 So tonight is the giver Nikita we mentioned saw this and it kind of really ignited Something you want to share a little bit Yeah Ignited More like a call for almost like I Don't have a word for it For that Which is like I guess ultimately the love And so And I was saying I was saying earlier that I want to be this year. I'm gonna be bold and I don't mean like I'm gonna be bold like It's almost like that's boldness like not of this world. It's not it's like I'm gonna Feel like not from a place of rebellion like I Don't care about this Not from this dismissal and rebelling, but like bold is just like am I gonna believe or am I gonna believe it like even Just like truly do it almost like again like it's just I feel like it's the time of commit like deep time of commitment it's like so It's like am I like just like declaring almost like that was that's what was ignited declaring that Commitment to all like what is it that? To only go for what's wanted like beyond like in the very like in the most truthful way and like in the end sometimes like specific Like together specifics and beyond specifics whatever like truly So and it's like this movie kind of I don't know there's something almost like I couldn't even I loved it So much this time, but it's always like left me in a place. I'm like, I don't even know What to say like I don't it's like it's like just a play like It's just it's everything. It's just so deep. It's just so much more. It's like so much more than Just so much more than anything Explain it's so much more than what it seems all the time so Yeah, and I guess like just like a feeling you're like not For everything's okay, and good like everything's okay. It's good. I don't know There's just feeling like things are good. Everything's good so not almost like not For that like for some kind of a good like worldly good even like everything is running well In the form so therefore it must be that everything is good, but it's like Just almost like going further like Good like in the movie everything. It's like they seemingly came up with a perfect system or something where everything is looks really perfect on And paper so to speak it's like everyone has a nice home and a nice structure and even like communication and language and they got it going on very Precisely And it's like some everyone's peaceful and seemingly respectful and yet it's it's like it's it's still there's a sense of control and There isn't It's like there isn't like a feeling of that deep experience like a feeling of the depth and the boy who's like Who's got the function of the receiver? Of the memories at some point. He's like, oh, I felt this like what is this? He had no word for it and Jeff wishes like all that Like yeah, we don't have that anymore Which is love. It's cold love so so I know so So it's just a desire I guess at all times like it's it's again it's not about I Don't know form or like leaving changing anything in form, but in like in the mind. It's just a desire to go any kind of concept always like like any kind of concept Just straight like the truth. It's like having having no priorities like having no priorities having no It's like letting go of all the concept if like everything somehow in the most In the most Radical way and then the end of also like in the most given way and like I mean I guess yeah, I'm just like Guess it's kind of like there's something about this like giving and receiving that is It's like just You know like as like I said like commitment to like really just like going for only what you want like truly You know truly what is it that you want and then in the movie? It's like it's kind of clear that it's like giving and receiving is the same and so and And and it's like I forget his name Jonas in the movie as he's like really joining closer with the giver and He's starting to see he has a gift He already had an actual gift to see beyond like kind of like beyond the form beyond anything and so And so it's like his gift to strengthening like that through joining with the giver He wants to extend it and so if he's just like he was called and to extend it and then and as soon as and That love it's like that's what I'm saying like being bold and again like just Where exactly like he would it's like as he wanted just like really strengthened that feeling of Love he would join like with some and it wasn't like really You can really pass it on personally, but then he was joining with this baby Who he felt he had connection with and he would just really come up to him and he'd say like Just the very thing that he wanted for himself. He'd be like it's like I love you Gabriel I love you and it was like almost like that forbidden It's something like that was like long time denied long long long time ago now It's like claiming it back and just like giving it back fully like I love you like I Love you like fully like boldly claiming it as in like in passing it on and giving and so So yeah Yeah, it was funny because again like we talked about whims These days and I remember like two years ago this whole thing with whims Came in around the same time and it was like what's your way? like It was like, okay, what is it wants women? It's like I'm like hmm interesting because They can't watch this movie and it's like I'm like I could I Don't know I could just really really deeply resonate with the whole vibe of it and And like even the awakening in the end like he had to cross the boundaries seemingly in the mind for everyone to receive the gift Like as he started to wake up to it more and more and then but in terms of the whims I'm like, yeah, that's still kind of like my wimped because they connected way that the way he was Like the way he was with you know with the giver And Like it was so obvious that it's like from the beginning. It's like that's something you can't really Like you can't really explain that connection it's almost like there's some kind of opening where you know Symbols like that came in and it's it's just only to receive some Not even knowing how and then he was always he was also able to pass it on almost like Again, like pass it on in a very deep way even it was only just like to To some extent just those who can receive it someone to certain extent and like with the big like with the baby Like fully like that. He was able to really pass on just exactly only that like fully It's like kind of like I don't know that this like deep in deep connection Like this really like deep like in both ways. It's like giving and receiving in a very direct in a very direct way almost like Direct not covered, but it's like almost like you know exactly what it's for, you know exactly what you're passing it on and almost like Direct and in the way like one-on-one. I think I like two years ago I said I had a whim to still be working with like a few people or something and I think now it's