 hey what's up you guys welcome back to my channel if you're new here hi hello I'm Lydia and if you are new here make sure you hit the subscribe button join the growing family by aiming to reach 10k by the end of the year I know we can do it if we work together now today I'm going to be sharing my experience of abuse in psychiatric wards so go into it with that in mind if it's gonna trigger you please click off this video now I've had a lot of experiences in psychiatric wards over the last six years so the first thing I want to talk about is actually not a psychiatric ward but an A&E department AIM'd me with lorazepam and then 10 minutes later they came and injected me with haloperidol I wasn't kicking off or anything I just didn't want to stay in bed so that was the first time of being over-medicated now over-medicating is done as a way of controlling patients and just so dating them so they're easy to care for this was done to me in a more recent admission when I was on a section three at the prioring I was over-medicated then and I don't know why and it just happened so much in psychiatric ward so many people commented on my last video where I talked about abuse over-medicating people and they said they've been over-medicated too the first real bit of abuse that I experienced was restraint are you getting my set on my head thrown back on the floor by one person no alarms pulled nothing just whacked me actually took clicks behind my legs and I just went backwards and I smacked my head off the floor so when it comes to abuse in psych ward restraint is and always done properly and it does result in abuse I can safely say that has happened to me oh I can't do this so I've witnessed abuse I've been through abuse if I lean into one side so I've got a really bad migraine right now and it's literally killing me I want to make this video as a psychiatric patient I have experienced abuse that people in general hospitals don't experience now I have had my fair share of abuse in any but that's not what I'm talking about today psychiatric hospitals are there to protect people from themselves from others detained under the mental health act informal whatever it may be we don't this place of care now I've had my head slammed on the floor I've been kicked I've been sedated I've had bruises I sprained my wrist I've been through a lot a lot of it happened in my year-long admission and why I will say that admission changed my life I also want to point out that it also traumatized me in ways I can't explain so for context I was admitted on section two I was then transferred to a section three my section three was renewed I was in hospital for two years not two years I was in hospital for a year now personally I think I was in too long you have a handle use the handle and close it carefully simply this event for me was when I have three staff members grab hold of my arm and I didn't pin me down with my head three members staff doing a two-member staff job bit overkill an example of where I got assaulted in hospital was I didn't want to go any lunch but my weight was dropping to get me out of bed the support of the support worker grabbed my cup of water and threw it over me that's assault it's just the little things here and there getting pinned down then dragged back onto a wall even though you're on leave getting told I was suspended in your leave because you haven't eaten I wasn't in limited for an eating disorder I was admitted because I tried to kill myself and came very close the amount of abuse that goes on behind closed doors is unreal people getting restrained unnecessarily knows the escalation techniques used the emotional abuse I've been told oh you're never gonna get ready or revolving doorpatient yeah I was for a while 2020 2021 yeah I was a revolving doorpatient because I needed help and support that I couldn't get in the community which is why I kept getting admitted or dissection me to move area to a place I'd never lived before to be listened to now when I was admitted for the year I don't actually remember having a mental health act assessment I remember it appealed and my appeal failed if you want me to make a video on what my appeal was then let me know in the comments down below but all in all I was well and being told all your revolving doorpatient oh you're never gonna get better or you don't try you're not working hard enough on yourself all those things add up and it's it's fucking emotional abuse now I don't want people to go for the studio and think psychiatric hospitals are all bad they're not the best but in comparison to a lot around the world such as America the UK do have it better and it comes to psych wards and our psych wards aren't scary as a whole people tend to keep to themselves and awards nobody make friends I don't know now when it comes to psych wards they are unfortunately staffed by people who don't truly care there are some stuff I was that are amazing and love their job and love helping people and they're the kind of people you should work in psychiatric wards but you also get the agency staff who are there because they got phone call and they've got the staff members that are just there because they could take advantage of vulnerable people I genuinely think psych wards needs to be more selective when staffing these psychiatric units the abuse I've been from a psychiatric wards is unstable I can't go into every detail of all because I'd have to press charges against some people but honestly some staff in there are dangerous what I wish for people is that these places were safe one example of time I was abused so before my camera very really got full off thanks for that camera joy is a filming in 4k it eats up memory like it's nothing but we're talking talk about something deep now this story is quite a difficult one to talk about so I mentioned earlier about having a couple water for anything which is this is that story so I was lying in bed I called for lunch I said I'm not going staff member walks in yes you are for his quarrel for me I get up and push the staff member out my room and then I get thrown on the floor kicked on like the side I dare where they broke a room he then proceeded to shove me back and shove me and shove me and shove me so I just had my gun up off the floor in the end I just went in my room and locked the door which he had to get his keys out to get back in the room and I said leave me the fuck alone and by then of the staff had come out see what was going on he got suspended we then had a meeting where he had to clear the air so me in this room a mediator I can't remember her name and the male staff member that assaulted me I was a Lydia do you feel comfortable going back to work mean no so he was made to work on a different ward which poor fucking people I mean that's a one don't throw cops a bottle of people to don't kick them in the sided three don't shove them back it never that was right at the beginning of my year-long admission so say it made me fearful it was an statement because I'd never experienced anything like that on an NHS ward I do have two complaints against two different psych ward on the NHS that's all I've got for this video be careful wherever you end up thank you for watching and if you're new subscribe like I said at the beginning of the video thank you for watching and I'll see you guys in my next video peace