 Dinving Din Dina hey what? Welcome back to our shibbaderiex Where do you get some carbon? i'm Rick and you can follow us on instagram, twitter, your news with June, my Tamummyared, juicy if you'd like to support us on patreon and if you already do thank you so much exclusive content there blocked content full episode reactions all different kinds of stuff. Don't check it out. And follow us on our personal YouTube channels. Link's always in the description below. Today we're reacting to a speech. Oh, cool. It's Sushant. Oh. Sushant sing Rajput. This is, it's been highly, highly requested. I think, remember, we've seen Shahrukh Khan give. He gave a TED talk. TED talk, yeah. This is Brut, which is the channel. But he is understanding the wisdom of Sushant Singh Rajput. Wonderful. Don't know what it's about, but I'm, that's it. Cool. Here we go. Excuse me if I fall down. Excuse me if I don't make sense. Excuse me if I make it like right now. I'm gonna try my best. We love you. Love you, Sushant. Thank you so much for that. This habit of carrying shells in colleges, so. I became an actor because I had a problem. I was an introvert. You know, I'm the youngest of my family. And I was so pampered in my house that when I used to step out, I didn't know how to deal with people. So I gradually I became this way shy introvert kid who could not talk. Well, I still cannot talk. And I have this stage right? So what I do the really as an actor is I hide behind all these fascinating characters and then I'm confident. But like right now as I'm not acting, so there are problems that are screwed up. Excuse me if I don't make sense. Excuse me if I make it like right now. I'm gonna try my best. We love you, Annie. I'd love to share my journey with you. My journey is in case you decide to drop out and join me. It will come right, Annie. So I was standing in the car. What do I talk about? What can I tell you that you already don't know? I'm assuming and I think most probably you guys are way much more smarter and better than what I was when I was your age. But after deep thinking, I was real dumb into two things and I can actually discuss about it. These two things talk about chasing your dreams and actually living your dreams which unfortunately nobody mentioned to me when I was starting out. And those two things are, can I write them? Can you see the board? I love whiteboards. I always wanted to write them for professors. So those two things are the biggest lie and the only truth about success is that I was told to work. Now the biggest lie was money plus recognition is equal to happiness, is equal to success. So let me begin by mentioning that I come from a very middle-class family and when I was growing up money was a big, big, big difference here in my life. Also in the three generations of my family that I know of that I documented, nobody knew what fame felt like. So basically both money and recognition were missing when I started out. So I already started out as a failure, let me be very precise. My family told me that I had to become an engineer. And they told me that I had to do a small book for my sister. So once I'm an engineer, then I can try study services examination and then that will be like opening the doors for all kind of happiness and I'll be forever successful and I'll be forever happy. This is the tradition that I experienced when I was growing up. All right Serena? So I became very good at studies. I did fairly well in my time pool exams and then off I went to Delhi for a class two got myself a drawer in a high school and with Eveline and Feggie and half a son of other coaching studios and I used to share my room with three other similar students. What it meant was every day after finishing my assignments school assignments and preparing for my engineering entrance exam I had to wash my egg clothes and I had to cook food for myself. But I wasn't complaining. Well it was water because after all I was for the very first time in my life I was so close to become successful for the first time in my life. So yeah, finally as slow I got selected for seven engineering colleges and I decided to take a mission in Delhi College of Engineering Now I'm going to ZTU Thank you my dear senior There was a celebration like this in my family too I could finally stop for a while and breathe I said to myself that you know what now you're married you should be happy because you're supposed to be happy. But it wasn't working that much something was missing there was a void that I could feel So I thought maybe something bigger was required For some reason, consistently while the first 18-19 years of my life the future of me was much happier much successful than the present me So then all I tried so I was forcing myself I promised as I promised I started preparing for civil services examination and I was forcing myself to slow but I was bored UBC exams were still far away and the mean time I thought of doing theatre and I thought to learn to counter the shyness that I had still have and also there were no girls in my engineering college for some reason This is a cheer man we used to talk so much crying in this exam when you find out there are no girls so somebody told me they are very good looking girls in dance schools sounds very fine and I was okay and once I started performing arts I knew one thing for sure I knew I quite liked it and three years later imagine me studying in the campus what I'm thinking alright I'm really interested in performing arts and all I want to do is to earn money and to be recommended so if I become a movie star I actually was very serious and I dropped out of my college in Lithuania when I was just two semesters away from getting the big engineering degree came to Mumbai got heavily into theatre and also the skills that I thought were necessary to become an actor and by the way this time I stayed with six other guys in the same division but this time I was prepared for it this time there was one difference I was driven my self-respect was at stake my ex-college mate one of them is studying writing and literature therefore then I was that disaster that folks in engineering and these schools should never become so I had to prove a point to everybody I had to prove a point to my family most importantly I had to prove a point to myself and this was the time when I was also a background dancer so I was dancing behind all the possible stars I didn't think of Shadoo Karan, Shai Kabooga, everybody and I was thinking I was thinking to myself why I was performing but it was just three steps away there I had to get and everything would be sorted and I kept going like that and two years later guess what I called myself my first big week I was selected for a prime time show on the TV I hear me out it was excuse me a big break because I started early people started recognizing me to be honest I would deliberately go and roam in all these malls so that people could forget me smile and ask for help and I was watching myself on TV for the first time you had no idea how it feels for somebody like me to you know I was looking at me for and I was looking at myself every day on TV it was a big, big, big hi I also suddenly discovered that I actually had many friends I'm gonna go absent all this while but suddenly they popped up and the show became popular so I was making good money to a point that money stopped being a differentiator in my life and I was becoming more and more popular now I cannot go to all these malls than I was going all alone so I wanted somebody to be with me to save me I bought myself first dream house I bought myself my dream car and just a note to you as well I was getting such female attention that my engineering college friends could only possibly dream of a small career