just like one-on-one more is where the heart is but just in the very like And I'm a very direct way where it's just like Yeah You're very close connection of that just feel that close connection and There's still like certain symbol that it's like, oh, I could really feel that so Yeah this movie is like a receiver and Giver yeah kind of connection. Yeah Einstein said you can't solve the problem at the level of the problem and this this movie really is a sense that really Gives you this awareness that Nothing is as it seems That what seems to be the world is is like a projection Of this unsolved guilt or fear or sequence of memories and So You know a lot of us have Grown up with when we're playing with animals or pets when we're young we're told be nice and then that be nice theme kind of goes Throughout life like be nice Be nice where I know varies by family And my family was behave That is what they said be nice behave Yeah Or just don't they don't they don't know but it was all be nice behave and so you've got a world in which This seems to be the projection of whatever is unresolved and then and nothing ever comes to a resolution and then this movie points that there's this Connection or a relationship to lead to this great function that will simultaneously offer freedom But it has to be not at the level of the perceived problem because that's just There's all this you know attempted control and I like how Jesus says in the course that you without Judgment you believe all would be Chaos But Jesus says without judgment all will be love So it's like a diametrically Opposite of what is believed and I think this movie kind of goes to that like there's these intense Memories that Have been hidden and are simply not talked about they just they won't even take words out of the language Because they're too vague or they're too abstract They're not specific Enough and yet Jesus tells us all specifics for me By the ego and so this culture the way they try to minimize The fear or keep it out of awareness is the focus on the specifics Not even allowing for the abstract in any way So it's really it has a lot of parallels and I think it's helpful too in regards to the symbol of community because It can be tempting to think Because certain things are going a certain way in form that It's functional and then this movie is kind of showing no it There's actually a lie that's underneath the whole system It really shows through a Transformation that none of it was functional just was control playing out different roles different characters So if that's hierarchies and roles and And control was the status quo then this is saying you've got to go beyond the status quo to find Truth or to realize the truth And it takes a lot of it seems like a giant risk Because it's like taking a leap into the unknown away from the familiar and yeah What was his name Jonas? He seems to Have to take leaps even in his relationship with this girl. What's her name? Fiona Fiona So it's like even with that Yeah, he's a little bit like You know in the island. Yeah. Yeah, you know he has to take leap after leap after leap and You know one point he turns to In the Gregor character turns to scolch pants and you still believe there's an island like it's taken So much to just shake that rooted belief in an external goal Where it's all wonderful and he's kind of pulled the whole Hold the covering off of the whole thing and then it's it's very shocking And you know, I think it's just that year with Lucy and then Divergent There's so many movies, but divergent really you could see in that movie that that it was the same thing with all these different clicks and roles and and really the only way that The main character could be fearless was she would go into this state of mind. Oh, it's not real That was her home. It was her own strength. That was her key to being absolutely fearless and then in the second of the trilogy the third one's coming next March, but Insurgent insurgent insurgent. It was like she had to face all of her deepest fears and transcend them to Go into that state in a more consistent way said it's just a brief little Ways of sending off temptation If it's not real that she had to really face all of her fears around her mother's welfare and everything that she Feared the most even with her partner everything And so yeah, this this movie kind of points in the same direction where it's like saying you have to go way beyond what you perceive to be the world way beyond the perceived boundaries Venture through repressed memories and hidden secrets and and the reward is Freedom is who you are It takes a great willingness to do that. So it's one of those movies. It's a great reminder for the Lest you be lulled asleep by appearances You know Yeah, I don't know so that it comes I don't know if it's in the movie. I I think it is. I mean, it's all Like loyalty any kind of loyalty to anything Like what does it really mean? Like anything Yeah, the line Meryl Streep actually spoke it towards or towards the end people have the freedom to choose And they always Choose wrong if you think about it, too that evolution of the human race and everything what seems to be the projection of all that on the planet and everything until Jesus Completely connected with a voice That was from beyond the dream Then what she said Seem to be the case, you know, that's what the whole thing around Jesus was was was there was no manifestation Fully so you could say it's still that Mine when people are free to choose they always choose wrong. That's what all those tens of thousands of years of What seems to be human Evolution or whenever so it's pretty much like a closed system and if you look closely at that too When she said people are free to choose and they always choose wrong that really boils it down because Like in heaven, there is no choice because it's all this pure oneness So choice didn't arise till the belief in separation and the only way out is Is to Choose a right heaven He says in the workbook must take the form of a choice because that's all you believe in You know heaven doesn't really have anything to do with choice But because that's all you believe in and it's the closed system Kind of like Dark City. There's no way out. I've tried In front of the thing you might say that all of human history was just was suicide after suicide Because there were millions and millions and millions of suicide and then finally One resurrection But of course that has to be a resurrection for for everyone today my friend Sam from England she wrote and she she started with a Idea she couldn't sleep so she was up and she started kind of receiving She said she didn't know if it'd be a book or a movie But it feels like it's going to be something that this community is involved with but it's it's going to to start from the awake state and Then go back so