 Join me as I search for adventure, tranquility and the calming of the mind in nature. In the water, high in the hills and even underground. Sometimes you need to get a little bit lost just to find yourself. Hello, welcome to another video up north in Lake District. I'm heading up over yonder and then there's bigger ones beyond it. Where am I going? I don't know sir. I've just got a rough idea of the area that I'm going to and I just want to, it's one of them. It's one of them. I need this, need it for the noodle. So I'm going to get up there, hopefully get some sun in my eyes. Hopefully do a bit of wild swimming. Hopefully get a sunset and a sunrise and I've got a new tent to check out as well. Three man, no less. Taking a three man up into mountains. Not even attached to the outside of my bag. It's a special one, this. I'm just out bottoms now but I don't know what's going to happen. I'm hoping for some adventure sir. Join me, let's go. Hadouken. Murder! Coming through this gap. Plattered out the views as stunning. I'm not even going to point out where I'm going because it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter because I'm just going everywhere. Turn to page 32 if you want to go this way. There's no path. But I don't mind that. I'm not here for paths because then you find stuff like this. Puddles. Mountain ducks. Nice. It's a bit windy because the clouds are moving quite fast. I don't know if I'm doing one or two or three nights. I've got no idea. I don't know when I'm done but I might do a night down there. Yep, come on, we're going down. Let's go. Don't do it mate. All I want. I've made my way through all these rocks. The rocks have given up a little bit of grass now but there is no path. I'm just freestyling it. Meandering, exploring. And then I'm going to make a detour and go and find a little wild swimming spot that I've been thinking about for a while. Here I am just around that corner. There's a plunge pool and hopefully there's some fish in there I can have a look at. Let's get in. I'll just be sitting here a little bit overwhelmed because it hasn't been just haven't been easy. Life hasn't been easy in here recently and it just feels good. It feels real good just to be out and I can feel it making me better. I don't know if that's just cold water and I'm just buzzing because it's like I'm real happy but I know what it did last time. Like, oh mate, sorry. I know what it did last time. I'm feeling it again, man. I just feel the cold but then the warmth of the sun I mean it's just pure. It's just, oh my god it's sound like a raging hippy but it's just I need it mate I need it for me for in here and it's it just calms the turbulence a little bit and that's what this trip is all about it's calming the turbulence. Right, I'm going to keep my swim shorts on and I'm going to find somewhere else to dip, man because I'm just enjoying myself and then we'll go set the wig whammer. I'm here and you can tell I'm here because I've got budgie smugglers on and I'm just ambling around in smugglers and it took a while it took that swim mate I felt like I was here I sat up the top and I chilled there for half an hour and I looked at the views and I'm like right slowly getting there, getting there shedding off all the the real world problems and everything like that and then it's just getting out of there it's like I left it all in there when I was swimming it's quite emotional and now I'm fully I feel feral I feel like I'm proper in the mountains now and there's no bigger sign to say you're in mountains than just prancing around in smugglers come on come on come on don't wait there lad, come on you're embarrassed aren't you you're embarrassed embarrassed to be seen with me in smugglers it's a bit boggy round here bloody thing I can't tell you what look at that I brought the wrong little thing it's all wobbly and my camera keeps breaking on me but keeps cutting out I think she's ready for Knackers Yard but we plow on if this if this video just cuts short that's why camera's gone that was incredible really incredible nature doing it's it's finest up there it's been a while man it's been a while since I've done something like this because normally I've got a mission like I'm hiking big miles in the day sometimes I come out and just like to get lost and explore and it's a different kind of outside-ness I don't know that's not even a word is it you know I'm not just like following my GPS trying to get to a certain point by a certain time crunch the miles I'm just ambling man taking me time just to sit and appreciate it and I don't know mate there's no phone signal which is just a joy beeping there's no anything like that there is no people it's blissful it's absolute bliss and it's just what the doctor ordered look at his bog foot look for now we'll bog-mirtle it down here oof growth at double dunkers look at that I've gone up to my waist I've just stepped in here I've gone up I've gone up to my waist mate look you can't can you can you see oh my word look I'm up to my how do I get out oh my god oh my god I'm stuck forever get out oh my god back off wow alright okay wow I have to go another way I think because that is bog-central you just wouldn't think it would you I've only deviated well why is my path I don't have one at moment