 Dyma'r clywedd yn ein bod yn ymryd, mae'n tynnu'n gyfweld gyda'r sgwr wych, fel y dyma'r buswch ar y gweithio, mae'n 10-6 mlynedd yn y cyfrafffyr, mae ar y cyflwydoedd yn cael ei wneud. Rwy'n dda, yma'r ymgweith o'r llyfr y dda, ac os yw'n gweithio'n i chi, mae'n gweithio nifer, mae'n gweithio'n gweithio'n gweithio'n gweithio. Mae'n wedi bod yn cael eu bod yn ymlaen i'r ymddangos, a hwnna, oeddo chi? Gwyd yn gwneud i gyd. Cuno'n gallu gwneudio gweithio arall arall. Gwyd yn ddefnyddio'r ddysgu hanfyrdd. Felly rynnu'n gweithio'r gwaith a rwy'n ymdweud ei wneud nimod yn ddych chi ddefnyddio. Mae roedd cysylltu am gyniadol. Mae gennych ddiwedd mai erbyn y bydd fydd yn cyflyg i gweithio am ei gweithio. Mae credu mewn gwirio'r llaw weithu dillu'r gwaith arall. ac yn rhanio iddo i siwyddol. Na i un o unrhyw ysgolwch. Efallai hwn yn hyn, wedi'i gwneud eu bod yn siwr. Rydym ni'n rhoi adaelio. Ond roedd chi'n ffordd yn meddwl i gyd wedi'r cyflwyno. Fe fydd yn ddiwedd dda, ond yn fyddon ni, brydym yn gyfrif erbyn y됐o. Fyddech chi'n adaelio donweddorol i gyllidegiau credu,시�wyd. ac mae'r mwswyr yn ychydig. Rwy'n gweithio ymwiydd y mwswyr yn ymwiydd. Mae'r mwswyr yn ymwiydd yn ymwiydd yn ymwiydd. Mae'r oesaf gyda'r bobl sydd yn ymwiydd. Mae'r ddalun o'r bwysig yn ymwiydd o'r problemau ymwiydd. Rwy'n gweithio'r mwswyr. Rydw i'n gweithio, mae'r gwaith o'r 1 o'r 2 oed, mae'n dweud y mwyswyr. Gweithio'r 4, mae'n cael ei chynnyddau o'r oesaf, every 30 minutes until that score reduces. This lady was a 12! This lady was off the chart, she was so critically unwell and... Oh God. And then, so then, we had the whole critical care team come in they were looking at her and I was just there watching them do all these things and they were putting fluids up and doing all these different things and assessing the patient and taking blood and I was just there like I feel really helpless, like this is the first time I've ever felt helpless because usually I know what to do and I know what I should be doing and I'm really good with personal care and all of this but for the first time in my life I felt so helpless and I've got no idea how to act or how to feel about that because it's not a feeling I've ever felt before but you know when someone's just so poorly and you want to help but you can't because everyone's doing everything they can for that person but I mean I did my best, I did what I could, I continued with the observations, I was doing the observations on it every 30 minutes and luckily we did get her down down down and she was just scoring a one so then we got her fine again, she was up, she was talking, she was having a laugh with us she perked up a little bit and that was really nice to see and a family came, it was really nice and then I didn't leave until 10-8 so my finish time should be half past 7 I didn't get out of that place till 10-8 because it was just manic and if things like that happen you don't just suddenly clock off you have to stay there until that patient's ok or till someone can relieve you from the shift so I'm not going anywhere, I'm staying with that patient either way because I was really worried about her and I personally wanted to stay so I just stayed, I made sure she was ok but by the time I left at 10-8 she was scoring a six again and I was just like oh my god what am I going to do but then the night staff come, they took over and then obviously I don't know what's going to happen because I'm off tomorrow I don't know what's going to happen to her, I'm worrying sick about this poor patient, I'm just going to worry about her I'm not going to sleep tonight, I'm going to worry about that patient all night and it's just horrible this is the one part that I don't like about the job is the worry after you leave work, you don't leave work because you're worrying and you don't sleep and you don't eat because you're worrying I don't know but I am worried about her, I did the best I could, I was on the ball with that patient, I was trying to push the fluids, I was trying to get to eat I managed to get all of her observations stable and they were good until the last minute before I was going to leave and then they went up again but I did everything I could for that patient, hopefully she's going to be ok and back on shift on Wednesday I'm praying to God she's going to be ok but I can't do anything now anyway, I'm home, I need to relax, I need to try and sleep but I just wanted to update you, it has been a manic day, the other patients in the bay that I was looking after, they had to just take a back seat because I was so prioritised with this one lady because she was critical care so the rest of the patients, I did monitor them but not as much as this patient obviously because you have to prioritise your patient in order so