 So many years, maybe a lifetime to go It's pictures of me in my home Sometimes I'm in the sky So you're riding my sweeter baby So you're riding my sweeter baby Sharon, we're extending everything We started off with our expression sessions this morning And I think they're very important They're a very important part of every retreat that we do And they're a very important part of our daily living Those expression sessions I feel like in societies and cultures Where there's a lot of refreshing emotions Talking things through There's a lot of repression and suppression Then there also will be a lot of anger and guilt And even rage that's built up That's like pushed down If there isn't a means for expression And it varies in different cultures As I travel around the world But those cultures where there's open touch Where there's expressing the emotions Are the ones that have the greatest inroads To awakening and to health And to true inner peace And in this world there are mechanisms Like going to see counselors and psychotherapists Periodically But even some of those approaches Can be quite limiting If there's a lot of advice giving If you go to support groups Where there's a lot of cross talk Where you've got things that you really feel You're there to share And you're there to be supported in And then when people start to cross talk Or try to fix It's not an egoic fixing mechanism Where you try to jump in When they hear a few lines and go Look here, let me tell you This is what you should do Get your life in order And you hardly get to say anything And the big fixing, the voice of the fixer And I think with families We've been aware of this through family patterns Sometimes through churches Sometimes through psychotherapists and counselors We encounter these things So in order to have this deep authentic healing You have to have a sense of safety And security in letting up emotions I think even originally In Catholicism when they had a priest Someone you would confess your sins to That was the original intention To have a non-judgmental loving presence Of wisdom and maturity That could be there just to allow These emotions up And these hidden thoughts Because if we don't allow them up And they get turned inward and stuff down And it's not pretty That's where we have disease That I think begins to develop It's a disease in the mind And there's no output for expression So it gets projected onto the body Such as cancer and other types of diseases So we have a regular practice Of expression sessions In fact, for years now When we have had lunches We use the lunches for expression sessions So people will get their food And they'll bring it in to a table We usually have a large table Or a big round table And then there's a spaciousness there For as people are eating For whoever has something bubbling to the surface That really needs to popularize it But the purpose of these expression sessions Is more of the attitude of complete non-judgment Is for everyone to practice being present And letting these thoughts come up And holding, you might say, the light Or holding behind it Which is what you need to allow These emotions to come and pass through And so it takes a while Sometimes it takes a while to develop Because it takes the trust and the safety That history goes stronger and stronger And so we're envisioning a retreat That we did in Nusa, Australia And it was a large group like this And over the first maybe three days of the retreat Everybody started to develop more trust And feel more open-hearted And then a man came in In the middle of the week, maybe like Wednesday And I hope I could join Because I was just joining my man And I loved these expression sessions And everyone cheered him on Come in, come and heal with us We're in the presence of healing And then he got up and expressed all his pedophile thoughts And the people were just like And a lot of women I suddenly had a screen of women in my door For all in one passing session I was really, really excited Come on, come on Oh, God They were pretty extreme And he came right out with them And he expressed them in a whole large group And the whole place just shook a bit But overall by the end of the week People could feel that that was helpful too That that made them look at their thoughts And their judgments of him And all kinds of things And the spirit was with us The spirit is with us with everything And that's what I said in the beginning We have to get to a point where there's nothing to boo There's nothing hidden There's nothing off-limits The power and the strength of God The glory of God can handle anything that the ego can throw And throw it into awareness And that's why we have suppression and denials Because the thoughts are already judged as negative And then they're pushed out of awareness And we have to be willing To come into awareness If we aren't letting them come into awareness Then it's not going to work One time we were at our monastery And we had a husband and wife Who were there from Australia And you know these browsers That you can turn on Something on the browser where it's like history and memory And also when you start typing If you type something from history It will to save time It will come up Well apparently one day I guess they were using the laptop They brought from Australia And the wife was using it And the husband had been on Probably systematically for a long period of time On a number of porn sites And they're all in the history of the browser And more than that They would type something