 Hello everybody and welcome back to Esoteric Atlanta. Of course, my name is Bryce. Today is part one of our look at the book, The Woman with the Alabaster Jar, Mary Magdalene and the Holy Grail, written by Margaret Starbird. I know that while reading this book, there's probably gonna be some stuff that I do absolutely disagree with, but it's not gonna stop me from looking at this work with you guys. I hope that that's a good lesson for us going forward. I know that in this time of massive upheaval, we tend to take very extreme views. And if somebody or something alters from our opinion in the slightest, we tend to kind of brush it off. But my perception on life and on education is never to throw the baby out with the bathwater. Now, what do I mean by this? Many of you know that I, myself and my opinion, I don't believe that the person that we know as Yeshua or that they called Jesus was ever crucified. I believe that this was totally made up by King James and the controllers because they were mimicking other stories of like Mithra. And they were trying to get humanity to turn more to a Luciferian faith. We do know that the God of the canonized Bible is Lucifer. Lucifer is not the God, however, of the missing books of the Bible, the Gnostic books of the Bible. We know that the people who have been in control of the Bible and of Western Christianity are themselves for the most part, Satanists. We do know that the word church means mind control. It comes from the Scottish word Kirk, which comes from the goddess Cersei, who was responsible for indoctrinating and feeding off of people. So that is why they call it a church and not a temple. And so I think, I haven't read this book, with these topics, I'm covering them for the first time with you guys, but I'm pretty sure we are gonna see references to Jesus's crucifixion, which again is not something that I believe ever happened. Now, this opinion of mine has only come about in the last couple of years. If I had read this book 10 years ago, I would absolutely believe that he was crucified. But as we awaken and we learn things, we learn the truth about things. And I do know from my research, which we are gonna cover later on around Ash Wednesday, we are gonna cover the story of Tammuz and Ishtar, which is where we get the crucifixion story as well, where we also get the 40 days of Easter. Ishtar is Easter. The 40 days of Lent is the age of Tammuz when he was killed. And why this is significant is because in my research, I have found that Yeshua Bin Yosef, who they call Jesus and his wife, Magdalene, were Egyptian. They were not Jewish, they were Egyptian. And I know that might be something that we will find in this book. She might call them Jewish, but no, they were Egyptian. They were of the priests and priests of Isis, which is the Essenes. Back then they spelled Isis, E-S-S-E, which is where we get the Essenes from. And what was traditional for the priests and priests of Isis each year was for the high priests and priestesses to reenact the story of Tammuz and Ishtar. So what I mean by this, no one was sacrificing themselves or hanging on a cross. They simply would act it out as a ritual in order to honor the coming of Easter, or the new birth of life, where the men would go basically away for three days into the underworld and their women would come. Their wives would come and open the door to let them out, which is why we see the Bible. Magdalene is the one that goes to the cave first. She was his wife, but he wasn't dead. That's the thing, he was never dead. They were just reenacting this event every single year. And so what I believed happened is the controllers took that and twisted it to get people to worship human sacrifice. And so that's something that I am working on a story I'm working on, just my opinion, but I did wanna let you guys know. So I know there's gonna be some stuff in this book that I don't not agree with, but I still think there's valuable, probably gonna be valuable information in here nonetheless. So today we're just gonna look at the preface. I'll put a link down in the description box below if you wanna get your own copy of this book. Once again, if that's something you can't afford right now, no worries, I'm gonna be reading it on my channel anyway, but I always do suggest people get their own copy so that they can see it for themselves. But if, again, if that's something that's not affordable for you at the moment, no big deal. All right, so this is written by the author. Again, her name is Margaret Starbird. Institutional Christianity, which has nurtured Western civilization for nearly 2,000 years, may have been built on a gigantic flaw in doctrine, a theology, Sam Andrews' fault, the denial of the feminine. Okay, and that's another thing I'm not so sure about is our dating. I don't think it's been 2,000 years, but again, that's just my opinion. For years, I had a vague feeling that something was radically wrong with my world, that for too long, the feminine in our culture had been scorned and devalued, but it was not until 1985 that I encountered documented