I can't really say much else other than I'm worrying about this patient, that's pretty much what my day involved so it was really interesting to see though, the good thing that came out of this is it was really interesting to see the critical team working together so you had various doctors, critical care nurses, there was like five or six people at one point they're all working and they're all bouncing off each other, should we do this, what could be this, has this happened, has this happened and then the sister was there as well, so the sister was like ok so she hasn't been eating, she hasn't drank so then they were querying dehydration and they pumped the fluids into her and that didn't work and then they were querying something else so they did something else and it was really nice to see the team working together and try different things and coming together it was just a nice collaboration, I felt like they handled that really really well and I kept going in and like ok can I do anything, what can I do, tell me what to do because I feel like a spare part right now just tell me what to do and I'll do it and yeah, there's not much that I could have done as a student nurse in that sort of situation and I think that was my problem and why I felt so helpless because there was all these people around me that knowledge was just amazing and I felt just like oh my god, overwhelmed by it all but the good thing that came out of that I got to see that situation and I got to see how the team working went on in that situation like how they collaborated together for the best care for that patient so that was really nice to see that side of it definitely going to write a reflection on this and put it into my book because it needs to be done I think especially with how I'm feeling and how sort of sad I feel and helpless I feel it needs a reflection just to offload and I mean I'm doing it now, I'm reflecting now I suppose I need to get it down and write in, offload and then I can move on from the situation but fingers crossed she's ok, I'll let you all know on Wednesday and yeah, I'm going to try and sleep now so good night everyone sorry guys I didn't get a chance to vlog when I was at home I was absolutely knackered, I fell asleep and didn't vlog so it's the following morning but I just wanted to update you what happened on my shift and what happened with my patient I was really obviously as you saw I was really worried about this patient in particular when I arrived on shift because I hadn't had any sleep because I was worrying about it I got to my shift at half past six and straight away I went to find out what's been going on with this patient whilst I've been off because I was just panicking about it and unfortunately she did pass away on my day off but she was at an age where she had a really good life she had a really full good life and that's all I can say about that I don't want to go into too much detail because of confidentiality but she did unfortunately pass away so rest in peace my little patient I hope she's in a lovely place now so the rest of the shift it was really busy, we had so much to do also we've got quite a few patients that I've got dementia on this ward so it's trying to manage those people as well they need the extra time and care with them because a couple of them were quite confused and they were trying to get out of bed and they couldn't get out of bed so it was trying to manage that situation as well as your other patients so it wasn't on stop to be honest yesterday but we managed and it was an alright shift so we did it it was alright and then the good news is on the Monday when I had all of that with the patient my mentor wasn't actually in that day and she said to me yesterday Clare, little bird tells me, you did really well on Monday and I was like what? and I got really embarrassed, I'm getting embarrassed thinking about it I did get, I go really shy and embarrassed when people say like give me good feedback, don't know why I don't even know what it is, is it embarrassment or shyness or I don't know but I went red and I was like oh god but anyway she said well done that all the nurses there had fed back to her and told her what an amazing student nurse had been and how I got so involved and I was up front with everybody instead of at the back hiding so she was really proud of me and it was nice for someone to say do you know what you actually really did a good job because I really needed that because after that shift on Monday I felt helpless I think I said this in my last video I just felt helpless I felt like I wasn't doing enough even though I was doing things I didn't feel like I was doing enough because the whole team was there and they were on it and they were doing things and sometimes