 hey what's up you guys welcome back to my channel if you're new here hi hello i'm lydia and today after a request on instagram if you're not following me on instagram it's link there i asked on instagram what you wanted to see and this was the first one an update so i turned 26 in a week and a few days on the 4th of december so that's happening i turned 26 i didn't think i was going to make it to 20 but i'm turning 26 i'm still at uning well i don't know i've been a bit depressed recently i wasn't going to do the break-off but that didn't help at all my anxiety has been ridiculous i've got a knee brace on in the minute if you want to see me putting that on head over to my instagram again in instagram's where i post stories i'll insert that little footage of me putting on my knee brace right now so yeah uh it took me two attempts to get it on right so it wouldn't fall down anyway the knee brace when i go when i'm going out because it only fits over leggings so my pyjamas are too wide on tuesday this week i took a mental health day meaning i didn't go into uni and i stayed i slept all through the morning till one meaning i missed lunch which is about right i was hungry as well having no money and being hungry is the worst thing i've got 85 pound on my account the minute that's got to go out on sunday 85 pound that had lasted me until my next loan my next pit payment i don't know i'm rambling because i don't have a whole lot to update on i text my care coordinator to find out when we're next meeting and he didn't answer me so i still don't know when i think i've got a feeling this next week but i don't know he didn't fucking answer me i've been listening to vinyl evanescent it's a live one but i love it in terms of my medication the only real changes my connoisseur payment night got stopped and i would keep waking up in the middle of the night but i guess i can deal with that i still wanted to fall back asleep so what am i complaining about i've just been a bit up and down i spoke to my mom the other day well yesterday and i was talking to her about my medication so is that me and my mom definitely get on better now that i've moved out but yeah everything's stable and i'm over the breakup which has been the biggest thing going on in my life i've got two dead lions one on the 5th of december one on the 8th of december i also start busy on the 8th of december so hopefully we'll get some progress going with my knee and i'm on a fluffy hoodie but i'm i'm okay and that's what i want you guys to know if you want to support the channel my patreon is linked up there on the icard and in the description down below if you want to make a one-time donation or just want to send me some money to help me out i'll link my paypal up there and is it in the script from down below if you want to buy me a birthday gift i will link my birthday wishlist please note you don't have to get me anything you don't have to donate you don't have to do any of this it's just if you want to i've also lost my glasses again but yeah if you are a new subscriber during the family request videos anyone got any video they want me to make leave in the comments down below and i will see you guys in my next video peace