evidence of a devastating fracture in the Christian story. On the recommendation of a close friend who knew of my intense interest in Judeo-Christian scriptures and the origins of Christianity, I read a book in April of 1985 entitled Holy Blood and the Holy Grail, which was published in the United States as Holy Blood, Holy Grail, and I was frankly applaud. I have read Holy Blood, Holy Grail. I read Holy Blood, Holy Grail, back in probably the early 2000s. For those who are not sure about what that book is, it was like the precursor to the Da Vinci Code. So it was the first real big evidence in our modern timeline that Yeshua and Magdalene were married. Okay, so that was like the big like taboo moment of the book that they were married and they actually had children. But the funny thing is, if you read the missing books of the Bible, the missing of books of the Bible tell you they were married and had children. It's all over the missing books of the Bible. The only place where it's not documented is the 66 canonized books, which everybody on this channel knows, those books have been heavily edited over the years. So in my opinion, the 66 canonized books of the Bible are absolutely not the word of God and they are absolutely the words of the controllers and they've been controlled and changed, the narrative changed to keep us in bondage. So it shouldn't be that shocking that Magdalene and Yeshua were married. Again, all the missing books of the Bible speak of them being married as if it's no big deal. All right, and it really is no big deal. So they were married. Most of you are married, right? It's no big deal. My first impression of Holy Blood, Holy Grail was that the authors, Michael, Bijant and Richard Lee and Henry Lincoln had to be wrong. Their book seemed to border on blasphemy. And of course, that's mind control, right? That's mind control, that's cognitive dissonance. We have all this evidence that shows you that they were married, but yet the church has done such a phenomenal job of brainwashing people and programming people that when they're seeing the actual evidence in front of them, they freak out and call the truth blasphemy. Hence why I get tons and tons of death threats from Christians all the time. All I'm doing is reading through material and presenting research. It's all I'm doing. And it's challenging their masters. If you're going to a church every Sunday, you're being brainwashed every single Sunday. And if you haven't taken the time to figure out the mechanics of a church, then you are literally sheep to the slaughter. The reason why your pastor or your priest wears a black robe is because he or she has been sworn into the cult of Satan. Don't believe me? Look it up, look it up. You are in a satanic system. But when someone like me shows you evidence of this, just shows you the evidence. I'm the one that gets the death threat. So I understand why she's reacting on their work being blasphemy, because that's how deep mind control, if you are still in a Christian church, you are under mind control. You're under programming. You are not in control of your own thoughts. You are being controlled by someone else. All right? So I understand why she reacted that way, because most of us in the Western world were very much raised in the cult, the destructive cult of Christianity. And you know the word Christianity means to still the Christ, right? Many people know that. You've looked that up, right? Everybody who claims to be a Christian, they tell you it means to be Christ-like, but that's not true. If you're just taking what someone's telling you, even me, if you're just taking what I'm telling you without looking it up for yourself, then you're not learning. I beg of you to go and look up the true definition of the word Christian. It means to steal the Christ. At its core was the suggestion that Jesus Christ, Yeshua, was married to the other Mary found in the gospels. She is the one called the Magdalen, the woman shown in Western art carrying the alabaster jar. The saint whom the church calls a penitent prostitute. And once again, we know from my research, or I know from my research that her name was not Mary. It was never Mary. Her name was just Magdalen. Same with Yeshua's mother. His name was Alma Mari. The controllers love to change names. We know that the name Jesus actually means Hail Satan. Yeshua was his name. Yeshua translated into modern language as Joshua, not Jesus. The J sound did not exist back then. That's why it was Yeshua Ben-Yosef. His mother was named Alma Mari. His wife was Magdalen. Mary was a derogatory name that the controllers gave basically every single fucking woman in the Bible has the name Mary, especially in the New Testament as a derogatory way of making them like a Jane Doe. Okay, even in the gay community today, what a gay men call each other, they call each other Mary's. We have a bar at East Atlanta Village that is a gay bar. It's a really fun gay bar. It's called Mary's, right? So we need to be really logical about this and understand why are they changing all these people's names? Her name