 I think this thing is working now, I'll just give it a second for people to show up. I think I can put this up higher on the bolt. Hold on, I'll put this in a better spot. Oh yeah, nobody's here yet, it's okay. I'm gonna make a mess in the mud. Ah, just scooched down this. Alright, I think this thing's working now. Hey, check out my bananas I just got. Oh, look at that. Cut them down just last night. Alright, mister whoever you are. Okay, Eli, back again. Everything's working now, right? I think it's working. You know, they did a YouTube app or something and like the last couple of times I've tried to do this is so glitchy. So the first time I don't know if anyone caught this me trying to say this while it was all fritzing out on my thing. Yeah, this pop-up shows up to give me some valuable information. I kept clicking close, I'm like close, close, go away, close. It's got this big notification taking up like the whole screen. I'm like close, close, close. And it wouldn't do anything until I said, oh, let me try the other button, learn more. And of course the learn more button works instantly and takes me to some website and I'm just like, ah. Anyway, I just restarted the whole tablet and turned it off and back on and everything seems fine. Oh, you want to see my stitches? Glad you survived, Jamie, someone's saying. How's the injury doing? Here, you want to see my cool stitches? Oh, yeah, look at that right there. That's some good stuff. And then that one right there. That's just a little one. This is the one that was squirt blood everywhere. Bellatrix, you saw my stitches, right? Yeah, when I hit my arm, that's not too gruesome, is it? I know it's a little gruesome. I hit my arm on the sheet metal and like almost instantly it was just like this whole thing was red with blood and it was just like, like running down like a faucet, so much blood. Anyway, I should put a trauma kit on my Amazon wish list. The thing is like, I mean, I should do that. Yes. But the, just besides that, I don't know that I've ever had a cut just not stop bleeding like that. Like normally, like even when I, when I got this, it would bled a lot, but I was like, okay, let me wrap it up. You know, 10 or 15 minutes later, it'll be fine. And, but like hours later, and then even when I got to the hospital, you know, the guy peeled off my crusty blood crusted bandage I had. And it was still like, it was just squirted. And the doctor's like, whoa, whoa, hey, what's up? It was just squirted everywhere. Anyway, let's see the sheet metal that tried to kill you. Oh, it's over there. My thing won't, my signal won't reach there. There's a possibility it might. All right. Invest in a trauma. Yeah, I should put some, some bandage and stuff, some first aid kit on my Amazon wish list. That's a, that's a really good idea. Thank you for saying that. I should hope he is treating you. Okay. So I got to say something about me and Shayna. Obviously, we have had some difficulties that have been going on for quite some time, actually. And everything kind of, you say came to a head or blew up recently. And this is put all the details aside. I'll just tell you where we are right now. So we discussed it. And in a nutshell, from this point going forward, we're just, we're just each doing her own things. And we're not going to try to like, we're just having separate lifestyles, you know, because like, I want to do this adventure builder, sustainable village here thing. And she wants to do something else. And I'm not even going to say what she wants to do. And I, because I don't know. And it's none of my business. None of my business, but I don't care. She's going to do her own thing. And I'm going to do my own thing. And we're just like, we're splitting all our just getting everything separate. So, and we, we've talked about that before and kind of done it. But I think it really, you know, when things really blew up, it was like, okay, that's what has to happen. And then, because when we actually just, you know, talked about it rationally and just got all the crap out. And yeah, you know, part of this is just, I'm like, no more, no, I'm just going to swear on this. So if anyone has kids and I'm sorry, this is, this is an adult show. I'm going to swear. So I was just like, obviously, over the last little while, I'm just like cutting bullshit out of my life. Like I'm just getting rid of all this bullshit. And I'm so, you know, DeShane and I talked and I'm just like, no more bullshit. We're getting rid of all the bullshit. What do we need to do? Anyway, so I think we have it at least work. I mean, I think we have things actually worked out better than we have in a long time. And I think part of that is also because she has a boyfriend now and now he can kind of be responsible for the things that she would ask me to do before. Because that was always an issue, you know, she wanted to be a strong independent woman, but then she wanted to ask me to do stuff. And then I kind of be like annoyed about it and she would be annoyed that she had to ask me to do stuff. Anyway, she's had someone else to do that now. So it's sort of like, I don't know, a bunch of things came together and a bunch of things blew up. And I think it's, I think it's going to be fine. You know, I'm, yeah, I think, I think that's going to be fine. And, you know, I also made this video last week about just getting rid of all this, this stuff I'd been carrying around all this, all these lies and you know, cover ups and stuff and you know, protecting people. Oh, there's a junk. And I gotta say, man, I feel so much better after that. Because, you know, it's the kind of thing where, you know, maybe I don't even know where this started, but at some point in the past, someone said, hey, could you just not mention that to people or could you just, you know, I lied about this. Can you just go along with it and it's like, all right, you know, to protect you all throw this little lump of coal onto my soul and just walk around with it. And then it's like another lump of coal and another and another and next thing I know my, my spirit is just covered in this black pile of raw. And I didn't notice how bad it was because it's something that had just been increasing so gradually over time. But then when I, when I just barfed everything out. And, you know, it's this isn't this is another one of those things where sometimes, you know, sometimes shit gets really bad. And that's what changes things and I've talked about this before, you know, like, like I think depression is like it's a, it's a trigger that that forces you to change things, except people take pills and then they don't actually do it. But like the point of depression or even like feeling suicidal and I still feel a little suicidal, but don't worry it's fine. But like all that stuff is like, it's, I think it's there like it developed in us to say okay now you've gotten past the point where it's acceptable now you have to do something you have to make a change. And, yeah, so just getting to the point with the Shayna where everything blew up. And it was like, everything was too much. If this was like this is not acceptable like you have to start addressing things we've been ignoring. So yeah, I started doing things like just cutting all the bullshit out of my life that I'm just like, and that's what I'm doing from now on. So if anyone, if anyone wants me to, you know, keep a secret or tell a lie, no, just I'm not not doing any more bullshit, not protecting anyone. I mean, not that I'm going to just tell everything all the time, whatever when