 Hi guys, it's me from the future. I just wanted to pop in really quickly and remind you guys that if you guys are watching this on the day that it's posted Tomorrow or Wednesday, May 12th. Dom and I are having our first live virtual show You guys can get the VIP tickets and those are gonna have a virtual meet and greet. It's like a FaceTime It's on the loop tab. It's really easy to do But basically we get a FaceTime. If not, you guys can just get the normal GA tickets It's going to be so much fun. The show is just gonna be around an hour We have guest Jaycee and Chelsea coming on from the what we said podcast You're gonna see like exclusive funny content videos like honestly probably the funniest videos Dom and I have made We're doing like Q&A's Fill your guts fill your guts We have a bunch of segments We've been working really hard on it and if you guys ever want us to do an actual in-person tour This show really matters so if you guys want to come add it to your Google calendars bring your friends Tag us in post. I would really love to see you guys there and it would literally make my entire life It's really cool. I know a virtual show. It's kind of hard, but I promise you we have worked so hard on it And I promise you will have fun and you have really really like it So if you guys want the tickets will be down below. I love you guys and I really hope you guys come Okay, enjoy the vlog Happy Monday everyone today I don't I don't really know everyone. I actually don't know Perfect. Thank you So I woke up this morning in desperate need of smoothie King for some reason and they said it was close on Dora's And I just drove an extra 10 minutes to go to the drive-thru smoothie King like that's where I'm at this morning case anyone was wondering I was supposed to have like a six a.m. Workout today Didn't happen. I woke up wide awake at 6 30 That wasn't a good thing on Monday morning or on Monday nights We always get ramen we go to our favorite ramen place or we get it delivered and It's all I can think about and Alyssa literally is texting me all I'm thinking about is Wabi house Did you guys know there's a national chlorine shortage? The more you know you're welcome guys. I like to bring a lot of value education Other things to me, I don't know Guys, I had a really chill weekend until yesterday and that was genuinely an accident But like I almost made it through. You know, I was so close really was I Get the metabolism boost like banana passion fruit smoothie so good On today's agenda, I'm gonna clean my house. I'm a very busy Hacked week ahead hot girl summer is in full force. I've been acting as though it's been hot girl summer for quite a bit I'm not gonna lie, but I'm gonna officially say it starts this week I think my second shot today and I'm afraid that I'm not gonna feel good tomorrow And then I'm very busy the rest of the week So I'm gonna go ahead and clean out the closet room today. Hopefully. Oh, you know what I need to see if The stuff's back in stock today So hopefully the stuff is back in stock today if so then I'm going to get my closet installed on Friday Which is very exciting. So I need to clean today. I need to just do some work from home It's gonna be a cozy at home vlog I really honestly probably need to stop a Trader Joe's really quickly. I need you guys to see I Cannot talk to a camera tonight. I Went to Trader Joe's and I literally sat on my car for like 30 minutes like what is going on Trader Joe's hall the entire reason I wanted to go to Trader Joe's was to get more glaze and the one thing I forgot so Great literally this is the smallest Trader Joe's hall ever red Avocados which no glaze so it's not even getting my normal toes and then I got some treats I got some treats for the dog since it's his birthday is tomorrow and by tomorrow. I mean, it's one. No, it's not Guys, I got these lights on Amazon That And they make your kitchen look so much better I mean Like guys look at that. I mean Beautiful beautiful beautiful beautiful. We love that so I'm gonna make myself some breakfast like cleaning today Literally at all. I think I'm just kidding. I need a little pepper in my stuff. I need to make some coffee Do you want this good girl? It's I have something for you I It is 10 a.m. And I'm so unbelievably tired For like literally no reason because I went to bed at probably like nine or ten last night and I woke up at like Seven I'm just so Tired I could go to bed for the day I am not doing my best today and I think that cleaning is gonna help me but like What is going on? I'm so slow. I was thinking of like putting in a little vanity right here, but that's just not gonna make sense I'm gonna move this rack. I think down to the garage I'm gonna put a timer on and I'm gonna completely clean out this room and organize it I've got to sell this chair this week as well. I love this chair so much But I just don't have room for it So I'm gonna list it on Facebook market all this stuff that I need to organize so many Luxon