 Hey guys, it's show and welcome back. So I wanted to take some time tonight to talk about Processing emotions and grief because this is something I've kind of been fascinated by I Have not felt anything Anything so far when it comes to losing my leg, which is weird because I just had a major part of my body chopped off My life is forever changed. I'll always look different and that's weird But I've not felt anything negative at all. The only thing I felt is I'm glad it's gone I felt some frustration about normal things like being stuck at home like The pain the pain is not been awesome, but that's surgery and that's that's phantom pain and that's how it works And so I've wondered about this because I'm a big believer in the grief process I'm a big believer in acknowledging when you have loss and feeling those emotions so that you can move through them But I wonder for those of us who have chosen amputation. I don't want to say chosen like this is something I wanted it's not anything I ever wanted, but it's the best option given the circumstances, which is the situation for many of us if We have maybe been grieving our limbs for a long time for me. It was 14 years. I had 14 years before this time before chopping my leg off where my Ankle was never okay Whereas was stricting me from living a full life and where that was hurting me and I think I was Grieving my leg that whole time and I wonder if most of the grief process isn't already completed I'm certain I will have certain I will have bad days I know that I will probably have breakdowns and maybe many of them But I wonder if you have chosen an amputation like I did over More surgeries or over trying to keep a part of your body that is just causing you pain for the sake of keeping it If maybe the grief journey looks a little bit different If you've had a traumatic amputation if you had no idea that it was coming and it happened or you had very little warning Maybe the process looks really different. I think this will be an interesting road to travel the emotional side of it And that is definitely something I'll be talking about on this channel because they really care about Processing emotions. I think it's a very vital part of being human So let me know what your process has it looked like. I would love to hear from you in the comment section below If you're an amputee or you know one What do things look like for you? I know that my family was really really concerned about me making this decision They were terrified that I would crumble after it that I'd wake up from surgery and hate it regret it that I would become suicidal and really depressed and I understand those concerns. I know a lot of people have those concerns for people who have to have amputations I get that I really do But for me, I Wonder if a lot of that hasn't already been completed a lot of that grieving process hasn't already been done So if you're an elective amputee, let me know your thoughts on that if you're a traumatic amputee Let me know your thoughts on that. What is your process looked like? I would love to hear from you guys or from family members and friends Let me know I look forward to talking to you soon. Take care of yourselves and I will see you in the next video