 Hello How's everyone doing this place just opened up today, so I thought I'd come down here I've never been here in the summer before or at least you know Well, we call a summer in the UK Where's everyone from? California Boston Texas Mexico Oregon Cyprus New York Massachusetts We've got people from everywhere Growing and growing every day We'll be at a hundred thousand subscribers now before you know it. I can't change the music too many people love it. I Have done a playlist called knock knock so I was raw Where there are videos Without the music But I can't just cut the music out of all of the videos Because most of the subscribers Probably Wouldn't want to watch the videos without the music because it you know, it just wouldn't be the same Yeah, there is a playlist just go on to the channel click on playlists and It will come up as noxiva raw Yeah, I tried out a few different tracks in the beginning and I don't know why just you know those two tracks are used at the beginning They just kind of stuck with me But then I did feel like you know around a year ago you know I wanted to To lift the vibe of it, you know make it a bit more positive So then I introduced a new track which I use in most of my videos now as well at the end Because you know, although this is quite a Negative thing to talk about We can still finish it off in a positive way Yes, that's right. I'm from Wales I mixed race How did I gain all of this knowledge? It wasn't really that long ago When I first found out about what narcissism is I started the channel in August 2018 Probably found out about narcissism in March 2018 So it was only five months before but I really spent every single day studying it and You know as I like wrote in my videos then I Began to learn more and more You know, I was like studying my own experiences and now up until today. I've been studying it now for Well over two years in August now Next month the channel will be two years old It's going very quick. I'm half Welsh half Sri Lankan Yes, of course. I have plenty of experience with narcissists Yeah, we have to do something for the two-year anniversary What shall we do? We have to do something. What's this? Cookin apples. We've got cooking apples here. Yeah, I know you mean Omar You know sometimes I wish If only I had this information You know when I was like 19 or something but we didn't have it back then and That's just how it is, you know, we can either just look back and Wish that we did have it then but We didn't so All we can really do is just look forward and just be grateful that we have it now Yes, that's right. We could have discovered it five ten years later So I do believe it's very important to be grateful Gratitude attracts more blessings to us I fitted gas boilers and did everything and gradually change Like these kind of trees they're very exotic. I'm at the National Botanic Gardens in Wales I'm not sure what trees those are It does say the name there's like these little signs It's closed in there Normally you get to see the butterflies in there. Yeah, this is my kind of tree Check that out. What's it called? I don't know how you pronounce that Cordy line Australia, I wouldn't have guessed that It's cool though. That's true Danny After the abuse we are never the same but then Why would you want to be the same? When it was who you were back then that got you into it when we change We then protect ourselves and whenever really supposed to be the same anyway Our personalities should be flexible As we experience more and learn more We should always be developing when we stop That's when there's a problem. These are interesting You're not alone steady pace We all have a thing for trees here I'd probably marry one of those things if it was legal Sometimes I think I was born in the wrong decade I should have been like one of those hippies back in the 1970s You know running around enjoying the flowers and Talking about peace and love But it looks like I'm stuck in this generation Oh, well, it's no point hating them You can always learn from them Yes, it's really my voice It's not a robot as some people think It's not a computer I have been cursed with this voice Oh blessed Depending on how you see it Yes, we've got a hundred live viewers Glad to see I'm keeping you entertained here Yeah, that's what it's all about getting high on life I don't drink alcohol anymore I don't drink energy drinks Coffee I don't smoke or do drugs I don't eat meat or fish or dairy products All I really need is just Nature And fresh air That's what gets me high No, I haven't written a book Maybe that is something I will do in time. I don't know I'm just really focused on the videos right now Yeah, the birds are singing That's great. You know, I really recommend Writing books about this We really need to get the awareness out there And not only that, but it's also very healing You know when you Do something that you're passionate about It can be very healing for you Yeah, I'm still living in the same place I went away for a few months Just traveling the world And I'm back now I can't wait to go back again You know, I really enjoy Traveling That looks like a