 Hi. Hello. Hey, welcome to Above Life Channel. The purpose here is to inspire your spirit and to fill you with hope. So I know, I know it's been the end of the year, been a lot of wrapping up and holiday season-ish stuff. I have, I'm okay, everything's okay. It is January 1st now when I'm recording this particular live stream video here on Above Life Channel. And it is 2024. Yeah. And I wanted to make sure I came on. I know it's like almost dinner time here, central time where I live here in Minnesota. And I just wanted to make sure you guys weren't like worried that I, that something was up or anything like that since I did not record last week or this week. So I wanted to make sure I said hello and welcome into the new year. And I'm trying to think if I left this. Did I make this public? I think I did. Let me just check. Right. Hi. Hey, nice to see you. Hi. Oh, that got a message on my screen. Let me just take a peek. You will find, I'm just going to give you a little insider info on YouTube. So you will find in the month of January that a lot of your favorite YouTubers will take time off because of the monetization piece. The really big channels. I'm talking the channels that have like a million subscribers or like 50,000. I don't have that. I'm just a little baby channel over here on Above Life Channel. And the bigger channels that produce a lot of content and sell a lot of stuff will take time off during this time because they don't get a lot of commercials ads. There's no ads really. The budgets kind of crunched down and dwindled off if not totally completely drop off. And so after the holiday season, as you can imagine, and so there's not that many, although you'll still see ads, but it's just not, it's not lucrative. So this is one of my holiday gifts that I got. I got it from one of my kiddos. All my kids were home, you guys. All of my kids were home at the same time. It was a very special for me, especially given this year or given the end of 2023. The fall hit and I, the last quarter of 2023 was a major rebuild for me. It was a let's take her offline and lay all her parts and pieces out and then she can put it back together how she wants it. Like that's what I imagine like my soul and my spiritual team was doing when I had my aortic dissection, which was literally open heart surgery. So if you're new here, I had open heart surgery on October 13th. I was away from home. I was in actually in Massachusetts and I was there for women's week in Provincetown and with two friends of mine. And luckily one of them was very persistent and very aware of my stubbornness and major. I got to the doctor and got medical attention and it was a very traumatic and life changing experience. So I am very grateful to be alive here in 2024. And as I have been like you probably reflecting even if you're not like doing the whole resolution thing or goal thing. I do a word of the year every year and I also have some other things that have come up for me. Like sometimes I'll get a spirit guide that will guide me for not just not for the year like don't let that be intimidating. It's whatever you choose right now can be a quarterly thing or it can be a short term thing or a seasonal thing. Think about it that way like it's natural for us to break things down into like seasons because then to me personally it works. It aligns with like the Celtic wheel or the wheel of the year which I like. That's kind of the rhythm I've been following the last two years and it works well for me to think of it in terms of seasons. But the first of the year is a big deal right. It's a really big deal. And so an opportunity for reset and so I choose a word and prior to this like right I'd say November ish. I was actually given some as I was processing the experience that I had with my major surgery and then the recovery that I've been on. It's 11 I'm 11 weeks post surgery right now. I'm in cardiac rehab right now three times a week where I exercise with a or I do you know stretches and some exercises with supervision of physical therapists that specifically work with cardiac rehab patients like me. And there's a group of us that work out together in the same room and we do all different kinds of machines and repetitions based upon what where we're at in our journey on our healing process and what our bodies can take. And we're monitored. So I have a sorry my back bother me a little bit here just. I have a. I get hooked up to all sorts of monitors and so they're monitoring my heart and my blood pressure all that kind of stuff and to make sure that everything is on the up and up and unfortunately on Friday one of the guys in our group because they're all men just me I'm not obviously part of the. I'm part of the group but they're like older men older guys and there's three of us now there was four and now there's three. Because one of the people was done where they were kind of rotated out you know of the the program and I haven't only been there for like a month I think it's been a month. I think yeah by month and I unfortunately one of the guys had to get hooked up to take home monitor because their heart was doing some erratic kind of different kinds of things I don't remember if it was. Puppetations or something they weren't uncomfortable they weren't feeling any pain but they. Notice that the monitor being people notice that there were some palpitations they wanted them to get hooked up with what they call a Holter monitor to take home and to kind of check and then to check in with their doctor and stuff so. Otherwise their stats were pretty good so that was good but I'm like what right before the New Year's I was like oh dang you know. So we'll see we'll see what happens when I when I go back and hopefully everything is good and I'll be able to see everybody. As far as insurance goes it starts over again at the New Year so anyway but so I've been doing the. I've been spending a lot of time the last three days with my journal and working this one is specifically for my word of the