instead of unwind your mind back to God, but she's looked at it's going to be Rewind your mind And and the rewind is going to show the awakening from a position Which is already been done Already completed With progressively Getting one more glimpses of the higher self through the rewind But it's like that's the thing as long as you believe you're in time Then that is the belief system in which there's no way out so I love how Jesus says like with each miracle you actually extend the glimpse of eternity Imagine being in such a closed system that it seemed to take thousands and thousands of years before There was this more than a glimpse of eternity. There was a pure reflection Of eternity But the way Jesus seemed to come to it was he kept extending these glimpses Of eternity until he taught himself what he would learn He just gave himself completely over to that Just gives you an idea of how sick the mesmerism is When people are free to choose they always choose wrong With the belief and choice they always choose wrong until a completely different thought system It has no connections With anything to do with time and space Kind of breaks through or comes through and mind has to Keep choosing that choosing that choosing the miracle choose the miracle choose the miracle Over and over and over and over until it finally chooses the Atonement and suddenly When people are free to choose Eventually finally Issues right it inverts the whole the whole thing that Spaces so it's yeah, you can't really use any clues There was really nothing happening in the community that gave the receiver even Much of a glimpse He except he would he would see bits and pieces he would see beyond But he he was so ashamed of that you know Who would like who would want to mention it? who would want to to stand out when the whole Community was manufactured with all of the defenses in place So deeply that no one was encouraged to question anything No was encouraged even believe that there was hope and The boundaries were seen as Good and coming for protection from the ruin Very much like in the middle of the island, you know, yeah, like you should be grateful for your boring repetitive monotonous Life life, you know, that's what the whole teachings were in the island that it was all manufactured but because it's safe. It's safe because of the Disaster Disaster that was spoken about and spoken about historically and that's what the ruin was. It's the same thing like with the island be grateful Boring little life because at least you're alive and Yet, there's no life at all time and space This is thing of life and space. It's quite everything gets inverted So eternal life, which is the only thing that could ever be known turns into the unknown and this repetitive Like the Beatles song It's just a day that becomes the norm that becomes the known just another day The eternity becomes the big unknown and then we develop things all kinds of religions and philosophies. It's no It's really no wonder that there's a philosophy called atheism because the way That God is painted in the old ways of the system most religious systems who Would ever want to know or believe in such a God It has anything to do with this world It's probably a better stance to believe that there is no God Or like Sartre and existentialism, you know, just like face the nastiness the Emptiness the nothingness of Life on planet Earth Might as well call us fades fades just call emptiness emptiness and say this is it There's no God and so on so forth. So, you know When you go deep into this experience you you would have to have this sense of Your heart of the love like he had for Gabriel for everything and every one to get out of that closed loop without exception You couldn't make any distinctions You know, there's one Different times in the course where Jesus goes to Ciccius where you know, he starts off a sentence for Ciccius He's being to Ciccius And he goes to the second sentence and then I was just doing a reading the other day and I'm Here he goes. He had to put a facetious voice on for like Paragraph and a half or a couple paragraphs and to be facetious the rare times where he's more than a word or a sentence he goes facetious for a couple paragraphs that he's describing Forgiveness as human beings see it, you know They don't deserve it They don't deserve it I'll give it to him, but they don't really deserve it, you know, he goes to Ciccius to To really paint how no one knows But forgiveness really is because just by believing in time You know, they're they're denying that there is such a thing really This forgiveness So I think this is a really Good movie. Maybe that's what stirred things for you Yeah They call that They think Yeah Yeah, I mean something about that veil like like almost like it's a ghost of a life That's so good. It's no life. I don't know. It's just I kind of can't Like he is back questioning whims as she was two years ago like What are these wins? There's some kind of finger that's calling her like this Like turn turn your attention to me And don't Don't be satisfied with whims Fingers is like there's that because I was like I'm like I mean like There's definitely that like I'm kind of like Is this kind of just kind of like all of a sudden I have all these memories like There's the whims like everything. It's like Is that what I? Mean it's I'm like, it's even like during this movie. I'm like, is this what I've chosen over life actually real life kind of like oh You'll have like this Whatever like a whim over Like over heaven almost like I can't have it almost like I can't even Put a word on it here because everything almost will be conceptual, but it's like is this It's almost like I'd like to see that. No, I want to see it's like is this what I've chosen like not in the way like I Want to fix it, but it's like is this like is this what I chose like I don't know like almost like Comfort of a Worldly comfort of over like safety in purpose rather than safety within like I don't know some kind of a concept So the whims they seem to there's nothing wrong with them in the sense that They're they're part of the Holy Spirit's convincing So they're used And it's like it's a came out of the real world the Holy Spirit will Give you everything that you need and Will continue to provide it as long as you have needed it But there's a big but he throws in there after that lovely doesn't end with a period there Which the manifesting ones would stop it right there. Let's just Manifest heaven on earth and we'll just have those whims go on add infant item and But the Holy Spirit would not have you linger in time That's how it ends Holy Spirit will give you everything that you need as long as you have needed it and will renew it Or if you have needed it, but you know would not have you linger in time So it's that's that that little nudge. That's why I