 Just some thoughts, my personal life is in disarray, yet in my head, the way that I think my YouTube channel and continuing to create content for it is more important and I'm sitting here thinking that balance that I just talked about before, I don't have any of it. I don't have any balance and it's just made me think you know maybe it would be maybe the best option would be to leave YouTube, to quit at least for a period of time you know. Otherwise things aren't going to improve. I need to look deep inside. I need to look deep down inside myself and figure out what path is right for me. The thing about YouTube man, and I will say this, I'm completely in 100% myself on videos because to try and pretend to be someone else would just be way too much work. Okay so you know that 100% it's me, you're getting me. But once I turn the camera off it's almost as if I've given my positive energy, I've given all I can to YouTube and to the camera. Once I turn the camera off I'm honestly, I'm a bit of a shell of myself because I'm exhausted. I've given all I can. I've given it to the camera and I feel relieved about that when it's finished because I know I've talked and I've used my brain and I've given good content but how that leaves me afterwards for the rest of the day or whatever is without the ability to give that positive upbeat energy to people in my personal life. And this is a real problem. It is man. You know I was going to talk about it eventually but I will today because I'm speaking to a camera by myself in this apartment by myself when my daughter, I should have chased them down. I should have chased them down in the car and made sure that they couldn't leave. You know I've got some real tug of walls going on in my head right now. I don't know what's right. Like I said before I'm gonna give her a hug and see what happens. I forgot about that for a minute. Now I'm gonna go and try and find this trolley that has been my saving grace more than once. I better have a quick look at the pool before I leave. Definitely didn't spend enough time in here but it was right outside my door so I probably should have. That's final update. Final update before I leave the apartment I promise. I'm just cooking up the last of the food from the fridge because we can't let it go to waste of course. So we've got some steak, we've got some turkey, we've got some beans and capsicum and you know I'm not sure when or if I'm actually gonna eat this but I just could not let it go to waste so I'm gonna finish that up go and get my refund from the bond and that's us. The only thing that I care about right now is seeing my daughter again before I leave and giving her a big fucking hug. That's all I care about. Lunch is packed, I've cleaned up the kitchen and I almost almost forgot my $350 blender. Now this has come all over the country with me up and down and around about and it's not staying here because it's a bloody good one and if you do want a good blender I was gonna say that doesn't break the bank but this one really did because it was $350 but it has lasted and it's just as good and it is a sunbeam cafe series. So with that being said I'm gonna have to turn the camera off and then leave I can't do any cinematic stuff or anything especially any awesome transitions or anything like that. This is just it, this is it, we've done it. Finished. I'm leaving. Thanks for being here with me guys. It's been a pleasure. I'll see you on the road.