 Yes, you. Namaskaram. My name is Sara. Sara, yes. And I just, I feel like I have a lot of questions that we'd like to ask you that I try to find the oneness. You can take your diamonds. Yes. It's a lot about the feeling of feeling the surrender to the soul of feeling the yes or the no. I can really feel the resonance inside me. That's what I try to do all the time. Without it's working all the time. And I really feel I suffer a lot and have a lot of pain with the thing about making choices. And in all things I use a lot of energy on even feeling do I want to eat that or that or do that. I can feel all these different feelings but I can't feel what's the right thing. I can feel the yes and I cannot feel the no. And sometimes when I have to make a choice I get quite sad of making a choice that I don't feel right. And I don't, yeah. Yeah. I think Sarah it's important for you to first understand what actually is underlying this inability to just choose something and go with it is fear. Fear is the is the main thing that is underlying it. And the question is fear of what what is that fear that people have when they have to make choices or when they have to take decisions. And actually deep down underlying that fear most of the time is one of the big aberrations that human beings have to deal with. And that aberration is something created by human beings which is money. It sounds a little strange what I'm saying but if you start to go deeper and deeper you will find out that it is always the need for the system to grab the best possible out of life. Whenever you want to grab the best possible out of life you have greater difficulty in making choices. If you were to surrender into a posture of okay whatever comes let it come. You know what I mean? Little bit that of you win some you lose some. The whole system settles down and you're able to make choices more easily. Apart from the surrender to the soul here I'm talking about even just in the thinking there is a state in which you have been put which is the ego which is the society you've grown up in which has taught you to want to grab the best possible wherever possible give as little as possible and get as much as possible. That's the fundamental posture which is why there is always this the whole system is under attack by the ego you always have to give as little as possible and take as much as possible but there is an entirely different way of living which will relieve you instantly from all of that stuff and that is to see that it is not about what you get it is only about what you give if you move into a state where it's not so much about what do I get if I give $10 I have to get at least $11 worth of something if it's changed around and you say I give $10 and whatever life has to give me for that I'll get it is a fundamental change and if you're ready to make that change you can make it right now and just decide I'm going to relax okay I have to choose between a pumpernickel bread and a wheat bread it doesn't really matter just take one of them and when I'm eating it I eat it in surrender that is where you can change your life overnight because if you go through life plaguing yourself with these choices it is because you're trying to get the best out of everything otherwise why would you have the problem with the choice and what is underlying trying to get the best out of everything give as little as possible and get as much as possible but if you switch that around you're free of that since everybody wants freedom that is a way to get the freedom imagine if you were to just say hey in this moment when I have to choose between these two breads basically it's about how I eat it not about what I take and that is giving into this system just how you do it or there's a rickshaw man who has 20 rupees instead of 10 rupees and the fight starts for one hour because of that I've seen that many people do that it's such a waste of time and energy just either take the rickshaw or just give him the 20 rupees and move on always trying to get as much as possible and give as little as possible is the underlying posture and under that posture give fear connected with money because that is how the ego controls you subjugates you oppresses you suppresses you into an action so that you're part of that wheel which is feeding society and greedy capital and its machinations but if you switch out of that mode and you say and I'm not even talking of surrender to the soul or a spiritual practice I'm talking about a decision here that I'm just not going to freak out anymore about choices I'll just take one and if I have to die with it I'll die with it but at least I'm not afraid that I've got too little or I've chosen the wrong thing it's about fear of getting too little when actually the system should be if at all afraid of not having given enough so just make that decision it's a choice you can do right now next time there's doubt about what toothpaste to buy or what to eat which plane to take the slave life as long as I'm kind of okay it's all good in one instant you take away the power of the ego and therefore of society and therefore of the greedy capital that is manipulating all of that and you regain your power just by that one decision and then and then if there is the yearning for the truth then you move into a posture of surrender to the master to the truth to the antar guru to the soul which is the master of this being you move into surrender to the soul and try to see if you can feel that impulse impulsing you into action in this life so you don't even have to choose much anymore it's just telling you what you have to do it's not telling you it doesn't speak to your impulses so you relax down and there's not all that fight to get as much as you can out of life you know what I mean yes it's such a relief it doesn't really matter if I take the pumpernickel bread with the nuts or the nut bread with the flax seeds I just take a piece of bread and just just in surrender and gratitude just eat it or there's a rickshaw guy knowing he's trying to cheat me okay just take 5 rupees more okay take 10 rupees more it's all good but that I believe yes yes it's like it you can recognize it but I can also not recognize myself slowly slowly just underlying this whole thing over here this thisness it's fear I can see it it's fear about everything you're a gorgeous beautiful young woman who can live this life just with just with a smile and just move and there's fear here why is that fear here it's because it has been imposed on you by the society in which you live and you cannot allow this you have to say no to it at one point you know so whenever you feel even the slightest bit of fear know that it is ego know that behind that ego is society know that behind that society is greedy capital manipulating everything step out of its way and how do you do that how are you going to step out of the way of fear you step into surrender I mean you have a soul in there even though you don't know it it was taken out by religion and put somewhere else and now spirituality is throwing it back in it's in there now connect with it whenever there is fear in the system move to your soul and I'm not saying this as a as some pretty sentence in a nice book it's a real way to live you know yeah I can see the fear it's like it is it's very much fear for the very bad feelings I can feel if it feels like a wrong choice or I did something wrong or it didn't feel like the right thing whatever you did wrong leave it behind and move forward it's that religious inheritance of yours that is filling you with guilt and that and now go and confess about it and say 10 rosaries this is your inheritance even if you yourself are not like that your parents are not like that it's a religious inheritance that is filled you with this barrier of fear between yourself and your soul because you're not even supposed to surrender to the soul you're supposed to surrender to something out there take it back put it back inside and start surrendering to it and when you surrender to the soul then you can love Jesus I mean extrapolated now to whatever you want to love you cannot love Jesus if you don't love the soul if you don't surrender to the love and whether it's Jesus or it's your boyfriend or it's the dog next door love is love is love is love is love and you cannot express it if you don't experience it and you can only experience it in surrender you cannot experience love through detachment when you're detached from this you're detached from everything it's there gradually it doesn't have to happen today but the knowing that you can bend down to that it's a very important knowledge to have in your pocket you know thank you