but I feel like I should go in there again to show you what it's like right watch this I'll take bag off this is just an experiment right hopefully I mean look oh loads of midges are coming out look don't do this if you don't do as I don't do what I do okay because this isn't probably right but watch this just walking along minding my own beeswax I'm real I've gone further I'm both like there you go you see stuck like this this is how it ends so if you found this footage please can you cobble it together for me edit out that bit where I started maling after I got out of soup and can you just upload it please to tiktok thanks right and then you I can't why do you do it it's science that's why because that you know teaching you and that lessons wow come here all this be mindful of where you're going because if you're a kid like that you're gone if you're a bear and you're gone or your dog's gone or even you are gone because that takes some getting out it sucks you in sucks you off right even more reason to go get in soup now makes standing there a bit too long long standing there a bit voices all of it standing there a bit too long fingers are freezing this is my sport I'm having it each year man my digits they get worse and worse they shouldn't be they're all gone a bit numb and painful new fig wham big agnes it's the compact rule sets for bike packing it's a three person tent we use the two person for our long distance hikes but now we've got a dog and we want a bit more space the three person and look there's not much more it's built for bike packing so that's why the poles are a lot shorter so it can go on your handlebars like that let's get it up and I'll have a look at it just a little brief look at it because I'm going to do a full review once I've used it it's the copper spur hv ul3 bike packing tent by big agnes right let's get it set up come on let's do one of these the dome away from home beautiful love these tents man mate I cannot feel my fingers loads of ventilation there there's loads of cool features to this tent I will do a full set up and review of it and that will be out soon new bed who this so it's my second time using quilt which is the big agnes few cell ultralight I'm going to use this a few more times see if I get found out then I'll do a proper review on it I'll bang that on the on my second channel trecology pillar I've got the I think it's called the synergy sheet or something which is a thermal rest so it just gives you a nicer feel it's nicer to lie on and that goes round the sleeping pad and then underneath that there's just my little thin foam thing which just gives a little bit of extra warmth and a bit of protection and the air bed is the zoom ultralight by big agnes I'll do a review on that on my second channel I need to use all these things first see how I get on with them I don't want to do a review unless I recommend them it's spacious in here man my mini pump which also doubles up as a a lantern I do have a code for this leave it below if you want look at that for a view from the boudoir not bad at all and it is a three person but it was nothing for me to carry that up here because the rest of my gear is pretty lightweight so I've had nothing hanging on the outside of my bag, everything's been inside the bag and to carry a free person tent and the ground sheet I've got as well all this extra space fantastic right, wonderful camp spot look at it it's beautiful mate let's get some food out there stir the choice for this one the Soto Windmaster the trusted Soto Windmaster I even need a stand probably I'm all a bit nervous now after burning my leg I've got my clean canteen back as well I've left it at my mates for well over a year it's good to be back and the beauty of this thing is it's got a built in ignition you get gas going a couple of things and it's a way look and the lid for these torques is brilliant it's got the air holes there so steam can come out and then the handle if you lift it up and then it can't go back down happy days now, right, I goofed last time not this time I'm going to use two wet socks because this handle gets hot I picked handle up with, I think I use this and there's little holes in it and it burnt my hands so I jumped and it went all over my leg I've still got scars so a couple of wet socks should do the trick another top tip with these it's boiling never mind your top tips right up burn yourself out, out, out there we go right, quick top tip they've all got a sachet in there which keeps it keeps it the moisture from getting in there and to get it out if you shake it up and down like that it will work its way eventually to there it is it always works its way to the top you can just yank it out without having to rave around in there with your spoon top tip right there we go, I'm sort of halfway down this hill sliding down see ya pasta bolognese my mouth's watering why do I even bother it's just food isn't it it just looks like pasta bolognese google it it's just so warm after that expedition food I had when I was out camping with Joe this is why that's a storm called stunner it doesn't get much better does it sliding down hill mate look so anyway I want to talk to you about some serious stuff when it gets out to art come on I've not been posting a lot on youtube or instagram