into the browser And misspelled it And it would just go And so She just started screaming At the top of her lungs At our monastery up there The rocks are good for that The rocks are good for that They don't like it They've been here for I mean millions of years So she was screaming And I was in the office And I looked at my friend Lisa And Lisa looked at me and she went Who died? Who got shot? Someone surely had been shot Because then they came in And she was screaming At the top of her lungs And he had this real sheepish look on his face And he was all right then And so we talked For about a half an hour And then it was like We came to the lunchtime expression session And I think I'll sit on The expression session today And it actually triggered For some of the other men that were there They felt, and that was their cue To bring up their thoughts About pornography and addictions And there was a big, you can feel A huge swirling, healing energy going on Like, okay, that was Pornography day at the monastery Every day of the year before We finally came around To have a pornography day, that's good You should have a pornography day It's going to heal the healing of the whole universe We have to have these days Where we allow things Okay, today it's going to move through Okay, this is good And everybody felt that you could feel The energy at the end of the lunch It was like a long session It went on longer than usual For a couple of hours But there was a lot of healing that went on So in working with the Course in Miracles It's designed as a self-study course A self-study curriculum But that's just kind of A lot of people do study them in groups Because it's so deep And it's a bit threatening, obviously To the ego, because it's like Whoa, what is this? This is stirring the pot Stirring the spoon big time And then what you do with it Is you really have to have a big allowance To let the Spirit orchestrate your life Or orchestrate the Course groups And that's what I've noticed over these past 30 years With the Course has been It's been a time of prayer And a time of asking the Holy Spirit And Jesus, what is it that would be Most conducive? What would be most helpful? And even doing a lot of retreats like this Over the years There's certain things that come in Little things, not that work very well That's very helpful We'll remember that These little things that you remember Because you want it to be The most beneficial The most impactful And you want above all else For there to be a feeling of trust and safety That healing can only occur In the presence of trust and safety There was a time, one time When I was thinking of Blue Mountains of Australia And I did like a week long retreat Looking at the Blue Mountains And then at the end I said I'll open it up For one-on-ones And we put out a sign-up sheet And I think there was like 35 or 38 people signed up So I had to do like A seven-minute one-on-one stuff Okay, next But I also said Let's make the best of these seven minutes And so people would come in And they would immerse themselves They would use those seven minutes To get in touch with and express To me the deepest, darkest secrets Sometimes saying things like I've never told another living human being That's not even my parents And boom And it felt good There was a healing energy behind it And what was that all about Was simply they knew that they could speak Anything to me Absolutely anything It could be absolutely anything They could speak it And I would smile at them I would touch them We would feel the grace of God The presence of love right there And the loosening would occur Immediately Because that's what we Need in healing We need to at least Tune in enough in the spirit to get You know how it is If you have a really good friend Who you can talk Tell her anything too And you can laugh with How healing that is How light How loving We need to cultivate that And that's what I have really been Cultivating in my life And those who come to Help me or live with me We're really into Going into the place Of non-judgment Now that is a very Deep state of mind A state of pristine non-judgment It's for most it takes A lifelong of work To come into that presence But there's absolutely no Judgment positively or negatively On anything And so to come into that We've come together We've worked together We've collaborated together We've lived together And we do learn how to pray And we do learn how to Hear the Holy Spirit Because if you get to Remove people of any size Unless you learn to pray together And tune in to the Holy Spirit You're going to have all kinds of Arguments and conflicts And we all know that That's human condition We've been through that with our families We've been through that with our relationships You know, it can be nice For a while but then Just a lot of darkness Can come in and kind of blindside me It's almost like you can just See the sabotage and take over things And for all of us It's been shocking Every time the ego rears its head Every time we have this inner Second peace that comes out Oh, it's just shocking It's not natural to us We were created as love We feel very natural When we're flowing in love And we're connecting Even when I love you a song When everyone starts singing To steal the natural waves of love Just flowing through It's almost like a current that flows It's so natural That's how we were created We were created by God as love And anything other than that love It's shocking to our system And so we gain trust And we gain permission to start to