it's inappropriate, but you know, just just just no more bullshit. And when I when I barfed out all that stuff that had been piling up over the years. Oh man it was like, like I didn't realize how heavy that was like I when I did it I was thinking I need to get the stuff out like I think I need to get this stuff out. But it was sort of like, I was thinking you know I'll be a few pebbles and I feel a little better, but it was like it was like a dump truck worth of like crap off my soul. And I can sleep like I sleep through the through the night now it's amazing. Like I used to sleep I used to sleep really well. And then first, I mean a lot of years now I just haven't been able to sleep that well. And it just got progressively worse and it was just this this darkness on me. And, yeah, just getting it off. Oh, it's like, it's like night and day I feel like it totally different I feel like I feel like the me I used to be like, like I can go up. Yeah, like I feel good I can sleep when I'm around other people I want to talk to them. So like the last few days I'm like way more social and charismatic than I than I have been in a long time. And that's how I used to be I used to be very like I wouldn't say I'm super outgoing like I can when I'm around people I get you know outgoing stuff I can also spend like you know months totally by myself. But you know for a lot of years I just didn't want to talk to anyone because everything it was just it was just this this blackness on me that I didn't even I didn't even realize was really there until I barfed it all out. So anyway, and to be able to do that I had to get to the point where I just didn't care about the consequences or anything because I know there's you know all these negative consequences is going to be terrible. But the thing is, and I know this from being an adventure builder and caring about honesty and honor and all this stuff is like, whenever you tell the truth. It's not going to be as bad as it seems like it's going to be in the end. And there's also there's always going to be some a lot of benefits that you don't even know about, which is why I put that in my in my principles you know honor and honesty this is important stuff and yeah, this is just a testament to yes it really works. Give me like 10 seconds. I need to check my pancakes. These guys are sourdough, sourdough coconut banana pancakes. Yeah, there's some right there. Yeah, I have a whole thing of bananas like a tree worth of bananas on the floor over here. And it's a good thing my kids are here because I've not eat all those bananas, but they they've already eaten like half of them and they just got here. It's ridiculous. You guys are pigs. Let me just put my pan back on the stove. Oh, the fire is going crazy now. Anyway, so don't burn the pancakes. I know I just they're they're very cooked. I don't need to cook them for like a few seconds after I flipped and I should probably take them off right now. They're probably done on the other side. You can't come with me because it's outside. I don't have a place to put this. But give me a second. Let me let me put these back. I'll just bring them in. I'll cook the rest after I'm done this. You guys want some pancakes? Yes. These ones are hot. Those ones are cold. But after we eat all the bananas. So you need all the bananas and then all the pancakes. All right, so what was I talking about? Oh, tomatoes are here. Good. Yeah, so just everything is going better. So Deshaena and I are just having separate lifestyles and separate lives. And because of several things that have just come together at the same time, it's actually possible now. So I'm going to focus. I'm going to go back to focusing totally on making this self-sustainable paradise here and this like adventure builder, self-sustainable village. And I really haven't been putting the kind of, not effort. I've been putting tons of effort. I haven't been putting the right mojo and effort into that for a while because I've just had this blackness on me. It was darkness. You know, it's just dragging me down. And then, you know, just the fact that Deshaena and I are each trying to go in different ways. But I had to keep, we had to keep anyway. Now I feel like my plate was full and like two thirds of it just got cleared off. And now I have all this, all this extra potential and energy and I can, it's like, it's like I can breathe again. You know, it's like coming down off Mount Everest, which I haven't actually done. But you know, it's like suddenly it's like breathing in me. Yes, I did. I did see that. Tomaters. Thank you. Yeah. So I don't know if you miss this Tomaters, but I was just saying, you know, like out of everything that blew up between me and Deshaena, it all, I think it had to blow up because there was just too much tension and stuff. And once it blew up and just like everything, like I barfed out all the stuff I had to just get off my chest. And you know, a few people complain that, oh, you can't do that on YouTube except my life has been public for like the last 20 years. It's not like I just took my private life and like put it on the internet. No, it's been there for like a long time. So shut up about. Oh yeah. I mean, I mean, I may be more direct and swear more because I just don't give a shit. But yeah, I mean, once, once everything got out and we get, yeah, it's just, I think everything's going to be much better now. So instead of us being stuck trying to like kind of go in different directions, we're actually just going in different directions. And we don't even want to go in different directions geographically. We still want to live in the same place. So it was funny because like, you know, like a couple weeks ago, it got to the point where it was like everything's wrecked, nothing's going to work. And once we really got down to it, it was like, okay, the important stuff we still want to do, we still want to raise the kids together. We still want to live in the same place. We want to live here. I'm here. She's right there. But we just want to have drastically different lifestyles. And I mean, that's not even a new thing, but just the fact that she has a boyfriend now who can do a lot of the stuff that I was doing before and just various things. They just all end up coming together and we really looked at it. It was like, no, this totally works. It ends up working out. So I think everything's going to end up working out. Jamie wants to share all. Yeah, maintain a positive spirit. I'm still feeling a little bit. I mean, I still feel a little suicidal because that's, but that's something I've gotten accustomed to. I was suicidal for a lot of my early life, but that feeling is something I learned how to use. So instead of killing myself, I would use that suicidal feeling to run. Actually, that's what I ended up doing a lot of. I ended up running with it. I was probably a little, I probably over-trained myself a little, maybe a lot because of that. But it was like a way of using that really powerful motivation that can come from a negative thing. But if you look at it right, you can end up using it as a positive thing. But anyway, I'm feeling that right now and I don't feel like I need to squish it down. I guess right now I feel like I'm in a state where I can do things that I haven't been able to do in a long time for a few different reasons. So I just got this giant pile of darkness off my spirit and I can sleep again. It's like I'm 20 times more awake than before. It's like I can smile again. I haven't even been able to smile in like a while except when I'm