 Hey what's up you guys welcome back to my channel if you're new here. If you're here hi hello I'm Lydia and if you are new here make sure you hit the subscribe button, turn notifications on the way down and give me a thumbs up because it really just helped me out. So today's video is talking about bullying and how I code. Now I was bullied in secondary school I was bullied online a few years ago. I've been bullied on and off through my entire life. So let's start off with adult bullying. I did do a video a few years ago talking about my high school bullying experience. I'll link that up there on the iCard. So let's talk about adult bullying. So I was trolled for around two and a half years by the same group of four people. Now I'm not going to mention names because I've done live streams with these people in the past trying to confront what's actually the problem that's going on. And if you want to see that I will try to remember to put it on the iCard. Lots of recommendations today. So the trolling started around the time I moved out of my drug dealing and lord faith and lord and I moved out of that place. Why it started I don't know I wish I knew why but these people were taking every little thing I said or did and ripping gets pieces making up stories saying I meant other things than what I actually meant. Posting it all over Reddit under illness fakers but are full. I think that's what I thought I don't use Reddit so I don't know. But it really affected me. Now for the first few months of going on I was living with my grandparents and I tried to kill myself. I went down to the kitchen in my grandparents' house found a pot of my grandpa's anxiety medicine and I took all of them. I know they're not helpful over those. Propanol is quite a dangerous drug to overdose on. I did once and it made me hallucinate so if you want me to tell that story let me know in the comments. But the trolling I went through was really serious. I can't even explain how much damage it did to my mental health. It was some of the hardest times of my life. It made me miserable. I couldn't post a youtube video without it being taken out context. It just it wasn't a great time and I hate looking back at it now because there's nothing I could have done to make it stop. I tried going down the route please. So let's talk a bit about how I cope afterwards. Looking back on it now I can deal with it a lot better than I used to do. Honestly there's probably still accounts going that slag me off. I just couldn't care less anymore. It used to make me suicidal. Which is it made everything quite do seem so meaningless. I almost quit doing youtube because of it which I'm so glad I didn't. Coping with the bullying at the time was hard. Personally I think the best advice I can give if you've been bullied is report them. Report the accounts to social media report to the police. But my best advice is to never be ashamed of who you are, what you have to give. Please don't end your life because you've been bullied. Because I promise you this it doesn't stop. There is hope and you can and you will get through it. So some of the lessons how to cope with bullying is one, bullying is a bid for attention. So try walking away or ignoring your bully instead of reacting by bullying back. Two, stay calm and assert yourself. Three, laugh instead of showing fear or discomfort that your bully wants you and expects. Four, tell somebody. The best thing you can do is speaking out against them. Speak up, don't suffer in silence. I say this a lot. Nothing will change if you don't speak up. Thanks for watching and I'll see you guys in my next video. Peace.