or anything like that because I haven't been going on it doing other stuff because even though everything's brilliant I've got a wonderful girlfriend a lovely family a lovely dog now and it's one of them where you're like everything's great I should be real happy out of nowhere my brain just goes nah I was about these feelings chucks me into the dark side I know my own way out of it and it's basically this it's getting off social media the internet just the phone in general cold water eating clean exercise healthy sleep talking to people and just positive affirmations telling yourself you're the man and not being negative and keeping in a negative loop and anyone who's negative around you you just got to cut them out get rid I feel better and I've not been very consistent on here so I am sorry but I've got other things going on but I recently went to I went to Cornwall I didn't make any videos but I had a great time I always take my go-prints anyway just in case you see that mad thing and I caught ah mate it was brilliant went with Fern and her family stayed in Cornwall and just relaxing and chilling day one full of excitement I loaded my gun and then the band snapped and it's as if the fish knew because look at this school of bass I'd never seen so many bass and they were just all there these were a school bass there's some whoppers in there as well I fixed my band and got back out the first place I checked was like swimming through lettuce soup but I persisted and then I pulled up on this little curve put a size of a claw on that put that bigger than my hand huge I'm not going to get it out now because I'll never get it back I'm not filming this I'm just going to concentrate on getting it out and I did it with a bit of an effort but I got it out the next day I headed back out the weather wasn't great it was bucketing it down the sea was choppy but I persisted I was in there for about 3 hours and swimming through the kelp I managed to sneak up on this bass it was pissing it down and choppy but underwater it was lovely I managed to see this compass jellyfish which housed the school of little fish and I just spent my time exploring looking around and then I managed to creep round a rock and I got a perfect shot on the second fish happy days and before I went I was like I really would love to be able to get some out the sea go spear fishing and feed everyone it didn't happen the first time I went in and then I went back I caught the biggest lobster I've ever caught in my life I did it justice as well I cooked it up we had it as part of a buffet with lots of different things and then I roasted the shells and made a bisque out of the head and the shells and the claws and everything I made a lobster bisque and then I went back the next day caught a couple of bass and then put them in it as well so two days worth of food I was able to feed people for two days and it was such a good feeling just one of them levels up another run on the ladder out in the dark and this feels like it as well man this is just earlier on today I was swimming and I got out and you'll have seen it you'll have seen it but it's just little things man it's just little things and if anyone else out there struggling with the old noodle you know everything can seem to be perfect on the outside and you might be kicking yourself being like I shouldn't be feeling like this almost ashamed of yourself but it's fine mate the cheese slides off the cracker once in a while for everyone so don't be too hard on yourself just know your way out of it and take your time and that's what I'm doing at the moment I'm still in it, I'm still working on myself and that as I always am but I feel better now and I'm going to try and be more consistent on here with my uploads and stuff if I can be more on Instagram I won't engage as much I'll just post and ghost I think that's the healthiest thing in a few days I'm off out with Joey D and we're doing the like, work, walk it'll be the furthest I've walked in a water it's definitely the furthest Joey's walked in a water and we're doing it for charity and I'll leave a link to the just giving page below don't go mental on it just if you can afford a quid that would be fantastic but I've written a little blurb on the just giving page so if you want to go and have a read the quid that would be fantastic I'm eating this talking to you I've got some beautiful scenery that way so I'm going to turn you off and enjoy the rest of me spag ball he's getting thick with midges I'm getting bitten I'm getting eaten alive hide, time to hide because the quill is a summer quill and it's quite thin I've got my down trousers on as well and these make it a little bit warmer I mean I was warm last time I kept in this setup but I was in the woods and now I'm up tops so we'll see this is the test and I'm pushing it with this time of year but it's been a nice day so hopefully I'll be alright Mosquito's trying to get in as well I've got mozzies and midges all outside can't get me can't get me it's spacious wigwam new air bed I just you know what it is super comfortable I've just been just a thermo rest guy but having this square one I've just pushed my legs out further it feels very luxurious for the weight of it time will tell I'll leave links below to everything that