like making it. So all this darkness is gone, right? And in case anyone's wondering, I share everything with my kids. I don't have any secrets for my kids. They always know what's going on. Good or bad, whatever. And then I get to see how it all gets worked out and that's one of the learning things, right? My kid. Anyway, so I got all this darkness off my spirit and my spirit is just like it's like floating now. It's so much better. And then I've also got this, you know, semi suicidal feeling, which means I don't really have any sense of fear, which is how this happened. You know, I didn't have enough. I have to mentally make sure that I pay attention better. But that lack of that lack of pretty much any fear gives me the ability to do something that perhaps no amount of courage would. Where's the baby? Okay, that maybe no amount of courage will be able to handle, but a fearless person can do. So I feel like I'm at this point right now. I'm like set up to do something. There's got to be some big thing that I'm going to be able to handle. And maybe if you're the kind of person who thinks, you know, everything happens for a reason, like maybe all that, maybe all that shit had to happen to set me up for this thing to handle something that's about to happen. Or that something some or be able to do some some huge thing that's coming up. Or I don't really think about things so much as in terms of like everything happens for a reason kind of thing. I think of it more like, I mean, but I think it was totally valid valid way to think, but I think of it as more just like, okay, anytime anything happens. There are consequences and side effects and things and sometimes you end up with a bunch of side effects that give you some special power for a while. And that's when you can really tackle and and and go after like some kind of big thing like some kind of really, really big goal. And so I don't know. I don't know what that's going to end up being, but I feel pretty motivated and fearless at the moment. Like I can, like I can either handle anything or at least I'm willing to go into anything. You know, okay, what else is going on? Okay, so, so right now I want to put, I want to start putting more effort into creating adventure builder village, because that darkness is it was really making that difficult. And now, and this isn't just something that just happened today that I'm just feeling today. This is like it's been sticking. It's been like, I don't know, the last week I kind of lost track of time, basically, but roughly the last week. You know, once I got everything off my chest and everything, like I've just felt much more, you know, after getting all that darkness off and it's sticking it's not going away. It's just going to stick. And then I feel much more like I used to be so I think that's sticking and audio video is great today. Just had to say great I haven't been reading any of the comments because I'm just going through all this crap right now. But hopefully I'll get to them. So I want to put a lot more effort into building adventure builder village. And one of the things for that is, I want to get this guest house made up behind my house, so that people can come stay, you know, test it out for a week or whatever. And I got it. I got to say, you know, my friend who's who came, who's here, he's like my best friend now he's, he's like, you know, he came to join the community I mentioned him a few times. I mentioned him a lot of times actually he came during the darkness and just pushed his way in basically and just dealt with it. Yeah, I know. We already went over that the baby's asleep give me some knuckles dude. Yeah. Okay, so yeah he came during a difficult time and he had to deal with a bit of difficulty. And I got to thank him for that. But now I feel like it's going to be much smoother and much better, bringing people here to be part of that he likes to call it part of a village because he thinks if I if I call it a community people are going to think it's a village and communist, like, everyone gets together and you know, it's like, you just get a house for free and basically, but he but he's saying if it's a village people think it's work, which is what it is, you know. Yeah, I guess maybe I'll have to start doing some more videos of like adventure builder recruitment kind of stuff to to come move here. And, you know, my original idea for people moving here was that people come and they could you live in some temporary spot or just stay with me or whatever for a little while or whatever. And usually people would say on one of my islands and like camping or, you know, in a five a glass dome or something. And then they end up buying their own land. How does star recruit handle fire. I don't know. I think it doesn't burn that well. Well, let me let me finish what I'm saying before I start answering class. What the hell was I talking about? Dang it. What was I talking about? Oh, yeah, about about bringing people so originally it was like people would come in and stay in some temporary housing that I would give them and then they would buy their own land island, whatever. And that that is definitely an option. But now a few other options have opened over the years because people have come and said, well, I don't really want to buy land. And I just rent a spot for you kind of indefinitely. And then I'm like, all right, like about like 100 bucks a month for that. I'm like, oh, should I have said to like probably but I'll take that. No, I don't want to make time for my office or anything. But oh, how's my arm right there. I could show that while I'm talking. Yeah, I say. Oh, I have to not move. Oh, good one. There's another piece here. So yeah, I've become open to the idea of people either coming and buying their own land or renting, you know, a piece of land on my property, because I have I do have a bunch of property, which is the more I think about it, the more cool I think that would be to just kind of have like a bunch of like, I don't know, even like Starro Creek domes or some kind of cabins or something kind of in a, in a, in a spot, make it like a little neighborhood. And that would be really cool. Like over on the farm, the farm is what we prefer to this woman. It's what we call my my biggest piece of land. It's on one of the main islands. Make tons of money to reinvest in the village. Well, I don't want to make tons of money from people like renting, but I do want to make enough money to kind of make it worth doing, you know. And then yeah, it just any money I get from that just gets reinvested into, you know, building machines, things, whatever, you know, your arm looks great. Thank God. I don't know what happens if you light Starro Creek on fire. Someone check that there's got to be a video of that. How many properties do I have here? Five something like that. I mean, some of them are real small. Six, six different properties. Yeah, six different properties. But some of them are real small, and then some of them are bigger. I think it's in total it's something like 30 acres, which is a good size, you know, for, for a little village kind of deal. And then there's also land in the area that you could buy, you know, you pester people and say, Hey, I'm looking for something. Anyway, so yeah, I definitely want to want to do more on that and get that going more. And then just on the socializing in general front, you know, I've mentioned wanting to find a girlfriend for a while. Do I need to find a girlfriend or just to go. Bellatrix says, Yes, I should find a girlfriend. Okay, I need