the phone privately But on the channel and I cannot wait for you guys to hear what they have to say because again This is such this is so important The stuff is like really important the human mind the human consciousness the human psyche is is some of the most valuable tools that we have and It pisses me off that people abuse it And I'm hoping that the only way to combat combat this is knowledge. I mean knowledge is power and knowledge protects All right you guys so um, yeah, it'll be an interesting week full of really cool people on the channel again Just let me know whatever questions you have and I will be glad to ask. I'll talk to you guys soon