ease back Into that love That feeling of safety That feeling of our first thoughts When we wake up in the morning Of easing into the day Very softly, very gently And having loving thoughts Coming in to greet the new day That's very natural That's a natural way for us To enter into every new day So I feel like that's a big part What we did this morning Is a big part of our retreat And I did hear some expressions That some people had some things to express And they didn't really feel they had an opportunity And even though we're going to use our afternoons Generally for free time And time to immigrate I think that also would be another good use Of the afternoon is perhaps to have a Like an afternoon session If it's felt where people who feel like They had more to share Or that they didn't get the opportunity To fully share and express In the morning sessions Had an opportunity to do that Because everyone should feel How powerful that is Everyone should feel that opportunity And then for those of you Even that felt you did Had an opportunity to share and express If you want to come and practice Your presence Being the loving presence there That can be spoken into That would be wonderful too That's a wonderful experience Sometimes I've done the treats Where we've done what's called diet work Where we break people into twos And when people sit across from someone And basically one person Will start off with expressing In an uncensored way They'll just Almost like a Brody and free association But in an uncensored way They'll just let their thoughts and emotions Come up and verbalize them Vocalize them And then the other person is playing The role of the spirit The presence of unconditional love And occasionally they may have a line Where a work will bless it from the course Periodically just softly come up This is a soft reminder of love and presence And then after a period of maybe 20 Or 30 minutes they'll switch off And then the one who's playing The presence of love will get to express And the other And sometimes even if people have Sprung into mystical experiences From just a very simple exercise like this Because they never allow themselves The opportunity to do that They're a tired life And then when they do They're quite amazed at that That's the power of coming together With the intention to heal Because most human interactions You know we just didn't really realize That that was an option Nobody told us we could do that Nobody told us we could use relationships In that way And it could be very human And couples to have The presence of love sessions You could call it for Bring things up I think a lot of times With relationships too Remember the ego set this world up So when you seem to get into relationships There's a lot of expectations That come in and a lot of roles Like heavy duty roles that come in And almost like overlays that come in And that can really stifle the healing And stifle the unfoldment of love When these pre-conditioned These past-conditioned roles come in And you simply just lock yourself in And fall back into an old default Of how you saw your parents Or how you saw the people around you It's almost like that's the old condition And you slide from this high space down You slide down to this old groove It's just a deeply worn groove in the mind And you just can go for years in a groove Until you see there's something more And then you begin to train your mind To come out of the groove And go higher and higher That's very important It's so easy to get locked in the familiar Where it's a pretty intense world And there's a lot of intense emotions in the mind That's kind of locks in and latches on To something familiar Because it just doesn't know any better And it's just going to go back to what it knows And so what we want to encourage is Expansiveness where you start to See a whole new way of relating Typically when you talk to people about relationships There's typical channels and boxes And concepts that you kind of take off And you talk about them But I think from the movie last night We got the sense that there is Another way of relating By the time she came back around In the very end She basically was willing to Get married more from a purpose standpoint Not from a formal standpoint Because she wasn't marrying into Any kind of form She was marrying into a connection That she felt And she had a funny opportunity To really find that connection And when she did Like this current of this energy She was willing to say marry And then she said When she saw the ring She had prepared the ring long ago So it was in his mind And then she said No, you have to make the other Composed to me And it was really beautiful That's kind of the way my life has gone In the sense that when you Get into the purpose When you give your life over to spirit Then the spirit will send to you The people, the situations Everything that you need In kind of a holographic sense To help you go all the way Into awaiting So it's very much taking you Off the timeline of This begins, this ends All the things that we talk about Typically in terms of relationship When did it begin? How long did it last? How long was the quality of it? What was the good points? What was the bad points? That's almost like a scorecard How did this little linear Relationship go Into your scorecard? To let the Holy Spirit Bring people and relationships Into your life In order to serve the whole For example I was a shy guy I was a very shy guy So I didn't even like to travel But my part in the plan Was to travel And