 your function is wholeness and what we're learning from the Course is that all beliefs are equally false and that there's only one belief which is also false called forgiveness because in heaven there's nothing to forgive and that one belief on the tapestry is the thread that gets us out of here it takes us beyond the tapestry of the world the fabric of the world and back into this abstract oneness so once you come into an experience of this forgiveness that's when life gets really fun that's when you could never get into a debate ever again you would never take a stance you would never hold on to an opinion you would never try to be right about anything specifically ever again because this unified experience of the quantum field or or complete forgiveness is the answer and it's always been there it's like it's always been in our mind it's the most natural experience when people talk about how difficult the Course is or how many challenges and struggles they're having with it let's be clear the ego is having struggles with Course in Miracles I've even heard some teachers say well the Course may say that it's simple but it doesn't say that it's easy and actually Jesus does even say that it's easy it's the easiest thing you could ever experience if you follow the Course out because it's it's leading to a natural state of mind which we'll call forgiveness and then beyond that that's just the gateway into love and light which is talked about natural that's our birth rate that's how we were created that's really natural forgiveness is a lead into that and when you get into this experience then all differences fade you know while you're going through the mind training you may always be concerned about the best use of time or the right use of time or not wasting time not wasting resources there's still a bit of concern with these things because they're on your way to forgiveness and the ego is still concerned about that it gets concerned about how you practice the Course it's concerning about you're doing the lessons the right way so cool because it's so joyful and and your care and your concern vanish and you know how he says you need merely cast your cares upon him for he cares for you the more God dependent you become the more Holy Spirit dependent you become you can cast your cares on him if you don't really have to actually have to problem solve anything you don't have to figure anything out everything is given by the one who knows your own best interest and nothing is too small nothing is too tiny you know nothing is out of divine order not a blade of grass is out of divine order not a mosquito is out of divine order yeah when we first went down to Argentina Kirsten was down there she's noticing that the mosquitoes were swirling around but they weren't landing on me or biting me what's the turn Kirsten did you have for mosquitoes mozzies she said oh the mozzies but there was a tone there were mozzies but but then the divine in the quantum field of forgiveness you know it's all energy and it's all perfect and it's all totally connected so there's there's nothing that's biting anything in the quantum field and and then also things that you were concerned about like the right use of time it's very good that you pay so close attention because when the mind's untrained it's just kind of like you know Jesus says in the Course untrained minds and accomplished nothing and he's calling us all to be miracle workers but he's basically saying that until you train your mind until you're able to start to release from fear that you're worthless which is good I mean okay give this to me straight you know okay it's important to be a miracle worker I get that and all right yeah how am I doing it you are much too tolerant of mind wondering okay it's like we had a line you know I'm like all right my mother was kind of a disciplinary like but the feeling that Helen Chuckman had when she was channeling this thing was she would say things like I was being given instructions that I dare not disobey dare not disobey from a rebel eagle the eagle probably like an eagle but she dared not to survey and this thing is it's not that there's any kind of punishment coming if you disobey but it's just that our peace of mind depends on that alignment on that obedience so that even the the monasteries and the combats that were kind of based on poverty chest and the obedience the obedience wasn't necessarily to the abbot or necessarily to mother superior it was really obedience to the Holy Spirit within and that was helping us in the most capital as self-serving way peace of mind it's helping us become into alignment with that flow so I know my life it's been important to become obedient and then when I seem to travel around in different countries it's like when we talk about retreats and gatherings and talks and lectures those are just symbols it's like we're in the divine gathering always it doesn't begin and it doesn't end it never stops there's no point like in the world you work hard and then you get a vacation in this experience there's no vacation so when people say do you ever get a vacation I say well it depends on how you look at it I mean they're always on vacation or always working but it's there's no split between my time and their time like in the world we have oftentimes employers we call that their time and we call our personal individual play leisure relax time is we call it my time or our time but in this state there's no duality so there's not a sense of trying to keep tabs of where does mine begin and where there's and in relationships the ego set up the relationships of this world so it's relationships between individuals and those individuals seem to have private lines and those individuals seem to have private thoughts their own ambitions their own secrets their own past memories their own life stories it's all a setup and and basically what goes for a relationship in this world is just a backdrop for undoing this belief in specialness for undoing this belief in privacy in the end it's undoing our beliefs of individuality and autonomy even and that's really getting to the core of the ego the ego is autonomy it's an autonomous belief that you can make a self apart from the self that God created and so when you go deeper and deeper down one time I a friend of mine Cincinnati said would you meet with my my dad and he's retired he's retired minister there's he means what's like a retired scientist and I think there was another guy who's retired as well they met at this little old-fashioned diner in 1950s diner and they invited me to go up there so I walked into this like 1950s diner in this tiny little town and of course I was the new kid on the block was walking in and all the eyes and diner were following me and we went there and we went to the back of the diner and these three old guys they're just their white hair the twinkly little eyes they started asking me they were just me the diner to solve all the world's mysteries and so it's kind of cool that day because they asked me all these kind of deep questions and the waitresses were coming in and just sliding in drinks real carefully because there was this flurry of energy this vortex of energy with me and these three old guys at this diner table and all the eyes and heads returning and watching and we just we kind of solved the whole universe there in about an hour and a half with great joy and great questions but I think the last question that came in was the three guys were looking and kind of trying to come up with the next question and then he said okay when we remember heaven and we're back with God do we still have any sense of individuality I looked at him I said no three old bodies shook a little bit and that's that's the ego shaking it wants to be individual it doesn't mind going back to heaven as long as it can retain a sense of uniqueness and individuality and that's that's the rough that's the thing that the ego is going to be fighting and kicking and screaming with it will spit nails the closer you open up to the light because it doesn't want to be assimilated into the oneness you know it will do anything and it doesn't mind you mixing your spirituality as long as you retain a sense of autonomy you know it doesn't mind you just you can mix you can study anything you want and meditate that's all right and join the future study groups and do the things and but just retain a sense of autonomy and individuality at all costs in fact if you ever start to get close to something that's not that it's a cult it's just a cult and stay away from it if jesus and apostles were here in the bay area right now you know they would probably be known and classified as a cult for something really weird they're just too happy uh the two peaceful and they share everything you can't and okay it's gonna probably be gay well because jesus and the old guy there's a gay cult and you see how the egos filter with just automatically throw jesus and apostles into a box you know and so we have to be aware that that when we're going to go with this we really have to let go of everything that we think we think and everything we think we know there's a line in the course you will believe this course entirely or not at all doesn't that sound a bit like the all-or-nothing of christianity that i was coughing and speaking and fighting against my whole christian life you know like oh and at some point in university just kind of throwing the baby out of the bathwater and saying enough of christianity you know i can't stand to be a part of anything that's so ritualistic and exclusive and all or nothing everything and then here comes the course and it's saying at a mind level not at the formal but at the mind level it is all or nothing and what jesus calls the hall is the right mind is the right mindness of the holy spirit and nothing is the ego