 I'll get a May 40 here. So I made this decision to fly to Australia for two months in the space of about eight hours. So 24 hours before I got on the plane, it wasn't even considering this. I just suddenly decided, hey, like there's an opening in my schedule, I'm going to do it. And I thought, oh, I'll go for three weeks. I'll go for a month. Maybe I'll go for two months. Maybe I'll go for three months. I had the opportunity to go for three months, and I forget. Three month vacation in Australia, like living with other people in their space, that's too long. And I have found myself missing LA much more intensely over the past week. So for the first six weeks, seven weeks, and I was here, I was just, oh, man, I got to move to Australia. This is awesome. And now over the past week, it's been more, I really miss LA. I really miss my own space. And when you make this sudden decision to fly somewhere for two months, and I only take a backpack of stuff, you're always going to forget some things. So what do I most regret not bringing from the States? And number one, my activator, that chiropractic tool, that fantastic way of loosening up tight muscles and kind of putting everything back in its proper place. So I've been doing so much exercise on this trip that all sorts of muscles that I didn't realize I had were getting sore and really, really wish I brought my activator. I really wished I'd brought like some nasal strips like for my first night here before I could go to the store and get some. It's like opening up the nasal passages so I could breathe like it's awful feeling. It's the middle of summer here. So when it's hot, hot, hot, hot, and you're in, you know, unfamiliar space and you just can't seem to breathe sufficiently. It's like, oh, not a good feeling. And I wish I brought the mount for my cam. So I've had to do all sorts of things to, you know, try to mount my cam when I do the professional two, three hour shows. So thinking about regrets because I lost my gimbal on Friday. All right. I was a Bondi beach and I love Australian mateship. Okay. So good day Tony. So I love the culture of mateship in Australia. And so I made a new mate here in Australia. And both times that I was meeting up with him, both times I've been between 10 and 15 minutes late, which is really unlike me. Really unlike me. I'm a very on time person. So it's having such a great time Friday afternoon doing a live stream from Bondi beach that I decided to stick the gimbal in the sand with the, the phone on it and just, you know, go for a dip in the ocean, the beautiful Bondi beach and diving in. I didn't check the time because I was live streaming. I can't see the time while I'm live streaming. And so by the time I got out of the ocean, it was one 40 p.m. And I was due to meet this bloke at 2 p.m. About three, two and a half kilometers away. And so I hate being sticky from the ocean. So I jumped in the showers and then my gimbal was all filled with sand. So I washed it off. And in the course of like rushing all that together and then rushing off to meet the bloke, what does the gimbal represent? Rushing off to meet the, you know, my new mate. I leave the gimbal behind. So $70 gimbal. So I'm thinking of going with a DJI creator combo. It's like four or $500, but it's got like four different audio things. So anyway, I felt a lot of regret at losing my gimbal. And then another place we stayed earlier last week, I left behind my iPhone wired headphones, earbuds and a t-shirt. So far like there's some total worth of everything that I've lost in Australia is less than $100, but I get a noise. Now I don't have the gimbal to give you that high quality smooth streaming experience for which you, you know, you really look to $40 to give you that, you know, really high quality streaming experience. And I can't provide that to you. So I lost my gimbal. So anyway, thinking about regrets. So I'm back in Australia and, you know, I'm meeting out with a lot of people from childhood, you know, people from various times in my life or relatives, siblings, whatever. And, you know, many of them have, you know, far outpaced me in many areas of life. And so it's really easy to be consumed with regret. And I experienced regret kind of mildly and episodically. I basically made a mindset change something like five years ago, approximately, where somehow it came into my head. Or maybe I heard it from someone that, you know, given who I was, I could not have acted differently in that situation. So I find that really helpful. Like I don't tend to have a long running regret because of that mindset that given who I was, you know, I could not have acted differently. And yeah. So, you know, obviously, you know, I made a bunch of blunders, a lot of mistakes, you know, gone wrong here. Now I've made a lot of choices that were not as healthy as they could have been, right? And in particular, when I've heard other people, like my careless words, you know, cause some of my girlfriends to cry. And, you know, I've wounded, you know, my parents and family and relatives and friends, you know, with, you know, with careless, cruel selfish decisions. So I want to have regret for that, that where I'm hurting other people, I want to have regret for that. Cause that's good for me, not, not in the obsessed sense, not, you know, that it totally gets me down, not that it removes me from power and energy. In fact, like having an appropriate sense of regret for hurting other people, that, that does give me power because it helps me to realize, oh, you know, I can see what I did wrong and I can go in a new direction. And I'm a responsible adult and I want to clean up my side of the street. And I want to clean up the messes that I created on my, my neighbor's side of the street. So having an appropriate level of regret for the harm that I've done others. But then with regard to, you know, myself and my own choices, my own happiness, my own financial well-being, my own status, the bad decisions I've made, just to understand, given who I was at the time, I could not have acted differently. And I don't know that that's true, right? I'm not going to claim that's true. I just find an incredibly helpful perspective. Like, given who I was, I could not have acted differently at the time. What a beautiful cricket ground here at Koji. So, you know, we grow up with a combo of genetics and then early life experiences and, you know, they tend to profoundly shape us. So for example, I think I became particularly attention hungry because, you know, I grew up where I was moved around a lot of different families because my mother was dying of cancer and my dad was so busy looking after his dying wife, looking after his career as the chair of the religion department at Avondale College and then looking after my older brother and sister. Like he had so many obligations on his time that, you know, I lived with a lot of different families in my first four years. So that, you know, probably