 My journey in coming to the ashram in Auroville actually started with my mother. When she was in Delhi she used to see the Divine Mother in her dreams and one day she saw the mother's calendar in the Delhi branch and she found out who the mother was and then she read about the mother and she was all into it. And she decided that the right place for me would be to come to Sri Bandha Ashram and somehow she managed with little difficulties and she brought me here. When she brought me here the situation was told to us that it was not possible to be in the ashram but my mother was totally convinced that this is not possible I will definitely be here and my mother was not giving up and my photo was sent to the Divine Mother and the day before the school was supposed to open the permission came that I am admitted in the ashram school so I was put in the ashram school and the different life I only later on came to know that this was all meant to be because like living in the ashram there was no experience of missing the family or anything the whole structure was so full and alive and with new programs happening every day and like you used to go with the school in the morning and before you enter you are handed like a handmade paper with a message of the mother and share window so you start your life like this and you read a mother's message and exactly 745 everything becomes silent in the sense they put the mother's music for 5 minutes so the whole atmosphere from the moment it starts the day it's spiritually oriented and the mother's physical presence was there and because the physical mother was there there used to be a lot of activity in the ashram thousands of people coming and all the best people she would invite for the school for sports, for education so it was a very rich life and every period of the class that was whether it's maths or history or whatever used to again have 5 minutes of concentration so in this atmosphere with this availability of sports and everything the whole system was kind of charged after the sports they give you like peanuts and some ground nuts and stuff and we used to share it with the squirrels in the school and all and the experience was like so rich so I never been happy it was so full of joy so full of love natural happiness and totally being at home even though the whole life was within like few blocks so there's the ashram, there's the school, there's the sports so it's within the few blocks but it's so rich in experience and just being alive and so on so one of these days when my mother was living in Auroville so she came and she gave me this ring which has the mother's symbol on it so I was happy to have a ring like a small kid having a ring so one day my mother's friend she asked me, I don't know why but she asked me, why are you wearing a ring? are you married? so I said yes I'm married to the divine mother and I just said it spontaneously without thinking and when I said that my whole body kind of just froze and I had this descent of light and this force coming down and I had never experienced that before and I couldn't speak but I was just letting it in this was the first experience of descent that happened then gradually, gradually when you go to the ashram and all you go to the samadhi so there were all life long there were instances they were happening in 1973 the mother left her body and some of her parents were in Auroville and they said why don't you come with us so I moved to Auroville at the end of 1973 and this Auroville life was totally different there were not many people and the people who came they were welcomed or experienced in a way that was like wow like everybody is a wow we had the Auroville bakery and the biscuits and the sports and the work which was mostly matrimandir and tujrumya workshop in aspiration so the life was working come little studies the school was not very active but we used to go sometimes to Shraddhavan or Rod for Savitri so the experience was also very different but very rich it was like the joy of having new people was I've never experienced this before because everybody came for one purpose which was Auroville which allowed people to mingle in a total freedom in which in the world we have our barriers so this was a great great thing but later on in 19 in few years there were some people who wanted Auroville to be totally under them not people governed from Pondicherry so there was a split and we had to move to Pondicherry society house so the Auroville life was kind of stopped while we were in the ashram living in the ashram that also is very rich it's like you go for breakfast and it's a collective breakfast it's not like now but there were many people it was full there was a lot of people and the energy and there was all this time we didn't have these restrictions like now there is so many restrictions which is not this, not this, no children not this, not this when the mothers time we didn't know children ashram is full of allowed children they go all over they used to run around and play with children and it's like things were different because the mother would make the decision not other people so it was all for helping humanity or helping what works for the people all the time that I was in the ashram like the meditation for the darshan days never happened at 6.30 in the morning or 6 o'clock it was always 10 o'clock, 10 to 10.30 Uddhara will come he will make the bell and from breakfast time till 10 o'clock everybody is hanging around there the energy is building up of the darshan and everybody is mixing, sharing the school is full, samadhi is full people outside and people who are coming from far they can easily come because it's not like