year stuff and been working on. The closing out of 2023 and as you can imagine my reflection and contemplation is quite different unique and then it normally would be right now. And someone like oh it's just so much to consider so I'm not I'm trying not to be too. Detailed about the questions and stuff that I'm answering or responding that are kind of the prompts that are helping me through the process of letting go of the last year but at the same time. You know giving some some space some airspace to kind of consider how 2023 has served me to because there's so much that have happened has happened as you know like. Like I have to I've had two jobs this year I worked at a cafe and in the first part of the year and then I turned 50 this year and I went to. Disney World for my birthday with my sister and. I was also struggling with. Some. Health concerns and things at that time but it wasn't. Oh I know that I saw it yeah. I was struggling with some health things as far as like my hormones I was on that roller coaster of like pre menopausal menopausal stuff happening and I was trying to figure that out and. I was also in a depression and I lost a crap ton of weight and wasn't eating it was really depressed and it was you know I made some strides but I also. Wasn't taking care of myself the best I could I was trying to like do things and take steps to take care of myself and. I but I I wasn't taking care of myself like inside I was doing the things the physical things like okay I need to make money more money because my business wasn't. Producing tons of money and I needed to do something so I could be able to pay my rent because my my the goal was I needed to move out of the house. And have my own place or have another place that I shared with somebody else that I could. Maybe rent some you know rent from and. Like there are all these things I needed to happen and also needed to. Sorry we're. Right now it's like about dinner time and so I can hear things going on around me and it's very distracting like I had a kid over here in the. In their room doing gaming I got a kid downstairs to also doing gaming and then I got the the hubbies hubs is over here somewhere. I don't know maybe in the office I don't know I can hear the dogs walking around but. So I. I guess maybe the important thing to do and when I'm sharing with you today about the first day of 2024 is really to have this conversation with you about. In my reflection thinking about how I didn't take care of myself I'm not talking physically take care of myself because this. What happened to me at the end of the year has nothing to do with my physical body health as far as like I didn't have high blood pressure. I don't have like diabetes I don't have issues with blood sugar I don't have issues with. I don't have issues with any of the there were no markers for this this is like this seemingly random thing that happened to me. Which I'm going to get some more information about this year because I've been on the waitlist to get into the. The aortic specialist so I'll be going there at the end of February and then to a special center that's an aortic. The aorta is the muscle that supports the heart basically muscle or vascular big blood vessel that supports the heart but also. Brings blood to all the major organs in the body so it's a big fucking deal and so I'm going to this center this institute. Because of the uniqueness of what happened to me and so. And I'm getting like my CAT scans and my additional testing and stuff like that the pre work for that done in a couple of weeks here in January so. That's all good stuff and I'll give us lots of information so when I say health wise and not not taking care of myself it my heart my emotional heart my energetic heart my spirit my energy I. I was really depriving myself of just. An amount of self compassion and. I never like I looked up some of my. Some of my notes from the word of the year that I was doing last year the this beautiful workbook that Rebecca Cavender Rebecca Cavender dot com is. Rebecca is is her website but Rebecca is a good good good good good good friend of mine and a very gifted writer and very powerful healing woman. Very powerful divine feminine leader and. Healer I would say definitely call her a healer she's such a just an incredible person so blessed to have her in my life but she. Has this workbook that you can do and it's free. Oh wait. She has no I it's not free I'm sorry I'm thinking about other things I'm doing like my yoga is free. But it's super like there's this big bundle and packet of stuff that you get and. It's all electronics you can download it and there's like a workshop that she did that she recorded that it's like a three hour workshop that you can listen to and there's so much stuff but. I was doing the workbook last year as I always do and I was reading before I was doing it this year I was reading what I wrote and it was so sad. I couldn't. Like I must have I felt so I wasn't so much pain and I was hurting so much and I felt so alone and I was really just. I don't know how I was able to actually do other things like. Work at the cafe and you know turn 50 and make the best of it and do videos and. Work and and and you know make coffee and learn new things and do all that and then. Later in the year get another job at the community center and. Actually not later in the year in the spring late spring I got a better job at the community center where I was a facility supervisor now I haven't worked there for three months because of this obviously I can't do any of the. Heavy lifting or anything so I had to take time off of that hopefully I can go back we'll see but. I was just. Really caught off guard by how sad. My responses were to the core questions when I was thinking about the year that year and. So sad and so this year there's such a mix of things it's like still some of that and. You know the big move when I moved to the townhouse in the summer and. Just. And then when I had. Really struggled with some