was saying in The Gospel of Thomas that they found Back was it they had translated to English in late 1950s They Basically found it and the shortest teaching in that Jesus was be Passes by Those two words obviously that's just equivalent of judge not You know be tested by those two words and he does he throws everything That's through those old scriptures in the Bible. He does start in the course. He puts it in lesson 148, which I just read as a lesson The only hope that you Have in relationship to this work in relation to this world is that you pass it by You know he comes right in And he's saying what he taught me passes by So you might say it's like that that's the that's the little nudge behind Because it's like I mean there was some you know talks about like whims I don't know There's some kind of like okay, yeah, let's talk about whims. Yeah, that's you know, let's bring it You know, let's ask. Let's talk about whims and then and I think I totally took advantage of it Like what do you want? It's like and then all of a sudden I'm like Like I'm not sure that's what I truly want almost like there's like there's something else almost like do I really Want that it's this like although it was like it's really joyous in the moment, but it was like I Think like there's that's Like there's something there's something else like that's not where the that's not what the joy is like that's not Interesting no because like you were describing that a couple years ago And now it's back, but then our trip Lisa to California when we were going to Maria fleet base and you had all that anger and rage came out Saying this is the worst year of my life and everything's gone wrong and You had all that anger and so on and so forth there must have been some kind of decision In the mind about the whims This is what Lila is coming to who's coming to visit us for a couple days She Calls it and it's gone in our phraseology the way we talk about it. It's not physically ghosting She was ghosting She was ghosting heaven and Then this whole thing with the liver and the diagnosis was cancer and and facing all of that and seemingly you know Going to Hawaii and being out of the community and so on it's all of that was It shows you how fine and how subtle it is Because if you make a decision That the whims aren't it either I Mean the thing is that's it was like kind of like in truth. I felt it in the truth not like they're like Yeah, I'm better than that But because I'm looking at two years ago I don't know why because it's just a lot of like parallel. I don't know. It's almost like the same thing is happening, right? and What I was saying is just what I was like even like and I remember I was in the experience where I could truly with like Claim and say that I truly do just you know one heaven and I think that's all I talked about it at a time not only like because it was actually the experience like it was like a mystical experience and then I Think I Think what happened was somewhere Very sadly and quickly there was a decision. It's almost like almost like I Can't want that or something even if there was like a thought about anything that would enter like a relationship or anything Oh, I must think that it's like I have to only think about heaven even whatever that even means as if I even thought of like and so there's some kind of a like Control something there was something ha like almost like I want to say something happened And I'm not retracing like but something happened. There was like as in like yeah some there was something that like a Like something of like make denial nature of something like that. I didn't I wasn't aware maybe that took that I don't know I don't know interfered or something and then it's like so and then almost like since then Things haven't been the same actually so I mean in these last two years That's a version of separation story. It doesn't matter whether it's two years or two millennium Something happened almost like you I feel like I'm like in the what what's that movie beggar events, right? He was like oh it happened a long time ago like no It's just a second ago like that trauma like something was like deeply lost And it's like and you have to like coexist with that loss now And then make the best of it and and from there on like a lot of like I don't know. It's just it's been really hard to coexist with that It's a great line in the course Jesus says you have taught yourself, but you have not Allow what you are to teach you You have taught yourself, but you have not Allow what you are to teach you I choose the second place to gain the first Father I would but follow you know that This whole the instant you know the way the work because what I give to you be you in charge This is at the end of the workbook and remember the preface of the workbook is the introduction that this course is the beginning And not of them It's just a lead into that intuitive Be passers by that intuitive be you in charge Because as long as there's that element of control But always I chose something I shouldn't think those thoughts You know who is it who is the entity that shouldn't think thoughts when creating Christ through a thought That Christ is a thought in the mind of God and Christ has thoughts real thoughts That extend the truth and there are creations that are thoughts It's all pure purely spiritual God thinks Christ Christ thinks creations and then then that which says I shouldn't think I Thought different from heaven shouldn't Shouldn't implies I can But should not It's still believe this still implies I can I have the capability to think apart from my creator I have the capability To think apart from my creations Jesus says your creations are waiting for you Waiting they can only know you as you are they can't know you most like there in heaven God's in heaven The Holy Spirit's realities and everything's in heaven Not they're waiting for you still metaphor because it's eternity. He doesn't really wait, but it's in human terms It's just waiting, but but to me what it comes down to this is what this is the involuntary Nature of the miracle when Jesus says it in the Bible You know don't let one hand know what the other hand is doing That joy has to be involuntary He can't miracles can't be under conscious Control so that's like the Alderman surrender is the Alderman merge And that's the purpose of This community that's the purpose of everything we do is to know thyself and we have on the wall, but through a merge With what is we talking this morning about it's through the joy and through the inspiration If you're not feeling the joy and the inspiration, then you must The only other alternative is to be stuck in time back to that to to to to to another day It's another day, you know, it just becomes methodical It becomes competitive The questioning aspect of the mind just starts to turn on