early morning so then the darshan is meditation is over by 10.30 and then again everybody going to samadhi, going here and this is so full of life, so full of things because while the mother was there there was this movement of giving all the time this flow of giving so people would come few days before the darshan they would go in lines and they would receive the ashram symbol in the handkerchief or some card or something even on darshan day the cards and this and that so sweet even on calendar day like the New Year's day everybody even the whole pannicherry may come doesn't matter everybody would get a calendar everybody would get a sweet and there would be lineups, lineups, lineups like you can't believe but that was the divine mother she was for everybody she was for the for humanity as a whole I would say and even after physically she was not there this movement of samadhi darshan and everything went on in a very high it's still there because the atmosphere is there so one of these darshan days I was sitting like people sit around the samadhi and all I was still young I was sitting and I was kind of meditating so I saw a huge sun light here like a sun so I didn't understand I was like a big sun a big power, big something so allowed it to be but I understood it could mean something so when I used to go the meditation hall then I started to go after that I started to do little meditation people go and meditate so I went to in the back there's a meditation hall and people go there so I saw all these people doing meditation from a long time so I thought they must be all great spiritual people I'm just having some small experience here so I also started to do little meditation or it would happen but then I realized that not everybody was having these experiences or having these so I said okay it doesn't matter I have to do my thing so this experience would be like the physical body would become very big very big, very big and the different taste in the feeling and sometimes this nectar would just flow here flow here through the sweetness it's a physical sweetness not eating honey but it's like a physical thing like this, like this for quite some time so in between there was arrangement made that I go to Canada for studies and work so I left to Canada and the life was different there but my real joy was being around the mother's atmosphere you know so I realized even if I had a millionaire I would not live there I would come back here for 15 years I went 6 months I worked in Canada and then 6 months I would spend that money being around the Samadhi or whatever or we were not coming that much because we were still banned and some people wanted to still behind us in the negative sense so we're still our mother was afraid that if I come here so for that we kept it out kept at a distance but as far as I was concerned we were part of Auroville and my mother somebody asked her are you a society member she said no no I'm an Aurovillean because in her heart she was always committed to Auroville and she loved the time that we spent here and it was when we were in Auroville there was not much food, not much just but we were so happy there was this mother's force there was this protection there in the ashram that energy that is behind is always there but it was so it was so magically happiness that I've seen some photos of where there was a revolt in Auroville about people with the split with the society and all and I saw the people who were against the society or whatever if I look at their face even now in this photo I saw they were all happy and smiling and I see that even now that now I don't see that those smiles I mean we have lived that we know that it's the joyous thing and it's such a grace to be part of Auroville and that energy and the flow and everything so in reality it was just how would I say it was a mother's grace pouring in and giving you all she can now it's up to us what we take over to make out of it so then later on when I was in Canada I started to have these experiences to a little stronger extent and then when I came back here I decided that because my consciousness is changing or it's shifting that I will not be able to mix in a normal way which I used to with my whatever music and this and that so I had to kind of so this time when I came they gave me the job to work at the Samadhi so that was nice because I didn't want to be in any other job or any other thing in the Samadhi the job was to put the flowers I made a Prashat plate and people come hundreds of flowers and they can take those flowers back home so this exchange started to happen more and I made it easily available to take flowers and everything so there's a lot of energy and flow and this while this was going on of me working at the Samadhi I started to feel what other people were experiencing if somebody was having an experience at the Samadhi I could pick it up I could direct the traffic in a way which would keep things smooth so all this was happening and one day there was our physical education in charge of his birthday was there so everybody goes to his birthday so this was in corner house so I had to leave my Samadhi to go to corner house that atmosphere is so strong so lovable you don't want to leave it but I said no okay I didn't so I walked to his corner house and I was walking as I was walking to his corner I saw above hundreds of beings and they were all joyous and partying and happy and everything but I realized that this those beings and the beings at the Samadhi are different type so I couldn't understand so I felt no I have to be with the Samadhi because I know all the gods and goddesses are coming and they are kind of working on each individual