 I welcome you joining me today and spontaneous gathering here online and today we're just going to workbook lesson number 20 and it's so beautiful because it's really our first lesson that directs us directly towards what we really truly want and what our goal really is and a lot of the other earlier lessons have helped us kind of expose and loosen and begin to release some of the obstacles to the awareness of love's presence and one of the ways that we refer to the goal of really the ultimate goal is the light and that light could also be called the vision of Christ or Christ vision and so today's lessons you know we're starting to be really directed very specifically to what to do what to say how to practice so we can experience the light the vision of Christ and in these workbook terms that is called seeing true seeing not not perceptual seeing seeing with the body's eyes and using the five senses because the ego made the body and the ego made the five senses and and the ego made the cosmos so basically if we want to really be free we have to learn how to see truly see so that's our lesson for today lesson number 20 and also you know it's it's giving us it's kind of like giving us a point or two what's it all about you know like that song what's it all about Alfie you know what's what's it all about Jesus we really want to know that sounds like a good new song we could we could invent what's it all about Jesus and then we go from there with these lessons so let's jump into lesson 20 I am determined to see we have been quite casual about our practice periods thus far there has been virtually no attempt to direct the time for undertaking them minimal effort has been required and not even active cooperation and interest have been asked this approach has been intentional and very carefully planned we have not lost sight of the crucial importance of the reversal of your thinking the salvation of the world depends on it yet you will not see if you regard yourself as being coerced and if you give in to resentment and opposition this is our first attempt to introduce structure do not misconstrue it as an effort to exert force or pressure you want salvation you want to be happy you want peace you do not have them now because your mind is totally undisciplined and you cannot distinguish between joy and sorrow pleasure and pain love and fear you are now learning how to tell them apart and great indeed will be your reward your decision to see is all that vision requires what you want is yours do not mistake the little effort that is asked of you for an indication that our goal is a little worth can the salvation of the world be a trivial purpose and can the world be saved if you are not God has one son and he is the resurrection and the life his will is done because all power is given him in heaven and on earth in your determination to see is vision given you the exercises for today consist in reminding yourself throughout the day that you want to see today's idea also tacitly implies the recognition that you do not see now now therefore as you repeat the idea you're stating that you are determined to change your present state for a better one and one you really want repeat today's idea slowly and positively at least twice an hour today attempting to do so every half hour do not be distressed if you forget to do so but make a real effort to remember the extra repetition should be applied to any situation person or event that upsets you you can use them differently and you will what you desire you will see such is the real law of cause and effect as it operates in the world what a positive note to end what you desire you will see such is the real law of cause and effect as it operates in the world I am determined to see yeah let's just let that sink in I am determined to see no truly truly I am determined to see to support our idea today let's actually listen to some words that Jesus gives us about the vision of Christ because vision of Christ is seeing and if I'm determined to see tell me more Jesus the ego is trying to teach you how to gain the whole world and lose your own soul the Holy Spirit teaches that you cannot lose your soul and there is no gain in the world for of itself it profits nothing to invest without profit is surely to impoverish yourself and the overhead is high not only is there no profit in the investment but the cost to you is enormous for this investment cost you the world's reality by denying yours and gives you nothing in return you cannot sell your soul but you can sell your awareness of it you cannot perceive your soul but you will not know it while you perceive something else as more valuable the Holy Spirit is your strength because he knows nothing but the spirit as you he is perfectly aware that you do not know yourself and perfectly aware of how to teach you to remember what you are because he loves you he will gladly teach you what he loves for he wills to share it remembering you always he cannot let you forget your worth for the father never ceases to remind him of his son and he never ceases to remind his son of the father god is in your memory because of him you chose to forget your father but you do not really want to do so and therefore you can decide otherwise as it was my decision so is it yours you do not want the world the only thing a value in it is whatever part of it you look upon with love this gives it the only reality it will ever have its value is not in itself but yours is in you as self value comes from self extension so does the perception of self value come from the extension of loving thoughts outward make the world real unto yourself for the real world is the gift of the Holy Spirit and so it belongs to you correction is for all who cannot see to open the eyes of the blind is the Holy Spirit's mission for he knows that they have not lost their vision but merely sleep he would awaken them from the sleep of forgetting to the remembering of god christ's eyes are open and he will look upon whatever you see with love if you accept his vision is yours the Holy Spirit keeps the vision of christ for every son of god who sleeps in his sight the son of god is perfect and he longs to share his vision with you he will show you the real world because god gave you heaven through him your father calls his son to remember the awakening of his son begins with his investment in