to get a girlfriend and get horses. Is that right? You get animals on the farm. Well, we'll get animals on the farm when we get things more worked out. She wants horses to be found by Ori. Okay. And you know, this, this whole girlfriend thing is something I've been thinking about and talking about with my friend and you know, I'll be often the general consensus is, you know, you can't force these kind of things. You just got to let them happen. But I don't know. I'm starting to think maybe if a person looks at it like it's an engineering problem or like any other kind of like problem solving thing, then just figure it out and figure out how to make it happen. I do hang out with people. You never see me hang out with people. When I go to town, I talk to people and I hang out with people. You know how many police officers I hung out with recently? Nothing. The police officers were pretty. Anyway, I'm going to put you in a headlock right on camera. Hold on. I have to what? I have to go to town and hang out with people. No, you're always saying that when you're going down, you're going to have to like call me because you're shopping down nothing else. All right. I'm having this ridiculous discussion with my 12 year old. He's giving me shit. You laugh anytime I swear, don't you? I basically taught you guys to think that swear words are funny. Anyway, she's saying like, yeah, but you don't socialize enough and stuff. Dude, you know, socialize enough. That's because like I just worked all the time because my plate was so full. But now that I've just wiped off like two thirds of my plate, now I actually have time and I just, you know, spent some time with my friend. We were like, let's just go to town and chill out. Like we haven't been able to do that because we're always just working all the time. And, you know, with the kids and with the Shannon, when the kids are with me, I'm trying to figure out how to get them involved in working on things to get things, you know, more self sufficient. And, you know, we'll do digging and building together and stuff, which is also great learning, right? Yeah. And, but then as soon as I take the kids to the Shannon's house, I'm like, okay, now I got to work really hard on the things I can't do with the kids around or just like, I'm just like, go, go, go, go, go. But now that we have just kind of separated our lives and she's got that and now I've got this, I can just focus on my own thing. And it's so much less stuff to worry about. And, you know, I feel like I do actually have time to put some effort into it, put some time into it, you know, meet people and stuff. But I have to, but on the other, on the other hand, I was also thinking, you know, what if I just approach it like, like any other problem solving thing. Like when I, when I wanted to get a lathe, I put a thing out on the internet in various places. And I was just like, hey, I'm looking for a lathe. And does anyone go and poof, some guy was like, oh, I got a lathe all, you know, you can have it. I'll just ship it to you if you pay for shipping and stuff. So what if I like go online and make a video with like saying, I'm just still thinking about this. I don't know what I mean. But what if I'm like, hey, everybody in the world who watches this. If you, if you can help like, if you introduce me to someone that I end up living with for one year, and I presume if I live with someone for one year, it's probably, probably good. I'll give you $1,000 or something. I mean, I wouldn't care. I mean, that would be way worth, way worth more than $1,000 to me or something like that, you know, which I would totally do. Someone introduced me to someone and I ended up being with them. Oh, I would still hook you up with, you want some, you want some stainless steel pipes? Anyway, so I feel like I can actually put effort into that. And another thing is, like previously, I was always kind of hesitant to meet anyone because I was always like, well, at some point, she's going to have to meet the Shayna. Who's like basically entangled in my life. And then, you know, in the past things have not gone well in that situation enough times that I just like, there's no point in even trying. But now, you know, our lives are separated and going in different directions enough. Plus, she has a boyfriend that I feel like, I feel like this is the first time I could reasonably meet someone. That girl on the bike already does. All right, don't go beating up the Shayna. We have different things, $1,000 girlfriend. Dude, I would do $10,000 girlfriend. But like, if I said I would give anyone $10,000 if they introduced me to the road, then people would start scamming. They'd be like, ooh, I could get $10,000 from this guy if I just pretend to be a cool girlfriend for like a year and they're like, cool. Not that $10,000 worth a year, but well, I guess it is to some people actually. Anyway, that was what she was talking about. Okay. And one of the reasons I'm thinking about this is because when I think about my dating history, like there was a there was a significant portion of time when I was like, good looking dude. I was doing sports. I had all this hair and it was like not gray. But like, the kids are like laughing at me. But dude, I was a good looking dude back in the day. You're still good looking. Oh, I gotta go. You're not still a good looking. Hear that, everybody? I'm still a good looking guy. Oh, yeah. Anyway. Oh, what do you get for membership? I don't know. Ukraine refugee options. A lot of Ukraine. Hey dude. Anyway, what was I talking about? So one of the reasons I've been thinking about this is because like when I think about my dating history, well, there's there are two things that I think made it difficult to meet the right person. I mean, besides just the fact that we have the screwed up society where people don't actually connect and stuff, you know, that's that's a whole other thing. But things I could actually maybe address. One was that like, like, this is just horribly egotistical, but like I was really good looking guy and I was doing all these sports and I was going to an Ivy League school. So it was like, I checked off all these boxes for a lot of women and women would come to me. So I never really learned to approach women that that well, or I would just say hi and it would be like done deal. Oh, cool. Right. Like it was too easy. I didn't really learn to really, to really be particular, you know. And then the other thing is, you know, you can kind of you can kind of divide people on this scale of like givers and takers. And, you know, it's a sliding scale. So it's not like any one person is all 100% giving and another person is like 100% greedy taker. You know, there's somewhere in the middle and all this stuff. I'm, I'm pretty far down the end of giving like I always want to I always want to do for other people. And it's, it's far enough that it's actually to my detriment at times, like my default. If someone asked me for help, my default answer is just yes, like, yes, I'll help. Yes. You need help. Or if I see somebody help, I'm like, let me help. You know, like I always want to give and put my own energy in the other people. And you know, it's, I've had, I've had to actually kind of purposely not do it so much because I'll put myself in a compromising position. You know, like I'll give too much. But then there are also people who are more takers. And I don't want to get into which is better or worse or which one's, you know, good and evil or anything. It's just, it's just two different ways of being. And I'm, I