in their own way all this is invisible but when you are working and involved you can see this a little bit so then I saw these beings they are having a great time but they are of different type so it is not okay for me to go there now and I don't know if I remember but then I kept because I have to be so I didn't go but there is a very close friend of mine he has always been very close he always protected me things were off in the ashram so he protected me he brought me and gave me the job in the playground so I can stay in the ashram but so at these times what happened was this experience of this descent I would say started to happen every day without fail so every day this descent would come so I would be like more of the day in meditation and we used to go in the dining room for food and the meditation would continue the space of meditation would continue so this was all this was going on inside and the richness of being near the samadhi would naturally make it stronger sometimes it was so strong that in the afternoon I didn't want to go there because it would be I have to digest it so this was this experiences started to change and then I had to go back to Canada I went back to Canada the whole inner thing had totally altered so my the way my life was became like the inner and outer became more or less like this and as they became together spiritual life became automatic not through an effort not through time to sit for meditation or do be a you became about that naturally and then the visions came which was the divine plan actually I had it had come and had asked a friend of mine to make a like a drawing on coral draw 3 and he had made it for me and gave it to me in a floppy which I was going to finish it off there so I developed it I rented a computer initially I didn't want to do it because this is not my interest or feel but no it was coming strongly so I rented a computer and it was revealed to me how the back will be and how this will be so it finally got made so far I had not really read Mother Shrimada so much it was the divine plan got read made so I sent to the ashram I said you know this has come and you know like that I was sharing it with Chandrakant the trustee who was Harikant Bhai sending it made so this divine plan got made and then when this divine plan was getting made I realized that I have come on earth for this work which I didn't know it like that you know this was my work on this earth so the divine plan the making of it it gave such intense joy such intense satisfaction and the divine bliss and all that you know you can have millions you can have anything in the world nothing comes close to you so I didn't have money I had just enough money to lead and I stopped working for money because I wanted to do this work and funny thing is I stopped working for money and since that time in my life I have never been without money it has always been just enough or whatever so when you work for the divine directly divine takes care of you it's unimaginable anyway so so this divine plan was made and then I came back to this place and to explain or to understand the divine plan or improve the divine plan I started to read Shri Bindu I had read the mother before but I started to read Shri Bindu so that I can improve the divine plan in two years I kept reading and reading tried to improve the divine plan but I couldn't it was just the way it is I couldn't I couldn't improve it but the fact that I was reading Shri Bindu to improve the divine plan I I got a lot of information in it so out of that another book was formed called the Supreme Knowledge because I had seen sometimes there is a people have an opening for the mother Shri Bindu and next day something may come and they have an opening for another Guru and they may have an opening for another thing because the base in which they live that is not understood of what mother Shri Bindu is and what they are doing and the work of what they have to be doing and anybody who has understood Shri Bindu they can know that this is the highest thing available on earth because this is not just realizing your soul which is the very basic necessity so that you can see what is the truth and what is not the truth because this asuric forces are extremely clever they can use your mind and vital and make you believe anything and do anything but the soul they cannot soul is direct part of the creator so once you realize the soul you can know how to do the yoga how to go about following the divine will and making it manifest so this is like a starting point and with the Shri Bindu's yoga with the divine plan which I understood was first thing is to realize your psychic being psychic being is something which kind of evolves part of you which is behind the mind, vital and physical even though it evolves and takes each birth and this evolution is your spiritual growth and when the psychic being is the main becomes its main driving force then one cannot make mistakes or become make oneself a great yogi or oneself fall in the ego or get stuck in some plane because no matter what power there is the truth is it belongs to the divine it has come to you the psychic being's nature is always like a child and because this nature of child is of psychic nature that's what's required for Shri Bindu's yoga without the psychic you cannot do Shri Bindu's yoga because his yoga is not to realize oneself but to realize the universal consciousness which means you know the whole universe you can see the whole universe at the same time you just wherever you look you can see what's happening universal consciousness then to go into other higher realms of being which is the intuition mind and over mind which