itself What am I doing? What am I doing with my life? How am I spending time of course the ego set the whole thing up The time has a currency to be spent. Yeah, it's quite quite subtle I can see I've been loving like this fantasy Life like I'm doing my training or I'm doing I'm doing What I think is helpful and and then the big whims when good enough and then there'll be peace later And and I could see it so I woke up this morning. Can you feel it like a devastation like? just of The arrogance and control of that thought and and also the futility of it and then also I think a bit maybe what make you switching on the idea of whims as Like for myself as an entitlement like that They were calm if I was good enough, you know, rather than whimming something that was just a surprise I think really a Gift to say you can continue on you don't have to be Too attentive to everything. You can just be natural in some way But I just want to say that I don't want to live in that kind of fancy way anymore really don't Just everything fell today like in many ways and I just want to find Just allow this passerby while we're not going to sleep I want to use the comfort to wake up gift that's been given to wake up not to be Yeah The course is all brand new for Leaving off the page with you know, it's just a brand new discovery with such a profound reflection such a profound tool You know even why I hear people say I took that course or never Or variations of I do see people who even though the course itself says this course has everything you need It's just interesting to watch the mind Try to go beyond something That's been given that says this has everything you need Try to find other options try to find something Else as if reality is is to be picked and choose from like if I can I have a bigger selection for bigger spiritual smorgasbord. I can do that And then at times in the course these he'll say You know, you may believe this course is difficult and you may believe this course does not You know deliver on what it's promised and everything but it's basically saying have you done what this course has? of you because it's a very very direct course in in direct curriculum, but it's basically saying engage no, and That's the beauty. Oh, I think of this is that you know whims is the term that I've used and and Whims are a way I've described of That's the Holy Spirit using the ego belief system like filtering through and using The Holy Spirit uses what the ego made that's what a whims The Holy Spirit uses what the ego made, but you would not have you linger In time. That's the two parts to it In other words, don't make a philosophy of the Holy Spirit uses what the ego made Because in the end there must Come a point Where you start to realize that the truth is true and only the truth is true That both parts of the statement are there. It's not the truth is true and other things are true The truth is true and only the truth is true. It's the first time I read that. I thought that sounds so elementary in my being are you Like speaking down to me and it was like no, I'm not speaking down to you. I'm just stating it bluntly Very very clearly. So, yeah, the meaning the truth is true and there are no exceptions To the truth that's the unifying principle of mind That's how subtle it was because when we went out to california The grievances you started to voice the grievances I wasn't supported. I wasn't supported In our relationship with jayson and you had evidence of why you weren't how you weren't supported and And you know the grievances came flying But there had to be something in there That kind of closed off Even to the whims I don't want whims I want heaven But you know Humans are not in charge of awakening we have to be able to To graciously accept the string of whims to the point that Every second of every day becomes a whim If the whim is a miracle Then we need to have every second of every day become a whim Every second of every day So you see how that's a much broader That would take you to the atonement that jesus says that atonement is the first miracle And the last miracle and all the miracles in between Almost like it's a necklace The chain of forgiveness the chain of miracles and you have to wear the whole necklace You have to accept every pearl Meaning every second of every day and not just That well it was pretty terrible in the past, but now Um every second of every day can be a miracle. It must mean that That it's always been that every second Of every day Is a miracle That every second of every day is a whim So that lists the mind out of this idea of whims in specific terms Because we've been talking recently about all the whims. There's just so many that there's no It's just it's a wonderful feeling and just feeling we're in windmill now We're in time and space and But you go from time and space to windmill to the eternity so But it has to be it has to spread it has to include everything But if you if you if you keep it stuck A relationship is a whim Well, the holy spirit can use relationships, but we that was one of the things you got in touch with on your trip But but as long as you freeze it in specifics There's another part of the mind because now No, I don't That's not it either It's not your choice Like that it has to be that you know, you will you will Link up and join and let go You know of the personality self meaning You know if somebody said where are you from you you really have to Have the experience of just I am in your mind You know What foods you prefer what This you are you a morning person or an evening person You know it has to be that you you start to see the answer to all those questions Is is not a specific answer Because there are I know specifics that can content You know our holy mind You know It's like be content with what you've got, but what do you have? In the end having and being are the same so what you have is what you are and that's all you could be content with you could never be content with Name it fill in the blank But also you aren't on charge of the awakening. You know I said on that video over and over that's on there You cannot wake yourself But you can't allow yourself to be awakened. That's the key Even with the women you cannot wake yourself Because a part of the mind it just wants to go I'm beyond whims But the only way you can be on whims be beyond whims is you have to be whimmed out And if you haven't been whimmed out and you haven't been whimmed at all One over yeah whimmed out and one over We'll come we'll get come up with our own language The new bible You've been whimmed out yet what Have you had enough Yeah Almost like if the winged out or get slung out of time and space and whims you whimmed out Explode if so many wins that you just find me explode Now one more win Because the Holy Spirit without any language But the person Which would