at the time of my life and then something unusual happened I got used to everything and I felt cheated I stayed with all these dreams for 10 and 15 years of my life I was promised happiness and I was promised success but all these things stayed with me just for few days and I'm untrained in me because I started from zero money and zero recognition so I was not happy how could I be I didn't like this version of success and the future of me again was living with me but this time I decided otherwise I would do something else so that gets us to the second point which is the only truth I won't take too much time I'm just trying to give a shot I figured something I figured that something seemingly big things were not that big once I encountered and looking back in the past I realized that to me these smaller things were way bigger and there was one thing that was missing in my life that was the cause of this illusion and that thing that was missing was now I was all these years just I was obsessed about what's gonna happen I used to draw those scroll charts we were talking soot but if this happens I'll do that and six months from now I'll be here so I wanted to be in control I was so obsessed about my future I was taking the entire responsibility about the past but all I was doing was frequently swinging from past to future not living in actual sense well I also figured that when I perform on stage or in front of camera I'm so much excited I am so much interested I was paying so much attention that there was no room to think about future or the past I was just there in the moment I was alive in true sense that I was performing and for the first time trust me in a long time I understood the true meaning of success which was not money plus recognition but it was now plus excitement this realization happened in 2011 and it has been five years now let me share another very short story with you when I was in school 4 to 5.30 p.m. was the time I was allowed to go out and play I was asked to be an engineer but the entire day I used to wait for 4 p.m. to happen I would step out and the next one and half hours felt like five minutes I didn't understand this then but now very honestly very confidently I can tell you this that I am living that 4 to 5.30 p.m. right now since last 4 p.m. the effects are not different excitement is the cause excitement is the effect I get hired again and again because all these success mantras that we talk about hard work, belief focus, vision, risk taking talent, perseverance you can go on and on but all these success mantras are normal side effects of the process itself I am so engaged it commands my attention so much that there is nothing else that I can think about so hard work doesn't feel it feels like hard work and there is nothing else that you can do but to persist talent you will cultivate vision you will get focus there is no other way because it's commanding your attention so much so here I am right now five hours down the line money and fame although still could not go in back the reputation of my life but let me show you one thing I have much more of them than I had ever planned and the best thing my college one of the professors was very dear to me calling me recently about asking me to plan this interaction with students and I very humbly requested that I can get my degree back it's happening and I am very excited again thank you so much also it's sad when you obviously know what ended up happening but it's a very powerful obviously and I am sure he felt that at the time but it should show you how important mental health is just once obviously at this point in his life he is very happy and he found a certain happiness that doesn't mean he is not going to go back into a whole and it's going to be something totally different or the exact same thing because there are so many factors that play into it that we will probably never know the answer to some of which being the natural process we go through we being people who don't suffer with mental illness we go to logical ABCD and key what it could have been and there are so many myriads of factors that contribute to the situation that he was in even something as not talked about that much as just a lot of mental illness as a chemical imbalance and that chemical imbalance can cause thoughts cause emotions and the last thing I would want to do is watch him here and then begin to speculate on what happened from here to there you know what I mean it's a waste of time and it misses the point of the truth because that's the other thing that bothers me often times is that if somebody dies in a tragic way especially if they were to take their own life that it somehow negates whatever wisdom they shared you know what I mean that moment defines them and that's one thing I don't want to see happen with Shashant we are already learning so much about his talent as an artist and right here what he was sharing is very very wise so to take it in this to do what he said take him at his word in the now in that moment because what he shared was really really important and it's true for a lot of people it's true there's a reason why children don't think about time space continuum and why your memories as a child everything's bigger and longer and they're typically engaged because children live in the now they're not thinking about what happened this morning they're not thinking about what's happening tonight they're simply living in the now and every other living thing lives in the now and he's right the nature of the work of an actor forces you to commit to the now to live in the moment and it is, I don't know about you that's one of the best things about acting is everything else stops and I'm in the moment and you feel the most alive when you're just focusing on the moment I think a lot of people don't realize and it's misunderstood because a lot of actors are like him are introverts I'm actually a very introverted person in terms of I don't have a problem talking to people in that sense but I'm not in terms of like sharing about myself or like hanging out with a bunch of people it's not really I'm much more introverted and a lot of actors are like that and they use acting as a vessel to get out that energy or get out that emotion or get out that whatever it is but it's it's a very common thing that a lot of actors, Johnny Depp 100% that he that's why he makes such grand characters a lot of times he just I've followed him for a long time I don't think he's a very happy with himself person and he's as happiest when he's covered in makeup and he's somebody totally different and so a lot of actors are like that I'm sure Shashant is maybe not that extreme but it's similar to that where he could be the happiest you are is when you're in that moment as an actor and obviously the fact that obviously and that goes to a lot of actors' minds a lot of people's minds success is money and recognition and obviously the older you get it's a cliche the older you get the more you realize it's not money has literally zero to do with any happiness zero, yeah I'm like you could have the person be the happiest man on earth if he's living like if he has the right mindset yeah 100% money has nothing to do with it no and in many respects people who do get wealth tend to be very unhappy because the expectation they had was the wealth itself would give them the happiness they saw so they get the wealth and forget its primary purpose and then find themselves even more unhappy than before they got there so this was beautiful words of wisdom beautiful I would love them more we learn about him and the kind of person he was and obviously his talent is what we already know he was a really talented artist so if there's more videos let us know down below f***