 What is up everybody? This is Chris from the Rewired Soul where we talk about the problem but focus on the solution and if you're new to my channel, welcome. So previously I was a mental health channel. I've rebranded more towards social commentary. So if you're into that stuff, make sure you subscribe and ring that notification bell. So yeah, this video might be the dumbest thing I've ever done but I had to make it. I had to make it, all right? So I have a massive support system and something I learned a long time ago in recovery which I'm trying to do even more so now is that you gotta bounce ideas off other people and get suggestions and get advice and before I do anything I try to ask somebody like what do you think I should do, right? So this video might have some of the people in my support system, some of my YouTube mentors a little upset but I just have to do this and here's why. I'm talking about why I haven't been making videos about Trisha Paytas because when this nicocato avocado thing first popped off, ever since it first popped off I've gotten dozens and I mean dozens of tweets, DMs, emails and everything like that asking me to talk about the situation and I've replied to quite a few of them but something I hate doing, something I absolutely hate doing is answering the same question a million times, right? So for all of you who have been around for a while or all of you who are new like I feel like I just need to make some kind of public video and discuss why I haven't been making videos about Trisha Paytas. Now some of you who've been around for a while you know, you get it, right? But I want to talk about the situation that I'm in and just explain some details around this thing. So let's rewind back in time. So I made a bunch of videos about Trisha Paytas when my channel was primarily mental health and the goal of my channel was always to educate people about mental health even though I'm not a licensed professional by any means but I wanted to educate people about mental health and also what every commentary channel out there is doing is we're pointing out things that are out in the public eye and saying is this okay or is this not okay? So a primary example of this thing was I made a bunch of videos about Trisha Paytas and her relationship with Jason Nash, right? So the goal of my video was my videos was this is not an example of a healthy relationship and I took issue with the fact that their toxic relationship was being broadcast to millions of people and there's a high chance that a lot of people are saying oh this is what a healthy relationship looks like and I was coming in and I was using that as an example to say this is not what a healthy relationship looks like. Now one of the difficult parts about doing commentary in any way shape or form or just just life in general is like intentions often don't matter the result is what matters and I never I never intended on hurting Trisha Paytas all right I just saw a public figure and I was like hey let's talk about this okay and something else that I did which got me a lot of backlash was talking about her vocalizing that she has borderline personality disorder. I advocate a ton for borderline personality disorder and here's why I first learned about this form of mental illness when I was working at the Drug and Alcohol Treatment Center for a little over three years because many clients that I worked with had borderline personality disorder and once I started learning about it I started to learn more about the stigma around borderline personality disorder. There are mental health professionals who don't want to work with people with borderline personality disorder. There are a lot of myths around borderline personality disorder and everything like that. Like a lot of people just do not understand borderline personality disorder. One of the things that I talk about when it comes to BPD is the fact that most of the time from my experience and the research I've done in the books I've read is that the person's symptoms of BPD are a result of some kind of trauma or traumatic childhood right? So like I think it's awful that people stigmatize BPD so much. So I saw an opportunity to educate and increase awareness about borderline personality disorder by using trichopatitis as an example because she opened up about her borderline personality disorder which is kind of tricky because she goes back and forth between being diagnosed and not diagnosed but anyways I found that as a good way to educate people on what borderline personality disorder looks like and share what I've learned about the the illness and how to get treatment and help for it because again I'm not a licensed professional and all the videos I made discussing that I said go to a therapist dialectical behavioral therapy is the best option right? But again I never intended on hurting trichopatitis but eventually she saw my videos and she made a video, she made a few videos talking about me and all these other things and you know the the biggest one that got trashed was when she was in her car eating a turkey sandwich many of you saw like she said she like attacked me quite a bit right? Like she said oh a drug addict is a drug addict she talked about my physical appearance she talked about how you know I'm no longer with my son's mom and I live in an apartment you know and all these other things just saying all these things about me. Einaber who is another commentary channel he actually made a video about that and a few other channels made videos about that issue right? And you know I made some responses standing up for myself and you know explaining myself and everything and everything everybody was cool with it but I screwed up. I screwed up big time by DMing other people when that situation happened and saying like oh did you see trichopatitis made a video about me lol something along those lines and it was it was messed up about me because the perception of that situation I've explained it in an interview I did um with Paul Grossclose um like I screwed up because the perception of that was I was laughing at her pain and that wasn't my intention but that's how it was perceived and I've learned from it right? But that's created a snowball effect of what happened after that and a bunch of drama channels made videos about me and then there was all these other videos that came out and everything like that and this is why a lot of people like Chris just stay away just stay away from this topic you got heat and everything but anyways I ended up making an apology video I made a few apology videos but one was directed at trichopatitis and saying listen I'm sorry like I'm sorry and I ended up privating pretty much all the videos there's a few videos still up ones that I didn't think were you know those were ones that never got brought up as being controversial so out of like the dozen I made or so there was probably like I think there's like three or four that I didn't leave private that you still go check out um but anyways I apologize to her and everything like that so when I took my break from YouTube and kind of assessed my situation what I'm gonna do and everything I'm like okay don't talk about youtubers for a while by the way that's really interesting because a lot of people are like commenting like so you weren't gonna talk about youtubers anymore I have literally never said that and if you could find a clip of me saying I will never talk about youtubers again all right but anyways so I took a break from talking about youtubers when I came back to YouTube I talked about things about you know movie tv shows news and everything like that and I mentioned this in my Logan Paul video I just made the other day was like I can relate to him because