was Magdalen. His name was Yeshua. I was not merely shocked by the suggestion I was shattered. How could the church have failed to mention this if it were true? So important an allegation could not have been overlooked for an entire 2,000 years of church history. Yet the evidence compiled by the authors of Holy Blood, Holy Grail, suggested that the truth had been ruthlessly suppressed by the Inquisition for centuries and it happened way long before the Inquisition. Being a faithful daughter of the Roman Catholic Church, I immediately assumed that the authors of the heretical book were mistaken. But their central thesis that Jesus had been married, Yeshua had been married, gave me no rest. It haunted me. What if it were true? What if Magdalen, the wife of Yeshua had somehow been deleted from the story and what if the infant church had then continued to develop without her gentle presence? And we know from the missing books of the Bible, especially if you've been on this channel for a while. If you're new to this channel, you might be super shocked by things that I'm saying. I have a whole playlist understanding the Magdalen that you'll find this book in as well as many others. Plus there's a playlist from the Dark Outpost, which is all of our works into the missing books of the Bible. And if you look into the missing books of the Bible from the New Testament, Yeshua never left his organization, his temple, his students to Peter. He never left it to Peter. He left it to Magdalen and his brother James, which makes sense, right? If you're a husband and you have an estate, who are you gonna leave your estate to? You're gonna leave it to your wife and your brother, not to Peter, especially not to a narcissistic, psychopathic asshole as Peter. But it makes sense that the Satanic church that inverted Jesus, excuse me, Yeshua's teachings, they inverted them would call upon Peter, would change it to Peter, because Peter was a lunatic. He was a complete negative entity. He was awful. I can't stand him. And in the missing gospels, you see how fearful Magdalen as well as some of the other disciples were of Peter. Because Peter was pure fucking evil. It wasn't Judas who was evil. It was Peter, all right? Pundering the implications of that terrible loss to the church and to humanity became unbearable for me. In tears, I prayed about this heretical version of the gospel. I knew that I had to find the truth. Armed with an academic background and comparative literature, medieval studies, linguistics and scriptural studies, I dried my tears and set out to research the heresy, assuming that I would soon be able to refute its tenets. The book had touched on many areas of my own special interests and expertise, religion, medieval civilization, art, literature and symbolism. I had taught Bible study and religious education for years, so I knew the terrain. In the beginning, I thought that debunking the heresy would be a simple matter. I went directly to the paintings of artists implicated by the authors of Holy Blood, Holy Grail, as having been in collusion with the Grail heresy. I examined symbols in these works, cross-referencing them with the watermarks, Albigensians, who were heretics who flourished in the South of France from around AD 20 to 1250, which I had found years before in the obscure work by Harold Bailey called the Lost Language of Symbolism. I was disconcerted to discover that the works of these medieval artists contain obvious references in support of the Grail heresy. Unable to refute the heresy based on their work, I continued my quest. So of course, the Grail heresy she's speaking about is the truth that Magdalen and Yashua had children. The name Magdalen means womb, as in a woman's womb to carry on a bloodline. And we have studied, I will pin this episode down in the description box below, the Merovingians. We have talked a lot about the Merovingians. They were the bloodline of Magdalen. That's where Merovingian comes from. It wasn't necessarily the bloodline of Yashua. It was the bloodline of Magdalen. Magdalen's bloodline is O-negative, which is what I am. I am O-negative. And that was the bloodline that came straight from Atlantis because it all really does have to go back to the Atlanteans. My research equally drew me into deep into European history. Harold, either rituals of Freemasonry, medieval arts, symbolism, psychology, mythology, religion and the Hebrew and Christian scriptures. Everywhere I look, I found evidence of the feminine that had been lost or denied in the Judeo-Christian tradition and of the various attempts to restore the bride to her once cherished status. Yes, the church is not the bride of Yashua. The bride of Yashua was Magdalen. The more deeply involved I became with the material, the more obvious it became that there was real substance and the theory set forth in holy blood, holy grail. And gradually I found myself one over to the central tenets of the grail heresy and the very theory I had originally set out to discredit. In amassing materials for this book, I have operated under the assumption that where