be the ego cannot tell God When the whimming is over It says in the Course that God will take the final step Which is just implying God knows eternity and you don't So, you know, that's that's like the alderman surrender. That's why you have to be whimmed out because you can't You can't as a person choose yourself How? because like meryl Streep said, you know Everyone every person is everyone who has a freedom to choose choose the wrong way The in-persons can't even choose because they're constructs If there's no choice in heaven In persons who just mess then it's saying the mask is a chooser That's not even true Mask can't choose So it's it's like I like that stuff in the bible god is no respect or a person That's beautiful Good singer If there ever was one And then Jesus comes and helps clarify before Abraham was I am Four persons were I am So I think that's the thing because we were just zooming in on the prayer. It's like what If you start to see how powerful the mind is that And everything I I asked for I received as I have asked When we were going through it was good actually that That the key to got in touch with all the grievances So the all the litany of grievances came up and then I was reviewing that part in the workbook that lisa more made that song What happens is what I desire and what does not occur Is what I do not want to happen You just take that one little nugget from the course What happens is what I desire And what does not occur is what I do not want to happen And you see there's no possibility of being a victim Good it's saying every circumstance that you perceive Is there exactly actually just because of your own making Lesson 152 the power of decision is ma'am everything in the history of the cosmos Down to the every molecule every detail in all of The history of the cosmos is there exactly by desire It's exactly as the mind desires it Exactly Was that exactly exactly not the line at all He's made a sneak with He's taken exact and actually like love actually exactly I do what you're doing What Precision of terms Exactly But that's you know that when you start to see it that's like So you know that's getting in touch with the power of the mind So so is that like on one level? I I wanted to leave the headlights on and let the battery on the car die Because that's this way, you know is scripted and my only choice then is uh interpretation, you know, like is it a problem? Just the next thing you're not in the script Yeah, well, I think too that the miracle or right-minded seeing can see only perfection So that's the whole point of mind training is right-mindedness because In right-mindedness all things work together for good. There are no exceptions In right-mindedness let all things be Exactly as they are How are they? You know, that sounds pretty good, but all things be exactly as they are When my question jesus and say good tell me. How are they? How are they, but they're all in mind So they're all simultaneous and they're all unified So this idea of even separate circumstances and Oh, and he did good good. Oops left the lights on Oh good Then good good bad good good good good good bad You can see as long as it's It's still Sequential report part. Yeah, it is a sequential report part and you can see that even if you got a thousand goods in a row If you have a bad then you're gonna go It's the option Then have been still in the future It's a big but yeah But Real good good good good good. Oh Send me in the state. I left the headlight sign Ah Still not in heaven Let me see So that's why it's it's like we we say it's not so much what you're doing But it's who you're doing it with No Like that donary carry song if you knew Who walked beside you along the way fear would be impossible We're we're really trying to just get in touch with the big who the capital who Who walks beside you, you know If it cannot be difficult to do the test that christ appointed you to do for it is he who does it That's the end of the doer Christ does all things through me There's no little individual I doer left And then there's no evaluation Then there's no one that can leave the lights on I mean really who determined Lights on was a bad thing Or that a battery dying was bad Batteries dying Batteries Have a charge, you know, it's like those are still judgments So it's like this is a realm of judgments. It's all judgments And when he says it's not that you shouldn't judge it's that you don't have all the Facts you couldn't you are totally incapable of making a single judgment has gotten created you It's not that you've got a bad habit you've got an impossible habit But if you think it's a bad habit you're gonna feel guilty if you see it's an impossible habit Then do not guilty you're innocent It's the difference between bad and impossible When he says nothing real can be threatened, you know, he's not Saying nothing bad can be threatened, you know, he's nothing real He's getting into illusions and truth truth can't be threatened But it's really it's just like a convincing And and the steps are we're all you believe you're a body or a person Holy Spirit speak through me Holy Spirit laugh through me Holy Spirit shine through me Holy Spirit cook through me Holy Spirit clean through me Holy Spirit, you know, it's like Becoming so Aligned with that I give it all over to you Give you everything Use it, you know that that devotion that surrender Will win you out of this Out of the world You have good cheer and calling out of the world as you're getting winded out as you Become single but then I'd be single as you become single in your devotion There's that old bill withersong You just keep on using me Until you use me up Until you use me up that's a great song too because that's it's the same You're turning over Use me Lord use me Lord use me until that's that's like your song Until you get so turned on to that That you can't turn it off Then you get winded out I like this winded out thing What's the reinterpretation because that's what Nikita was bringing up there has to be something beyond the wind That's the presence of the Lord He was reading I told some people the other day. I was reading something Yogananda. He said he was like saying don't No, it's not It's not so important to have friends. Yogananda was saying he said unless Your you and your friends are are devoted to the Lord That's that's how Yogananda made rude for friends and friendship If you share the same purpose Then you've got a good reason for friends. You don't share the same purpose. Don't waste your time Because you're spinning your wheels You're just like trying to make an artificial form of companionship an artificial form of love Oh, my friend and I yeah, we went to the same university We both like Madonna We both like to have a glass of wine. Oh, please don't content yourself with that kind of petty littleness Oh, we