filter products and just Tripods and books and all this stuff and prints and you know, whatever so I'm going to Forget this all I also have that to list. I have a lot of things to list like I said I am just so out of it have an energy drink. I'm making myself do this All I want to do is take a nap and it's like not even noon Like I don't know what's happening worries me because I'm getting my second shot today And I can't be tired tomorrow too, so we'll see you side is fine We're just gonna we're gonna get it together Hi birthday boy happy birthday fits Happy birthday bud Is someone one today? Look at your big paws. Look at them Cocoa cannot stand and I'll have you attention on her. Yes girl. You know happy birthday to you, too I guess I'm sorry Good morning, everyone. It is now Wednesday one afternoon Really all day, but it is not really off and then I got my vaccine I didn't have any side effects the first one But the second one like a definite fever and I was sick and it didn't feel great So I laid in bed. They basically read all day. I finished The beach house. I really liked that one. It was long. It was 500 pages. I realized it till after it's really good It follows some couples from New York who are the Hamptons for the summer. It's like a thriller murder mystery It's cool. I like that one a lot and then I started a book That isn't released yet from what I'm often friends my first time. I feel so like ooh, I'm a reader, you know Anyways, it's 8 a.m. It's fifth this first birthday. It's also seen kind of bio I have meetings and get law in this morning. I have lunch plans and dinner plans I ended up I worked from bed yesterday like the whole day. I just I don't know guys I feel off this week, but tick tock kept telling me that Wednesday is gonna be the best day of my life So I'm gonna believe them, you know, we're gonna go Um, I need to go to 12 through 30 because I think we're starting my day off with a workout will definitely help I posted the cutest rail for Fitz's first birthday. Oh my god. I love him Guys, I finished working out. I definitely feel better. I'm gonna put some dishes away and do like a 10-minute clean I'm down here I need to be at lawland in like 40 minutes when each hour. You're ready and I'm doing laundry I wish I would have woken up like an hour earlier, but it's fine Exciting stuff guys. I finally ordered the right espresso pods for my espresso machine. I've been missing making my lattes, so I'm gonna put these in the little container. I'm listening to Sophia Bush's podcast with Ben and Jerry I love Sophia Bush like so much. This is what I'm listening to Okay, I just threw an outfit on I made some avocado toast. We're about to go to Lawland for Mr Fitz's first birthday So I'm about to take him outside. It's got dress I'm wearing just like random clothes right now because I'm in the middle of doing laundry Oh, I got a text that my furniture are oh, hi Fitz He's over me I got a text that my new couch is arriving tomorrow So I need to figure out what I'm doing with this one and get this picked up Um, that's actually like top of the list. I need to really figure that out today We're going to Lawland Dom and I have a meeting We're going through the VIP like meet and greet thing We're doing a little test run for our live show you get time for tickets It is Wednesday May 12th at 7 p.m. Central. We would love for you guys to be there, please come We've been working so hard. Anyways, I'm gonna eat breakfast now We're taking the birthday boy for some patecino before our meetings this morning Fitz are you so excited? Oh my gosh, I mean he is really just the greatest boy dog I could ever ask for and Coco. You're the greatest girl dog Coco is obviously coming with she's the original Lover of Pappuccinos Isn't that right? Isn't that right? Fitz, come here boy Cutie. Come on birthday boy. Come on What's your favorite place? Are you ready for your birthday Pappuccino? Oh You're still ready. You're gonna get one too. Don't worry. Look ready Wow Whoa birthday It's his first-ever birthday. It's gonna be a pretty hot birthday That's ready. Keep going. Keep your pappuccino birthday boy item Basically once you log in you'll see an event Today's event is the test meet and greet So just look for the test and then once you enter the event. It's gonna start calling When your meeting is supposed to 45 minutes and it ends in 19 even like my one serious like meeting this morning I'm just like look Thumbnail Tom got a boob job just kidding. I mean if you want you could I'm giving you permission To you know make your views go up to use that I do need my views to go up. You can you can clickbait them No, I'm gonna boob job, but you can use it. I'm giving you permission brothers leaving right now We just had our meeting I changed. I'm going to lunch with a friend. I got my name like you blazers. Jeff when he sneakers Cody Cool right Drifted blazer Throwing this on going to make a scene up. Okay. Hi. It's me again. Just like two hours later