like to be a giver. I think that's the more important thing. I'm sure takers have a different perspective and they will tell you their reasons for doing that. But regardless, there are people who give more and people who take more. Now, in, in relationships I've had and in a lot of relationships that I've seen other people have and friends and stuff, you, you very, very often like mostly end up getting a giver and a taker together. And this is, you know, the whole opposites attract thing, right? Opposites do attract, but they don't end up working well together because, you know, they'll end up meeting because the giver always has something to offer. You know, it's like, I can help. You know, here's, here's some food or there's some, there's some, they're always giving something, they're always offering something. You need your, your shoes tied because you're holding stuff here. Let me carry you back. Like the giver is always like ready to help and the takers always ready to, to take help, to accept help. So, you know, if you have a bunch of people around and this giver is just giving up this, I'm ready to give help vibe and the takers like I need help. Then they come together and the giver is like, here, let me carry your bags. Let me, let me help you with whatever I'll put your stuff in your car for you. And then those people meet, right? But then if you have two givers in the same place, they're both trying to give, they end up like, well, I don't have anything to give to you because you're trying to give as well. So let me find someone who is, who needs some, who needs help. So then it, and I'm super oversimplifying this, but it's, it's like, it's just this underlying thing that's kind of always there, right? So then two givers have a much harder time, a much lower probability of coming together. And the same thing goes for two takers. Two takers, people who want stuff, they're going to be like, wait, you're taking two. So I don't want to deal with you. I'm going to find someone who's giving. And the other giver says, oh, I don't want to deal with you because you're also taking, let me find a giver. And of course, this is all going, this is all going on below, you know, like in the subconscious and below the radar kind of stuff, until you know how to, how to look for it. So you end up like two givers have much more difficulty meeting each other and two takers have much more difficulty meeting each other. But that's what you need to, you need to, you need to have that balance. You need to have the people with the similar level of give and take. Or else you end up with one person giving the other person taking all the time, which works in the short term, but pretty soon people end up presenting, right? So, so this is, this is a, this is a problem for anyone who's not right in the middle. Like the further you get into being a giver or a taker, the harder it is to meet someone who's going to be similar to you. So you're balanced out so that, you know, if you have two givers, you give each other and you take care of each other. If you have two takers, they limit what they can take from each other. So it ends up being balanced either way, right? So if when I look at my past relationships, it's generally takers because that's why I end up meeting. And then when I think about the few times I've had situations with people who are also very giving, it was like, it was just a really beautiful thing. And there were reasons why they didn't last and whatever, but it doesn't matter. So how do you, how do you orchestrate a meeting of two givers or two takers? But in my case, it would be a giver. And yeah, I mean, like, there's got to be a way to do it, right? And then maybe if I can figure out how to do this for myself, I can figure out how to help other people do this, too. And then I don't want to turn in some big matchmaker thing or whatever. But like, there's got to be some, there's got to be some, some problem solving thing, some piece of information, some tactics, some kind of thing where a giver can meet another giver. That's not to pretend to be a taker, because that's obviously one idea, you know, just pretend to be a taker and then you meet a giver, because that's being disingenuous. That's not a good way to start in your relationship, but there's got to be a way to do it. And maybe it is something where you just like tell all your friends or family, this is what I'm looking for. I'm looking for someone who's also a people pleaser, who's also a giver, who's also, you know, the nice person who, who maybe sometimes gets taken advantage of. Because they're too nice, like that's the kind of person I need, because I'm like that too. And people always tell me, don't be so nice, because you get taken advantage of and things like that. But I'm pretty good at not taking, getting taken advantage of most of the time. But regardless, I don't ever want to change that. I like who I am. I like being someone who gives a little too much. I'd rather be someone who gives a little too much than takes a little too much. Anyway, so that's something I've been thinking about. And I want to, I want to figure that out because I would, you know, I have this amazing life that I love and it's a beautiful thing and just the idea of sharing it with someone else. It was just, ah, it would be, it would be amazing. But another, another issue is the person that I would be looking for is probably not hanging around watching YouTube videos, right? So if anyone out there though knows someone, let me know, totally let me know. Send me a email, it's down here. If you introduce me to someone, I'll invite you to the wedding. Oh, fly over. Yeah, I'll let you, I'll let you ride my giant robot. Come on. Okay, that's gotta be worth it. I know I don't have a giant robot. My daughter's like, you don't have a giant robot. But why are you guys so interested in this? Usually when I do lives, you guys are like off doing something else. I'm talking about relationships and girls and, and that's interesting. She's like, I don't, we don't have anything else to do. Dude, I just cleaned up your whole room. It's beautiful. I like that you're out here though. One of my daughters is like, they're all like me in some way, but, but my oldest one likes to go in her room for endless hours just creating stuff. And I totally get that because I used to spend like, I would spend like weeks just like locked in my room, building these little walking robots and stuff. I'm not making robots. No, you're not making robots. You're doing building your own things. But I'm just saying like, I would, I would also lock myself in my room and I'd be like, everybody go away. I must build, I must create, I must make stuff. Okay. Should I, should I shut up now and look at what some comments are going on here? You know, I really wasn't sure if I was going to do a live today because I was like, I don't know so much crap's going on. It's all over the place, but I'm not even sure what I'm going to say about it. But I think, I think this is all coming out. All right. All right. What do we got over here on comments? I've just talked for like 40 minutes. So I'm going to be way behind. You need to find that girl on the bike again. She's probably low key ABC material. Low key ABC material. Adventure builder club material. Yeah. So in case you don't, anyone who doesn't know what I'm talking about. I don't know. Like months ago when I did a boat ride video on the way home, I was just talking about all kinds of stuff. Because I'm just like driving flowers on a boat ride. And I talked