went to the same high school big deal We have the same father and mother Right That's an opportunity What was it called? I like uh, we have the same father or mother Same thing Yeah, it's all variations of the same thing Don't content yourself with self-littleness It's not that you ask for too much. You ask for far too little So it's pretty it gets clearer Unified purpose means a unified mind Unified mind is natural It's love And everything else isn't So it will never content me I'm glad you brought the whim thing up because that's This is like the second year anniversary of the Yeah, yeah, it was two years ago, but it's technically the second year second time that it's happening. So second year The parade of the limbs The parade of the roses We're watching the parade of the limbs But now we're determined to be winded out He's coming for you over Thank you. Yeah, before you flash out you have to be winded out It's like you can't skip the steps Yeah Before you flash out you have to be winded out But how else could you feel so happy that you're you know, you can you'd like everything That's me When we're never lines from I don't even remember what video that you were saying It's all about some kind of wake-up and you're saying like you just get so Like you just rise higher and higher in the joy that everything else just fades from awareness Wake up. Yeah, it's gonna be fun to just watch all of our Collaborations because we've you know, we've had a string of them and there's just that's part of being winded out I think is the beginning of us saw our lives going the way that they've gone A lot in many years and then and I was saying today too. I think it's we've only just begun, you know, or that You ain't seen nothing yet It's It's coming but that's that's like a string of collaborations. It just gets more and more That's what we were talking about a singer song We you know, they people say well, hollywood makes your movies for you. We use them but but we might Get into moviemaking. We have no idea What collaborations we use certainly it's nothing that we imagined Ourself getting into but we're not in control. You cannot wake yourself So we didn't know we had the collaboration with bruce and everyone in this house felt like we were collaborating with bruce Just that weekend Like everything and all these miracles that happened just for that like there's no talk of that moment before yeah Yeah, I'm meeting louise louise from this from uh, He's he's into filmmaking. He's the bankroller, but then Meeting bruce me communications with john Um, jimmy twineman. He's he may be coming for visit this weekend. He's a filmmaker And then today this other guy just wrote to me James he's made a movie The grand self he's talking about the our real self So he's he just sent me a link to the grand self. He's actually trying to fund it and still Put it in production and sam sent out ideas for a script and yeah, it's just yeah, just we're just watching the signs along the way But it'd be interesting to see just to watch That was one of your recent Insights that you were up in your room weeks ago and it was something like I'm I'm in training or Not a master. I'm only in training. I'm in training training. Yeah It's from cinderella From russian cinderella Yeah, it's like it's obviously like not uh, it's not even from a book. It's from a movie So I'm like sometimes I'm like, I'm not sure if I made it up. But um, I think I actually know it was some a movie that They showed every year for a new year around this time Like in the spirit of magic and miracles. So Yeah That line was I'm not a master. I'm only in training every time she'd call him a master It's like, oh my god, you're so great. You're a master. It's like not a master. I'm only in training He was an assistant to the god To god to the fairy godmother So it was like fairy godmother appeared and she's like, oh my dear. Yeah sure. I was like don't cry It's like and but he was kind of like joining with her as representative Of the god like more like, you know Yeah, and so he was Yes, it's like very interesting He was like he was actually like just working with it like with her and I've been like she had a lot of Seeming work And so he's just there with her and there was like miracle after miracle after miracle and he's like, oh, I'm not a Not a master. I'm only in training like every single time without like I don't know without like false humility Just like he really enjoyed that place Of being like that second place. He really enjoyed it. He's so in the Like in the joy of it. So Sidra got to share in the miracle She but it wasn't like someone else had power and they gave it to her she If he was saying I'm not the master then They were all in it He was like he was more like to pass on the miracle So like because she was not in a place of miraculous mindedness where he was obviously Already like more of a like obviously he's joined with like grandmother He was obviously his life was dedicated fully to that purpose And so he was like so he's joining with her and So it was like Yeah, he's just he's just like he's very happy to be able to demonstrate and just be there like that Yeah, and of course it talks about willingness. Yeah, a little willingness and then great willingness then talks about Readiness Then talks about mastery, but it says readiness does not imply mastery Yeah So you might say In the spiritual journey, there's this whole thing about teachers, but the teachers aren't bodies or personalities It's like Even the The moody's and the Adi Shanti's and everything we don't hear very many stories about them healing the second race in the dead Because because guru ship itself You know or the sat guru or all those different terms that are part of these this still Gives a distinction as if a person Could be the sat guru It's still a judgment. It's still a classification. You can't Heal the second raise the dead with that kind of judgment still in the mind thinking that persons are teachers Persons are avatars Persons are savers So there's that's why you don't hear a lot of reports of healing the second raising the dead My friend leek had not had a lot of this said she She she doesn't pay much attention to the name. She called him bonito, which is the name of our dog actually and She was trying to say benetino But she's just called this guy Benito Which actually was the name of the president one of the presidents in Mexico Benito, but she said they were saying you know if you're enlightened, you know might haven't you Healed the second raise the dead and he started talking about how the course of miracles had had his problems and he went on to say that Sickness is a blessing and then lee reacted like sickness is a blessing Humbug with that you know, but then she said I have to forgive bonito Whatever we have we she's talking about but so it's but forgive