 I came prepared this time. I'm full and ready to go. Not only is this full, but this look at isn't this the cutest mug You've ever seen in your entire life. It may be not your entire life, but today Just gonna hang out here and sip on my coffee I think we need to get a new coffee machine because ours is blowing up so to speak and See if any people come in here and talk to me the title is gonna turn people off and they're gonna click away And they're gonna go away and find some happier subjects But I don't care if I only get one or five people in here if it makes a difference because I just did my Instagram on this Hi Cheryl Good afternoon my friend This is exactly my Instagram, and I probably could have just transferred my Instagram over here Good afternoon Roberta With her little sweet purple heart, but I feel like talking so I am coming over here to talk Because I mean business kids Cheryl Roberta you guys have your water the eight of you who are here. Do you have your water? Look what I have in my hot little hands I'm gonna see if I can get at least 20 people in here, and then I'm gonna give you What's on my mind if you already saw on my Instagram? Stick around anyways. I Have my tickets for Thursday for what? Puerto Rico your heart's devotion Back in the ocean Going by myself. Good job Cheryl Steve has to work late. He wants to see it Lord knows I'm gonna want to see it several times because I'm gonna give a chance I hope all you other West Side Story lovers will at least give it a chance Before giving it the big kabush Hi, Susan. Thank you so much. Happy anniversary to you Hope your husband remembered because mine didn't Hi, honey. Good evening. Good evening. All right. Let's see. What else anything I want to touch on before I get into my subject I don't have anything went watchers to report been on my program I'm gonna try not to say uh I had to uh Watch my last video for a Monetization Monetization purpose and I say a lot you guys are allowed to call me out on it if you want I was uh, okay, but you went to the meeting Roberta and right there That gives you a check lady. That's great that you went to the meeting That's families. What was the subject? I'm curious to know I never keep up on the subjects when I don't attend the meetings when I started attending them again I don't know All right, I'm gonna put on a little lipstick. Thank you Roberta 13 years. It's the longest I've ever had a relationship But that probably doesn't surprise you guys, huh? Uh, it's cold But I'm not gonna close the windows because I need the fresh air and I want you a reason to wear this scarf Scarf is special to me We're gonna start talking about what I need to talk about right now And while it's a sad subject It's a subject that needs to be heard And I really need you guys to listen to me And realize that it's part of life and we can't just ignore it. We can't just sweep it under the rug Well in my case, there's lots of stuff swept under my rug But hang out and just you don't have to say anything. You don't have to agree disagree It could be a moot point to you. I don't care, but please listen I have been saying since the middle of the pandemic. I've been saying it here when it came on. I've been saying it to my friends That this pandemic has affected us I would say 85 percent of us More than we are aware of that we give it credit for And that we need to pay attention to that What I'm asking you guys is if you I did this so much better on my instagram Hi cat. Hi honey We need to talk later because I need things from you Regarding Las Vegas. I'm having trouble finding a place to stay that isn't $5,000 But you live there so you probably don't even know Steve told me to call you and I'm like she lives there Why would you know how much the hotels are she doesn't need to get a hotel room? All right, I'm gonna stick with my subject now If you see someone or you know someone Super well You know them so well inside and out Or maybe you don't know them at all. Maybe they just work in the mail room At your office building Or maybe it's the spouse of someone you know of but you're not so close with the spouse I don't care who it is If it's anybody and you have it in your heart and you have it in your personality I totally understand that you have to have a certain personality To approach people to be able to talk to people to know what to say or try to know what to say If they look like they're having a tough time Scope out the situation for starters Keep an eye on them as much as you can And ask them if there's anything you can do to help or just say hey Just start it with hey, how you doing? You don't have to go come here sit down in this chair I need to talk to you about your mental health and see if we need to get you to a psychiatrist Because I'm scared for you because you're depressed and you've been depressed since the