about this, this pretty girl I saw on a bike and she like had a six pack and I was like, whoa, she must, she looks strong. And she wasn't like, you know, big and bulky or anything. But she was like lean and like had, I mean, not, not like extreme, like horrible grossness or anything. Just like, she looked like she was in shape. That's, that's how important is she looked like she was in shape. Like she, she does stuff. And then I was saying, you know, is it creepy if I run up to like catch up to a girl who's riding her bike and run beside her and say hi. And the general consensus was, yeah, that's creepy. I mean, I didn't do it because I was like, that's probably going to be crazy. But maybe that shouldn't be creepy. That totally shouldn't be creepy. But I do understand why it is because, you know, men are big and scary and women are small and men can beat them up or whatever. So, you know, fine. All right, let's since, all right, since I'm like 40 minutes behind here, I'm just going to scroll through the comments real quick and just stop at one and see what it is. Okay, what design are you thinking for the guest house? Okay. Oh, it's Mr landfill because he's got all those discs that need to go on the landfill. Right. I think I remembered it right. Anyway, okay, now I'm reading other ridiculous comments. Okay, what designer you thinking for the guest house? It's not. Okay. First, it's not just going to be a guest house. Like I'm also going to have, I want to put a nice kitchen in there because where I usually cook is just outside the front door to the side where I have like a, like a rocket stove. It's nice stainless steel ones got fiberglass installations. That's where I was cooking the pancakes. But it's not so good when it's raining, you know. And generally speaking, like almost always it's not raining when I need to cook or if it is I wait a little while and it's somehow it usually works out. But occasionally I have to go get like some big panel of fiberglass that came off something and like lean it against the wall and kind of hide under there to cook. You know, so everything doesn't get wet. So I want to build a nice kitchen in the guest house that's going to be up on the hill. And I don't know, it's going to be, it's going to have multi purposes, but you know, guest house will be one of the purpose. And the design I'm thinking of right now. Obviously it's going to be a dome of some kind. Okay, you know those fiberglass domes that I've been that I've made several of. I'm thinking of using the mold for those fiberglass domes and instead of making a fiberglass one making a styrocrete one and also making it taller. So those those fiberglass domes just done on their own are they're in feet so 18 foot diameter and 10 feet tall. So it's just a little bit more than a than a half dome, like a half spear. I mean, so it's a little bit taller than it. It's a little bit taller than half it's anyway. 10 feet tall 18 feet across, which is like three meters tall and like six almost six meters wide. And if I make it a little bit taller, you know, just put a cylinder con or styrocrete wall at the bottom. I could bump it up to maybe 14 feet tall and then make it two stories, which I think would be great because it's not a huge dome or anything. So this even just the stairs would take up a significant portion of the space. But oh, I can have outdoor stairs. Oh yeah, outdoor stairs and you can go in the bottom and the top. And I think it would be cool to have two floors and I'm not sure exactly how I'd use them or whatever, but that's what that's what I'm thinking right now. Styrocrete dome, like 18 feet wide 14 feet tall. Two stories and more details, I'm sure. Let's see. Glad Jamie found himself again. I look forward to more lunacy. Yeah, I feel, I feel like I've been, I didn't realize how lost I was. I knew I knew I'd been having difficulty for years and you know it's been, I've kind of been struggling with some stuff. I didn't realize just how bad it was until I just, you know, kind of cracked and just got just kind of reset, you know, I needed to reset and this is this is like the me that I that I used to be when I was happy like when I was happy. You know, and that doesn't mean nothing bad is going to happen in the future or the near future or anything, but I feel like I'm, regardless of any of that, I'm in a much better state right now to handle anything. If you don't fire that sawmill up floor, we floor the floors and run around the track soon. I'll fall off myself. Oh, yeah, so he's talking about this lumber mill I've been making, which is basically done except for the track and the wheels on the bottom. Like the whole thing has to roll along the track so it can go over logs. But once I get that going, then I can cut logs, make boards, build the second and third floors. I also have to get the logs out of the off the farm, which is my biggest property. So I need to make some some good paths and stuff. There's a lot to do to get the first board. But once I've got the first board, there will be a lot of stuff done. Hold on. Dude, what are you smashing? Don't smash that too hard. You're going to break something. Oh, okay. Don't be too loud though. I'm trying to talk. Anyway, once I get the first board made, I'll have so much stuff set up. I have to get the solar panels set up to run the lumber mill and then get the lumber mill. Well, I mean, put it where it goes and put it on its track and everything and then get the access to the logs and get them here and all that. Once all that's all set up, I'll be able to just keep going. Not that it would be that easy. It would still be a bunch of work, moving all this stuff around, moving the logs and getting them in place and cutting them and all that. But yeah, once I get it going, a lot of this stuff is going to be done. Why is this going to stop? Go away. No, okay. Need a sheep PMM runs on Pandora's Box Jank. I have no idea what you're talking about right now. You did impact me, bro. It was powerful. Oh, good. Parent mode activated. Baby is being too quiet. Something must be afoot. Yeah, if I don't see the baby running around or yelling or something, I'm like pretty quickly like, wait, where's she? She's either Sneaked off somewhere where she's, she's out. She's like knocked out. Usually it's just she's, oh, she's so adorable. So she's laying in what we call the marshmallow right now, which is A while ago, I made a video about making this giant bag and then stuffing it with styrofoam bits. So it's just like a giant beanbag. But it's not. So why do they call it beanbag chair? It's full of styrofoam, giant styrofoam bit chair. She's just like melted into it. You're too short to get up here. Oh, 129 in the chat all time record. No, it was up to like 180 or something. Your kids are hilarious. This is a good timing. I love when they work on projects or videos with you. I love when you guys work on stuff with me too. You are now off the hook much as I agree with you being able to say the S word. I really not make it a word that the kids here often. Oh, no, these guys, my kids here, all the swearing. Once once I decided they're not going to school, I was like, there's really not any reason to prevent them from hearing and using, you know, shit, castle and all that stuff. So to you guys, there's just normal words, right? Yeah, but you they my kids use swear words appropriately. And the hilarious example I like to give is when everyone car canyon was playing with his truck. And he dropped it down the stairs. And he's like, it was a submarine. What did he what did