 You know limit the obsession with things outside of myself to fix myself basically And I was I was there and I was meditating about all this stuff, and I was like man You know what I really want to do like Ible cane or a bogey, which is like this hallucinogen, and I actually think hallucinogens are great I just don't do them, and I'm like man It would be so cool and I get all these realizations about myself I can't hit these points with meditation and all this crazy should happen in this week, and I ended up Meditating in the steep state and maybe face-to-face. We'll we'll get to what actually happened I remember sitting there thinking I was like Mike This is what I want to talk about this convention There are like four main things of like insights that I have that really Implement you know the message you know that I've I've had and that have allowed me an opportunity To not have the same like anger the fear the guilt the shame all that sort of stuff in my life And don't get me wrong. I have those feelings. It's just they don't attach themselves to my everyday actions of things that You know don't have that But it was like look Number one You've got to stop yourself pity or that was like the voice in my head You've got to stop your defects you've got to stop for your your self obsession and these are actually actions that will help you With that I freaking guarantee you man start making gratitude lists you start doing morning meditations Shit will change your life man, but yeah I'm talking about like all this like PC spiritual stuff man this motherfucking stuff, but true story man That's we got to we got to hear the message some way right, but but anyway, so It was number one to stop the self pity Stop the self doubt and I'm like man I'm angry in this moment all this crazy shit had happened and the voice in my head was telling me it was like No, no, no, just stop trust me on this stop And so I started to stop and it was like well Why is this happening? Why is this happening? And then this it was you know myself talking to me in this like kind of deep state It was like look because it's spiritual contradiction. Yeah, you help people. Yeah, you give yeah Like yeah, you do all this stuff you give your time you work with people you are always doing volunteer To your work your your job is you know working with guys constantly constantly online Yeah, that's your purpose, but you also do all this other stuff You know and it's contradicting itself and your thing is is like you kind of lie to yourself about it You know you still say you're a good person if you want to go like steal a candy bar or you know do a You know if he business transaction you need to be okay with it and be honest with yourself before you Try and convince yourself that it's good or bad You know because anytime you talk yourself into something or out of something you're buying into an illusion You're buying into that fear once again the sexual life is not about compensating yourself for fear of bad shit or Wanting good shit to happen to you because both are accessing fear So I was like all right You can kind of flash through a bunch of scenes and I'm like all right Okay spiritual contradiction and then I'm like well, what about you know Why can't I be fucking pissed off right now and it starts saying well look life This is one of the big things you know sexual life and the 2011 England speech I broke it down check it out But life is kind of like the template for all things and it's like man and life everything gets fucked up You're gonna have emotions you're gonna feel bad You you might break your arm or whatever life still goes on You know a plant when it grows it tears it sells apart and comes back together all this sort of stuff and you can be in Pain you can be mad you can be pissed off you can be sad when a chick rejects you you can Be angry when you get burned you can be happy when You know you you find a five dollar bill on the ground You know, but the main thing is is when you start thinking that that's other parts of your life You're not living in reality. So because I get a bunch of lays because I score a big business deal Because I give a speech that everybody likes or because I give a speech that everybody doesn't like Because of whatever right You know, I start thinking that two hours from now is good or bad Man, that's not me being in the moment. We want to be human beings We're supposed to be human beings, but at the same time we can't get caught up in the illusion of that We need to get back to balance right we need to work towards it through this stuff Then the fourth thing was is that the universe is the universe you get in the way of it It's gonna have its way with you, you know, you can't change stuff You can I could dictate that and this is all like me speaking to me, right? This is you're listening to a speech from a guy About having conversations with himself All right, but didn't like many writers did that Anyway, so the thing is is that I was like man. I have got to Realize that life or whatever, you know shit-making stuff work, you know, I'm not I wouldn't necessarily call myself an atheist But pretty much agnostic That life is gonna happen in any way shape or form It's gonna happen. I have a bad day my computer gets stolen my fucking one of my good friends relapses on smack You know, that's life The only thing that I can do to truly live life is be in the spot where I'm supposed to be and Dedicate myself to being my best person at the right time It's the only thing I can do and fucked up shit happens man And this is actually one of the the best things about my life I actually want to write an article about the five things that changed my life one being diet