 One of the biggest things with living with depression is lack of motivation. And a lot of the time that means your room's absolutely pig sty and shit here. I'm disgusting and possibly a hell of a person. As you guys know, I struggle with depression. I make a very big effort in the videos not to show how badly messy this room is. Today, we're tidying it. So I'm going to reveal to you exactly what I'm living in. And you're probably going to think I'm disgusting and horrible, but I'm sorting it out today. It's what we're doing. We're at my door. Start over here. Because if you start over here, that's a bit longer than this. We're starting over here. So first thing first, let's remove the guitar. My shoe is still have no shoelaces in it. I'm from my last admission to hospital. I need to buy some more. I haven't made my bed in around two months. I'm coming out with a bit of a depressive phase at the moment. I'm coming out of it. Like I'm doing really well at the moment. I just moved all the stick first from over there to over here. I just want you to trust me if you want to be something. That's right. Let's go. Yeah. When you're feeling down in your out like you got nothing but death. You're belong in the crowd just trying to figure it out. All that is bad and this money got you feeling left out. Listen up to me now with the word that's out of my mouth. A straight cup is me. You're going to fall like your dreams. So are you just going to be another car? That's right. You feel the hope in this beat. Yeah, the hope that you need. Just succeed and be exactly what you wanted to be. I haven't made bed. I made my bed. Be exactly what you wanted to be. Fuck it all right and I'm proud. Hype in the mouth. I'm a shout out about how I feel in the mouth. Ain't nobody ever going to try to change me. It has been so long since I made this bed. You don't even know. Like you don't even know. How long it has been. I've made the bed. I feel good. I'm heading out because I want to film and because my Oyster card seems to have managed to top itself up despite that I've actually got no money. I don't know. I've taken out my account because I'm not overdrawn. So let's go use that free money. I've been really weird me today. Also there's not the first word I've spoken today. So fun. We all are getting sick. Are you can't see my face? I wonder if I can still do this. Like this is if it's so long since I did that. Like it's got over at least five years. I used to do gymnastics and I used to do cheerleading. I've got to be able to still do this. Like if I can't I'm going to be so disappointed in myself. Ow. I can't do that. I'm filming something. I just hit my back. Sorry. I did something. I've injured myself on camera. I just tried to do a gymnastics thing. And I'm not as flexible as I used to be. Okay. My back. I think I've literally broke my back. Ow. That is so recording. Yeah. The money really needs. Yo. You need to believe you can achieve everything that you dream. Everything that you need is in the air that you breathe. It's in the mind of your feet. It's in the time that you breathe. Every second of life is another blessing to me. Yeah. So when you feel like you're nothing but you want to be something. Need this hope. I just want you to trust me if you want to be something. Yeah. Yeah. Let's go. Yeah. It's what you need when you're dead. Need when you're out. What you need when you're sad. And when you feel left out. You feel an energy drop. And then creeps out. But with. Fucking finally done. Bitch. I'm going to bed. And I've finished my room. If you hit subscribe button, make sure you leave a like, comment and subscribe. I just stopped Serenity's outro for a second time. And I'm amazing. Buy me my book. Whatever. You know. Love me. Peace. Once I felt a time. Once I felt you climb. If you fail, you'll be fine. Keep back up to the grind. And never lose sight of your mission. Be driven. This life is a prison. If you don't have vision. You're in it to win it. So get it. Don't miss it. Your chances now. So be something somehow. Don't let yourself down. Down, down, down, down, down.