pandemic and Oh, so many people are depressed from the time I what I'm trying to say is I would leave it to you and how you would handle it But I'm asking with all my heart and soul that you guys would be aware of the people around you Whether they're your people or not. They don't have to be your people. They could be related to your people They could be around your people I had a friend um growing up and his name was bill and bill Um, I wasn't gonna say his name. Why did I say his name? Well, there's a lot of bills, right? My first husband's name was bill In early high school We met We dated for a little bit and then we realized we were better friends because we were both really headstrong We came really really good friends. He came to live with me off and on platonically You know, I'd sleep on the couch because he needed somewhere to go because he was a bachelor and he was out having fun So he couldn't spend money on rent He blew his head off yesterday Okay, he killed himself yesterday. This is a man. I'm talking about that was loved by many many many people He gave this to me many many years ago. I forgot I even had it And when I got that phone call last night, I remembered that I had this and I put it on this morning No, I put it on last night and I've had it on all morning couple people in all the talks on facebook and whatnot have said That he seemed down, but oh, you know, he was he was him nobody was like worried or whatnot And Uh now he's gone and none of us get to see him ever again. We never get to see this Fabulously good-looking egotistical funny A talented musician Who I loved with all my heart again And I think from what I hear from what I gather from the people who are still were still in touch with him If one of them and if I was still around he moved out of our town that we grew up in I'm still kind of near it. He's further I think if one person would have Said hey, let's go grab a cup of coffee and let's go grab a beer. Let's go grab something He'd still be here. It's my understanding that He called somebody yesterday And that somebody varied like we all do Like we all do Said hey, I have to I'm doing something Can I get back to you in 10 to 20? We all do it. It's life They called him back in that 10 to 20 and there is no answer because he was gone Who knows what would have happened if he was able to take that call So I'm not here for sympathy and I am not here for oh, we're so sorry Anita Even though I know that you are so you don't have to say it. I know all you guys I know what's in your heart and I thank you for that What I'm here is to ask you to be aware Of the people around you because this thing is no joke It's no joke and it's not over It's no joke And it's not over be aware you guys please be aware and you know what If you catch on to something or someone who's having some trouble And you're able to help even in the minutest way They will be so grateful for you they're grateful for you already because they know you And they're lucky to know you I just think there needs to be more awareness of those around us and what they may be Going through because you know it's it's kind of not funny We all we could say like you guys that know me would say We wouldn't be surprised if if need a Harmed herself. I would never harm myself In other words, you guys know that I'm going to do presence So if something happened to me because of my mental health You guys likely would not be surprised. I think that's a fair statement Because I put my depression out there, which I'm good now. I'm not depressed. I'm sad. There's difference So I'm good my state of mind. I'm okay you guys But I got to get this word out there. Please be aware of the people around you Because that one minute two minutes three minutes four might make Or save a life I know I sound like I'm on my soapbox or something. You know what? I don't care Because if it saves anybody if my getting on here and saying this Makes anybody more aware It's worth it. I'll sit here and talk for 24 hours and bore the hell out of everybody if I have to It's really Cute I have a couple anecdotes that I want to tell you He uh, they were in rockers, you know, I was always with the rockers and he had really long hair And he loved his hair. Oh gosh, you know, he spent more time in the bathroom doing his hair than I did It was very handsome And all the girls loved him. I loved him but as a sister And I hadn't seen him in a long time and I saw a picture of him yesterday and he had lost his hair And he had gained a couple pounds and he was always that guy Who Fetched people on those things He wasn't mean or anything, but it made a difference and I had to laugh when I saw the picture of him I'm like, look at you billy boy. I don't have any hair And you're not me and you at weight wise. We're kind of the same now, aren't we? He used to love to uh, he and