fried egg And I thought that all plants were vegan What was my favorite place in my travels? I don't know It's difficult to say I went to Malaysia Thailand And Sri Lanka Though they're all really great places I think I definitely go back to all three Has anyone else ever been to those places? That's cool. Life is a journey Where did you go? AJ, it was quite gradual I cut out like alcohol, smoking Prescription drugs Even street drugs Meat Fish, dairy Alcohol, coffee, energy drinks I cut them all out within less than a year Now I know not everyone can do that You know for some of you It might be something you want to slowly Wean yourself off And that's okay as well, you know, it isn't a race You will know what works best for you Depending on how your body feels That's cool Marijik I went to visit India as well Sandra, I used to love caffeine as well I'd always have to have like two energy drinks a day And then I gradually cut it down to just black coffee And then recently I tried just a Decaffeinated coffee And it just made me feel so like hyper And not in a good way Like I had too much energy and it was really uncontrollable I don't think we need any of that stuff really It's not natural Nature is natural Air is natural And even like the foods we eat The water we drink We should try to make it as natural as possible We're heading towards the dome down here This is the largest single span Glass house in the world So we might check that out now If it's open These are rocks here Not any old rock so It says these rocks here Were formed 615 million years ago When hot liquid magma Was forced into the center Of rocks created 1.8 billion years ago And then later it was crushed and altered During periods of earth movement There's something about these rocks as well, you know I feel like a strange energy When I stand near them I don't know what it is I don't know if I'm supposed to be standing in here But I'm here now No, I can't read Welsh I can't really speak it either My ethnicity I am half Welsh Half Sri Lankan I don't know what I feel about those rocks There's something about them Like in the energy In a good way I think it's because they're very old No, the only language I speak is English Welsh isn't like English, no It's very different It's kind of strange when you think about it Like Wales is so close to England And yet the language is just completely different Why are not obsessed with sex? It's the same reason why they might also avoid sex And the reason for that Is because of sexual repression At a young age they were sexually repressed They were told that Sex is bad And they were made to feel ashamed of it Which is basically like sexual abuse So since then They became sexually repressed And either avoided intimacy altogether Or they became hypersexual It's almost half two in the afternoon here That's very true mama Like that's all it really comes down to It's like everything that they do Is very extreme If it wasn't extreme then It wouldn't really matter There would be no different to anyone else But it's just when you make something extreme It's not good And it doesn't matter, you know, towards what side It is either It is very common for people to pick up traits of narcissists After the relationship Very common And they call it narcissistic fleas When you're around someone for long periods of time You will become more like them You will begin to adopt their way of thinking Now there's a bit of a queue here I might come back later I am 31 Yes Christy it is partly a defense mechanism That's basically how you can sum up the entire The entire thing with it When someone is being abused They want to become the abuser And they want to Hurt or offend people because At least then they're in control And that could be narcissists Or it could be someone who was a victim And that doesn't make it right But it's good to be aware of this Especially if you Know someone Who does appear to be using these defense mechanisms Because it is a Very unhealthy way of coping You know, there are better ways to deal with it Yeah, we've got people of all ages and you're it's great What plant? What one of those? All that? Yeah, that's a funny looking thing. It's like a porcupine This is a very old house here. You've seen all of my videos You must be one of my biggest fans It's a little be there Or wasp I can never tell the difference I don't do Twitter But you can find me on Instagram My username is Nox survivor YouTube I'm just using my iPhone I got the iPhone 11 pro max It's got a great camera. Actually three cameras on the back I hear the iPhone 12 is going to have four cameras. I don't know if that's true My voice is insane I hope that's a good thing This is the dome here. It's closed But yeah, this is the Largest single span glass house in the world It's huge. There's like trees and plants from all over the world in here California, Australia Canary Islands, Chile Mediterranean South Africa Maybe next time we'll be able to go in And then I can show you around Gemetta The reason why I brought this topic to youtube Just to help people, you know Because I know uh So many people Have been for the same thing as me