is Shri Krishna Shri Bindu had in 1910 so above the over mind there is something called super mind which is beyond time and nobody can receive that in the sense it is so powerful and so much light and everything that some people have even tried before they'll have to leave the body so Shri Bindu's yoga is to bring that super mind's power down into the universal consciousness and then into oneself into the earth and this process is to happen not only for yourself but for everybody who wants to do Shri Bindu's yoga at the final so this has to be repeated in each individual so this process is a very big job because when do people who are in the spiritual life just to realize the soul that itself is a realization or the end of the achievement so this process which is bringing the super mind down to the earth is unthinkable because the work is so big it cannot be done by any human strength or any human intelligence or any human power so that is why they have made what is called offering or surrender and they have made what is called all life is yoga in the sense you have to you have to make all life a yoga all life is yoga of nature but it becomes all life into yoga when you consciously choose to make your life yoga in which you are constantly in remembrance of the divine constantly in the offering of yourself to the divine and constantly receiving from the divine this process alone allows the barriers or the chains of the limitations that are there to break up and one starts to go up and the danger is always there because anytime you are not open or insincere in any form it gets chopped and you come down so this constant what they call the three things aspiration, rejection and surrender with aspiration is what that lifts you up and you have to reject all that is not the divine and surrender is in which you allow the divine to come in so these three moments are a constant flow of this so then one is doing these three moments as a conscious person of every moment in every moment of every moment this is the symbol not the triangle and life light and life life then force the triangle going up so this union is the history of those work so human has to aspire with all his life and force and the satchita opens up and comes and joins it and this will be the future transformation for all humanity which is called the super mind descent so Auroville ashram is a concentration of these forces working because these forces are working strongly here I was in Canada I was very sincere in my spiritual thing maybe ten times more but being here this force is invisibly around you so this force is constantly working and this what makes it Auroville the cradle for the superman it allows or gives you the space necessary for the work which has to be done for all for the evolution of man can be faster mother was insisting very strongly she wanted the matrimonter to be ready fast and one of the major reasons for that is because this force is so powerful so pure for the earthly consciousness it is not possible for it to be everywhere so easily it requires a space it requires a proper physical space also so matrimonter is one of those major places Shri Mataji also is there Shri Mataji's room is there which is charged matrimonter is for all humanity in which where when people come with this opening who are ready can easily receive this force works anywhere but there is a concentration there is a certain extra help which the matrimonter and certain high spiritual places actually provide like I was travelling in India and I was to go to a temple or something and I was not about temples but I would go and then I would feel like I am being pulled and I would go there and the priest would give me special attention and give me flowers and that I was wondering why I have been treated extra but actually it was not the priest there is a concentration there is those gods they are all there they know who is what and they take care of you and they bless you and they are the job they cannot go out of the temple and do this on the street they need a space they need a place so matrimonter is a place for the super mind people can have experiences much easier much openly so right now they have humans running it so it is not like as expressive as a divine mother giving and this and that but eventually time and time will come when a matrimonter will be open for all humanity and you don't need all this bio and all this to go in you don't go to a temple for and give all information about this and that and talk about you are going to for gods relation and god is waiting for you to come so that they can take care of you and open your way for spiritual thing this is the work not all this drama so anyway so I hope in future like they open the matrimonter for 4-5 hours just for the public to go in and come out and for people who see this many days over other times because this is used this is a place of transformation and if it's not being used and locked up and because human minds want to keep everything pocket for themselves and they want to hide everything and what the mothers has said many things which came out much anyway so that's not my business but the force is always working now if we collaborate with the divine force that is working it naturally helps us so when I started to do sadhana and yoga and this and that before I was into little self-improvement I used to buy books Dale Carnegie or whatever and and mind control and stuff so then when the spiritual touch happened the experience happened immediately everything dropped off I realized that life or the spiritual thing is so vast so big and the divine intervention is there all the time and when the divine intervention is