 Listen guys, I know this is the topic everybody's been waiting to hear about on taboo Tuesdays Hello, my beautiful internet friends and welcome back today. We are gonna talk about today We're gonna talk about sex And welcome back to my favorite series here on the channel, which is taboo Tuesdays where we tackle topics There was a lot of teas that are difficult to talk about or people struggle to ask questions about and so I Opened it up for discussion and a lot of people asked about intimacy about my sex life And you know what? I think that's a really good question because it's not actually something Weirdly enough that I spent a ton of time thinking about before I had my imputation But it is something I spent a lot of time thinking about after before we dive into this highly requested topic I would like to thank our sponsor for the day me this video is sponsored today by my merch store So I have launched pieces of clothes before for instance This shirt is one of the things that I've launched before but they've always been like individual releases And so I compiled everything I added a new item on my teespring store the link is linked down below I love it if you guys don't check it out give me some feedback Let me know what you think and definitely pick up a t-shirt or in my opinion a hoodie I love hoodies just a little bit too warm in Colorado here for one today So a big shout-out goes to the footless show merch store for sponsoring this video. Okay, we're gonna move on Let's talk about intimacy and sex not in detail. Don't worry. We won't get graphic I struggled a lot throughout high school and early college with body image I struggled with an eating disorder pretty hardcore for a little while there Hated myself hated my body all of that not good stuff, but eventually I worked through it I got help and over the past few years I got to a place where I was confident enough in myself that it wasn't affecting every day We're like, yeah, there are of course things I don't like about myself, but generally I'm Okay, like I'm fine. I'm fine with myself I was confident enough in myself that like how to say it that like that like I wasn't constantly Questioning my husband's attraction to me. He said he was attracted to me. He said he wanted me I believed him end of story for the most part, you know, of course, there's days where you get insecure before Before surgery before my amputation we had conversations about how it was gonna affect him Like he married someone with two legs, right? And now he was gonna be married to someone with one and a half and that's a major change for him too And how was he gonna feel about that and and all of that and we had great conversations about that and he assured me that He really didn't think it was gonna change how he thought about me at all or how sexually attracted he was to me or any of that For the record, that's been accurate on his side of things And I thought because that was the case that it wouldn't affect me at all I was woefully incorrect intimacy can already be complicated for me because of the culture that I was raised in and because of The trauma that I've gone through but thankfully I have a fantastic amazing patient Incredible incredible man for my husband But this amputation threw another wrench into that part of our lives where suddenly I was intensely insecure and felt really weird not being like entirely covered up all the time and Like didn't want him to look at me or didn't want him to see me no matter how many times He told me that he was attracted to me and as much as I would love to say that like becoming amputee Hasn't affected my sex life. Yeah, it definitely has but it's not been because of external factors It's been because of internal factors It's been because I am suddenly dealing with a lot of insecurity that I didn't deal with before and I'm working through it And it's gotten a lot better over the last few months pain and surgeries obviously also affect intimacy if you're covering from surgery There's kind of a stop on that and when I'm in significant pain doesn't really set the mood So that is also thrown a wrench and things sometimes But I'd honestly say that the biggest issue has just been feeling comfortable in my own body comfortable in my own skin But thankfully it's something that we've been working through and something that's gotten a lot easier as time has gone on Someone asked about like positioning you get you get creative not everything's the same in the bedroom and that's quite alright think that question kind of applies to all of disability and Every person I mean every person's different every person has their own things and not everyone's built the same physically and so Figure out what works for you and what doesn't and so figure out what works for us and what doesn't but Becoming an amputee has definitely had an effect on my sex life on our sex life And I think it's something where there's an opportunity for growth and fun and creativity and more connection Because when something changes you get to adapt to it and you get to figure out how you're gonna do that But it's also been a challenge because of how I felt about myself and how you feel about yourself When you're intimate with someone else obviously has an effect on the situation if you're confident or not It obviously has an effect on the situation And so that's something that I've actively been trying to work through and in the midst of working through Yeah, so that's about as in detail as I am willing to go at this point And I hope that answered some of your question Thanks again to our generous sponsor footless shows merch store check it out if you have a moment again I would love your feedback on it Love to hear what you think and I would super love it if you found something you liked and wanted to get That bring it home for yourself wear it post a picture send it to me so I can see it So I can post on my Instagram for the world to see because I love it when you guys send me pictures of you showing off my Merch, thank you keep those coming as always, but never for granted. 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