things with one of my kids my youngest kid. With OCD stuff and going to like this this. Outpatient treatment thing and trying that it didn't work well and trying different counselors and different. Psychiatrists and different you know all that stuff and then and at the same time then. Doing online school instead of in person school and making those decisions and also telling him about me. And about his dad and how we were separating and you know I mean it was just there was so much stuff and. And then. I shared with him. I shared with him my. The piece of my life that I had not been. Talking to him about at all in the last two years and that the fact that I'm queer and. So there's a whole bunch of just so many things that happened this year that were. Very very difficult and I felt very alone and like I didn't have a lot of support. I did have friends that were super strong and by my side which I'm so grateful for. Without them I probably would not be here for quite literally not be here. And so like the whole year culminated in this big like massive health event that. I had to choose whether or not I was going to live or not. And at the beginning of the year all I wanted to do was just ease the pain and not not be here and then. In the fall I was like wow I have this opportunity to leave do I want to leave or not and I was like well no I want to stay. I have I have things to do I have relationships to to continue to cultivate and grow and. There's more to life than what I've experienced and then the hell that I've been through the last two years and so. I mean I really. I've been spending a lot of time the last two weeks in that place really reflecting and it's hard because it's literally that dark night of the. It's been really hard and there's been just so much. It's not it's not but it's not taking me down like it's not taking me out it's not putting me on the sideline like it would it would have or could have before it's. I'm in a different place now I have more of a wisdom connection or a real solid foundation to who I am. As far as not just a spirit and not just a person but as a heart. As this big beautiful strong loving being I am so filled with love and I have such an abundance of love and. That's why I stayed that's why I chose to continue on in life and. As an empath I know you know that it's so challenging to feel like everything and to feel responsible for everything and everybody's feelings and emotions and we do the best we can. But sooner or later it's just too much and it's heavy and overwhelming and. I know you get that and. I know that I have just an incredible wealth of. Knowledge and information and psychic experiences and. Just so much wisdom that I want to share with you and. I know that 2024 will give me the opportunity to do that so I'm looking forward to. To the connection that we can have you know and I'm. Super grateful to be here and I'm not. It almost feels like surreal like last year doesn't even I can't even remember that it happened kind of a thing like. Like 2022 fall into 2023 fall I just I can't even remember I mean I can remember the things that happened and it feels like a sad sad story and heartbreak and. Just so much pain but it also feels like it's done like I did that like that part. I'm not going back there I'm not going to let myself hurt like that again because. I know what love is you know I feel it my heart is open and it's. Abundant and generative and not limited and it's not labeled and it's not. It's not a relationship or a thing or a person love is so much more expanded and abundant than that it's just it's so hard to explain but I just feel this. Energy of wisdom and connection and grounding and centeredness with love and my heart. And it's not like this fluffy airy very love it's different it's a very grounded rooted love and I think it's what's missing from being empathic. We don't ground in our hearts and I think there's so much that we can gain from working with our hearts. And not plunging into the depths the despair and I don't think you have to like relive all your pain and face all your demons and your shadows. I think that there's a balance between that and the whole spiritual I'm just going to be positive or what people consider toxic positivity or spiritual bypass. There's a balance between that and then all this work of the shadow you have to face your shadow and it's just because you. All these bad things happen to you in your life and you have to face it or you've picked up these toxic traits from all these different relationships and or observing things or or. Ancestral or whatever it is and you got to face that and you got to dig in deep and you got to feel like crap and you have to totally feel like shit and be. You know stripped bare and beaten up with your energetics of the shadow. No, no. Both of these things like coexist the the goods and the bad and the light and the dark they all coexist all at the same time. And sometimes things are you know you're in a valley and sometimes you're in you know in a low point and sometimes you're in a really high point. But most of the time things are kind of pretty much in the middle and so that's alignment that's balance that's connection and. I feel like in this this video I'm kind of all over the place but there's so many things that are coming through right now and have been for the last like 10 days that I'm like I can't. It's hard to get on here and talk to you about stuff when I'm like wow there's this and there's this and there's this and there's so much inside me that I needed to share and educate and mentor and and help others you know and. Because it's hard to be empathic and it's hard to know. And to come up with like creative solutions on your own or ways to cope and manage that are healthy instead of you know drinking instead of you know smoking something or pop in a pill or overly doing something like eating or exercising. You know I mean it just or avoidance or distraction you know there's other other ways that we can really