his wife His first wife who is a dear friend of mine and my heart breaks for her as well as his current wife Since I was heavy and when we'd all go to the parties and we'd all go out and we'd go party You know the thin girls they put on their long thigh high boots and you know, they'd be all Anybody in my age knows when I'm talking about who's in the rockin world I couldn't dress like that because it wasn't appropriate for a heavy body And he and his first wife would go out of their way because they lived with me They would go out of their way To do my makeup And dress me so that I fit in Felt better about myself and had a good time He was doing something for me He was always doing something for me just by being in my life He's not in my life anymore Be aware of people It's all I'm gonna say About this anymore. My friend is gone. There's lots of people gone I know other people who are listening to this have had to have lost people I don't see how if you haven't I'm so happy for you And their families Uh another person in our group from then passed away two months ago Uh a woman It's too much. It needs to stop and I think if we are aware like I'm asking like I'm begging We have a greater chance of it stopping So that's it I needed to get on here. I needed to say it. I hope somebody hears it kitty hears it. No, I'm kidding. No Yesterday was our anniversary Uh, Steve forgot our anniversary So I was kind of in a snip most of the day I imagined that and needed a snit That never happens I get to wear a scarf today. I get to wear my bill of scarf I don't even know why he bought this for me. I'm trying to remember. I mean he wasn't that kind of guy I bet it was for one of the outfits. He was putting me in to Go rock out We had some good times. Let me tell you, you know, let me go back and read and see if anybody's saying anything that I should be reading Susan I spoke to honey. We were bertha I'm 21 in Ohio. So cat baby cat baby. Thank you, honey Thank you, Cheryl Thanks you guys I'm sorry Susan You know what? I'm okay, and I appreciate your prayers pray for his he has some um Uh, I guess he had some nieces that he was really close to he couldn't have kids Um, that was another fun night at the hospital with him something happened and then we found out he couldn't have kids So he he really doted on his nieces and nephews So pray for them pray for his brothers pray for his wife Pray for his ex-wife Um, let me go back. I missed I scrolled Sheila says vasctech. I'm sorry. I don't know what that means Honey says can I add that suicidal people very often look and sound better happier More together right before they take their lives. It is because the decision brings them peace Okay, I have a complete goosebumps honey because You the things that you say I don't know what you do for business I know you're on the other side of the pond. I know that you make me laugh But the things that come out of your mouth and on the keyboard are always so spot on And I'm so happy to know you because that is so true and so important for people to know Thank you, honey. You know, just get rid of them Why yes, she's our dr I'm I'm missing something here Did somebody say something mean like because I'm Spouting off at the mouth and you guys trying to protect me. I don't claim to be anybody's doctor I'm trying to save some lives here and if one person one piddly little old lady Who lives in sinney valley, california and likes to get on the youtube and talk is can do that Or at least get the word out there. You bet your ass. I'm gonna do it Sorry But if that's the worst thing that can happen in your in your life today, you're doing okay Find somewhere where you can message me because I'm curious Uh, what else anything else interesting Okay, so let's move on anything interesting with you guys anything good anything maybe not so good anything You just want to talk about because you need to talk like I needed to talk I'm not gonna get dressed today. I don't feel like it But I look like I'm so presentable. Don't I? Hey Susan if cat accidentally dealt dealt she dealt Your comment. I can assure you it was purely an accident and it's really easy to do because if you have that wrench And you click on the screen and you just hit one little spot poof. It's gone I know I've done it You want to see the funny part about this scarf? Okay, so I have this lovely scarf on it just feels so good But look at guess who's on the shirt. I'm wearing Look at this. It's all fuzzy like in old days. Isn't that just the cutest thing a wardrobe revolves around the mouse Thank you, Suzanne Thank you I know it's nice. Hi, it's it's just comfy. I think I may never take it off except a shower, which I do need Marilyn Hi Anita just joined not sure what's going on but late at happy anniversary. Thank you, Marilyn We went out. We had um Mexican food He brought me some