the real world and by this he will learn to reinvest in himself for reality is one with the father and the son and the Holy Spirit blesses the real world in their name when you have seen this real world as you will surely do you will remember us yet you must learn the cost of sleeping and refuse to pay it only then will you decide to awaken and then the real world will spring to your sight for christ has never slept he is waiting to be seen for he has never lost sight of you he looks quietly on the real world and he would share with you because he knows of the father's love for him and knowing this he would give you what is yours in perfect peace he waits for you at his father's altar holding out the father's love to you in the quiet light of the Holy Spirit's blessing for the Holy Spirit will lead everyone home to his father where christ waits as his capital self every child of god is one christ for his being is in christ as christ is in god christ's love for you is his love for the father his father which he knows because he knows his father's love for him when the Holy Spirit has at last led you into christ at the altar to his father perception fuses into knowledge because perception has become so holy that it it's transferred to holiness is merely its natural extension love transfers to love without any interference for the two are one as you perceive more and more common elements in all situation the transfer of training under the Holy Spirit's guidance increases and becomes generalized gradually you learn to apply it to everyone and to everything for its applicability is universal this has been accomplished perception and knowledge have become so similar that they share the unification of the laws of God and also let's jump to chapter 13 the guiltless world and we're doing section five the two emotions we'll start with paragraph six as you look with open eyes upon your world it must occur to you that you have withdrawn into insanity you see what is not there and you hear what makes no sound your manifestations of emotions are the opposite of what the emotions are you communicate with no one and you are as isolated from reality as if you were alone in all the universe in your madness you overlook reality completely and you see only your own split mind everywhere you look god calls you and you do not hear for you are preoccupied with your own voice and the vision of christ is not in your sight for you look upon yourself alone little child would you offer this to your father for if you offer it to yourself you are offering it to him and he will not return it for it is unworthy of you because it is unworthy of him yet he would release you from it and set you free his same answer tells you what you have offered yourself is not true but his offering to you has never changed you who know not what you do can learn what insanity is and look beyond it it has given you to learn how to deny insanity and come forth from your private world in peace you will see all that you denied in your brothers because you denied it in yourself for you will love them and by drawing nigh unto them you will draw them to yourself perceiving them as witnesses to the reality you share with god i am with them as i am with you and we will draw them from their private worlds for as we are united so would we unite with them the father welcomes all of us in gladness and gladness is what we should offer him for every son of god has given you to whom god gave himself and it is god whom you must offer them to recognize his gift in you vision depends on light you cannot see in darkness yet in darkness in the private world of sleep you see in dreams although your eyes are closed and it is here that what you see you made but let the darkness go and all you made will no longer see for sight of it depends upon denying vision yet from denying vision it does not follow you cannot see but this is what denial does for by it you accept insanity believing you can make a private world and rule your own perception yet for this light must be excluded dreams disappear when light has come and you can see and now as we are determined to see which is our workbook lesson 20 today here's just a boost boost reminder from Jesus that seeing is not involved the physical eyes at all do not ask do not seek vision through your eyes for you made your way of seeing that you might see in darkness and in this you are deceived beyond this darkness and yet still within you is the vision of christ who looks on all in light your vision comes from fear as his from love and he sees for you as your witness to the real world he is the holy spirit's manifestation looking always on the real world and calling forth his witnesses and drawing them to you he loves what he sees within you and he would extend it and he will not return unto the father until he has extended your perception even unto him and their perception is no more for he has returned you to the father with him oh wow how sweet we are being blessed blessed blessed we have showers of miracles raining raining in our mind rinsing our mind freeing our mind releasing every scrap of judgment positive or negative to be still and know the stillness of the christ mind that's really what it's all about and and the blessing is we can go forth and and remind ourselves today maybe you have a mental to-do list and you've you've got all your things your to-dos for today but actually now we're going to put the workbook lesson of the day right there at the top before the to-do list starts with our prayer our prayer from the heart I am determined to see I want the vision of Christ I can only see in christ vision in the light in the light of who I am this is an inner vision too this is not with the body's eyes or the five senses this is an inner spiritual vision it's the spiritual eye and let thine eye be single okay this is the spirit's eye the the spirit's seeing and it's always helpful to remind yourself you know as I look upon the world with the eyes and I proceed to the five senses I am not perceiving reality I am perceiving deception and distortion as long as I see a fragmented world so I'm I want the light of Christ I want the the joy of God I want to see I want to truly see so god bless you thank you for joining and and we are one in this determination to see see you soon in the light of Christ that's where we see each other God's