do these kind of intimate Sharings and gatherings In many countries, many cultures And I had no inclination David had no inclination for it But it was more like I had willingness Especially after the course came In my life, and I could see There's a much bigger picture here And there's much more going on Than ECI, so I'm willing And then I would have People that would travel with me And then when I started going To countries where I didn't speak The language, then there was Jesus kept sending me translators Which made the experience More helpful for everyone For me to have these gifted translators That were very much linked With me in purpose Then we could get on the stage Even if we never met There was some kind of synergy To get on the stage together And a way we would go Sometimes for hours or days Just being used together Even though we never met We were brought together I think it was Marian too Marian was the one I found you through YouTube And then we did a little chat through there And then that's how you came here And I could probably Write an entire book Over the last 25 years All the singer songwriters That have been brought Into my life That have blessed all these Gatherings and travels that I've gotten And it becomes a different style Of country and folk music And opera singer And it's a whole range Male and female Of ones I remember going to I kept going to Stockholm Over here in Europe And then there was this woman That showed up one time I kept being taken to the same yoga center Every time I would go to Stockholm And she showed up And she was just so deep into All of her presence And she said Could I sing a few songs At the beginning of your gathering She just met her at the event I said sure She got up on stage And I mean she sang three songs And the whole place was dropped Into a deep stillness Now that's orchestrated You meet somebody for the first time And then they show up And she's got such a devotional life That just launched us into A very deep almost like a satsang Experience there And I've had Some that have been able to travel with me They've been able to go on the road And so we go out for periods of time Helen and I We would go for I think in weeks months We would be going on the road for months at a time And Helen had all kinds Of music pouring through her In the early years There was another singer Songwriter who came To this peace house where I lived And she received like 260 250, 260 original songs From the angels She was like an angel song chamber And she'd been Of course a medical student for years And then boom When the channel opened up She would be The angels would even channel songs One time I was giving a talk Right in St. Louis She was there at the beginning She'd disappear with her guitar And she comes out with like A three verse Three or four verse song Channeled from the angels And while she was gone We got into all kinds of issues The song dealt with all the issues The angels streamed a song Down for us For the gathering With her guitar she said Well, she got a download from the angels Everybody had a quiet time She wasn't even sitting with us And the angels were screaming in the song Related to all the issues So we'll talk about how The spirit just wants to Love us with joy And support And it was fun She did so many songs In her own style And Helen took it Her instruments And music The angels of course put no copyright On her songs So that was nice That was a whole room And then as the years went on Helen had all kinds of songs She received herself And her husband Al Receives an amazing amount Beautiful songs Very mystical songs That would turn into mystical gatherings So that's what I mean By, you know, if the ego's in there Going, yeah, yeah A relationship is a relationship Well, not actually If you give your life over the spirit There's all kinds of possibilities All kinds of configurations All kinds of Collaborations that can come in When you make the space for it When you don't pre-define How your life has to go I feel I've had a very full Rich life I've had to travel I've had travel partners I've had I think the first time I went to Argentina I had to leave for like Two weeks I did a huge amount of gatherings I think I did pretty much Gathering every day Or multiple gatherings And I had 14 translators And I hadn't arranged any of them They would show up And they were Spectacular translators And any time the translator Would get kind of hung up on a metaphor Somebody from the audience Would call it out It was almost like a group translating experience Almost like Pentecost Something back in the days of the Bible Where they all were, you know Speaking of experience It was like that feeling Just amazed I was in the middle of one tour Down in Argentina Where An event happened In the world events I think the United States began Dropping bombs on Baghdad During one of my tourists in Argentina And huge Anti-American protests Broke out all over the place And Day after all these bombs were dropped I had to do another one of my gatherings And the first question From This group of Argentinians Was What is your view of your president? I've been talking For weeks on Relationships Overcoming sickness, death All the perennial questions But suddenly got very political Because of one event in the world And on the way to the gathering Of the American president Broke, burned Hanging from a hole In flames And thousands of people Marching in the streets and everything Just went ahead But that was the first question What is your view of your