 So it's been 15 minutes. I'm really cranky. It's hard to relax, constantly finding myself in thoughts. Especially since it's very late right now. Usually for the first 40 minutes, it'll take me time to kind of find that zone. So I'm okay with it. Everything hurts, especially my back here. The lower back. The muscle is completely tense. My entire face is burning with the edge to scratch. I hear a lot here avoiding scratching because I know from a lot of experience that if I scratch even once, I'm worse itch in other areas of my body. There's a big improvement now. Pains are much less severe, thinking a lot less, getting even better. Substantially it's much easier to focus on the actual physical world. I still have the pains in my lower back. Focus on them as much. Back pains are still there. It's definitely a bitch. Everything is getting a bit easier and nicer. It actually feels enjoyable to read. Warm feeling here, which helps me concentrate on my breath because it feels good. So I almost fell asleep like four times. That's what happens when you're back straight or when you meditate really late. But there's one thing I like about kind of losing consciousness and then waking up. It's that wake up, you're super sharp. You're instantly focused. It's like you snap into reality and you start at a really good place. So I actually had it happen multiple times in the past. I would fall asleep multiple times and every time I would actually wake up more focused and mindful. That's why I say never judge what goes on what happens when you meditate. There's no such thing as a good meditation. There's no such thing as a bad meditation. Whatever happens in the meditation is what needed to happen. If you became angry, it means you had some anger to release. If you just kept thinking for the first 85% of the meditation, it just means that you had too much thought momentum and it had to slow down first. If my back hurts, again I just take it as another challenge that I need to face. Last 15, sometimes 10 minutes, that's what I do this for. Prostinate meditation. Once you sort of get in the habit, then the last 10, 15 are incredible. Because suddenly even the pain in my back, I don't really notice it anymore. It's there. I can feel it, but not like it doesn't really matter so much. You can only hear all the ambient noises in the background that you just can't hear when your thoughts are... These are my two goals. 30, usual 30 that I do every day. That's coaching. I did not have a coaching call today. It's the first... Well, this is about the... As I've said, this wasn't my best meditation, not by the least, by far. Because I started really late. I like 3.30 am and I was already tired. It's number one. Number two is because I'm filming it, which really distracts me. Number three is because I started this with already very low energy and willpower. But it doesn't matter because consistency is what creates the results. This is just like a marriage where you want to be there when it's good, but you also want to be there when it's bad. Or else you're not going to get the good. So I'm willing to do a hard meditation knowing it won't be easy or very productive because that holds up to the willpower. So that tomorrow when I meditate will be kick-ass meditation. I hope this video helps. I know it's not very encouraging probably, but you can't only show the good parts and expect people to be motivated. So, thanks for watching, as always.