 Hello people! You're watching out there, thank you for tuning in to this video. Today I want to go over a few things that have been happening in my personal life that have kinda, kinda got in the way of me uploading YouTube videos. It's that all age old excuse time. I've had hardly any time at the moment. I have a job, so the large proportion of my day is taking up with my job, so it's been really, really difficult to try and juggle having a podcast and having a YouTube channel and to be honest I've been struggling quite a bit with putting podcasts out, so. My mental health has been absolutely poor, it's been horrific for the past two months. It's very up and down but the lows are low enough to sort of destabilise my day a little bit and not my day, more like my week. Everything's at this moment just a little bit too much. So I wanted to make this video because I know there is a large proportion of you guys on YouTube who don't follow like my social medias and my podcast and stuff, so you may not know at this current time. A lot of my efforts have been to try and get myself back onto a stable level and that means that I have to reduce my productivity. That's usually how I do things. It keeps my mind active, it starts me from ruminating, getting anxious about little small things. There's lots of reasons for it. This is not to say that there has been no positives over the months, the few months. I had my podcast with Hannah Witton, we talked about autistic relationships and she's got a very, very large following and it was all around quite a good thing for me. I've been in contact with a lot of different charities and advocates and I've been doing podcasts and there is a piece of news that I've recently received that is very positive and may, again, may change everything possibly if the look of the world is on my side. But I will be updating all of that on my social media if you want to check that out but I'll also make a video on it as well so if you don't really fancy that social media stuff I get it, I completely get it. It's not always the most healthier things, most cases it's not the most healthier things. I've been to a psychiatrist, I've got a new psychiatrist who's going to put me through a different type of mental health sort of work to try and different type of psychotherapy to see if that has any effect on my mood, my anxiety, my depression, all that stuff. It could be that, you know, within two months I'm back up to speed and I'm back up to productive Tom who's a good enough level of not feeling bad so that he can live his life and not have to constantly change plans and cancel things because your mood's just, but not fun. We're all about staying positive on this channel you've got to have that stoic mindset and of course, you know, over this this isolation and stuff it's been it's been very strange and difficult and lots of different changes and routines that you have to adapt constantly to stay on a stable plane field or at least in my case that was that was something that I had to do. But please share your experiences down in the comments. I know this is a bit of a short video and like every every five or six videos I'm putting out an update saying I can't I can't do these videos but I can't and I'll put them out you know if I've got the time if I've got some some spare time I'll put the videos together and I'll put them out but for the meantime just to keep myself in a good stable routine and not put too much on myself I'm going to focus on the podcasts which also means that you get a podcast on YouTube so I wouldn't really call it a video but still uploading I suppose trying to try no reason reason with you I hope all is good in the hood stay cool stay fresh and I'll see you in a little bit of time with another video I think I'm going to do the next video on autism and tics like Tourette's and stuff recently I've been having some quite vicious motor tics I'm just trying not to do them because every time that I think about them I feel like I need to need to need to do a tic yeah it's difficult not to come on Tom you need to quell quell that need to move in a strange way not not stimming stimming is healthy but I'm rambling you know what just just have a good day and uh chill out and listen to the podcast see you later guys bye