 Come on, Bob, just go downstairs. Downstairs, come on. Are you ready? Come on, guys. Downstairs. That's right, Fitz, that's you, too. Good morning, everyone. Welcome back to, well, I don't even know what day it is. Okay, what's the day? Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday. Vlog week day five. Every time I say vlog, okay, I'm gonna say vlogmas. Anyways, hi guys, it's Monday. It is currently 9.40. I have done my ruining, took the dogs out, fed the dogs. They're kind of just playing right now, and I'm currently uploading the vlog from today. I don't even really know how to start this conversation, and I've been meaning to say this in vlogs recently, and then some of you guys, I saw a comment that was saying it seems like I'm getting a note of cue, and it's literally gonna be further from the truth. I feel like I've just been so off the past few days. I'm in between meds and all the stuff, and I feel like I just have, I don't know, I'm just really, really down right now, and I think I'm just, I don't even necessarily know what it's accredited to. Actually, yes, I do. It definitely is the meds. So I'm trying my absolute best. Get a better mood in having a day, which I wanted to just kind of like vlog today, like putting myself in a better mood, just because definitely this weekend I was so down. Like, hi Fitz, hi boy, you're so cute. His freckles, guys, are like beautiful. Coco's sitting behind me. I think sometimes I'll go through a little funk or like a few days where I'm just like really, really down, and then sometimes it's bad enough to where it will kind of spiral, and I feel like it's just kind of spiraled. I don't know, I've even just been like so kind of like negative towards myself, and like comparing myself to other people, and I don't feel like that's my normal day to day. It's definitely the past like few days, I've been so hard on myself, and I'm like my podcast sucks, my YouTube channel sucks, like all the vlogs are bad, like no one even wants to watch them, like, I don't know. The true test is like what you say to your boyfriend because I will say things, and I can't even believe that I got them out. Like for example, I'm like saying everything that I just said to you to him, and I'm like, oh my gosh, I actually like feel that way right now. So anyways, I'm just starting off this vlog clearly on such a great note, but I did just want to talk to you guys, and I've been meaning to you just about like, I don't know, I just been feeling really down and off, and I know that so many of you guys are probably feeling that way, and like obviously the world is crazy. The internet is like a really, really negative place to be right now, and when I say that I want to make it very, very clear that I'm not referring to any of the like social injustice going on, like the Black Lives Matter movement, everything that's been happening with that. The things that have occurred obviously are so heartbreaking, but the things that are happening with the movement as far as like just like the attention and like everything that's been happening has been really, really great. Like I want to make it very clear that I'm not talking about the internet being a negative place with seeing things that have been realities for people for so long. Like that is not what I'm referring to. I think that completely outside of that, people are just so like mean right now, and so hateful, and I'm like actually a lot more sensitive than I let on. It's really hit or miss with me on if comments are gonna bother me or not, and I'm definitely in a place where comments are bothering me right now. And I'm so sensitive, like even what like people say to other people, I don't know, I just like have been extra sensitive lately. I'm not going to the doctor today to get this situated, but the only way I would describe it right now, and this is my fault because I have not, the past few days I know that I've switched, I'm switching and all of this stuff, so I have not been like taking them when I was supposed to be in blah, blah, blah, which I'm normally so strict with that because things like this happen, but I basically am just like really down. I can't feel any good emotion. I'm just like numb. I don't know. You probably only really understand if you're like someone on meds, but it's just not been the best. And I don't know, I'm like two steps away from crying at all times. Like I just don't know what's up. Hopefully the doctor really helps me today. I'm trying my best to just like get in a better mood. Like I literally read my bio for an hour today and I was like, please, please. You know? Did you want to come say hi? But I have my puppies with me, so oh hi. You are just the cutest thing I've ever seen besides Coco. You're the cutest boy I've ever seen. He's been having a lot of fun this morning. He, thank God, loves all the toys that I bought for Coco that she doesn't like, so I'm glad that I kept them. Oh dude, no, no bite, no bite. Oh my gosh guys, you know what I need to make today that will definitely put me in a better mood. There's this Dolly Parton TikTok