president? I waited for the translation To come to the English I have no president So I went back In Spanish And so this comes back to me What do you mean? You have no president We're all children of God We come from the same source And this source Transcends countries And cultures And religions Definitely politics I definitely have no president And then Suddenly the whole energy room shifted When I began singing John Lennon's song Imagine And everybody in the room They all know the lyrics So there we were all singing together In that whole context Imagine there was no country I wonder if you came Nothing would kill Lord night But I don't know I was like, ooh, it was soft It went from kind of a weird Kind of an angry energy Into a soft John Lennon melody More or less harmonizing Together in English Down in Buenos Aires, Argentina To me, that's That only happens with the Holy Spirit That only happens when you show up In love, with love To extend love And then the Holy Spirit Changes everything Another time I was down in In Miramar, Argentina Down On the ocean south of Buenos Aires And All I knew was There was a female bishop Who was spreading a course of miracles Down through Argentina And she wanted to meet me And she wanted to take me to a lot of small towns And she had an idea She said, I will get up on the stage For like 10 minutes And I will introduce Ideas of the course of miracles And you come up And then you speak For maybe 40 minutes And interact with the crowd I said, well, it's great, we'll do a little tour And I said, yeah, female bishop Apparently she's been blacklisted By the Catholic Church Down there and she called me Constantly to travel with her And go into the group So we could go into a little tiny hall And one time we went into this little cafe And so there's a tiny little stage Maybe like a third of this Just a tiny little stage And you could get a cup of coffee And you could buy things It was a nice cafe But we didn't know that we walked And walked into a hornet's nest Apparently the whole town Was highly charged Because One of the students A female student At the local high school Had been raped and murdered And the whole town was like On high alert and intentions The emotions were running very strong But we didn't know that So she goes and she gets up on stage And I said, I'll get a cup of coffee And just wait till I'm introduced Well, I just watched her I don't know Spanish But I do know what an angry mob Looks like The Spanish Was flying very fast And was very heated And fists were shaking And I think she was trying to Go up there And talk about the teachings of Of course the miracle Nothing happens by accident There is no death So it was all She was probably giving all these sweet roses Thought, but was really high In the physics And this was not the place And so I was just sitting back There having my cup of coffee And the mob got angrier and angrier She was supposed to talk for 10 minutes But they chased her off the stage I could read minutes After she threw both hands in the air And said, I cannot answer all your Questions as the mob mob Was screaming, but there is one here Boom, boom, boom Boom, boom Boom, boom, boom She was always playing I had just begun Sipping my cup of coffee And I was just Watching the whole thing Looks like I'm not going to be drinking that cup of coffee So I came up And I got on the little stage And I sat there and I looked at her And there was probably A 20 sets of glaring eyes They were all Like, glaring God was a man This female student Had been raped and murdered And a man up on the stage And they were all looking at her And one of them They were all teachers at school Those female teachers at the school And they were charged about this whole event And they were staring at me And so One of them I just spoke Very soft Gentle tones came out Because it was like A lot of softness Very soft Very gentle And then I went on for Four or five minutes And then finally I just immediately opened it up Because I felt there was a lot of emotions That needed to Come up and out And one of the women Was aware of the course of the miracles And I think she had picked a book up And she popped open to the introduction So she had read The introduction And including the The thing said Nothing real can be threatened Nothing unreal is this But she kind of still Was learning and she said I have heard This was all translated from the Spanish I have heard That this course is a required course What does that even mean Required? That was the first question And I said well The only thing that is required of us Is forgiveness It doesn't matter what curriculum You read this book Or you never read this book The only thing that is really required of us Is human beings is forgiveness Because that's our gateway Back to love And it's all about love It's all about what we're trying to move on And so she listened It was very short and brief But it was very soft And then As Happened in all these things They were able to Start to ask their questions They didn't start off with the rape and the murder They just started off with What they were feeling in the moment Which is the way you have to deal with it You enter the dress What's felt in the moment There was a lot of anger And heaviness in the room So that was the spirit of work And then as typical of my gatherings As went on You could feel it just got lighter And lighter in the room And then I would say that In South America People are very Normally very festive Lighthearted and celebratory That's like their Norm