he say when he dropped a submarine down the stairs? I've got a while. Wait, wait, wait. Aurora will remember. She's the one who remembers everything. It was something like, ah, shit, I dropped my fucking truck down the goddamn stairs. I was like, well, that's appropriate use or is submarine. I don't think he actually said goddamn, I just made that one. No, he said you definitely use some swear words. It was pretty funny. But yeah, you know, I like to I don't want to teach them that words are bad. I want to teach them that intentions and how you use them is good or bad. So why does this thing keep popping up? Yeah, I don't know what's going on with this. I don't know if it's my tablet or just the YouTube app that read whatever, but like, man, this thing is so glitchy. Maybe I should try. I do have another tablet I could do this on next week. Oh, come on. So right now I'm trying to scroll this stupid. Was that comments with the stock. Come on. Let's do it. Go on. Go move it. Oh, come on. Oh, you son of a, oh, you little bastard. All right. Comments are currently off. How do you I know how to fix that? Look at your funny teeth coming out. He's getting your adult teeth. Oh my God. 10 year olds are hilarious. It looks like they've been punched in the teeth until they all come in and you didn't have your two front teeth for like, like three years or something. Maybe it wasn't that long. It was a while. Oh, okay. Now my, did you ever see that girl on the bike again? I did not. Maybe, maybe I need to make a better point of whenever I go to town, talk to any, any, just talk to all the girls. And I just went to town with my friend and we were being social and talking to everyone again. But yeah, I think I also need this to start being more social in general. I mean, you know, to meet a girl, but also to meet other, other friends and people who want to possibly move here and stuff. Because I want to have a really awesome village, village, community, whatever you call it. Oh my God. This thing is stuck here. All right. I can't, I can't get my comments to scroll. Bellatrix, maybe my fingers are too dry. Maybe, maybe you can sense my stitches. Come on, move. Dude, this thing does not work now. All right, move your head. All right, I might have to just, oh wait, now it starts working. Talk to all the people. Right now I'm at the bottom of the comments. I'm not going to touch it again. So we're just going to be, I'm sorry for any mint, any comments I missed, not being banned from swear words. I meant is a heavy bit for them to be hearing the S word that rhymes with true aside. You guys know what suicide is, right? It's like when you kill yourself. Don't, don't do that. I don't, I don't think that like not teaching, not letting a kid know the word suicide is going to make them not want to commit suicide. If anything is going to be like, like if you try to hide something from someone, they're going to want to see it. So I would rather not make that be an incentive for anything. So I'm just like whatever you have any question about anything, I'll share it with you. I'll teach you anything. I answer all your questions. They're weird, wacky crap, whatever. And I think that's one of the, one of the best ways to teach kids is kids are full of tons of curiosity. They'll ask all kinds of questions. And, and whenever my kids watch movies, I always watch movies with them and they always come up with like 100 questions about what's going on and why it's going on and all this stuff. And I'm just like, well, let's pause the movie for a minute and I'll answer. I think that's a really important piece of education in general. The end of life is still part of life. Family is everything. Xanon Hamish, man, you got a cool name. Talk to all the people. Yes. Didier Ballet, have you ever considered Ram Pump Hydro Pelton Wheel? Oh man, I made a Ram Pump in Vermont. It was amazing. It pumped the water up. I don't remember how high it was, but it was something like, like six stories high or something. Maybe not that much, five stories. I don't know, it pumped the water way up. And up at the top, it was just a little trickle coming out, but it got the water up there. And, you know, a little trickle all day. It's a decent amount of water. But here I do have a stream and I want to, I want to set up a Ram Pump that will pump water to out to the water, like out to the ocean actually. I know, but and maybe to other places, but yes, Ram Pump definitely. One of the things I'm going to have to contend with here is that, you know, I'm in the tropics. So when it rains, it rains really hard sometimes. I have this, I call it the river. It's like a little stream, but like a pretty good flowing stream, like definitely enough to run a Ram Pump, even when it's been dry for a while. Like it's always running. But when it's like a torrential downpour, that stream is like a raging river. Like, yeah, and it's, it's like, it comes way up over the banks. So if I put a Ram Pump in that, I'll have to make sure it can handle that, you know, which isn't the hardest thing in the world. It should be alright. Do you have demographics for your subscribers? I have geographics, which I actually looked up the other day for some, for someone wanted to know. I think like 49% of my viewers are from the United States and like 13% from England and then like Tennis from Canada and like Sweden and like, you know, Northern Europe and stuff. But then, you know, after that, it's like 1% from like all over the place, less than a percent. I wanted a village to Joseph Blowmeister. Do you want a village? Do you want like an adventure builder village? What are you doing anyway? What's your village story? Because, man, I really, really want to get this village going. And, you know, I also feel like I'm at the point where like I have enough stuff set up that I could like help people who are coming to start a village. You know, I could help someone, I could take a week off from what I'm doing here and help someone build a house. Like if someone wanted to come and rent a chunk of land from me or something and they're like, you know, I want to rent it for like the next 40 years or whatever. Can we build a house on it? You know, I could take a week off and go do it. Okay, let's see. Regardless of how we feel about certain subjects, end of life is still part of life. Yeah, I mean, everyone dies. I don't think it's anything that needs to be hidden from people and people choose different ways to die. And I know there are, you know, there are a lot of bad things about suicide, particularly like, like culturally it's seen as a very bad thing. But I also think in certain circumstances, it is a reasonable option. For example, say you're a slave trader, and you go to some country, let's say country number one, and you get a bunch of slaves. Okay, can you stop doing that, dude? And you go to, you go to country number two and you get a bunch of slaves. So you got a bunch of number one slaves and a bunch of number two slaves and then not that they're peeing and pooing. You give a bunch of number one slaves and number two slaves. If all your number one slaves keep killing themselves, you're going to stop going to number one country to take more slaves. So, you know, it sucks, but it also in the long run ends up saving more people and doing a better thing. So in life, you know, sometimes it's important to take a stand to the point of dying or killing yourself. And it sucks if you're ever in that circumstance where that is the best option. You're in a horrible circumstance if that becomes the best