work with our empathic nature and. Our feeling and our emotions and not just stuff them or hide them or try to contain them and it's not about controlling them it's about managing them and and utilizing that. Energy when it comes forward into into a flow state that can help you be productive be successful and be happy you know and that has a lot to do with. Just being present you know for your life and so I've definitely learned that. That how really really important that is on a. Front line kind of I'm on the front lines kind of basis you know so. So what did you guys do for New Year's did you guys do anything special did you I want to read the comments below I'd like to get back into doing that I haven't read comments for quite a while. And I'd like to. See what you guys what you guys have done or what are your rituals for the New Year I've been constantly and consistently burning this beautiful little bundle of sage herbs that I have and they are actually dragons blood. Sage and I've been burning that while I've been doing my writing in my journal and using my card decks and things and then I got some beautiful this is Selenite. Some of my my gifts my Christmas gifts I have here that I'm just enjoying so very much from my friends that have sent me sent me some lovely Christmas gifts and so what what are you doing what are your rituals. I'm curious about that what are you doing what's helping you out and I'm doing cards of course I got my cards here and I'm doing those as well so curious about real curious about what you guys are doing. For my New Year's last night I actually stayed up I actually stayed up to like two in the morning which never has happened before but I wanted to be present for that energy of the New Year and. I celebrated the East Coast New Year. Yeah the EST New Year and the CST New Year I didn't I guess I kind of stayed up almost for the Pacific New Year but I didn't actually technically celebrate that but yeah I celebrated with I celebrated with a beautiful woman and a wonderful man. That's what I will say about how I celebrated it was it was good it was good and very very poignant because they were the ones that were with me as I was working through the process of healing my physical body you know of staying alive here and so yeah. Yeah so of course that makes sense so. All right so with that I want to say happy New Year to you and I think maybe what we should do is we should have a little conversation here about physical body health and embodiment because I know that there's going to be a lot of. You know germs around potentially and I the reason I know that is because it's already happening I know people that are already catching you know flu bugs and colds and that started just before. The December holidays but and the big C the COVID you know that's around to I know some people that have had that and I've been staying very. I've been doing less things external and just kind of sticking around the house more and you know wearing a mask and things like that because I obviously am more vulnerable right now to any kind of thing. But like I said I'm 11 weeks post surgery doing pretty well I'll show you my. My scar at some point but I'm doing pretty well yeah doing pretty well day by day though. A counseling is going to gear up I'm going to do double sessions again because it's I'm at the point where I need to start processing the trauma of what happened. Around the surgery and stuff so I need to do that plus I'm going to have to have some tests that are going to probably. Have the potential to trigger me from some memories of being in the ER because everything was emergency that happened to me and so. When I go back into those machines again and stuff and have those experiences it may challenge me a bit and so I'm. You know kind of preparing to have a solid structure of support so that I can navigate things my feelings and my thoughts and my emotions around that in a healthy way. And yeah I continue to. Focus on the healing so. So we should talk about the body and healing. That should be another topic and yes to answer your question yes I will. I am doing sessions I know some of you have had trouble trying to access my my scheduler because I have somebody that's helping me but we haven't. Everything isn't like all set yet so if you are trying to get access to me for January or February you should be able to know the link should work and if it doesn't just email me. You can send me an email to above life channel at gmail.com and I will just respond to you directly and get you on my calendar because I am doing sessions. My sessions are intuitive life coaching sessions they are not personal channeling or celebrity channeling they're not that. It's different you know it's a different level of support and empowerment it's definitely mystical. But it's a different level of support and empowerment uses your brain your heart your soul and your body and energy. To really help you connect so for yourself to connect with yourself and your inner wisdom so. So I'm also doing a group another inspiring psychic experience group in January so that is the link below to that is also available and you can sign up for that. I also have one scheduled in February you can also sign up for that one if you'd like to do that as well so. I did promise that I would do some channeling of celebrities in January I will do that I'll do some public channeling and I will also offer a couple just a couple of celebrity messages here at some point in January. I'm not sure when I got to work it in with my appointments and stuff but I have been doing sessions you guys I've been doing sessions the last few weeks I've had clients and stuff so I have been doing it. Just people that have reached out to me I've just scheduled them so go ahead and do that if you're interested. All right so I hope I've inspired your spirit today filled you with some hope and encourage you to live your life it's your life after all and you get to live it so just live it thanks for watching.