And quickly went from that heaviness And charge into a very Lighthearted gathering Where there became lots of laughter and joy And then after maybe about an hour Or so They all invited me out to a big Ice cream party So we all went for halalas And we all just had so much joy The joy and the laughter Just replaced that And that's been beautiful For me to watch When I go to some rural areas or whatever And sometimes The group is kind of pensive Or hesitant Or they're withholding But they do Everybody's got all this love And we quickly can find a way to get past that And then the love just burst open And it's just this Slow and gushing love And it's so natural And that's what the spirit can do And that's what really the spirit's Designed to do in your mind In our mind, in our lives Is do that And we practice that over and over Getting into the love Until it becomes really natural Like second nature You don't have to, like when you first write a bike You have to go through some steps But then you know how to write a bike You know how to write a bike And you know how to just be in presence And extending love And then Yeah I had two friends out there Who had been in the same language school When they were 16 They lost touch with each other They re-met one of my gatherings I think they were about 56 years old They ended up being on the sides of me translating And As the spirit Spoke through to this whole group The woman on my left, Patricia She said, I'm She was right behind me She said, I have the best seat in the house I get to sit here With all the faces light up It's like watching a van go painting With the yellows and the oranges And the splats of color Coming in She sees all the faces come to life But it's just the spirit Using the symbols And it's fun to watch the faces light up She was really enjoying translating For me So we can go Into this life With Even if we have heavy emotions We can't push them aside We have to be willing to let them move through But even in terms of How our life's purpose will look Or how our life will play out We can Open up Open our minds up and just say Jesus, just show me the way You know, you use my life Let my life Be a painting for you Let my life be a picture for you You paint the colors You let your brush strokes Come in here Take The form of my life and use it In a way that blesses the whole Of all humanity And not Just a sense of a personal life Live Of a tiny little van between birth and death That's what really does mean You know, this tiny little van Between birth and death You watch nature Receive the birth and death Of animals, and streets, and humans And so forth What kind of lasting meaning Could ever come From all of these temporary things Including the body That we're surrounded by That is in our awareness We all know there's a greater destiny We know there's a very deep calling And To tap into that We're to Give over our future goals And visions and say No, instead of me trying to scribble And write A pencil drawing You give me a full Color painting Of what my full potential Can be You help me Offer my contribution To the plane of awakening And Jesus says that your part is essential So It must be extremely important For us to do this That We can't really wake up Until we complete our part We have to give our part fully Before we can Receive the benefit of that awakening And We would have not one Person left in chains You know, we would give so Fully And have such a fulfilling Of our life's destiny That we have no regrets Wouldn't it be great To reach a point in your life Where you have absolutely No regrets whatsoever No more coulda woulda shoulda Or no more If only Those nagging thoughts From all those thoughts Even when I was growing up When I was a child I would get all excited Watching the Sports channels Or watching different things on television And my grandfather He'd be like in his 70s Or And he would just laugh The more I would get stirred up The more emotional I would get Watching the television And I finally I started to get upset with him Because he was having so much fun I thought it was my expense And I was finally turned over To his, he had a German name His name was Heinrich Hermann Of my school He was in A.J. Shades He was really And I looked at him He would be twinkling His eyes would twinkling And he was a big smile as they said For all this joy and happiness Like And he would hold up One finger to me like this And he would give me instruction He would say Because I would say If only this had happened I was always saying if only If only all the time And he would hold up one finger and he would go If Largest word in the English language Because It was hypothetical I was going on and on and on Always with something that was different And he was pointing out to me The teachings of the Course in miracles For one tiny word In the English language If If Something was different If the referee had a mystic call If my team had scored The If, if, if, if The Holy Spirit was Working me In retrospect even as a child With a grandfather like that Helping me get away from this hypothetical thinking Which is It's like the disease of ego It's the disease of being human Thinking you have control Over things And thinking you have to Figure a way out Plan your life And even worse thinking you could Make your decisions And feeling guilt And regret And thinking you have a whole future Open of these options Which is still hypothetical And there's so much worry and concern About Oh, I've only had so much time When I got to make the