beautiful flowers. I should have brought him over here to show you Do you have your water? Everybody you have your water if you've gotten here late If you've gotten here late, I have a friend who took his life yesterday And my message here is that I would like everybody to keep an eye on everybody Did the pandemic is not over the effects of it are not over Uh, it has I've been doing pretty good with the us. Haven't I? Hey, look at me go I just need people to be aware of the people around them I really just I really do Thank you Brenda. I'm sorry to hear about my friend too He was a piece of work And I loved him so much I love really hard in case you guys haven't noticed. Oops. Sorry. Sorry about that Did I tell you guys we're gonna go to las vegas in may and see jim agaaf again for my sixth gift? But oh my gosh you guys the um Though those are so expensive in that at that time of year right now. They're like totally doable, but Holy cow Steve's gonna have to get a couple more jobs You're here. Oh my gosh, I was talking about you in my last live where your ear is turning Or burning And I saw your beautiful display on facebook at your Uh, uh, is it called a gallery like an art gallery? Oh such beautiful. Where is my friend? You guys go over to barba pasx Uh Channel still got a little bit of this Going on here. Don't worry. I'm okay Yeah, they they were beautiful I wish I could hang one of your pictures in every single one of my rooms Carol epidemic has changed the world. You are right. I needed my friend and I were just saying the same thing None of us really know what this has done to our mind and body Thank you for this Anita. Thank you Carol for thanking me Because you hit the nail on the head like honey did earlier. You guys are all hit then the honey on the head Don't hit honey on the head. I need her. Okay. That was a slip of the tongue I wish she could be sitting over here in my Little sofa that apparently Because let's be honest here after I got the phone call last night. I poured a heavy drink in Apparently I ate a whole bunch of cashews because I got cashews all over my couch Oh, well, I got my good fats in Thank you barber. It's because I'm wearing my my scarf I'm pretending I'm wearing all it. It's really easy you guys Put a little lippie on grab one to make sure you have earrings on Put a scarf or some kind of a coat room or accessory on And just fake it It is lovely to see barbara isn't it? Hi Jackie I've been on the youtube community more than I was and I am coming back. Thank you so much. That makes me feel good I told steve, you know, we got to get rolling do some cook with knees and different things You know what if did if Brenda say she's not getting her notifications I don't get my notifications for anybody that I watch Come back in sometimes it works sometimes not so much. I think it's a major glitch with youtube This is the cutest mug. I know I showed it to you guys, but I just have to show it to you again I'm trying to think of things to talk about if any of you guys can think of anything to talk about just for a few minutes I would appreciate it because that steve's not gonna be home four two three a couple hours I don't feel like sitting here by myself all so much Okay, you got him susanne. You got him No notifications. Isn't that? Yes, barbara. I decided this year. Thank you jackie Um, I decided this year that I'm not going to do the kitchen just because We're not having like Steve and I were talking and I talked about this in my last video too Why are we going to go all out to decorate when he and I are the only ones that are going to see it? Like for instance the thing this that we do every year um You guys can't see it on the camera, but on the top and on the bottom There's like a milla milla Something up there where we can see the painting underneath it So steve was like oh, I'm gonna fix it and I'm like wait time out here brother time out Why we're the only ones that look at it every day? So we went minimal this year. This room is decorated and I'm extremely happy with it all over every time he comes over Nana, please do the kitchen and I'm like all over babe. It's just I'm not this year Okay, I've done it every year since you lived with me this year. You live with your daddy. You have a whole new christmas You're still gonna be here And we still decorated this room if we want to put some stuff, you know Run to the 99th store and decorate your bedroom. We can But I just don't have the energy to do the kitchen this year And I'm glad we did this room because I'm never in the kitchen either. I'm not even in there to look at it I'd have to like pull up a chair and just sit in there and enjoy it It's just usually what I did Well, I do have to find something for dinner. I don't know Brenda says I put my four foot pink tree up this year It looks nice. It makes me feel better. Oh, I