of a dog for nine to five. And oh my God, I need to make it. I absolutely have to make it today. It's like, do I go work out because here's my thing. Working out makes me feel better, yes? But like I have to run today. And like running is not really like something I look forward to. Actually sometimes it is, but not today. Fitz is like guys, I can't even describe like how odd. He's just an odd, odd dog. At least I have my Dolly Parton mug. I'm gonna say three things I'm grateful for. I need to be going back on my gratitude journal. Hi, are you okay? Okay, three things I'm grateful for today. I love my, oh, I would say my puppy, but no more. Let's see, I have great friends. I love my home. It just is so cozy and I love my family. Those are three things I'm grateful for. Hey, stop it. Hi, you're so silly. If you guys are new here, subscribe, I'm sure all of you guys are really, really excited for today's video. But anyways, we're gonna try to get in a better mood. So I guess I will go work out. After I finish this running challenge, I wanna do the 12, 330. I've been watching Lauren Gerardo's vlogs since she moved, love her. And she swears my 12, 330. And so I really, really wanna do that. I've decided that what I need today is a list of what health workout. We have my mat from Lulu. I love this mat. And then I have my ball of bangles. The candles are still burning and I have it out on the TV. Okay, so I'm going to start with the new flow because she posted this on her Instagram and said it's incredible. So I'm really excited. I just love that Melissa would help guys. You have no idea. Just finished the workout and already feel so much better. I'm gonna go to the dogs out and then I'm gonna come back in, turn on the morning toast and then make some juice because I got a lot of things to juice and I just realized that I haven't actually juiced anything. I am now about to start juicing. I'm making lunch in the background. I'm in the air first going off. Ignored the mess in the kitchen, but I changed. Guys, I'm wearing my Outdoor Voices Quartz Court for the first time. Oh my gosh, this might just be, look, I like this better than the exercise dress. Like, wow, I've got a size small for reference. I'll link it down below. They definitely do have other colors. I might even want the gray one. Like I just wanna live in stuff like this. I need better tank tops that are like the same material as this, you know? All right guys, so I just made myself some juice. Very excited. I'm gonna put these in the fridge. And then for lunch, I made myself some salmon on a kale salad with cucumbers and strawberries. It looks so good. So I have to say, I took this morning and did all the things that make me feel better. I worked out, I did my favorite workout, Melissa Wood Health, and then I showered. I got ready, wearing like clothes I actually like. And then I juiced and I made a healthy lunch. So I'm just feeling a lot better, especially after the Melissa Wood Health workout. Also, I'm finally wearing my bracelet. We got these friendship bracelets in New York in December and I'm so about to be wearing bracelets, but I wanna get a few and stack them because then I feel like I'll wear them more and I think it's really cute. Oh my gosh, remember when it was like arm candy and you would like, wow, anyways. Okay, so gonna finish my green juice and my salad and then I'm gonna head off to the doctors in probably like 20 minutes. All right guys, I'm off to the doctors. Really exciting things that 2020 brings. When you go to the doctor and it's like a full event, you know? Love y'all guys, so cute. All right guys, I am out of the doctor's office. I got my blood drawn. I'm actually like terrified of getting my blood drawn because I get like really, I haven't actually all the way fainted I don't think, but like really, really close to it. Like I have to stay at the doctor's office and drink apple juice for like hours on it after, but that was really quick today and I feel totally fine. Best nurse ever. So I didn't even notice it was happening. I mean, I knew it was happening, but you know what I mean, it wasn't that bad and I feel very tough and on top of the world. I am hopeful that things will be better soon. It's really freaking hot. Okay, so now I'm gonna do a little parachute return. I need to exchange these for another color. So I'm returning these to some like drop off location that they have set up for COVID and then I'm gonna be able to order the right shade online, which will be exciting. All right, for my Dallas girls, I'm at the paper source on coal. It's like Nox Henderson, but apparently there's like a return bar here that you go and you drop your stuff off at. So that's what I'm doing. Wow guys, I'm really working on not complaining about the heat in these vlogs, but like so bad. So I just went to Trader Joe's. I spent like a hundred twenty dollars, guys I got so much stuff and I made a list before, but I still just let myself go crazy. And like it'll be good because I'm not gonna be ordering food, but I just can't believe I got, I got four bags of food guys. And