 Hey what's up you guys, welcome back to my channel. If you're new here, hi, hello, I'm Lydia. If you know, today I wanted to talk to you about my medication. Now I've taken psychiatric medication for a long time now. I've been on other meds that haven't worked, I've been on what I'm on now and that works fine. So I want to talk through my medication history. What I'm on now. Right now I take the Narsapam 0.5mg twice a day, Trasadone 50mg once a night, Lithium 1000mg at night, Haloperidol 5mg in the morning, 5mg in the evening. I'm Vortioxatine, which is an antidepressant, I'm on 20mg of that. And that's my psychmat. The two important ones there are Lithium and Haloperidol. Without them, I'm in a hospital. Medication has easily saved my life. I can't function in society without my medication. I had to leave my lecture really good today because I was panicking. I was basically having a panic attack because we watched something that I considered triggering and I wasn't warned about it. So it just kicked off in my PTSD, my anxiety issues and I ended up leaving my lecture at half 11. It just didn't finish until half one. What's your warning to medication, Hel? My medication is something that's been worked on for the last 30 years. I switched from puttylpene to haloperidol. Ptylpene was making me bingey a lot and I put on a lot of weight and I'm still trying to lose it now. Let's start with antidepressants that I was on though. I've been on fluoxidine, teleprompter, surgery, metazepine, amitriplein, benzenefaxium, estesalat... estetalepram... can't pronounce it. So that's my antidepressant history. None of their medications worked for me. They either sent me money or they made my depression work. Now, I didn't know this until a few days ago when I read my KIPLA. I'm diagnosed with a depressive disorder which I wouldn't explain why I'd constantly get depressed. I don't mean all I'm feeling sad today. I mean, depression. And I've kind of been in a bit of a dip recently. I'm trying my hardest to stay in the community. It's my birthday next month which, if you want to send me a card, do you have me? I'll give you the address. I like cards. I'll put it on my wall. Need more decorations on the wall. Got to cover the green. So, they're antidepressants anyway. Let's move on to antipsychotic. Now, I've been on puttylpene, elanzapene, aeropiprazole, clozapene and haloperidol. Which I want now. The worst medication for me was clozapene. It didn't react well with me. It just made me feel so out of it. I couldn't talk properly. So, that was a bad medication. Not saying don't try it. If you are, try it because it is a miracle drug for our people. Just be wary of mixing it with other medications. Always talk to your specialist before changing medications. And then we have mood stabilizers. So, I've only been on lamotrogene and lithium. Lithium I've taken now for over a year. And I took it when I was younger. Lamotrogene gave me a rash if you're interested in my lamotrogene journey. There's a playlist which I'll put in the description down below. And right up there for you to click on. Let's move on to benzodiazepines. So, I wasn't unfortunately put on diazepam. 5 milligrams or 2 milligrams. I can't remember. I ended up on 5 milligrams anyway. And 10 milligrams at night. Diazepam to me didn't do anything. It didn't help my anxiety. It didn't help keep me calm. It just made me really stiff and not sleepy. So, I then I was put on to lorazepam. Which I still have lorazepam PRM. So, I've saved it for me. But I was on lorazepam 4 times a day. And it worked really well for me. I was then in hospital. I was then added clonazepam. While taking the lorazepam. Clonazepam I've been on for 5 years. In my opinion it worked really well for me. It slows my thoughts down very quickly when I take it. It does make me sleepy. Which is the one bad thing about taking it in a day. But medicated I'm doing alright. And that's it's talk about sleeping tablets. So, I've been on ZopiClone, Zolpidae, Remethazine. Currently I'm on none of them. I take Trasadone as a sleeping tablet. Trasadone is an antidepressant. But it's used to sleep at lower doses. So that I'm on 50 milligrams I think. Yeah, 50 milligrams. But sleeping tablet wise, ZopiClone makes me hallucinate. Remethazine does fuck all. Zolpidae worked for the first week I was on it. I haven't had much luck with medication over the years. But I'm finally on a combination that works for me. And that's why I say to you, find a combination that works for you. Makes it so you can function every day. Medication is not a quick fix. You have to give it a chance to build off in your system. I think on average they say it's 3-6 weeks. Are antidepressants to kick in? I can't remember where mine kicked in because I was high on drugs. The legal kind. The prescription kind. And I was in hospital. The best medication for me has been the lithium. The lithium is made so I'm not suicidal. Which is the benefit of lithium. It's documented on medical journals and medical records. That lithium can help with suicidal feelings. And it has for me. I don't know what I should do into my body. But I'm not losing weight very quickly. I don't eat that much really. I don't eat lunch. I don't eat breakfast. I have a snack in the afternoon. And I eat a sandwich in the evening. And I like milkshakes. I don't think I'll need snacks in at the minute. Anyway, back on the topic of the video. Thank you for watching this video. If you are new, subscribe. And if you want to see more from me, follow my social media. It's all in the description down below. And if you really want to help me out, hit head over to my Patreon. It's linked up there. And come join the fun, join the family ladies.