wish I could see it. That's one thing about youtube. I wish I could see things Fall stuff still fall Barbara You're good Hi, Marco. I didn't see you come in. You didn't ring the doorbell. It's a story. So sorry. Oh, thank you, honey I think it needs to be talked about. Don't you? I know you agree with me I know out of everybody whole entire world that you agree with me Um, I all of you guys agree with me. Just some of us are a little more vocal than others See, Marianne has follow-up too Oh, thank you, Suzanne Christmas water tumbler. I didn't get a Christmas water tumbler, but I got this one and I totally dig it I love it. It's just like so beautiful. Give me florals. I wonder why I never had florals in my first life. I know I say my first life which can be confusing to some Hello sparkly Susan I thank you. That's quite the compliment And that's all that's behind it Right, if you don't want to listen to what I have to say not you use sparkly Susan Put anybody out there in the big world who happens upon me on youtube Don't listen move on do something else I'm hungry that I haven't eaten anything today. I'm under eating you guys I'm acutely under eating. It's like I wait till I'm so hungry and then I'll have a yogurt Put put out one or two things a day on youtube charen Um, Andy sent you over to me. He's always sending people over to me. I love it I love it. She needs to stay motivated this week. She had a tough week You know and when she was building it up. I'm like, oh my god. Oh, she's gonna say like 18 20 pounds. I was like Bolting myself here She heard hey, yeah, it was high any of us who had that would have been the way she was But it wasn't nearly as bad as she made it out to be So I have to get dressed Sharon. Do you guys care if I get dressed for my cook with me? I like my pajama bottoms. I'm just at one with them Isn't it cat? I think you should have one too Cindy and I got these when she was here and her main color of her florals were purple because purple is her favorite color At least I think it is I buy her everything purple. So if it wasn't her favorite color It is now Thank you, honey. I'm comfortable man. I'm so comfortable. My jammy bottoms are comfy my top. You can't get comfier than than these dudes You just can't But this would probably keep falling in whatever I make so maybe I'll have to do something crock-pop for like a a five minute five minute video It is so lovely to see her. Isn't it? It's like when she comes in before she even says anything We should know she's here because she just her aura Gets here before she does Thank you, Susan. I know I was saying in my last video that I need a 12 step program for tumblers This one's got so many this though is mine and for anybody who has tumblers Galar like this chick you can go on amazon and buy these Excuse me, and they have Yeah, that's a good question. Barbara. Where is lou? Lou if you watch this later Jimmy oh shoot Okay, we got a message from jimmy. He gave us a message. It was there I have to go on amazon and get the little plastic doohickeys that keep your earrings on because I already lost this one Twice at dinner last night A video on my tumblers susanne, you know, I always forget that I don't have to be like overly entertaining or Educational or helpful that I can just sit I'm writing it down right now tumblers I'm gonna make a list of things that you guys give me tumblers and what's the other thing I collect in there I love amazon too. You need it. You got it But yeah, I need those little plastic doohickeys so because these my old holes I told them my story about how my ears are repaired a million times And sadly, it's effect how my ears stay or leave My for those of you who didn't hear the story the cliff note is I got my ear pierced when we lived in hawaii by an old hawaiian doctor Who worked out of his office in his home? Which was an old big I do remember is a big beautiful plantation And it was my mom me and my two sisters And who got to go first? Who did my mom put in that chair first? Was it this sister? No Because she never had to was it that sister? No Let's let need to try it first because he didn't have the gun like they do now It was a needle with a string And he stuck it in there and pulled the string through Tighten out in it And so then I had to continue to I did that too Barbara, but this was when I was a little girl and we kept having to do the string So the angle in which he did it and where he did it This one, especially my earrings are always falling down. Why am I boring you people with this nonsense? An old hawaiian doctor pierced my ears. Oh, but here's the I can never say peace. They were resistance Just did Uh, do you think that sister one sister two or mother went ahead and got their ears pierced? I my second hole is Barbara. I don't think I used a potato. I don't remember what I used I think I