I felt restricted on what I could talk about so I finally started to ease back into talking about youtubers and part of that was rebranding my channel as a commentary channel so one of the things is is that something when I was asking you guys for your advice and I want you guys to give me feedback and everything on this was the number one thing that came up was ask a person's permission before making a video on them now in my opinion that's ridiculous if you look in the commentary community if you look at the drama channels do you really think that every commentary channel or drama channel gets permission first from the person they're making a video about no they don't but I took that feedback into consideration so I have reached out to Trisha Paytas I've reached out to her a few times I've messaged her privately um on instagram saying yo hey sorry about this I've told her like you know hey saw your video about this or whatever you know um sorry that you're going through that but just the other day I actually shot her a dm saying listen because I was getting so many requests to talk about this situation I said listen I said hey Trisha um because you can see that like I see that she reads my dm so I was like yo people want me to talk about you or get on my channel all right I said so would you be okay with that would you be okay with me talking about you on my channel like without talking about anything to do with mental health because that's what I'm trying to do now do commentary without talking about the person's mental health because it seems like that's the line that gets crossed that got me into trouble so I DMed that to her and she didn't reply so I hope you guys understand the situation that I'm in where you guys want me to reach out to the youtuber like that that's what people consider ethical to reach out to the youtuber and ask their permission but what do you do when they don't respond and you have your fans your audience your followers asking you to talk about a situation like that's the position that I'm put into so because of this like when the whole nikikado avocado situation popped off like before anybody was making videos about it people were reaching out to me I don't mean to sound all hipster about that like I knew about that situation before anybody but anyways people were asking me so like full disclosure like I reached out to some other people in the community who do commentary and I'm like yo you know like I'm I'm like not off limits like Trisha pages is off limits for me like here's what's going on you might want to make a video about it right and some of them did and now more and more people are starting to do it like even like keemstar made a video about it right so like it got out there right but you know one of the things is is seeing nikikado avocado story like just my quick thoughts and opinions on it it reminded me a lot of my situation right where Trisha paid us in a live stream she started to create a narrative that I'm some obsessed stalker and she should feel in fear or danger and that's kind of a tactic that she uses and she used it on nikikado as well as like oh my god I'm in fear for my life and safety and it's like really so I've legitimately felt bad for Nick in that situation especially because he's gotten so much backlash over the years about it and Trisha paid us like I've been following the story and like people like I never have brought up she's completely neglecting the real issues that people are having with it but anyways anyways again I wanted to make this video to give you all an explanation about this so please give me feedback give me feedback like now what are your thoughts what are your thoughts for somebody in my position where you reach out you ask somebody permission they don't get back to you you have you know an audience like I'm currently at a little over 80,000 subscribers you have people requesting a video from you like what do you do where does your loyalty lie because a weird line that some people have drawn in the commentary community is like it's okay to do commentary until you hurt somebody else's feelings which I think is a weird line to draw because every commentary video is going to hurt somebody's feelings right when we have opinions on a situation it's going to hurt somebody's feelings so is it just not okay to make a video if it hurts somebody's feelings and this is something I'm going to be talking about on my podcast like not this specific subject but just like these ideas and like the way people think because like the other issue is you don't know if your video is going to hurt a person's feelings until you put that video out there you see what I mean so I think this is a bigger discussion to be had you know so I hope this video explains and gives you know like just some some thought processes I've been going through and everything like that like I've tried to change and grow as a channel I'm still working on that and everything any of you who caught my first episode of the podcast live stream last night you heard more of my thoughts about why I've rebranded this whole channel you know as like social commentary where I still talk about mental health every now and then but anyways let me know your thoughts and opinions on this like what do you think I should do like I will say this for accountability sake for all of you out there because the fear the fear that people in my support group have is like once I once I reopen that boss making a video about Trisha Paytas like I am right now I'm going to continue to make a bunch of videos about Trisha Paytas get myself into trouble and down and out and out so what I'm going to say to all of you is I'm not going to make another video about Trisha Paytas for a while regardless of what happens all right I'm going to take in all of the feedback that you guys leave down in the comments whether you like or dislike this video whatever it is videos if people make videos about this situation I'm going to take that in and that will give me a better idea on whether I should cover Trisha Paytas stories with my thoughts and opinions on it in the future so please do me a favor and provide me feedback down below because even still I know mental health is still a touchy subject but let me know your thoughts and opinions on this like you know nicocato avocado brought up that she uses her mental health as a weapon towards people I have thoughts and views about that like I've talked about Kanye West in the past Trisha Paytas is talking about going back to therapy and again no ill intent towards Trisha Paytas like I'm so glad that she's going back to therapy I saw her video about her breakup with Jason and like that's awful and I feel terrible um for her about that but like where's my responsibility lie to take that because just for example if I was making videos about Trisha Paytas I would have talked about her breakup with Jason I would have talked about her situation with the hospital and the substances and everything like that and I would have tried to turn that into a message for all of you to not be a shame to get help because a breakup can be a traumatizing experience all right and again I I never meant to hurt Trisha Paytas with my videos but I meant to use that as a gateway to help people out there who struggle with borderline personality disorder and try to advise you to get help or it was more to create awareness for everybody who has all these myths and misconceptions about borderline personality disorder all right but anyways I'm starting to ramble so that's all I got make sure you leave comments down below if you're new go ahead and subscribe hope this video cleared the air a little bit all right thanks so much for watching I'll see you next time