option. But there are horrible circumstances sometimes so bad that that is the best option. Anyway, let's see. You have life and then you have the afterlife. The more you know. Okay, this thing keeps popping up and it's driving me crazy. Okay. How do you ignore any part of life and why wind up saying yeah. All right, this guy saying it's probably YouTube that this sticky thing and they all this pop ups and crap and everything being glitchy. I have to restart YouTube every so often on my tablet. Everything else works fine. Oh yeah, I was thinking that too because everything else on my tablet works fine but this YouTube app just as of, I don't know the last couple weeks so glitchy man. Maybe if I maybe if I uninstall it and reinstall it, it'll be better anyway. It rains a lot there any ideas about improving traction on the solar tractor chains more aggressive tires. No, I mean with the tractor that I just don't use it in the in the mud. So if it's raining, I'll just do something else. Yeah, the bulldozer. So yeah, I only use the bulldozer when it's driving and I was driving it around the other day was fun. I was just playing around, you know, moving some dirt a bit not anywhere for anything particular. It was actually after this so I did I was like I can't really. Well I think I don't know I don't I don't want to rip it open on anything. So I've been careful with my hand because when I when I first did this for anyone who missed it I cut myself twice. Well, I mean it was at the same time. Oh and that that does not go right through. No, I think I don't think it goes right through. Anyway, I'm pretty sure it doesn't go right through. What was I talking about? Anyway, I was driving the bulldozer around playing. Was I saying anything else important? How's the compost going? I don't know but my well it's going all right. I had a pile of grass that was like, like this tall and now it's like a foot tall like it's all just like compressing like like collapsing disintegrating kind of. And you know when I fluff it up it says looking like it's dirty in there so I think it's I think it's turning to dirt. It was just a whole bunch of grass and weeds and all that stuff just piled up. And now my grass up at the top is starting to get long again. So I'm going to have to spend an hour just going around with my machete cutting all the grass and throwing it either on the same pile or just do a pile beside it I'm not sure yet. And then I need to start mixing that into some dirt break up the dirt and put some charcoal in there in some ashes and stuff I don't know. My friend who lives here, he's been doing a lot of experiments like trying to improve the soil, and it's basically the same thing just this dense clay here and there. And he says he's got stuff growing like like really well. So I need to go look at what he's doing I should probably take my camera when I go over there and make a video and interrogate him he doesn't want to be in videos which I totally understand. Excuse me while I have my beer. It's just sky beer brewed at 40,000 feet 20,000 feet how high are clouds. First time. Oh my gosh this thing is popping up again. Stop it stop it. Stop it YouTube app you're driving me crazy. Okay. First time popping in on a live it's nice to see the kids are there. Yes, it is nice to see the kids are there. I'm glad about that. Every time I touch the screen to like move the comments this stupid actions pop up. Now and now now it's asking me to like put the user in time out or remove I'm like no I don't want to do any of that I'm just trying to scroll. That was cool bit noisy I don't know what was cool. What was cool that was a bit noisy I don't know what I was just doing. Or what was just happening. I don't know maybe it's talking about. Oh maybe it was a bulldozer. I don't know. All right well this this thing is like telling me it's not gonna work anymore. Do I do I need to just all right YouTube comments are are gone again here see if you can touch that green that blue. Yeah green. Yeah not working. Wait I push this button maybe I can get it to wake up no. Why why do they update programs when they're working just fine and then turn them into something that doesn't work. Oh it drives me crazy. It's progress. All right Belly tricks what do you think we should talk about? Oh so I did get this big delivery of sheet metal and pipes stainless steel and aluminum aluminum stuff. And that's what I cut my arm on a couple of pieces of well piece of stainless steel sheet metal is 0.6 millimeter thin so the corner was nice and sharp. I feel so stupid whatever. You know I haven't heard myself in a long time so I can't really explain that much. But I got so I have all this material now. And one of the things I got is a hundred stainless steel pipes that are one and a quarter inch. Everybody I apologize everything is an inches that's just what they come in I don't know one and a quarter inches like three or four centimeters whatever. 20 feet long like six six meters. So I got a hundred of those and. And this was all because someone sent me some Bitcoin. And I was like oh I can get some stuff because I wanted to get I've wanted to get a bunch of stuff for a while, partly because you know inflation is going up all this stuff is going to be more expensive. So if I get a bunch of material like stainless kind of material, it's not going to devalue over time I can buy it now when it's cheaper and like five years from now I'll be like oh good thing I bought it when it was cheaper. Anyway, so I want to use some of it on the boat that I just made the pedals for. So that was a pretty recent video right where I made pedals for the shark slicer, and I want to take the shark slicers whole roof off and replace it with an aluminum aluminum roof. That's waterproof and just I you know I'll show you it's got a bunch of features the current one doesn't have. It's going to be lower. So I'm not going to have standing room under that part. So that's the part where it'll be just you know seating and driving while sitting and pedaling you know so, but then the front of the boat and then on top of the roof. Oh you can't move too much on the screen, or else it gets all crappy looking much fun. So anyway I'm going to I'm going to use a bunch of that for the roof and I've been thinking about how to do it I think I haven't worked out where I can do some really cool features on it. Seriously the comments are just not coming back I can't get them back. Let's see if we can get this thing going. Alright what if we close this for a second and come back or yeah I'll be right back everyone. Oh my gosh can't push the button. Let's just let's just kill this thing turn it off and back on. Oh my gosh wait a minute wait a minute. See the comments came back when I turned it. No. Alright we gotta turn it off. Alright you know what I'm just going to get out of here. Thanks everyone for coming and maybe if I uninstall and reinstall this super glitchy YouTube thing it'll work next week better. Oh my son has a screwdriver in his hand he's yelling he needs some screws. What are you making? He's making a hell I totally could have guessed he was making a helicopter. But alright I'm going to go do some stuff. Bye. And everyone have an excellent afternoon and you know sometimes when things look darkest they come out in a way that you couldn't have predicted or expected and it ends up fixing some things that have been problems for a long time. Okay I'm going to attempt to turn this off although this thing is just glitchy. Oh my gosh I'm going to have to push this button here.