used I probably used A joint And some alcohol I have no recollection I was a rather end of youth. I'm sorry. It's who I am. It's who I was All right, so I'm gonna write that down with the tumblers. I need to do some Cooking This water tastes so good. It's full of ice Lemon and the water make it good you guys. I know so many of you hate your water Has anybody seen the redheaded nurse by the way? Um Just make it taste good refreshing I had to be held down for the second year. It jolly well was not painless like they said so it's a bit wonky I hear you mine are all wonky Everything's wonky That's why we got along so well. Cheers. I take a short walk today. I did I I can totally honest Cross my heart hope to die No, not yet Susan. Not yet. I'll get there when I can get there, but no Clothes pins I've never heard of clothes pins. I think we might have used apples We used apples for a lot of things not that I condone it let you know don't you know But sometimes if you didn't have something that you needed for something you'd had to use an apple and it was very refreshing We were talking about ear piercing barber. So what how would the clothes pin work? I don't know how that would work Somebody explain it to me, please Yes, Amy is back on wwe the last yeah, I know but she hasn't been online for like A couple weeks Brenda, what did you use your apples for might I ask? Did you cut them in half and make a little hole in them and then a little hole on this end? And then stick something in there and did you do that? My bill who's gone we did that I pierced a friend's ear in high school with a safety pin and an orange. Eww an orange Barber are you catching are you catching what I'm throwing down? I think you are It was what was funny about it too The clothes pins were used to numb the ears So what you'd sit around with clothes pins on your ears for a certain while and then when you couldn't feel anymore Somebody came at you with the needle That sounds scary I think I'd run I once ran out of a doctor's office with a syringe hanging out of my butt I didn't do well with Shots So there I was one and around with the dangling out of my butt somebody finally caught me from this side and Shot it in and pulled it out from that side Yeah, good old ice cubes, and I think would work better than a clothespin I didn't tell you guys this yesterday. I go out to get yes. I told I told instagram. I didn't tell you guys Somebody broke into our mailboxes and three Of my Christmas presents for Steve. I thought it was only two it was three We're stolen And here's the kicker that's enough to piss you off when somebody Why didn't somebody tell me this was up my nose you guys have to bring these things to my attention Oh, Susan that's so nice to hear. Thank you It's kind of like, you know what it is. What should we name it? It's it's grief laughter is what it is. It's grief laughter But we're saying oh so anyways One of the things that really pisses me off Is that two of the items were personalized So unless the people who stole my items know a guy named steve That sits on the couch with a dog named kitty. It's all gonna end up in a dumpster. I'm so mad Amy was live on february november 26. So yeah, that's what I said two weeks, right? I don't know where she's been I messaged her but everyone heard back from her. I just hope everything's okay and she's just taking a break That's probably the case She does that she and I are like that. We don't have neither of us. I don't think have ever really been like on a Schedule as more I would say we either come in And never leave for months every day talking talking talking or we just kind of hop in every now and then There's the mailman. I should run out and get my mail before to All right, the mail was stolen in broad daylight you guys All right Everybody's split and so I must be boring you so I'm gonna go pour Something else. I'm gonna watch below deck. I'm gonna drink my water I need to find a piece of cheese or a yogurt or something to eat because I have not eaten today But I needed to get that message out keep an eye on the people around you Whether they're your people or not your people somebody else's people And if it's somebody else's person But you know that person bring it to their attention So they can keep an eye on them Because we can't lose any more people from this pandemic be it at their own hand The pandemic itself. You're right Barbara. I am Love you guys so much. Thank you for listening If anybody wants to give me a thumbs up Look at honey. I love you guys Hugs to you all and I'll probably what day is it today? If if I don't see you before west side story you can Count on all fingers and toes that you'll see me afterwards Because we're gonna give it a chance people I've already listened to the soundtrack a few times and laid on my bed and cried just because It captures my heart