best of it And I didn't make the best decisions before So I better make better decisions In the future or else You know, it's like a pressure For this ego So a lot of the movies that I I mean, if you'll be watching this guy from the Lightman are all about Going beyond hypothetical thinking And you throw away the quantum movies Like, like the movie Next Is In my My collection there and It's really spectacular when you watch that With commentary because It's a huge teaching on hypotheticals And sometimes people may say Well, what do you mean Everything in this world Is hypothetical But that just means Like I'm talking about Like, oh, we're sitting here in a room right now But soon We'll go to lunch And the staff Will have prepared We know in line Hypothetically our bodies will be over And we'll have lunch And we'll have a nice lunch That's hypothetical But this This room is not hypothetical This is actual The ego would say we're actually in a room Actually Listening to a talk and so forth But Actually All the time and space Is nothing more than A set of hypotheticals As if the separation occurred This Whole cosmos is hypothetical Because it's as if As if There's something more than love Or as if fear is real As if the separation from God Could occur This everything Including us Listening to a talk in this room Is a hypothetical situation We become addicted To a realm of hypotheticals And truths never happen That love is all that there is And all of this Is a hypothetical As if the separation Of God occurred Once you start to get a grasp of that Then you can begin to smell the roses Then you begin to appreciate Every moment Every person you meet You start to appreciate everything Because you realize it's all about The love and the moment And the connection And you won't waste your time On anything else I have some degrees That I'm going to represent In the university For five years In the college of Design, art, architecture And planning Planning, but that's what My degree was in Five years back When you plan And then I get to a course of miracles And if you Go into the course If you go into lesson 135 for example Jesus will tell you A healed mind Is the relief of the belief That it must plan Relieved So you can imagine You think you're working hard In five years of money And tuition And exams and projects And all this and this And Jesus gets to hold your mind You know We're going the other direction We're We're not going to be planters I'm going to Come through you with miracles And you're going to be spontaneous To be a spontaneous being Listening to my instructions For a moment Basically when I After ten years of university A couple degrees Basically I gave it all back to Jesus And I said there you go take the whole thing Everything, education My mind, my heart, my soul My body, every Possession, everything I've got You take it all That was a very good moment That was Jesus was like Ah, now we begin We needed that We needed that stage to do our work What about the plan of God The cause of speaking Yeah, but it's interesting That the plan of God Whenever we hear of a plan We do think of Time And I didn't have lunch But you discussed recently and she Had received this writing From Jesus Way back, decades ago And she pulled it out and said here I want you to take this with you And it seemed to Still be as if The separation has occurred Because it was saying that Telling Judy and them They weren't quite ready to Step into their function at the time When the Course first came And they said also It was impossible to explain The plan to them because People were to meet Who had not met yet And there are all these aspects Of this seeming plan That couldn't even be explained Because the people hadn't even met That were going to meet So as I looked at My 30 years of the Course I see amazing Numbers of encounters And collaborations And configurations That have played out So if I hadn't Had that moment with Jesus Where I gave it all over I can't even imagine that I would Have even met these people Or they would have met me And it all played out But it's still comforting For me to think that Even the idea of a plan Is still In the realm of imagination That really what Jesus Is coaxing us to do Is come off of this linear perspective Personal perspective And come in to see That it's simultaneous That the very instant It seemed to happen It was the answer in that very instant So it must be If it seemed to occur In the unholy instant Then the holy instant answered that So perfectly That everything we think Is going to take such a long time It's really just An instant Almost like you're saying that how many angels Can you fit on the head of a pin How many years And millennium can we squeeze From the head of a pin Because the head of a pin is a point And really I feel more now That I'm just in a flow now Where I'm just seeing Holistically that everything That I've received is all the mind It's all in mind And therefore I don't Put a lot of into teaching the plan In a very linear way I can see where That was important for Helen and Bill They were research psychologists But after 30 years of the course I just feel It's all together I feel we are all really together And I see that everything That's curing is the plan It's perfect I see that the presence of love Is behind absolutely Everything And that's why I've got a big smile on my face Because it doesn't matter where I am Or what I'm watching And recently people I'm getting ready to go to China and Japan So I'll start doing teachings in Japan And