 Hey, what's it you guys welcome back to my channel if you're new here. Hi. Hello. I'm Lydia and today we're gonna be talking about my diagnosis This video was the most requested on the poll I found on Twitter. If you don't follow me on Twitter, it's there on screen right now Twitter's where I go to to do polls And I go to Instagram to do Q&A's so My diagnosis. We're gonna go over every diagnosis. I have physical health included And then we're gonna focus on mental health Video so let's start with physical health and diagnosed with arthritis, POTS and type 1 diabetes Now for the rest of it. We've got ADHD autism, bipolar, DPDR It's just depersonalization and de-realization, EDNOS, eating disorder and otherwise with wife, PTSD which is post-traumatic stress disorder, anxiety and Insomnia. So now I'm gonna focus in on mental health. Bring it in, mental health. So I was diagnosed with bipolar when I was 13 years old I made a video talking about this a few years back. I got diagnosed when I was inpatient I take medication to manage my bipolar. I take haloperidol, I take lithium, I take bortioxpn, which is an anti-depressant. I take canazapalm and I also take the Zopi clover. They're the psychmats that I date. I was diagnosed with DPDR when I was 20 years old. Something really really weird happened just a bit and I was gonna film a video about this but I don't really want to set up a camera because I think it's too much, right? I'm still quite afraid from all of this and I don't really know 100% what happened. Long story short, I woke up this morning, I was up the noon, went to an appointment, checked my call, I just realised that what I dreamt and actually happened. What I thought I dreamt was actually what had happened last night. I can't remember anything after about eight o'clock yesterday. I had a dream. Well, apparently I didn't have a dream but it was a dream to me about these people who are following me, that they transformed into animals but they went from being human-versed to invisible to like the ghost shape. I can guarantee this whole thing happened because of the state of my phone screen because I've got quick knees and because of the call logs. These call logs are actually on my phone and I'm gonna insert a screenshot here. It was, I don't know, I don't know what happened. I don't know, I don't even believe in my flight. I don't remember any of it. From the perspective of it actually happening, I remember it as in me waking up this morning thinking, oh shit, that was a horrible dream to realising that it actually happened. It's a scary situation. I don't really know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know what it's about. But these fucking invisible dogs were chasing me, biting me and trying to bite me in the eyes. I was, I just, I don't know. I don't really know. Troubling. Troubling to think about. It's scary. Scary, scary, scary. Scary stuff. I really don't know what happened and I'm very afraid of it. I don't know. I'm afraid to get to sleep again so I don't know if it's gonna happen again. I don't know if I'm at any of my dreams. I don't know if I'm afraid. I'm so afraid of it. I'm hardly afraid. I don't know. I don't know how to explain it. I don't really know what happened. I just feel like it doesn't feel real. It wasn't real, but it was. And I don't know. It was such a vivid dream that I don't know. It woke me up this morning and when I woke up I was like, oh, it wasn't a dream because it actually happened because I got the call logs and the cubs and the brewers were meant. And how that affects me is it makes me feel like I'm dreaming all the time. So my memory is useless. I write everything down that I do. I'm just diagnosed with PTSD when I was 20. EDNMS I was diagnosed with when I was 17. EDNMS affects me where I go through phases of starvation and then I go through phases of bingeing. So there's starvation and then there's binge eating. Currently I'm not doing so great with it. In some years I was diagnosed with age 16. Though for me sleep has always been an issue. Now I'm on medication for sleep. I actually used to sleep at night. Before I would wouldn't sleep through the night and then I'd sleep all day. I basically did it myself. So for me mental health really has been my entire life growing up. But yeah, that's my diagnosis. Do that as you will. Thanks for watching. I'll see you guys in the next one.