 The grip of fear is loosening The way the Spirit just is helping us dissolve away any sense of fear of consequences because all of our fear of consequences, fear of future consequences is ego based and it just washes away, washes away that I know as part of my unwinding from the thinking of the world that it was gradual and gentle but I started to feel so freed up from the fear of consequences I started to really feel like everything was a reflection of my mind so towards the end when I would go like on what the world would call a job interview it was fantastic, it was like I was going into it but I had nothing to lose attitude which truly freed me up so for me it was the last job that I had in the world you know it was the woman who was interviewing me she just, as I was speaking from my fearless, no fear of consequences gleeful, joyful place she just had the biggest smile on her face, the interviewer and then she said can you come back for a second interview I was sure and I came back and needed more so just was shining and cheering and then when you hear from, during a job interview, you hear the words I love your laughter, I love your smile I love your ideas, you got the job you know it just kind of rolled out and that was the last kind of job interview in that kind of sense because then after that the spirit said you know I will use you in ways that you can't even imagine and basically the spirit was saying you're mine now you know you're going to be used by me but I really enjoyed that I mean I feel like that's coming to an authentic place of fearlessness where you can be so happy and relaxed and truly authentic is really what it's about and then from there everything just unfolds the door is open you meet the people that you're supposed to meet you travel where you're supposed to travel it's more like it's that teaching from the Course that miracles are involuntary and should not be under conscious control there's no I back there no little I that's trying to run the show it's more like you're the witness self you're just beholding everything that's happened it's wonderful so that for me that was really what the inner work was about was really just being honest with myself and looking to see where I still had fear of consequences that was still dictating my decisions and fear is never a motivator we are never freed by fear we need to be freed from fear through trust through practice Course says there's no miracles where there's fear fear prevents miracles can't be a miracle worker unless at least for an instant we're able to suspend doubt and fear and let it perform through you but not in the state of fear so that's good practice to just allow whatever means to come up just to come up and let it all be used for you you don't have to go on like a widget to try to find the fear just every day is plenty of opportunities I was speaking at a miracles conference in San Francisco I don't know which one but it was the second one and Gary was nervous speaking and he said course people can be really vicious really really vicious and really disturbing so I called Kim Lapnick up and I said how do you deal with how do you deal with vicious course miracles students and teachers course teachers and students but it's like you have to face you know, it's all thoughts and you have to face them and it's like when you go on the spiritual journey and people seem to be consciously on the journey then that conflict that's the ego is flushed a little bit more up into awareness and then the the forgiveness opportunities just comes fast and furious when you're really sensitized to it but that's good too you want to get through it you want to transcend it