there is smoke, there is fire. When so much evidence from so many diverse sources can be assembled to attest to a single hypothesis, there is a good reason to take that hypothesis seriously. Thus, there could easily be some truth in the rumors that have persisted for 2,000 years, maybe not so long. Servicing most recently for all to see in the film versions of God's spell, Jesus Christ Superstar in the Last Tentations of Christ, movies which depict the relationship of Yashua and Magdalen as one of special intimacy and significance. Of course, I cannot prove that the tenets of the grail heresy are true, that Yashua was married or that Magdalen was the mother of his child, not just child, but children. They had five children. We know if Sarah or Sahar, however they said it, it's not really said Sarah, who apparently has a gospel under the Vatican that no one has seen, but there were four other kids as well. So they had five of them. I cannot even prove that Magdalen was the woman with the alabaster jar who anointed Yashua and Bethany, but I can verify that these are tenets of heresy wildly believed in the Middle Ages and the fossils of that heresy can be found in numerous works of art and literature, that it was evidently attacked by the hierarchy of the established church of Rome and that it survived in spite of relentless persecution. So basically she's saying, even though the controllers tried to persecute like crazy, the truth still survived. It was still understood by a small percentage of people that Yashua and Magdalen had been married and did have children, five children who ended up becoming the mayor of Vigiant. And of course, if we understand the mayor of Vigiant, we start to understand Tartaria, which completely puts our timeline on a different historical trajectory than the one that we've been taught. According to boards like the Cassio P. Analog One, all those boards, there's a thousand years of our history that's been added in by the controllers, a thousand years of historical facts that never happened. And so if they added in a thousand years of historical facts that never happened, what did they take out and replace of that? Took out Tartaria, which was the a thousand years of peace. See you guys, this is what I'm saying. Yashua was not crucified. Yashua was never supposed to be crucified. The God of light and love, the God of creation doesn't demand human sacrifice. Lucifer does. Yashua and Magdalen came to earth as the two, the two teachers, because the original Jewish prophecy said there would be two of them. The Christian church went back and changed the narrative. Any good narcissist, any good psychotic narcissist will go back and rewrite history to prove their point. So what they did is they went back and rewrote history saying there would be one of them instead of two of them. There were two of them, Magdalen and Yashua. Why does there have to be two of them? Divine feminine, divine masculine, that's how balance of nature works, the ying, the yang, right? Okay, so Magdalen and Yashua came to earth at the end of the fall of Atlantis. We went through the tribulation and then boom into the thousand years of peace, which we call Tartaria. This is all in the book of Revelation, you guys. This is nothing shocking. Okay, the thousand years of peace, which we now call Tartaria, was started by Magdalen and Yashua's line, which were the Mara Vengeance. The Mara Vengeance were called the Mara Vengeance because they were referencing to Magdalen's bloodline, which was the bloodline of, da da da da da, as I said earlier, Atlantis. We are the descendants of Atlantis, right? That's what the Emerald Tablets tell us. The fall of Atlantis was created by the polarized negative beings and the Emerald Tablets were written right after the fall Magdalen and Yashua come in. We have this time of tribulation and all of a sudden we're in the thousand years of peace. After the thousand years of peace are over, what happens? Tartaria falls. Lucifer and his henchmen, his henchmen, his controllers, his cabal, are released back onto the earth in order to enter in what we call Gog and Magog, which is where we are now. Okay, so the end of the 1700s, all throughout the 1800s, we're looking at a time when humanity was being rebuilt from the mud floods that took out Tartaria. That's when we have things like Enki Bader babies. Hello, Child Strike of 1899. I will tag that video down below in the description box if you missed that as well. And also, if this is totally new to you, surprise, nothing you've been taught in school is true. Not a fucking thing. We don't even know what our fucking earth looks like, okay? So this is why I really, some of this medieval stuff, dark ages that they're talking about, that shit never happened. That was Tartaria, where they knew, and this is why this secret of Yeshua and Magdalene having children was able to sustain all this time, because for most of this time, it wasn't a fucking secret. They knew they had their, there they are, they're the kids, the Merovingians. The Merovingians, there they are. They're taking in the