 Hey what's it you guys welcome back to my channel if you're new here. Hi, hello, I'm Lydia I'm 24 years old and I'm moving into whole videos here on YouTube when I'm not severely depressed. Kind of disappeared for nearly three months, so sorry about that but I was really depressed. Today I thought I'd do a life update video because like I said I disappeared for three months and a lot happened. I was on one to one. Literally last week I came off one to one so that's something that happened. And the reason I got part on one to one was because I made an attempt on my life that had I not been found I wouldn't be sat here right now. So I was part on one to one. I'm starting on lithium which is interesting. Fingers crossed. I've done something that I've been on before and I didn't react great to it because I couldn't stay hydrated enough but now I drink water all the time. I have two water bottles that like I'm drinking water. So hopefully this time I should be able to stay hydrated and should be able to stay on the medication. Today I hit 19.5k on Twitter which is something that I'm proud of. I've been inpatient for nine months now, nearly ten months. I haven't really been doing an awful lot. I've been depressed in bed. Not even checking my phone and just lying there. Depression sucks. I'm currently reading they both die in the end and it's a really good book. I would recommend. I'm going to be having surgery on my toes but if you want me to make a video talking about that let me know in the comments down below. Or if you have any video requests leave it in the comments down below and I'll do it. I'm trying to get back into making videos and my energy levels are still quite low but I'm hoping that I'm coming across okay. Hi there, are you okay? Yeah. I'm on 15 minute checks. I made a gunk. Do you like my gunk? It's a little bubble hat. So what have you guys been up to? What's been going on in your life? What's the latest gossip? If you're new, subscribe, leave a like, leave a comment, do all that wonderful stuff I'm supposed to ask you to do at the end of every video. Shout out to my Patreons who are going to be getting bonus content. I promise this time I promise I'm gonna make bonus content and I'm gonna do bleeper reels and livestreams. If you want all of that head over to my Patreon and if you want to support me further, my PayPal is also linked down below. As long you know I don't have a job. I'm impatient. I don't have any means of access and money. So anything that anyone sends is appreciated. Thanks for watching and I'll see you guys in my next video. Peace.