 Meltdowns are incredibly scary, disorientating, painful, anxiety-provoking, all of those stuff. Mentally exhausting experience. It's not a fun experience by any means necessary. And, you know, in public, I can actually prolong a meltdown. I can prevent a meltdown for an amount of time. This may seem a bit of a weird concept, but combining states of dissociation and shutdowns and also the potential consequences of having a meltdown in public, around friends, around dates, around any kind of situation is a very daunting thing. And whenever I find myself in situations like that, the usual thing that I do is I go into shutdown or I dramatically reduce the amount of social communication.