bloodline of Atlantis into Tartaria, which now bleeds over into Gog and Magog, all right? We're in a spiritual war. We're an information war. I fear most people who are awake now, who are aware of what's going on, they know that the government has lied to them. They know that the educational system has lied to them. They know medicine has lied to them. They know science has lied to them, but they still cannot accept the fact that their church has lied to them. Honey, bless your heart. As we say in the South, that's a way of calling people dumbasses in the South, bless your heart. The church is at the tippy top of this problem. It is so much easier to manipulate someone when you've got them scared of their own mortality. Don't be afraid of your own mortality, because you don't die. That's the biggest lie. The church is your enemy. And in fact, I really would like to sit down with, and if you're watching, I'm not gonna say your name, I went to high school with a guy who is now the preacher at the church I grew up in. He did my grandma's funeral a couple of years ago, and I wanted to punch him in the gut. I wanted to kick him in the balls. I was so pissed off at that funeral. He was the most disrespectful ceremony I've ever been in in my whole entire life, and my grandmother deserved more respect than that. It was a plug for the church to get more money. Well, if you're watching this, I'm not gonna say your name, my grandmother believed in reincarnation. You didn't know that, did you? You don't care. My grandparents were wealthy. They were filthy rich. And what you were wanting to make sure of was that your little cult, your destructive fucking cult, got that money. And I want to ask you, preacher at the First Presbyterian Church in Rome, Georgia, why do you lie to your parishioners? Why don't you tell them why you wear a black robe? Who's your real God? Who do you really worship? Because you and I don't do not worship the same God. I know that for sure. The preachers in church and myself, we don't worship the same God. I don't worship Lucifer. And this is what makes me so fucking mad. So I just hope and pray. I hope and pray that people start to wake up. The church is not your friend. It is not your friend. The heresy that kept alive, the other versions of the life of Yeshua's was ruthlessly hunted down, tried and sentenced to extinction. But the story of the sacred bride room king of Israel proved too virulent for even the inquisition and not the king of Israel. That's another lie. Jacob, who is Israel with his 12 tribes, those are the families of the Kabbal. The true children of Israel, the missing tribes or the Galactic tribes. Be careful who you're venerating. Jacob Israel was not a good guy. Neither was Abraham. I mean, if we go down the bloodline to Solomon that the church venerates, in the testament of Solomon, a missing book of the Bible, and we know why it's missing because Solomon tells you the truth. He worshiped Mohawk. Yahweh is Mohawk. They're sacrificing babies. Why are you venerating a person who did that? He had 600 concubines. Do you know what that concubine is? None of those concubines wanted to be there. There's another word for that that starts with a T that I can't say on YouTube. It has to do with carpooling. Why are you venerating him? Stop it. He was a Satanist. Venerating Solomon is just like venerating the rock trials and the rockabellars. Stop it. Stop it. It kept cropping up again and again like a sturdy vine that spreads underground in surfaces. It appeared in places where the inquisition and the establishment could not root it out. And the folktales of Europe, its art, its literature always hidden, often coded in symbols, but ambiguous. It kept alive the hopes of the Da Vinic bloodline, which was often called the vine. Nope, I didn't screw with you there, Margaret Starbert. We do not want the David bloodline, honey. Listen, David was a raging Satanist. Solomon was David's son, the guy I just spoke about. David had a ton of sons with a ton of different women, many baby mamas. And the reason why he appointed his throne to Solomon because out of all his baby mamas and all of his children, David, or excuse me, Solomon was the only one that was doing human sacrifice. The rest of David's kids were like, yeah, no, we're not gonna do this anymore. We're not gonna hurt people, Dad. Sorry. The rest of his children walked away from the satanic faith. Solomon stayed with the satanic faith. So we don't want the Da Vinic bloodlines. The Da Vinic bloodlines are the seat of Lucifer. Okay, that's not what Magdalene and Yeshua were. No, Yeshua was not from the house of Judah. He was Egyptian. He was from the Lyrans, which is the lion of the cosmos. You see how they do that? They mirror it because the darkness can't create anything and it can only take from the light and invert. So they mirrored it. They made the house of David, the house of Judah, the house of the lion on earth as their line when literally the Lyrans, Lyrans are galactic, which is what David, which is what Yeshua Magdalene were. They were the lions of the