I've used on this trip below you can check it out if you want morning glampers slept well I was on the edge of cold but not I still slept I've even had a little sleeping look because once the sun came up I was like aww that is nice back to sleep for a bit zero condensation I even had the doors closed that's a tick from me what I'm going to do is I'm going to go for a morning swim in fact come on grab shorts I don't even need to put my socks and shoes on do I really just go for a little walk some wrongs I need to write and we get down here first because I'm in bare feet I've got no feel bare feet out as grippy I don't want to stack it first thing on a recent hike I did with my mate Joseph Von Butter Biscuits I did like a dive into the water and I put it on Instagram and a lot of people were giving me I think the overriding score was 6 out of 10 and I was very critical of myself I gave myself 6 out of 10 as well the reason why is because I mean regarding and there it is but the reason why is just a lot of people were saying that I didn't hold the pause long enough and that I bottled it because obviously I was going to slap the water so I just bottled it and you're right I did bottle it I've got two excuses one was that I'd burnt my leg pretty badly on boiling water the night before and I was aware that it was going to work that I was going to slap down on that and two that was just scared so what I'm going to do is I'm going to try down here to it's colder today it's always colder in the morning it's had all night to sort of chill out so anyway what I'm going to do is I'm going to try and recreate that that dive and hopefully get more than a 6 out of 10 that's my goal because you have to set goals in life and you have to achieve them goals and I'm going to try and hold the pause for as long as I can I will probably bottle it and I'll probably be coming at you with a 5 out of 10 here now that I've said this but if I cut to like a swimming montage or whatever please be aware that I'm trying my best deep enough is it? here it is man off of you into there right let's right some wrongs I'm even going to keep shades on as extra style points because if I get a 6 out of 10 but I do it with shades on that's got to make it a 7 throw it amazing how much colder it is on the morning glorious I'm going to pack the wig one up and then let's get up on one of these peaks and have a brew see some views there we go let's go crank out some miles to the fells the high fells so beard matter blink one of us has got a blink I haven't gone anywhere until you've blinked so yes winner I know it's not even a path but I want to come this way so that's it good lad you don't have to move far I haven't got a pounce left in me following you I don't mean to invade your personal space I've just traversed around here through these rocks I've got a bit of a pant on pant and deck but yeah I've not been doing much filming because I've got to take such notice when I've watched stuff back when I'm going to film like this and then there's this thing and then it's got to be taking real long pauses in between what I'm saying so I'm not doing much filming to save on my breath but we're nearly there we're nearly there I'm going to find somewhere scenic and have a cup of tea yeah my feet out starting to rub a little bit because it's so wet so I'm just going to dry them out and I need to preserve my feet because in a few days I'm doing a I think it's about 46 miles in a one with joey day so I need I need my feet to be in tip top condition look at this mate I'm not going to have a brew because it's too hot so I'm just going to finish off my water here I'm not going to film anymore I'm going to leave it here mate well I'll say goodbye to you in the mountains thanks for joining me thanks for sticking along and again I'm sorry that I haven't been putting many videos out and stuff it's just I've got to do it when I feel like I can do it otherwise I'll just dilute myself too much and nogging goes so I feel a lot better now I'm uploading a bit more regularly but don't be surprised if you don't hear from me for another few weeks I'm working it out slowly but surely and then I'll maybe do a video of how I worked it out and the results see if anyone's interested in that how to get yourself better I know I've made a video before about how to get out of a rut and I'm doing it myself but it's I guess the thing is how to stay out of a rut it's how to stay how to maintain a level and not be like cycles is what I'm on everything's brilliant I love it, I love it, I love it oh my god I want to bury myself at the bottom and say I can't do it I can't do anything nobody look at me nobody talk to me but the cycles get slower and I spend more time at the top if that makes any sense so anyway if you want to have a look at what I enjoy doing next I'll leave a just giving page down below as I said don't go mental on it if you can spare it a quid more than enough it's just to raise a little bit of money there's a blurb on there and the reasons why we're doing it are there so if you want to check it out please do and that's it mate I shall leave you I've really enjoyed this one it's been an absolute beauty and I'll leave you from this wonderful vantage point and I shall wish you nothing but love bye for now