 Vlog is done after four more hours of editing and I added something to um this camera Let me show you see this little poofy thing right here Yeah, um, I had to order like velcro and a wind fluffer thing, but I know this camera has a problem with being very When it's outside so hopefully this fixes it But it's really supposed to rain all day and it is disgusting outside And I've gone through two converges so far. Yeah, not much is gonna happen today. I might hang out with heavy I don't know yet. First. I want to see how this video goes though. Hi guys. This is the gamer version of me Good morning everyone. Um, I Stayed up like all night Like 5 a.m. Just watching the 100 oh diesel how nice of you to join us today But yeah, I don't know when the new season of the 100 came out, but I watched it all In one night and today I have a photo shoot to do I have a lot of homework to do First I'm gonna take a shower because No Finally look normal again now I'm just gonna eat breakfast and then go practice some piano for a video because everyone keeps asking me to make a Video about a piano. I want you to know I literally put This sweater on here forgetting he was on here Diesel how long have you been under the shirt? Oh, you're so sleepy. It's cute But please stop when you're freaking photo shoot gets canceled because of the right I literally hate all of this, but now I think I have to do three photo shoots next Saturday. Oh Anyways, I'm gonna go home, and I guess I'm just gonna For practice me music on the piano So I've been working on homework all day and trying to edit this me music video Of me playing the piano like whatever can't English and I realize this one Has been waiting for me to cut his nails all week We've been procrastinating on that haven't we if you have a cat, you know that every cat hates cutting their nails cut all the time Come this way You're fat other side diesel no no no no no no I need you on the other side. I'm sorry You should learn how to cut on yourself Always have to get us to do it for you. I do Tiger do it in the wilderness, huh? You think they're privileged enough to have someone who cuts their nails for them now they do it themselves You're gonna learn how to do that too, you know, all right I'm gonna get a vacuum for the rest of these little parts, and then I'm gonna go back to work Hey diesel, do you want to play with a little laser diesel? Oh Look at it look at him go push there Okay, I've been doing homework for I think like two hours and There's just some thoughts going in my head about life and every time I have bad thoughts Like are there one talk to my friend to I go to sleep or three I just try to relax and go to my happy place, which is me on A rainbow kidding, but I think I'm just gonna take a bath a bubble bath with lush stuff I don't know why these come up, but it's just about my future with YouTube and my personal life with like You know getting over next or thinking about relationships that you wish We're different and I think this all happened just because it's cloudy today It poured yesterday the cloud today photos you got canceled which sucks and I realized that if I don't stay busy either Hang out with friends doing photography or editing photos I'm kind of sad and lonely because I like staying busy. So just gonna clear my head and take a real nice bubble bath So today's Halloween. I just finished your Katrina with my friends And I decided to do my Pikachu onesie, which has like incredibly small pockets and my phone fell out at some point And then I was just like wait where's my phone and we only went to maybe four houses until then So it wasn't that hard to find it and my friends like oh Fred. I found it except Gauze the bad news for you there like only me Only me wouldn't this would happen. So yeah, never going to trick or treat never again And I also have a bunch of homework to do now and earlier this week my senior photos video got taken down by Lord's photography themselves and I'm gonna figure out a way to get that back. Hopefully I can get it back. Let's try to make this week positive. Hopefully it gets better Yeah, now I got homework though Okay, it turns out you can get a phone within a day literally just got home and then I see this on my desk Oh, baby. I'm never hurting you again. Yeah, let me open this and figure out if I can't hook it up to my old phone Okay, so I'm looking back at my last backup and it was in August. It's fine. It's fine It's fine. All I need is a working phone and that is all this is one problem off of this week already This week has already been shit. I literally talked to my photography teacher like saying I'm sad again. How life's just Sometimes sucks and I'm sorry. I'm not really like Vlogging too much this week. It's just not much to vlog. I mean, it's just all school work and stress and No, no crying. Hopefully there's some stuff this weekend Hopefully. Let me just show you what I've been doing for like the last two hours of my life. Do you see how much work this is? I want you to try to explain to me what I'm even doing because I already forgot and have to recopy all of this onto one single sheet And I also look like this right now. I've had a really really Really bad week today. Let me just explain So first of all didn't vlog much this week because it was just the same school routine of doing homework honestly working and mixed in throughout that was like just stuff that made The week worse and worse as it went through like as you saw in Halloween I dropped my phone on my Wednesday when I was trigger training and saw that it got crushed like Cease to exist and I got a new phone. It's fine now, but like just the fact that I Freakin broke a phone in general just sucks prior to that though like the beginning of this week I got a notification from YouTube saying I got a copyright strike on my channel for that Photography video I made and in the moment. I was like no, let me prove them wrong like I'm right then I realized like I I Messed up and I after I emailed them saying like this is my counter claim like yeah, no I messed up and Not gonna make that mistake again, hopefully I don't want to at