 the dark needs the light and yin needs yang love needs hate and that is why for this sensual session i wanted to focus on masculinity i believe part of being a complete person means completely embracing both the estrogen and the testosterone swirling inside of us some of the baddest women out there do this very very well so how can we do this better so of course i got to find an expert and i was hella lucky to stumble across amber from amber's closet i was always daddy's girl so i was always pretty much a tomboy always playing all the sports and being doing pretty well in it and things like that and as i got older i started kind of fighting the stereotype of the athlete or the athletic girl and having to be masculine and right away people automatically kind of put you in a box of oh you're gay but when i was younger i wasn't sure so i didn't really like that and i would try to be more feminine or dress more feminine and make myself uncomfortable just to please others there are like specific labels there's like two really big ones there's like a stud and a femme and a femme is like the girlier type of lesbian and obviously a stud is the more masculine type and then i myself kind of created what is called a stem and it's right in the middle i don't think that having masculinity as a part of you means that you're trying to be a man at all and when people ask me that i'm like no i don't want to be a man like does me i have makeup on i'm still embracing myself as a feminine woman i just dress a certain way that i feel is more comfortable for me and that's how i like to express myself i know a lot of my friends they're able to tap into that side by being the dominant in a sexual relationship stepping it up and saying oh boy you need to do this and this and this for me i think is tapping into that masculine and putting your dominance down saying hey you need to do this for me because i need to be pleased too i think you know society will look at that as a negative especially for women that are heterosexual like they might think that men don't find that attractive but i get hit on by straight men more than anyone for men when men hit on me i always think oh men like a little bit of tomboyish in the in you i think people just like to explore their sexual side and i don't i don't think anything's wrong with that the sensual aspect or the romantic aspect i think it's the my i don't give a f you know attitude the older i got the more comfortable in myself that i was and when you feel that you can just be who you want to be and that really just kind of made me who i am today