you just need to think do you know what actually this is beyond my expertise this is something that I can't physically do and that other team has to come in and they have to take over and we have to respect and understand that so we can't physically do everything ourselves so I think that's what I took away from that is okay I did feel helpless but actually that's okay because I couldn't physically do anything because I wasn't the expert and the other team were the expert so I did the bits that I could do and I got in there and I helped out and I was doing the observations on the patient constantly and constantly and monitoring her encouraging her fluids and all of that jazz and reporting to the doctors and the nurse everything that I found abnormal if she started deteriorating I was straight back to the doctor so I did my best but at the same time I did have that feeling of helplessness so for my mentor to come to me and say do you know what I've heard you actually did amazing and I'm going to report this back so it made me feel nice it was a nice feeling and this is why I do it is because knowing that my care has made an impact on a patient and not just the patient but my colleagues around me it's just amazing it was just a really nice feeling even though I did get embarrassed and shy I really needed that because I was so demotivated after Monday and feeling utter rubbish to stop now because I'm going to get emotional and we don't want that again because that happened enough if you're not a student nurse yet if you haven't done placements or anything yet be prepared it's an emotional roller coaster your emotions are going to be up and down you're going to cry at absolutely most things when you get home and you reflect about it just to warn you but I think it's a good thing that we have those emotions and that we can reflect and look back on those things and build and improve ourselves in the future so it's a good thing I keep trying to avoid this light it's really bright in this room my shift went really well it was busy, it was manic but it was actually a good shift and the feedback I had was amazing and I had my midway interview as well so for us, I don't know if this is like this for other universities we have different points we have to meet with our mentor to have a mini interview and see how you're getting on see how you can improve so I had my midway interview we have one at the start so yesterday I had my midway interview and it went really well I got some amazing feedback like I said, I got some amazing feedback she literally said she's got no concerns nothing that I need to get out there and improve on that's it for now I've got to date off I plan to do nothing I'm going to meet up with a friend today I say nothing but I'm meeting up with a friend but I haven't got work or placement or anything I'm going to relax, I'm going to go and meet my friend I've got a placement for my last shift and then I've got the weekend off and I've picked up bank shifts but then I'm off Monday Tuesday and I'm keeping Monday Tuesday completely free completely off to do absolutely nothing with and it's going to be bliss I really need it so yeah, I'll see you all on Friday hi everyone so I'm here I have my porridge I'm just waiting to start now I've got my tea hopefully it's going to be a good day so I am back home I've had a dinner so I made some stir-fry I've had a wash and I've got my jump-ron because it's freezing like who turned down the temperature it's absolutely freezing but anyway yes, it's about half past nine now I'm absolutely knackered I'm going to go to sleep now but just to update you placement went really really well today to be honest I haven't really got anything to report today it's just been a pretty I don't want to jinx it a relaxed day all of our patients were great we had a couple of discharges we had a couple of admissions and everyone was great I've got no problem at all today it's been quite nice and actually something I do need to tell you so my mentor and one of the doctors bought us all pizza we had pizza I know in all of my placements I've ever had I've never known the doctors and nurses to team together and put money together to buy the staff pizza it's just it's blown my mind and I think it's amazing that they've done that and it proper made my day and then I finished and I'm home and here I am so that's it I haven't really got much else to say I've put some lavender on my pillow because I haven't been sleeping lately which isn't good because I'm the best sleeper in the world and lately I haven't been sleeping out so I've got some lavender on my pillow so hopefully I'll get a good night's sleep so that's it from me have an amazing Sunday have a great week ahead of you and I shall see you all next week