it's been recently Adversaries of Hiroshima And people I'm sure I'll get some questions about that And I have been getting questions Like when people think of Europe And they think of Nazi Germany And they think of the world wars Or they think of The end of the second world war With the hydrogen bombs Getting dropped over there And Sakhi and Higashima How does that fit into the plan? How was World War I and World War II Or God's plan? That could be a very sincere question I've actually come to the point Like I get little whimmers Was that even with Nazi Germany It's interesting Einstein was from over here Austria Germany area and then Going over to the United States And equals MC Square And splitting the atom And developing nuclear weapons And everything that led up to those Hydrogen bombs being exploded Over there in Sakhi and Higashima It was interesting to me I wasn't fully aware of it That actually Hitler And the Nazis were developing Nuclear weapons So It was interesting to me too That Einstein was quite a pacifist And That Einstein Of all the men on Earth I think Einstein was just Amazing in terms of His intellect And his knowledge But he admired Gandhi Another pacifist And in fact And Einstein was at the same time And I would say Gandhi was more of a pure pacifist He was a pacifist that wouldn't budge On his pacifism In fact, we know from his autobiography In the movie How extreme his pacifism was And I admire that But then when Hitler came along He was like I don't know if I can go with you there Gandhi all the way I don't think pacifism Is going to stop Adolf Hitler So he actually believed that There was some force That could be necessary But Einstein did And then of course Einstein Didn't invent the nuclear weapons He equals MC squared A lot of his discoveries were used In that And it's interesting that he believed There would have to be a force To stop Hitler So I kind of see behind Einstein, behind Gandhi and everything Is there's JC Central Thank God Jesus is in charge of this plan Thank God There's someone who's completed His part perfectly Outside beyond transcendent time and space And now Is capable of Even arranging time and space Says in the Course If you'll do miracles for me I will arrange time and space for you I'm glad Jesus is arranging time and space Even With world wars and everything Where we are in good hands So to speak And this plan cannot fail It's completely been accomplished For us, it's just a For us to take our part in the plan I was Over in Colorado recently And Gary Reinhardt Was going to do a talk one night And I was going to do a talk the next day And Gary's always his whole talk On how Jesus was my leader He was a follower He did his whole talk on his life Where he had put two men And listened to the Holy Spirit And learned to follow the Holy Spirit Every instant in order to Complete His part And I enjoyed the whole talk And the next day I got up and I said And now having accomplished His part perfectly Jesus is now the leader Of the plan to come He's in charge, of course, that is in charge So what does that mean? I like that You don't miss a thing I do You see every move I make I have got the best view of everything And literally Jesus is capable of inspiring miracles We have to be willing But He's the one Who's performing all these miracles I had so many miracles over the last 30 years I couldn't even imagine All the miracles I had Except the removal Raising the dead I had all kinds of spectacular miracles Like Pierre was saying Spectacular miracles Spectacular miracles for 30 years And Jesus has been behind Every one of them Every one of them He's the one who performs the miracles Because he's in a position to perform miracles Human beings don't perform miracles They're just vessels Vehicles When we get out of the way JC Central Kicks it in the ear And when we're in the way He's still there ready And ready to go But we have to be ready to go Miracles cannot be performed in doubt In fear and hesitation It's ready to go It's ready to pour through you But as long as you have doubt and fear and hesitation It's after saying no I don't deserve it I'm not willing To behold it And also He talks about Us being messengers He mentions in the workbook We're messengers But he says Interestingly enough The messenger must first Receive the message for himself Before he gets in the way It's always for our unmind First We don't have to go teach anybody Or tell anybody anything We just have to be willing To be linked in And then when we are, oh mind It's absolutely amazing And it all happens Involuntarily too I realize that I think When Mary Ann was talking about I want to relax I want to be held up a lot But I really want to relax into it To me that's The relax part comes when we start To really feel the involuntary Nature of miracles That they don't really require Any effort Not a part at all It's just for me to just So relaxed That we start to behold them And then we start to Transfer that in our life We start to realize that everything Is involuntary That we've just been fooled Into thinking we have to Consciously be in control And we have to direct things And make things happen And fix this It's sound effects As soon as I say Make things happen And that's the time It's lunchtime It's right in the house Joy miracles It's actually lunchtime Okay Okay Is there any feelings For this afternoon? I guess I'd like to see Yes, we are going to Have more expression sessions In the morning and day after So When I was feeling like People feel that they need that