that came from this One being social and sexual which came from, you know, this career that I've Carved my way through but one of them also is fighting man Shit man, you know Martial arts without fighting or combat not saying that people should go get in a fight and please watch the speech Because that's not what I'm saying is like sex without seduction sex without seduction is pickup You know, it's a tension-getting stuff But it was one of those things that put me in that reality I was talking about it with a guy who studies jiu-jitsu Which is an awesome thing to do But we were talking about it about and how humble it makes you every time you think you're a badass Every time you think you're you're something that you're not You'll be you'll be brought back to balance And that balance comes through submission doesn't come through submission because you're weaker It doesn't come through submission because somebody kicked your ass comes through submission so that you can open your minds and let go and That you could go on and be the best person you can be learn the jiu-jitsu that is you You know learn to flow like how you are learn to be you can be in that action You know life is always moving constant motion Let's actually do this what I want to do is open up questions for you guys You can ask whatever question you want my life is an open book You know if I get a bit afraid I'll tell you but also about these things. I think they're pretty goddamn important and That being said, where is the microphone? Andrew has it cool If you have questions, let's start dialogue man the quicker we do it the better we do it and the quicker it goes So stick your hand up. He'll give you the microphone and we'll talk. Let me get some water with daily meditation. Yeah You're saying well, what would be the best form of daily meditation sugar. It's whatever Okay, so I don't want to be like a representative on meditation because I'm truly not man. I've just done like I've done a lot of mushrooms and acid No, but but actually in this form, you know, it's weird. This is a true story when I was a kid I used to Man when I was a kid there wasn't a self-help section So I'm 35 and I used to go to these bookstores that just had like It was like different stuff, you know Easter or other religions section and it had stuff on like Henry Lorraine or Harry Lorraine's the memory power to Shakti Gowans creative visualizations to Alan Watts's stuff Which is some of the most badass shit on Zen Buddhism and I got to meditate as a kid You know when I was like eight years old I could meditate and like really get into it But see life. I had no experience and so I was still angry and still like didn't get certain things when I Got older and gained some experience I would always try and go back to those times of meditation You know for whatever reasons because I wanted to be like Bruce Lee or because I knew there was some spiritual component to it And I couldn't get in state Or whatever you want to call I couldn't get there I became too impatient with it and what I do now man is really simple stuff. I'll take a walk really slow, you know There's actually one of the best things. This is what's so cool about my programs, man Is my guys who've been through the programs make lessons that get taught To the next programs that go through and even get paid for it and all this sort of stuff We're like Organic-infused stuff this guy made a meditation program, you know using like hypnosis or whatever actually you call it Meditation, but it's really cool, you know, it's actually one of the meditations that I do and it's a visualization thing that you do and all that sort of stuff But a lot of times it might just be taking a walk. It might be sitting down and breathing A lot of times since I've been in Melbourne has just been taking it easy before I start the day I'm working while I'm here So I'm working with a guy and before we start I say hey man Give me five minutes just to clear my head and I just sit there and try and think about stuff Sometimes it might be an act of writing so it's whatever you want to do I'm not here to tell you and this is how a principle works. I'm not here to tell you how to be you, you know I'm here to offer some ideas That I believe will help you and guys that I work with You know believe help them and we kind of exchange different ideas of how to do that But the goal of meditation of where you should get which is kind of the main idea to think about is this Clear your mind get in touch with yourself You know so you can clear your mind and you're not pushed by reactions a lot of reactive thinking or internal emotions Which will pollute it's kind of like rehab talk, but it's good talk. Everybody should do it That will pollute anything that comes in your mind will be guilt shame fear anger Those are all things that you can feel I'm not saying they're bad But if you don't take care of those four things which are really really important, you know And they're they're reactive emotions too, so they're dependent, you know in certain cultures. They don't have them Right, they're dependent on what other people think of us and how we think of ourselves You know, it's our self-perception of what we other other people think of us If we don't take care of those things it's gonna infect whatever shit comes through us or put its own filter on In some weird way actually we've heard a lot of guys talk about that, you know But just kind of in their own way of saying it but they're literally saying the same thing If you can calm your mind so that you detach from that Guilt shame fear or anger It'll help you kind of like get in the present moment of what I believe who you really are in this moment