 As I didn't realise at the time that that sort of high and low was going to be for the rest of my life. Once benones to me I think I've been bipolar all my life. I just wish I could cry. I'm actually on 17 tablets a day. No Galaga. This is drug taking. ydw nid o gyfu myfwyr yw ddiw hwnnw. Mae hynny'ch asiwyd yn edrych. Maen nhw ddod yn ein gweithio. Yn y gweithio? Oni, mae'n gweithio fel mae'n o'r swydd, mae'n ddod. Mae hynny'ch ei wneud yn ymgylchol yn 1995. Mae'r gwneud yn gourfynu desol. I can of worse since 1995, but I didn't actually get diagnosed until about 97. My understanding as we sit here now is it takes an awful long time to get a diagnosis with bipolar. OK Nick, well here doing this photographic study, what's bipolar? I think the very best way of describing it is to say that our brains all the time are trying to keep our mood within normal levels. We're having things happen to us and just random changes going on. Everyone's mood can be up one day, down a bit another day. But normally our brains keep the mood within normal levels. By polar disorder what's happening is the person's brain. Can't maintain those normal levels and they can either go excessively high or deeply low. That may either just come out of the blue due to random changes or it may be an overreaction to something that's making them feel good or low. But in addition to those extremes of mood people can often experience delusions where they believe things aren't true or hallucinations when perhaps they hear things aren't happening or see things aren't happening. Often there are episodes that occur either high or low and between that the person's relatively well. But in other people the mood may be changing continuously so-called cycling. So it can be very different in different people. Or bollocks, bollocks, bollocks, bollocks. Prior to the diagnosis I think I was being treated for just depression. But they put me on a medication called Seroxat and I went completely off the scale. I flew to Seattle to see Jimi Hendrix's grave. I thought I could communicate with Wales because at the time I used to play guitar and charted a boat and went to Fino which is on Vancouver Island, British Columbia. I wanted to see the killer whales in their natural environment so that was 97 and obviously the psychiatrist then had the evidence that I went high and low. I think generally speaking people don't go to a medical professional when they're high because that's something that you don't tend to do. You only get involved in medical services in a high when it becomes into the psychosis and the dangerous element of the illness. OK, are you recording? OK, so we're on the way to Cardiff. Is everybody in shot for the crew? OK, so here's to our adventure. We're going down to Cardiff on a beautiful day and let's say let's have a fucking great gig. Good gig, good gig, good gig. In the general population the risk of the most severe sort of bipolar disorder is about 1 in 100. If you've got a parent who's had bipolar illness the risk increases from 1 in 100 to about 1 in 10. But it doesn't mean you'll definitely get the illness but it's a signal really to be more careful about the things we know that might trigger illness. What you have to remember is that 9 times out of 10 the child will not develop bipolar. That's what I put to my kids. Instead of being the increased risk it's the fact that even though it might be an increase it's still 10 chances of possibly getting it or 90 chances of not getting it. Exactly, yes. The second commons are going to happen and I'm going to be the second commons so I got in touch with the chief rabbi and tried to convince him to teach me how to read and write Hebrew. So I could read the Bible in its native tongue because I figured if I was going to be the next Jesus I would need to know these sort of things. At that time you were so serious and you could get yourself into a lot of problems. When I've been in Main Yeeve I've never gone to the doctor. It's always been because of the depravities of elements because I have a lot of problems with suicide isolation which it becomes an ideal. It becomes the only solution and after four attempts I know what it's like to be in that particular frame of mind and it is not pleasant. What do you think causes bipolar? It's absolutely all to do with both the genes that we inherit that make our brain and behaviour go in a certain way and also the various experiences and life events that we have that impact us. I don't think it's all to do with genes and biology and it's not all to do with life events and experiences but it's that combination of the things. So in bipolar what are the big fundamental questions that we need to get answers? The most fundamental questions are pinning down exactly which brain systems are important and exactly which environmental experiences and triggers are most important. Because really what we want to do is to be able to make a difference to people with illness to be able to make diagnoses more rapidly and accurately and then to get people on the very best sorts of help that we can offer. It might be medications but it also might be lifestyle advice or it might be particular sorts of talking treatment. But without knowing in detail the brain mechanisms and the specific environmental triggers we can't really give that excellent advice we want to give in the clinic. The key message is that actually people vary enormously and no simple answer fits everybody. There is no one size all and for bipolar disorder there is no one size fits all treatment. Different people respond to different treatments and that's why it's really important that people with illness go and get professional help. They get a full assessment and then they get the advice and help treatment that's focused on them as an individual rather than thinking it would just be the same thing for everybody. The music is, I'm fairly confident about the music and the performance because I know we can play these songs. Whether we play those songs and we get enthusiastic response at the gig it's a different matter. I mean I didn't really understand it at first. I think a lot of people find that they don't really understand what's going on. I just sort of bumped into him as an old mate and fixed up from there. Not really realising it exactly what had happened to him. What's happened over the course of the film and perhaps it's part of the rehabilitation thing that I've been going through is I've bounced back and that's a huge benefit for me.