 Hey, what's up? You guys welcome back to my channel if you're new here. Hi, hello, I'm Lillian. Tomorrow I'm getting the top part with this tripod, and I'll actually be able to use a tripod instead of a glass jar to put switch games. Yay! Anyway, today I want to talk about my addiction story. So, to anyone who doesn't know, I used to be a cocaine user. I don't like saying that. I've been sober for five years now, which is amazing, because I used to use it every day. Now, my story of addiction starts seven years ago, when I was living in Lancashire. Press them to be exact, and I'll put on a map on the screen for anyone who doesn't know where Preston is. I used to live in Lancashire because I went to university, and I was in the University Central Lancashire. To begin with, obviously I'm not there now, but I live in London, and I get to a better uni. Woo! Seriously, the moving to London was the best decision I made. My mum didn't like the decision, my grandparents didn't like the decision, my friends were telling me not to do it, but I did it anyway, and it turns out to be the best. Minus hospital admissions. To ignore that, it literally exists. But anyway, my addiction story goes back seven years. Now, I had a boyfriend at the time. He was a cocaine user, along with all the drugs. I started using cocaine with my boyfriend at the time, and eventually I didn't need my boyfriend anymore to get it. I made friends with a drug dealer, and I bought him drinks in exchange for a user, his supply. I also flirted a little bit. I then moved in with a drug dealer in my first year living in London. Just to be clear, it was my choice to use cocaine, and I take full responsibility for that. I shouldn't have done it, but I did, and I got to a point where I couldn't go without it. Then I overdosed on it, and that was scaring. Scaring enough to make me not want to use it anymore. But then I did when I met this drug dealer and faith landlord dude. I lost a lot of friends because I was using cocaine. I think you'll tell because my pupils were like frame-pans. It wasn't a good time in my life. I wasn't happy. Now I look back and I'm like, why did I turn into drugs? Using drugs was an escape for me. Escaping from the fact that I had no friends. Escaping from the fact that I had police constantly knocking on my front door and doing welfare checks. I'm talking that it was every night. Someone would call the police and they'd be at my front door. I know who it was. I'm not going to say their name online because I don't want to cause a chit show. But if you know, you know, cocaine was my best friend. Even the lift in my mood. And you're thinking so fast. It kind of resembles me manic in a way because you think so quickly on that. And time moves so fast. I did some of my best course work when I was high. And I don't even know why I did so well. I got off of this on all my assignments. I would never recommend trying cocaine. Okay kids, no drugs. Drugs are bad except prescription ones. Prescription drugs save liars. But let me be serious for a moment. If you're prescribed medication, take it as prescribed and it will help. Using cocaine or other drugs is bad. This is a very thin line. Just don't touch illegal drugs. I care about you guys. Like don't follow my footsteps. Use this channel as a learning curve because I want you all to be safe and I want you all to be well. I would, I'd hate to see anyone get sucked into addiction because of me as talking about it. And talking about it to raise awareness that it's a very big thing amongst uni students. When I lived in Preston, I couldn't walk down Horner without getting offered drugs. It was a bad environment to be in. It was about, it's a really rough place to live. Just learn from my mistakes. Don't do drugs. Stay safe, stay sober and open up to be nice to each other. Peace.