there it is no more about the ego life or the building of being a great person or knowing or being it's about being nothing if you cannot be nothing you cannot enter the path of Shri Bandhu's yoga because Shri Bandhu's yoga is about actual experience of life it is not knowing already for understanding he has put the philosophy and everything but it's what you experience is what you experience so without experience all this is information we can talk about this and triple list and this it's all information and information has no how they call the joy and the work of the forces, the helping forces and the aspiration so even if somebody has no information we can still receive and be part of the life that is descending and all that so it is not about information information is there to assist us if you want to make use of it but not be about information so while I was reading this Shri Bandhu's books I made some notes which work I felt they were valuable so because I saw these people they were one day I was talking to him and he was Buddhist and the other day he was this and the other day he is this so and being close to availability of Shri Bandhu and the mother in the living experiencing value it is not much use so I wanted to put it in a way that you get at least knowledge of what Shri Bandhu represents so this book was formed called I'll name it the supreme knowledge so what this is is actually let's say they have about 300 subjects so whatever subject you choose let's say Shri Bandhu's translation or what is faith or any subject so it just takes one subject and it describes in Shri Bandhu's words what is that and then it describes in Shri Bandhu's lines in Savitri because it describes in Shri Bandhu's lines in Savitri the same thing and the text which is intellectual or very powerful because you read the information and anybody who is ready reading Shri Bandhu the experience it opens the doors but even if you are not ready it opens something in you and if you don't understand totally even if you read it improves your English anyway so when you read the Shri Bandhu's text and then you read the same thing in the mantra or something correlated to it in the mantra it has like a hit blow it is like a pow so when I was writing it or putting it together I had to stop in the sense I had to take a break because the experience of it was so rich and so vast that my body I was not ready for it you know it's like so the whole thing of reading Shri Bandhu and the mother also like it's basically to get to open the doors of the experience because once you know something experientially it is yours it becomes part of you information can delete it it can change and can be influenced and everything but experience so whole yoga and everything is about experience if it's not experience it doesn't exist so if you come here for the divine consciousness and if you have not experienced it you're not in the game yet you cannot be about taking a side or being about this or I'm going to follow this or I'm going to follow that no matter how good it is or how right it is if you have come here for the divine do not betray the divine and say I'm with this group or I'm with that group make yourself pure to follow the divine or if you don't make yourself pure at least be open for the divine don't sell your soul your soul is for the divine's work and you have to make the necessary offering so that this work can take place in you nobody can do it for you and you can't do it for nobody so to remain open for the divine's work you have to go within yourself find yourself and do it at least be silent for some time and find what is the divine will if you don't know what's the divine will don't think doesn't matter you keep trying the degree you make the space for silence is the degree the actual work can take place so if there is silence created that means you have stepped into what is called experiential world or the spiritual life world because this silence is alone that allows the force to come in and go in if the cup is bubbling bubbling bubbling bubbling I mean the divine has to wait and you don't know what's happening I know this and know this and know this but you're not happy happiness is the very ABC the step not talking about spiritual joys and ecstasy the happiness is the work mother says be simple be happy do your work as well as you can this is all that is asked from you the rest they will do it's too big a job for any human strength to do but give you a collaboration but when you are about planning and doing this and doing that and doing that not being about like a child open and this that spiritual world does not open you may be in charge of or you may be in charge of this and you may be in charge of this but you're a hollow man as for the spiritual joy is concerned so the basic requirement with shrib and those things is the psychic realization if you can't do it yourself let them do it but you have to make yourself available for this happening because without it there is no taste of why you are here there is no taste of the the greatness which has been brought down upon us so we're missing the thing and we all have is the information and the brochure and the you don't go to a restaurant to eat the menu you want to eat the food you want to have the real thing you don't want to just get the information be satisfied with it so Auroville has been created for this station to be accelerated and as not everybody is enlightened and is everybody so there's a mixture of all and the freedom given to all in their own way the basic requirement is that one should be about the divine and the rest the divine will take care so I end my talk here for for a while thank you