I came home and I changed again. I really don't like my hair today. It's just like bad But I don't feel like doing it We're going out later for like apps and drinks and stuff. So I just changed into this outfit. This is from the sky I don't want to say this big oversized blazer. I haven't worn it and I don't know why I have a white tank top Have a white tank top on under these jeans. I have no I probably princess Pauly my blazers That is the look for today. I need to work for a little bit and then I'm gonna head out This couch is gone tomorrow new couch arrives very exciting. So this really just ignore it guys I just need to know that was just a Screw that was on the wall and I just attached it because I wanted to see how big I wanted like a piece to be here And at least I have this measurements and I just haven't moved it and it's like really driving me insane Considering making another latte. I don't know if I will Wow, what is with me in blazers today? Here's a blazer as my earlier thrifted. I've changed my outfit so many times today. I need to get Set up, you know the nice thing about wearing like an oversized blazer It's like yeah, you're wearing denim shorts and stuff at the same time It almost feels like you're wearing your dress and like it's just cozy I like the blazer for the summertime with this look especially with like little heels or something I just didn't feel like wearing heels today. What's new? Because you can like still wear outerwear, but it's so light that it doesn't matter and even more than that Like we're gonna be outside today, and I don't have sunscreen for my body So I would just burn so this is gonna save me guys I don't even know if I talked about this in the vlog yet But my super good sunscreen for my face and I'm like obsessed with love it wearing it right now. They came out of body Face no, they got a body SPF body sunscreen very excited about that It's gone to the point where I really don't feel like myself unless I my hourglass lip gloss like that's how much I love this Stuff. It's just so good. This has just been a week of just Feeling so off. I am so excited. I'm going to a holistic doctor next week So excited to like get my labs done in tech because like I know there's something off with me And I just think that's gonna really save my life because it's just like I Okay, anyways, hi guys why I Have no one to blame besides myself Just listening to a podcast and working and then thinking and I wanted to come on the vlog and chat Because I feel like I haven't really I feel like I have part of me feels like I've been like complaining lately And I'm not meaning to complain One like I know that my hormones are something you're just so out of whack and like out of balance and just weird Which I've already said to I just think I've really been I don't know if it's like I actually think the word is uncertain I keep saying I feel a little bit lost and I don't necessarily know that that's it I was just at lunch with a friend and we were talking and she's like, yeah This specific thing whereas it may not have been, you know, the biggest deal in my life ever it kind of sparked this whole Spiral maybe of just like uncertainty in life and especially at 23 and I've expressed before how I don't love the age of 23 It's definitely weird and I know I should enjoy it and have Did it get and I'm trying my best and I am like I'm not miserable. I'm having a good time I'm not unhappy and things like that I just think that I've been feeling really uncertain lately and just very kind of confused with Who I am what I want who I want to be just things like that And I don't share this in a vlog or online to be like, oh my god life is hard Like it's not that at all I only share that because I know there are people who watch my videos Who feel the same way and I've even noticed with just my friends recently if I kind of bring something up or I'll start To talk about it. They're all like, yes, that's exactly how I feel and I'm like, why are we not talking about this before? The chair my why are we not talking about this before? You know, I just asked on Instagram But if you guys have any wrecks if you're older preferably or even whatever I don't think it's all about age But if you've ever had a period of life where you felt more uncertain Maybe a little bit lost. It's transitional whatever that might be And you read any like good books watch any good movies documentaries podcast anything like that I would love your recommendations I love when you guys share wrecks as Maddie trap says in order to be found No in order to find yourself You have to be fought in order to In order to find yourself you have to be lost something like that I that shouldn't be as difficult the same also I think like certain personality types do better with this Like I really like just knowing like this is why I hate dating because I don't like uncertainty of dating like I just am kind of like, okay cool Let's just go with it and be done and it's not really