 Oh, this is weird. She's vlogging. Actually vlogging. I'm also me and again now. I haven't been able to get on my phone, but I don't know at the moment. If that way, my emotions are just very heightened at the moment. I don't really know why. The minute I feel like I could run around, the next minute I feel like I just want to cry. Do nothing. Dinner. I'm not sure. I think maybe it's too early to give depression. I don't know. All I know is when I get back to my mom's, I'm going to re-sort out the medication because this is the longest I've been off medication for a while. I can see the difference in me, and I know there's a difference in me. I don't know. Any opportunity I get to film on my own, I'm kind of taking. And the good thing about with my camera is it's got a microphone on it. And hopefully that's weird. I'm just having a really hard time with things. And I finally all seem to think that just because I'm home, everything's going to be fine. And it doesn't work like that. And that's like, they're all like, oh, I've seen a lot better than myself. I've seen a lot healthier. I've seen happy. I was happy before. Like, I was happy. I was just happy before I came home and before all that. And I feel a bit at the moment like I'm trapped, I guess. I feel like I'm trapped. Because I have my mom breathing down my neck towards heaven. Saying, oh, why are you okay? You're okay. You're okay. You're okay. It's driving me mad. I hate having people go in and I'd be like, oh, you're okay. Lady, you're okay. You're okay. It's something wrong. I hate it. I hate it and I can't deal with it. Because it's not like she even knows. Like my mom doesn't even know what's going on. She doesn't know what's up with me. She doesn't know what's up with me at all. I don't know. I just feel a bit. But I do feel like all my emotions are out of control at the moment. I feel a bit. I don't know what the word is. I feel like they're very heightened. I can't be as autofocus gone. What is that? I can't be asked to be focusing this. In case it wasn't ridiculously obvious. My content has changed. This is going to be the new style of video. So get used to it I guess. That's what I'm trying to say. Yeah. They do the vlogging in bulk. It's a thing. Vlogging with the fire. Even now I can't actually film with them. So obviously I never, never, never vlog like this. All of a sudden. Big intention.