 And I got to a point where I became very nihilistic, basically. And for a long time, even when I was quite young, I had these existential crises. Like, I remember when I injured my hand, I kind of looked at my hand and I was really confused at why there was something stuck inside my body and trying to figure out what that meant, you know? I was a very weird kid. It's okay. But, yeah, that kind of nihilism very much. I got to a point where I was like, you know, this is doing more to be destructive to me. And although it feels somewhat freeing.