 every year I tell myself and I tell my partner like no matter what do not let me do vlogmas again it starts off as fun and then it ends up being too much work but today I had the idea I convinced myself what if I do a fun very chill self-tape practice every day in December until Christmas. One of the things I struggle with when I want to do consistent self-tape practice is choosing the monologue or scene I had that kind of like decision paralysis in high school and college and now that I'm a working actor so I texted a bunch of my family and friends and I was like whatever they send me I'm gonna do like I'm gonna choose from these I only need 24 so we're gonna do it. I really want to make this a fun activity like something that I can do even during the holidays where I'm having to work and go to family events and things like that so to make this more Christmassy for me and for you I have an advent calendar up there that I'm gonna fill up with the title of the movie or tv show I'm just gonna put it in that random and that morning of I'm not even gonna know what I'm gonna do that way I'm not thinking about it I'm not like oh I should go memorize I just grab it and I'm like okay this is what we're doing today set a 15 minute timer because because we're gonna go we're gonna do it I'm trying my best to make this as simple as possible because it's a lot it's 24 and I know if I make it too complicated I'm I'm just not gonna do it I am not gonna try and memorize I'm gonna give myself 15 minutes per monologue or scene to prepare it any way that I want if I memorize some of it great fun but I'm trying my best to get past the threshold of when you're practicing yourself tapes of like wanting to make them perfect for self-tape auditions that I'm actually sending in of course I'm gonna do more and memorize and get feedback things like that but for this self-tape practice I just want to find a way that during December where historically I do almost no acting that I can still have a little bit of it and a little bit of practice and then maybe just maybe for self tape may 2024 I'll be in the rhythm of it more and I'll actually finish it I have five scripts so far I've spent about an hour looking for scripts and I think I'm doing okay because in the past I feel like I've spent more time I have one monologue I have a scene from a hallmark movie and a couple of scenes from the office so for today because I do want to get started on this that's gonna be enough and I'll continue I have the advent calendar here and I know where I'm gonna get these scenes and monologues from so I'm gonna go ahead and fill this up I really need to continue to look for that tonight though because I know like I know like I know if I don't choose the script and print them out and have them ready this is not gonna get finished this is just not gonna get done