Galactics, not of David. They were Egyptian. They were not Jewish. We have a lot. You know that Shakespeare quote, oh, the tangled webs we weave when first we practice to deceive. The controllers were very, very creative in their deception. And that is why when they took all these missing gospels that they chucked them under the Vatican and made it punishable by death. Back then, after the council of Nicaea, if you, which I don't think was as far away as we think it was, if you had the books of the Bible that were banned, you could be burned at the stake. So what were in those missing books of the Bible that were so important and so dangerous? Everything I'm telling you right now, every fucking thing I'm telling you right now is what was in those missing books of the Bible that was so dangerous, that totally countered everything they were trying to brainwash you and trick you. And you know, I've heard it said before and I think it's great. All these like deeply brainwashed Christians think that the Christian gospel spread so quickly because it was such good news and it was such a beautiful faith. No, it didn't. It spread so quickly because people were being boiled alive and burned at the stake and having their heads chopped off. People submitted in order to save themselves. The Christian faith has the most blood on its hand than any other religion in the world, including Satanism, traditional Satanism. Christianity is a form of Satanism. It is the most violent religion to ever exist on this planet. I don't wanna be a part of that. I don't worship Jesus. I've talked to Yeshua. They're two different things. It gives me, it makes my blood crawl when I hear the word Jesus because it means hell Satan. You're being played. If you're going to a church and you think you're worshiping the God of light, you're being played for a fool. Wake up. Wake up, wake up, wake up. If the church loses its grip on humanity, we're good. We're gonna sail right into a new world. The church is the last grip of control the Satanists have on people. All right. There are several distinct possibilities regarding this heresy of Yahshua's marriage. Perhaps it was true and survived because of adherence, not only believed but knew it to be true, perhaps through some proofs such as framed treasures of the Templars in the form of authentic documents or artifacts or perhaps it was permeated in an attempt to restore the lost feminine principle to the Christian dogma which was clearly unbalanced in favor of the masculine. And as we say, yes, they made it unbalanced. So why did the controllers destroy Magdalene and make her a prostitute and knock her away from Yahshua? Well, first of all, we know from the Magdalene manuscript and from the Gospels that Magdalene was the main teacher. She was the one that figured it out first. She initiated Yahshua. We know that they did not work independent of each other. They were a teaching team, yin and yang. Okay, but it's not so much even about getting rid of the feminine. Well, I guess yes in some ways but not in the way most people think. As we talked about with Return of the Divine Sophia, I personally do not believe we have been in a patriarchal society. I believe that we have been in a Luciferian society. You cannot have the patriarch without the matriarch. You cannot have the masculine without the feminine. The feminine is the intuitive arts. It's the intuitive side of humans. Even me as a woman, as a divine feminine, I also carry masculine energy too. Same as a man watching right now also carries feminine. Your intuition, your senses, those are feminine. So when we pull one away, we very literally pull one away. It brings all of humanity into a place of imbalance. And what is another place? What is imbalance also mean? Dis-ease. It brings us into a place of disease. So that is why they took away the feminine was not just to demand and demoralize women but to make everyone sick, okay? Energetically and spiritually sick. Cause once something is sick and weak, it's easier to control. This restoration of the balance of opposites, the foundation of the classical philosophy must have been understood as necessary for the well-being of civilization, as I just said. The cult of the feminine flourished in province in the 12th century. Concurrent attempts of the Jewish Kabbalist to restore Lady Matronet as a lost consort of Yahweh and the Jewish mythology attested the fact that such restoration of the feminine was considered important and deed vital. Once again, a lot of people are under the misunderstanding they think that Yahweh is God because Yahweh is spoken about in the Old Testament but Yahweh is Malak, a demonic God. Don't believe me, do your research. Read the missing books of the Bible. A similar movement is a foot today in the Western world tapping into Jungian studies in psychology, Asian understanding of yin yang and goddess awareness. Also significant are the numerous recent apparitions of the Virgin Mary, our Lady, Queen of Peace, the only goddess image allowed in Christianity and her icons, which have been seen to shed tears in Christian