produced an insecurity and a thirsting for, you know, attention, a craving, a craving for attention, which then manifested in an awful lot of live streaming and blogging. All right. So what I find interesting to meditate on is what is the tension underneath the craving? All right. So we can crave, you know, chocolate ice cream and some people crave to exhibit their genitals to people in public. All right. There's a crime, but it's also a craving and other people, you know, crave the distraction of TV sports and, you know, other people crave the distraction of junk food or Netflix. But, you know, what's underneath that craving? Now, what's underneath that craving is some kind of tension. All right. That's, you know, there's some part of reality that one is not accepting. All right. That one is not at peace with oneself and with others. Like, I think, you know, I really like the big book perspective that, you know, underneath all our suffering and cravings and addictions is that an inability to accept reality. And so when I'm troubled, you know, what part of reality is it that I'm refusing to accept? So refusing to accept that I was careless about time on Friday, that I didn't want to be late two times in a row. So then I got distracted and left my gimbal behind at the beach because I'm human and having such a good time live streaming that I forgot the time. So I've been moving around. I've slept in a lot of different places over the past two months. And so it's really easy to lose, you know, headphones, you know, lose some clothing. So part of the reality that I've been having trouble accepting is that I'm careless and I'm sloppy and I'm human. And in the course of packing, I'm packing here and there and there, I'm going to forget some things. Luckily, I haven't forgotten anything too important about to get stuck into my taxes 2021. So I know I remember once I sold a car, I was so worried of the other day. I thought that Mr. Ford's telephone cam got neck down at Bondi Beach. No, for whatever reason, like I set up my cam, I set up my gimbal, went for a dip in Bondi Beach, and then the live stream just cut off. So by the time I got back to my gimbal, the live stream was off. I'm not sure why it cut off. So it's probably time for a new gimbal. And so I could, you know, obsess about the loss of a $70 gimbal and think, no, I need a better gimbal. Like I need to spend the money for that DJI Creator Combo Pack. I shell out $400 or $500 so I can provide the high quality live streaming experience that you expect. So over on those Coogee cliffs there, someone fell or jumped, a man in his 20s, Saturday afternoon, 3 p.m. my time, and fell about 20, 30 meters to his death. And the first time I've heard police sirens and ambulance sirens while I've been in Australia. So this is Coogee Beach. This is where I came on my first morning here in Australia. And I walked along Coogee Beach and I had a revelation that I want to move here. Right? It's like, this is amazing. So definitely a high quality of life available in Australia, in Sydney. Like this is one of the safest cities in the world. Right? So I just realized how circumcised, circumscribed my life has been in Los Angeles because I don't want to walk around at night. It's like, oh, I just don't want to bother going to that event at night. I don't want to deal with the traffic. I don't want to deal with threats of crime and dysfunction. And so my life has become smaller over the past few years as we've had this surge in crime in LA. And then I get to Sydney, I think, how much bigger it could be. Right? There's nowhere I need to fear going in Sydney, particularly the Central Business District and the Eastern Suburbs, which is where I'm at right now. And like riding public transport is, you know, a perfectly lovely experience. You just get to meet your fellow Aussies. Like interacting with strangers is so much more pleasant. For one, they speak English. And two, we share a moral universe. Right? That crime is bad. I can leave my iPhone on the beach and my gimbal on the beach. I can leave, you know, credit card. I could leave a laptop on the beach and it's still going to be here when I get back. And so, you know, coming here and standing here makes me realize how much smaller my life has become in LA because of the threat of crime, because of the dysfunction, because you may not even be able to speak to half of your fellow Los Angeles residents. And you don't share much in common with many of the people that you see in Los Angeles. So in Australia, it seems to be like much more of a shared moral universe. There's this Anglo universal morality. Right? There's very little sense in Australia. I haven't encountered this thought yet that it's okay to treat outgroups differently than you treat your ingroup. I have not encountered that thinking out loud. Now, obviously people do things that they then don't say out loud, but I haven't even encountered that thinking. Well, in America, you know, it's widespread. Like many blacks think, oh, you get to treat non-blacks differently than your fellow black or many Jews think that or many Southern or Eastern Europeans think that. So I'm living in universal morality here as far as the rhetoric and rhetoric is important like rhetoric shapes people. The words we say, we create the words, but then the words we say create us. Like I'm immediately driven to defend something that I say out loud and my mind will, you know, work six ways to Sunday coming up with, you know, why what I said is true and right and important. So looking out there to the East, right? The sun rises in the East, right? And then sets in the West. So social cohesion means shared moral universe, which means universalist morality. It's not okay to rip off outsiders. It's not okay to treat our groups shabbily. It's not okay to treat people badly just because they're not in your in group. That's what I'm one thing I'm enjoying about Australia. Then, you know, kind of realizing what I've missed living in multicultural Los Angeles with such low social cohesion, such low social trust and very little sense of a shared moral universe. So in any insular group you get into in Los Angeles pretty much, there's the ethic of oh, you know, what you do to outsiders doesn't matter very much. It's what you do with the in group that really matters. Oh, mate, I want to go for a swim. What a great way to start the day. So also thinking about that craving, right? That craving that comes up for food or for porn or for sex or for alcohol or for drugs. You know, what's the inattention that is trying to distract you from? I love that idea. I've got about 10 gigs on my phone plan. Now I paid $50 for 15 gigs of data. And so I'm determined to use it all. I want to use all my data before I fly back to California. So I'm just going to keep chatting here. So I've got about 10 gigs of data. I've only got about four days to use it. Man, people are fit here. Good way to start the day.