like the best, but I just want like uncertainty in general Yeah, and I know this is like normal to feel when you're in your 20s I think I was just kind of on like a hamster wheel or like on the go for So long that I didn't really have any time to like sit back and kind of like Figure out my own personal life as much or really even think about it Like it wasn't that I didn't have a life or wasn't you know Actively building a life or whatever it was more so just the fact that I feel like I just feel like for so long I was really like busy and I didn't really like sit down and like think about it And I was also in a time where I was like absorbing a lot of information and all that I don't know if it's like also a post-grad thing like now that I'm finally like, oh, this is like real life Whatever even though I've been on my own since I was 17. I don't know guys. I just don't know. I don't know I'm very It's also and if you catch me the right moment I'm excited about this because then I'm like that's so cool I can't wait to see like how my life changes how I change how Relationships change friendships, whatever and if you catch me on the wrong day I'm like I want to cry and never leave my room when I don't know what I want to do Everything's confusing and it's just awful. So really I mean it's a gamble fits is with my brother Cody wanted to take him for his birthday. So he's over at their house right now and he's sending me photos This is my genius idea. I just had I'm gonna like post a family dinner with my parents soon But then conveniently have a few things that I need to get done in my house and then I'm like, oh, by the way You know, it's a genius idea. Okay. Also, I've talked about pngd before like 3,000 times We're just really chatting if you don't know what it is. It's premature disorder disorder Actually, it's at the week before my cycle, which might as turn into 10 days and then two weeks, whatever. I am just like really Down it feels like there's like a dark cloud over me at all times for like no reason I've dealt with anxiety depression on and off throughout my whole life and very open about that and it feels like that But like really way more intense It started around three years ago Then I've kind of been taking treatment of all the law whatever and nothing has really helped that much I really just I'm convinced that this holistic doctor consultation. I'm not even getting the labs done yet. It's gonna cure me I just like don't want to stop talking like this is why I'm blogging right now Dom said she'll come pick me up soon and then we can go to Lila's It's very exciting. We're having a little girls day remaining a lip. We're having little girls Good morning guys. It is Thursday morning at my couch arrives today, which is really exciting. I woke up and Clearly as we've established this has been an off week. Oh, I've got some of my sunscreen on I need to roll up my face I'm not gonna do that on camera because it was so annoying the last vlog I like You know I'm gonna make an ice latte and I'm gonna go on a hot girl walk this summer this summer this morning To start up my day. I need to work out. I have work to do tonight I have a really fun event that I'm excited for my couch arrives. I have therapy on FaceTime Here I am again rolling out my face guys Promise I'll never do an entire clip I'm doing it right now, but I mean like a long clip that was just really something if you don't talk about the intro to my last vlog I'm literally doing it as a okay. I'm gonna go get a listen to an audio book I think that's gonna be my hot girl summer walk thing hot girl walk Can't say anything these days guys My latte is ready and I bought this little to-go mug from Joanne's the other day the craft store And it was a really good buy I just sat down and I worked for like an hour and now my foot is asleep and it's like It's actually like the worst I think Okay, I have a hydro jug This clutter does it bother anyone else like I just I don't have enough storage. That's the problem Oh, I guess I can get more boxes downstairs. I need to order more boxes for today. I'm gonna go work out I'm gonna do 12 through 30 and then I actually looked up like a leg workout because I got this new I don't know what to call it and I don't know how to pronounce it So let me know you guys will see it I got two of them for my jam because I like have friends come work out with me a lot Just inflated these I need to clean the floor. You have a trash can started filling up the mini fridge All energy drinks very exciting Don't order the rest of the boxes today to where like this is gonna have absolutely no clutter And it's all gonna be organized. It's gonna be so beautiful There's not so much trash at once 320 and then I did here is my first sneak peek of the couch. I Love this this stuff is just a random that I have here I just bought a new art piece ignore that one. It's not supposed to be there I bought a new art piece for there should be here in the next week or so I