the thumb jesus even has that in the course He says forgive me your illusions, which is the end you have to forgive jesus Because he seemed to be a man walking among other men and women and children at this time And that's if you see the holy if you see the christ as a body And you don't see the christ at all That's why you have to forgive forgive jesus Because there is no jesus apart from A personality So he's basically saying forgive the historical jesus. Well, how do you do that? You have to forgive history To forgive the historical jesus you have to forgive all the time. It's getting very quantum You know, he said you can't really hold on to anything specific As if it exists as if there was a jesus that existed in of himself as jesus That's blasphemy. That's That's denying the one by saying there's a part But healed Perception sees that the part and the whole are identical so instead of just In terms of say, you know, the whole is real and the parts are not but but in one sense jesus says in the course You have to see that the part and the whole are the same So it would be the eric and the christ are the same and the christ and the christ are the same the ac and the christ are the same They have to be identical there can't be a distinction Because if there's a distinction made then that's a judgment He has a whole workbook lesson where he says you you have an image and you give it a name Then you set it off by time and space you give it a coordinate in time and space You give it a name That's the whole process of separation He's describing He's just saying that you don't you don't have to keep you didn't do it wrong. You just don't have the capabilities to do that To name the nameless If the name is really the part is the whole and what makes you think you can give it a separate name and a separate coordinate in time and space and the separate meaning apart from the whole you know that's the That's what this whole thing is but that's why the miracles are involuntary. So it's like praying every day and saying show me lord What would you have me do? What would you have me say? Where would you have me go? The prayer is to to be used so that you forget That the the distinctions and the differences and get swallowed up In the whole in the wholeness of law I'm just in love And a simple way of saying is you cannot direct the miracle You know you You have to let the miracle be bestowed through you. So that's where the the humbleness comes in like oh I'm not in charge I can't direct the miracle In that sense, you can't really direct the whims So that's the that's the humbleness of it. Yeah, that's funny because uh yesterday Suzanne was like sitting here She's like, oh i'm over this i'm over that i'm over And she's like i'm just over and i'm like wow i'm over nothing I'm like I don't even know when i'm not over You know, i'm so not over that i don't even know What it is that i'm not over like what's there still that i'm not over You know, I don't like I almost like part of me wanted like desperately to say like oh i'm over You know like oh, I would laugh if I like I would like really laugh If I heard that So let's just get back to i'm not a master i'm in training I'm like a loaf of bread i'm still in the oven You know what happens when you take bread out of the oven too soon It's really gooey I've I've used that metaphor only with the pie or something that it's kind of like if you if you take Halfway it's going to taste nasty. It'd be like what is this right? So it's kind of like oh I've heard that David has lost his marbles David has lost his noodles Maybe he's half baked And that's that could be humbling it's not gonna be an insult if you if i'm half baked Right I just want to look but the context is he told me to see I'd say That's That's the beginning of a relationship when you say to your beloved I want to love and they say yes, let's love together And see the difference there. Do you accept me as I am half baked? That's how you can say I'm in the oven until I'm in the oven too And then you have But let's come to the full Big We're reinterpreting let's call the whole thing out to let's get baked together Yeah That's the story of michael because he came to came to a devotional powerful experience went back to his life And kids he went to his wife and he said I want a holy relationship So it was a powerful Retreat to come out of it, but I want a whole relationship And then the more he explained What that was to the best of his And more his wife pondered that She did not want to get baked with michael And so but that was that part of it too, you know So it's I think that's a big part of the whole relationship is you have to Want it and then You have to let the Holy Spirit like bring the symbols And almost like take you into it Like the holy relationship is a step towards the holy instant So you have to want the holy relationship And then you have to allow the holy spirit to use the symbols To really teach you so you can teach and learn it What holy relationship is and then you go in for the great raise in the holy instant Which is just You know are Linking to eternity But that's like the That's the key Even people who feel like they're supposed to be single in this life or they're supposed to be married or Pardon, you know, they have because it's all in the mind. It's not that it's something Unknown just like prophecy and There's nothing Unknown there's nothing really mysterious. It's all known. So people kind of know it intuitively But still there has to be a surrender to To that show me thing Like that that lady was the woman who paid Elvis's first on-screen kiss the God is the bigger Elvis. You know, she was On her way. Lois was on her way to starly a Hollywood starlet Earning a million dollars combined from all these different studios and this and this and this and then you know, she just Took a bit of persuasion to even have her go to that Convent farm, but then she went there and then She felt something and she was scared very scared though The mother superior told her oh no Just go make your movies But then it wouldn't go out of her mind. So she came back. But that's a whole different trajectory her life took But that would be a good example of she just took what was given What was in her heart? Like that show me, you know, it wasn't she didn't really like Decide it was more like it just It was given her and she She took the road less traveled by And that made all the difference two were two roads diverse That definitely was less traveled by Going to a working convent with animals instead of the Hollywood Stardom, you know, that's Some people would say she took the wrong turn in this world, but it was the right Turn for her Great teaching device Yeah, it's good. That was a deep Deep experience That's a good we we ended watching these classics And taking another deep dive together