least and in the moment I was like I want that video to still be on my channel because it's something I made and like it went viral and I'm proud that it went viral, but Then I just think to myself like maybe I shouldn't be proud of Trying to promote, you know something illegal and I don't want to be known over a scandal to anyone or colleges and then with that I came to colleges because today My principal came and talked to me because turns out that photography studio Told my principal about what happened and the principal just said like listen, this isn't hate is just Advice to you from me personally because I've been there. He said he felt the same way about how I felt about senior pictures I mean, it's relatable But he just said be careful what you put on line and the words you say because certain things colleges won't like and it got me worried about like I've cursed on this channel I've ranted on this channel I've been through like a lot of stuff on this channel and I'm just scared that colleges might not like me or Won't accept me and then I'll just won't be put into my dream colleges And I'll just be college lists basically which sure it sounds like an extreme But keep in mind that prior to that It's like all of these unfold on each other and they're all related still like I hope it makes sense to you But prior to that I just was thinking about how my mom recently told me that like she had post problem depression And then my sister and I are just more prone to being sensitive and that I we could both possibly develop signs of it, too which I mean kind of obvious I've developed it at some point in my life I talked to my teacher and he's like you could probably even develop Some form of bipolar disorder. I think he said like a mania or something where I am either like Really really happy or very very sad and there's no in between and a lot of my friends will contest to that and even myself because It's kind of true and I'm not trying to like diagnose myself not a doctor, but I've shown some signs already and it kind of sucks to think about like How I just take these things happening to me to extremes and then I had a fight with my friend today and We don't I don't know how that's gonna go so This all just ended up with me having dark thoughts about myself and thinking like am I really that good of a person? Or am I just a bad person? Have I turned into a bad person and like I'm just showing this because it's who I am and I'm I don't feel the need to hide that you know You're always happy because all you do is eat sleep and be fat Sorry that this vlog is mainly negative stuff, but it can't always be positive, you know tomorrow I have three photoshoots to do so that'll be fun Good morning everyone. I'm running late for a photo shoot today But turns out my last photo shoot got canceled and it's scheduled for tomorrow and this outfit is prepared for a windy day And I have no idea if it works, but these were $12. I'm running really late So it turns out my other two photoshoots got canceled today because it's too windy and another person is sick and My friends running late, which is even better because that means I have time to like get everything under control because it's already been A rough week if you couldn't tell but photos make me feel better and being with my friends makes me feel better. So Say your name first. Oh my name. Hi. I'm Debbie. Yeah, I'm about to have a fall photo shoot All right, um, any food first or do you want to do? Yeah, I know where to go Oh Me when I have acne um push it like all the way in front of you. So it covers your head. Yeah, all right, let's see lower You're good Why don't so fat? I don't even wanna know Debbie Stop it Oh Would you be willing to put this on your head? I don't know if it'll look cute. That's the thing. I probably not with the score But all that yeah, never mind. Let's not where oh I'm very familiar Yeah, like this What do you know one time no, I do one Debbie please please I just want this Yes, work it beautiful. All right, you're good. You're good. You're good. It's fine. It's the life of a photographer. Okay, come on You want to only right for moms with sons and for dads with daughters? Why can't it be for moms with daughters you? What It's not hitting you still why they need that No See a keep-out sign a keep-out sign and a keep-out keep-out a keep-out that means we go in fine We can go back. All right. Do you want to get food? Yes, or do you want to get food? I don't care There get the clothes down what What what did you say? Five one two three four six six Heels, so you're five four like me You know what that is for me and the tallest of my family Do the thing where you're like I just want to show them all the food I got delicious fries She wanted us to go to duck donuts. I don't know what this place is, but hopefully it's good Oh They're warm. Well, yeah, they're warm I don't know they'd be warm It's all mine Debbie Debbie Debbie Slow down I just realized I didn't park well like how far ahead I'm parked That's really good. I told you it wasn't worth your dollar 75. Yes All right, so I'm home now and um, just have a little downtime before I do another photo shoot with my friend for Uh photo project and this is not a gun. This is a laser A little diesel right here I'm so mean Also, can we talk about how amazing this thing is like I want you to see what it does to my face Do you see that? So cool. Okay. So my friend just decided not to show up and she's not even responding to her text So I decided to finish my um project myself Took me Really long time, but I think I'm happy with it and I'm gonna hang away abby tonight edit photos do homework Hopefully make a video. We'll see you there literally All the hair gotta go in here. This this feels really weird. Um, I don't have it in me to Edit because it's so late right now Diesel also hates me for singing awake. I'm sorry, but cut my hair. I actually looks really well And my mom fixed some loose ends. So it's fun. No, look at you. Look at you Oh, you're so cute Oh, oh, okay. All right. Good night then Good morning. Okay, you know what go go sniff some fresher. Um, my