 all right so what's up you guys Sedona um i want to talk to you guys today about just kind of like where i'm at and what i'm feeling so i had a video prepared and ready for you guys um it was already scheduled and stuff and then i woke up this morning and like i don't want to post that because that's not how i'm feeling today uh so if you're ready for a little bit of real um and i think a little bit of motivation as well uh this video is for you all right let's hope you guys sit down welcome back to my channel so i'm on my way to work um and you know honestly i woke up and i didn't necessarily want to go to work i i realized that um i i had like another sleepless night uh i haven't been sleeping well um my gi stem has been like all kinds of weird um and you know for those of you that don't follow me on instagram um i posted on instagram that about two weeks ago i lost my dog that you know has been with me for 14 years since she was a baby and it was unexpected it was pretty tough um because i had no idea that that was going to happen um especially when it did uh but you know that's either here or there like we we still had i still had to like go on with life so like i still had to like have my daughter's birthday party still celebrated my 14 years of marriage um all while you know in this process of mourning and then i still had to go to work and um take care of people that seemingly didn't want our help at the at the time just because they were enabriated or intoxicated um and take care of people that were in some of the happiest moments of their lives because they were having babies um and you you don't want to bring you like your feelings or your sadness or your frustrations to these moments because they just compound them or they they sour them um and so i wanted to talk about healthcare because i realized like you know what i'm not okay um i've been kind of going through the motions for the past two weeks but i'm i'm not okay and there are days when i am okay but today's one of those days when i'm not okay and i had to come to the realization that it's okay to be not okay um and to be able to acknowledge that and understand that where i'm at at that moment in time is actually pretty important so if you're a PA student a pre-PA or a PAC and you've realized there are moments when you are not okay or you're recognizing that there are moments or times or in a moment you're not okay that's okay it's okay to understand that um in my sleeplessness last night i listened to a message uh and it was talking about mindset uh and how mindset affects not only your mission but your ministry and you know my mission is i feel to be like the best PA in whatever specialty i'm in at that moment um and my ministry is to do that in a way that i'm able to show and exude christ uh without having to be blatant about it just being nice and being christlike and so for me um i think that the the moments when i'm not okay can affect that mission um where i may not necessarily want to be at work or do work or whatever the case may be in that ministry where i'm just down like i'm not being christlike and i allow frustrations to kind of just overtake me and so i wanted to talk to you guys about um your mission your ministry and your mindset you know and your moments of not being okay recognize it and and work at um talking to people or doing things that will allow you to to get into the right mindset because your mindset is very important in affecting not only your mission but your ministry okay so i just want to talk to you guys about that and let that out um you know pray for me if y'all are you know if you guys pray uh as i continue to like navigate this time that i'm dealing with and just you know continue on with life thank you guys so much for watching if you have any questions for me leave them in the comment section below don't forget to like and subscribe and follow me on instagram at it on the pa i will talk to you guys next time bye now listen bye