moved the crate over here the couches and stuff have to be picked up This is this is what the corner looks like right now because the ottoman is gonna get here for like another month But there's gonna be an ottoman that matches and it's just like so Cozy guys. I haven't attached these two things together But the best part about this is that like if I move or if I want to you know Get a middle piece or whatever and make this a sectional. I can do that And I originally really wanted a sectional, but I don't really have the room clearly But I just like love the couches from home threads Matching chair. I got this chair this couch and the ottoman for like $2,300 which is really really good for furniture. Obviously, that's not like Cheap but for like what I got it's a really good price like it is cheap for what I got basically finish therapy I am like shaking for my workout And making I just want to have my latte in peace on my new couch read for the next hour And then get off my day. I'm gonna have to fix this that happened earlier Yeah, hey guys look at my cute outfit. I'll show you in a second Can I serves my little brothers are here? This is my favorite outfit yet I think I was actually born to wear this specific outfit the set is revolve these boots are from Miranda Lambert's line They were sent to me and obviously I know it was her PR team and not Miranda Lambert, but like In my head Miranda Lambert sent me the boots. You know tennis racket and these are tennis balls actually Okay, I saw this on tiktok and they're like vegetable their kitchen scissors So instead of like chopping up your cucumbers you can just cut them with this and that saves a lot of dishes a cutting board and a knife Hello Here's my new tennis racket No, this is like 40 bucks It wasn't I don't think so I'm not I almost feel like $200 and I was like that's a bit excessive for a A beginner if you will Me and my tennis racket, that's beautiful. It's a little bit later around like 730 the Sun comes in and is so beautiful But look at how just peaceful this is I mean Wow Good morning. I'm wearing at the cutest workout set from aloe. I'll show you guys later. I'm picking up Alyssa I'm taking her to the airport. We have our first live show tour run-through tour Live show. Okay I like always call it a tour. It's literally one live show But we have another reading which is our first run-through this morning, which is very exciting today. It's Friday I think I said happy Thursday today. It's definitely Friday. I stayed up last night till 1 30 in the morning So I've been reading these books These books that aren't out yet They're with a friend of mine is an author and so she sent them over and they're so good And I she went ahead and sent me the sequel and I have legit And I read half of it. I got home late last night. I read half of it and I stayed up till like 2 a.m. So that's great Okay, I got another drink doesn't this look like this is basically milk. It's a triple shot of espresso But I don't understand. I mean there is milk in it, but I don't know why I'm acting surprised I just didn't think it would be that light. Okay. I'm on my way home. We have a first run-through of our show in like 45 minutes so That is that I'm really tired So I don't know if that's the vibe that you like that's kind of the font that I have That's a little logo on the bottom left if you want to it's now like 3 p.m. I went on a walk We have the meetings I did some work I took a little nap because I'm just really exhausted this week I don't know like what's up? I mean I stayed up late last night, but I just am like overly exhausted Maybe it's from the shot still. I don't know, but I like needed to so it's three I'm gonna work until like 6 30 then I'm going to dinner with friends, but I'm loving my new couch It's really cute. I'm also gonna journal a little bit. I've actually been like trying to write and journal with a lot more And it's been really good for me as I am figuring out who I am this summer So I've started all right guys, so I'm gonna in the vlog. Sorry the humidifiers on but here is my outfit For the night super cute. I have on platforms my Instagram photo and I changed into these I like platforms with they like tie You know the tell like wrap up tie shoes that look cute But then like they're just then they just like fall off the whole night I'm going to dinner with some friends. It's gonna be a fun girls night. So here's my outfit I'm sorry. I didn't vlog much today. Honestly. It was all over the place. I just it was a mess. This week was a mess I'm kind of a mess, but At least I'm being honest. I'm not complaining. I'm just telling you it was a weird week But I hope you guys enjoyed this vlog. Let me know what you guys want to see I love you guys so much and I'll talk to you soon. Bye I want investors because you just want more control like what is the what's the benefit and the cost Investors are awesome in one day. We will need them, but I want to retain my equity until I don't need