 when will I awaken or what is surrender? These questions are all parts and bits and pieces of a puzzle that comes together as a seeker proceeds towards themselves. And that is not a simplistic single word path or way. There are that many challenges along the way and especially the challenges of the ego which is what has been slapped on to you over a lifetime. It's almost like a statue that is just covered with the pigeon droppings of a century and this has to be chiseled away.