churches worldwide. Yeah, because they're like, fuck this, this shit is not what Yahshua taught. It's being manipulated by Lucifer. That's why they're crying. This phenomenon has been widely reported in the media in recent years. The church cannot claim that there is no message. Even the stones cry out. The scorned and forgotten feminine is begging to be acknowledged and embraced in our modern age. The loss of the feminine has had a disastrous impact on our culture. Both male and female are deeply wounded as the second millennia of Christianity draws to a close. The gifts of the feminine have not been fully accepted or appreciated. Meanwhile, the masculine, frustrated by an inability to channel its energies and harmony with a well-developed feminine, continues to lead with a sword arm, banishing weapons recklessly, often lashing out with violence and destruction. In the ancient world, the balance of opposite energies was understood and honored. But in our modern world, male attributes and attributes have dominated. It is a short step away from the worship of the power and glory of the male solar principle to sun worship, a cult that too often produces a spoiled and immature male, angry, frustrated, bored, and often dangerous. Eventually unable to integrate with its other has, the masculine suffers burnout. The end result of the devalued feminine principle is not just environmental pollution, hedonism, and erratic crime, but ultimate end is Holocaust. This book is an exploration of the heresy of the Holy Grail and an argument for the restoration of the life of Yahshua based on important circumstantial evidence. It is also a quest for the meaning of the lost bride in the human psyche and the hope that her return to our paradigm for wholeness will help to heal the wasteland. In this book, I have recorded the results of my personal search for lost bride in a Christian story. I've tried to explain how she came to be lost and how devastating that loss has been for the Western civilization. And I've tried to envision what would happen if the bride were to be restored to the paradigm. The years I've spent researching this material have taken their toll. I did not take this story lightly. I've struggled with the material in this book, wrestling with it to give it form and substance. The labor was both long and difficult. At times I feared it would turn me inside out, doctrines I had believed on faith had to be uprooted and discarded and new beliefs had to be sown and allotted to take root. The entire Roman Catholic framework of my childhood had to be dismantled to uncover the dangerous fault and the foundation and then the belief system carefully rebuilt when the Fisher had been sealed. This process has taken seven years. At some point I gave up on being an apologist for the doctrine and embarked on a quest for the truth. I am excruciating aware that my conclusions are not orthodox but that does not mean they are untrue. Orthodox just means mind control, right? Many people are becoming increasingly aware of the chasm between the discoveries of modern Bible scholars and the versions Christianity taught from the pulpits of churches. I hope this book will serve as a bridge that spans this gap. While I was a student at Vanderbilt Divinity School in Nashville, Tennessee in 1988 and 1989, I discovered that many illuminating books written by scripture squalors follow a library shelves for decades without ever being read or noted, partly because of the dryness of their style and dictation. For this reason, I decided to write in the vernacular. I have included footnotes when necessary but basically I have told the story in a form that can be easily received and digested. A friend once told me that instead of grinding my off-brain of grain and baking it, I tend to dump it into the bushels in the people's laps. In this book, I have attempted to both to grind the grain and to bake it into a nourishing loaf. In writing this book, I have taken the liberty of comparing passages in several Bibles and choosing the wording that best expressed the meanings I was trying to convey. The Bible I have used for years and from which the majority of my quotations are taken is the St. Joseph New Catholic Edition written in 1963 only because it is the Bible with which I'm the most familiar and several cases checks chosen from the new international version, the NIV of 1978 and so it's identified. It doesn't really matter because they're both offshoots of the King James Bible which the King James Bible is a complete load of shit. It was made up. King James made most of it up himself with the help of the Freemasons. The real Bible at that time was called the Geneva Bible and that was destroyed. It, King James made sure it was destroyed. I've tried to be consistent in using the names and numbering for the books and Psalms found in the Protestant canon of the Bible because these are the most widely recognized. It is my hope that this book will inspire others to begin their own personal quest for the most precious treasure of Christianity, a pearl of great price, the holy grail.