then the boys are currently taking out my trash. So I am driving them with all the land. So I went and picked that up and I'm gonna go home. Okay guys, so I'm back home. I need to make like five trips up the stairs and townhouse life. You just realize how to shape your art, you know? I have four bags. Let me know if you guys don't want me to keep doing these Trader Joe's haul. I feel like I do them so often in vlogs like any other vlog. And this one I did get some different things, but just let me know if you guys don't wanna see them because I understand. These are like some of my favorite noodles. Oh, also I got a package from Saturday Skin. When I got back, it came with this little cute candle that smells so good. You guys know me in candles. And then this was just the vitamin C overnight mask which I'm really, really excited for. I'm not even gonna open it yet. So the boys are taking my trash out. Basically I had a lot of trash. My trash can is never big enough. So they have to go take it to this like dump at one of our like parents. But it's just whole thing. Anyways, it's a really big pain and I love them. I'm so grateful. Oh, I got some more cake hops, butter. Just for a recipe, I don't normally have butter. Croutons, I'm gonna make better salads. I've decided. And then I got hummus because I really like putting hummus in salads. And then this Greek, what is it? No, spinach and kale Greek yogurt dip. Guys, this is like next level so good. Olives for the salad. A refill of my favorite seasoning. I got some chips, brown rice pasta just to always have on hand because if you don't know what to make I pretty much always have brown rice pasta. Some sort of marinara sauce. And then kale and broccoli and that's like the easiest meal ever. Avocados because I've been loving my avocado toast. We have some bananas and then some rosemary for a recipe. Kale, I got sourdough bread instead of gluten free bread to try out because this one's bigger and I've heard that this is incredible. So yeah, I'm just gonna see which one I like better. I actually do love their gluten free bread though. Green goddess salad dressing, pesto for Q, lemons for my hot lemon water and honestly for everything I put lemons in everything. Two things of eggs because I'm gonna start eating eggs with my avocado toast because my doctor told me to. And I also need them because I'm trying to make egg bites. More greens, I got the romaine salad and then also a power to the greens baby kale. More broccoli, pepperoni, Q and I made homemade pizza one night from Trader Joe's and it was so bomb. So I just picked up some more of the pizza dough. Sometimes I don't have it there and the pizza sauce, so good. I got some feta for salads. I got some cheese for just like random things that I needed it for but mainly for the egg bites but hopefully can make them soon. The last thing I got is a lot. It's the spashed cooked lemon rosemary chicken. I'm realizing now that I probably should have got more pasta for this. I was actually shopping to make this and then I saw that they already had it made. So I was like, what the heck? So I'll let you guys know how we like this. I'm excited. Looks bomb. Guys, I'm gonna remake this TikTok with Coco cause it's literally the most me thing I've ever seen in my entire life. My talent here and I are on our last shot for our TikTok. She is killing it. Okay, we got this done in minutes. Wow guys. Okay, if you ever wanna be in a better mood make a TikTok of your dog because it's actually the funniest thing ever. Wow. We all know I'm the biggest jolly partant fan out there. So it was just so fitting. All right guys, if you are coming from this vlog go to my TikTok. It's just at Kinsley Elizabeth Hay and comment that you're coming from the vlog and I can talk to you guys. But also it is the best TikTok ever. Like I can retire my entire career on the internet after making this TikTok because it's literally that good. All right guys. So it is almost midnight. Very late for me. I love going to bed early as we know. So anyways, I'm feeling a lot better than I have been feeling the past few days especially this morning. I think sometimes I'll just get in like a little bit worse of a head space. I'm like so unbelievably grateful for medicine. Like I am so much better because of my meds but I've just been like irresponsible the past few days and it just like really messes you up. So anyways, I'm glad that I took today to just do a lot of things that I really liked and I like was a little more intentional with that. Also I was thinking tonight, and deep thought, and I think that I was just using the wrong metrics like I don't know, I was saying things and doing things and like feeling things and I normally wouldn't even really feeling. Just thinking like okay the things that I'm like, you know, all messed up about are things that I actually don't even care about anyways. Anyways, I'm feeling better but I hope you guys enjoyed today's vlog. We only have like I think two days left of vlog week which is really crazy but I love you guys so much and I'll see you soon. Bye.