hair's All fixed later. Anyways, I work today in like an hour and I have to do a lot of homework when I come back Work and I ate dinner and now it's time to do homework, but I got a new friend from work today. He cost a dollar six cents This is him His name is boo and I'm gonna make sure boo lives forever for the rest of his life So right now I have this project where I have to Stick like toothpicks that are labels into a brain for psychology except I left the brain at school Currently looking at different parts of the brain is actually really cool Okay, so first of all, I'm listening to christmas music when it's november 4th But I decided to reprint this because I tried like doing this myself and then I thought why am I Using a ruler when google docs has all this ready for me But I realized one fontu bay two I want to put the toothpick in the middle of the word But I want to wrap extra paper around it and fold it in on itself if that makes sense So I'm trying to fit it all on one sheet of paper and for some reason this one Page does not want to delete itself Why all right google docs in a compromise now it's time to finally print this Stop scratching a diesel and now I'm just gonna cut all of these out You know there's four parts of this project and the first part is painting the head But in retrospect, I'm kind of glad she didn't because I'm being very perfectionist and anal about labeling which this is like a group project So she won't grade that harshly anyways I'm literally doing everything on my power to making sure that I get all the way around the edges And don't leave that white space between the border Like the moment I brought out a ruler and an exacto knife is when I knew something was wrong All right, so now I just gotta take some toothpicks And I just gotta glue it right in between this every single time All right, so my toothpicks are here and I'm stacking two textbooks just to make sure they're flat and they won't rip off Hey easel stop playing with my neuron. Oh, no. Yeah, that's right. That's what I thought. What are you doing? Oh, you're on my chair. Oh, you're gonna go to sleep now Oh, okay Currently doing some psych homework and it is so annoying and let's just see. Yep. We're gonna be here for a while All right, I've been doing homework for a little bit and I just need some more pressures So we have some creeps I'm watching seven deadly sins for the first time making some tea for myself to help go to sleep and lemon water for tomorrow and fries for dinner Homework is done and I am on episode five of seven deadly sins diesel is so mad at me and wants to go to sleep. So I'm just gonna make a night All right, this is late at night and nothing really interesting happened today It was just more work in school But my amazon package finally got my phone case so I can stop living In fear literally since I got this phone. I've not taken off the packaging like it's been on here Can you stop? It's really not helping Hi I'm gonna put this case in Oh the beauty. All right. I saved the pop socket from my last phone and it is on and oh, it's beautiful I'm gonna get working on some homework. So see you soon All right, it's time to go to sleep. It's pretty late. But before I go to sleep Um tomorrow I'll wake up a little bit more early because I have to go to the school psychologist would you know? All right, so I just got back from work and I have to do this fashion photography project because I was procrastinating on it Diesel is trying to sleep. I'm sorry. But this is what we have so far. My teacher wants me to get like texture. So That's texture. This is texture and I need to somehow fit this This belt that jacket all in a picture. So let me see if I can't finesse this. Wow beautiful So amazing and even basically I have to take a photo. It looks like this I got it done. So now I'm just gonna edit these photos. Also my mom gave me some pomegranates and I'm so happy All right, let's get working. It is so late at night right now and I still have homework to do But finally I've done one of my fashion photos from this to this Wowza. Uh, yes, I'm not done though. So Help me. I also just realized I've left diesel here all by himself. He's so sad right here I was doing this for the shoot and I forgot I covered his bed diesel. You have a bed right here Go sit on the bed. I'm so sorry. I know you're sleepy. Oh, here's my diesel diesel There you go. Now you get into bed Oh Literally I've spent an hour. Sorry about this. I spent two full hours just Making this for extra credit. I don't think it was worth it But whatever good now So I just got back from school and I go here to close my window because I leave it open for him because he likes You know the air and the moment I close it. He starts clawing at it like you love the outside so much diesel This is like one of the biggest reasons why I love fall because You get to see things change, but I work soon. So I'm gonna do that and I'm gonna hang out with Abby and Maya later Oh Come on. Come on. You're mate. You're gonna make it. You're gonna make it. You're gonna make it. You're gonna make it. You're gonna make it Did you buy chicken? I didn't buy anything. It's on the store. Not me. You got free. I always get free food I would have gotten you something but fair No, I'm not saying this. Say it again It's a microphone. So when it's windy outside, it won't be like I'm putting that in the video, Abby Why not She's eating a salad. I thought you hate fruit. Oh my god Yeah I hate him and everything he has to offer Who likes the burnt ones? Oh, I hate the burnt ones Oh my god, why did I stay so long at her house? Um, I was gonna edit this video For Thursday. I don't know if I can get it up by Thursday. I'm gonna try my best. Um, but I'm very tired right now And my sister comes home in like two days. I think She's already excited to finally see your mom again Also, I bought this thinking that it would fit this And it doesn't but I tried to return it and amazon said, okay, we'll give you the return You don't have to return the item though like So I get the money and I gotta keep this But anyways, that's all um good night. I love you guys